(A/N) Month 4 yayayayayay!
Eli's POV
I wake up on the couch. Again.
Clare's been sleeping with the boys for the past couple of weeks. She won't listen to me. I've tried apologizing but she just keeps saying 'its fine'. I know it's not fine because if it was she would sleep in her room. I've slept on the couch because there is no way I'm sleeping in her bed alone. She says she sleeps with the boys because they have nightmares but I know that's not true.
I get up and go upstairs to check on them. I see Clare holding Ryan close to her. Ryan looks at me and gets up. I picked him up and kissed his head. "Hey bud is Sky up?" I whispered not wanting to wake up Clare.
Ryan nods and I start walking to Skylars bed and pick him up. I go back downstairs with the boys and put them on the couch. "I'll be right back" I go back upstairs and pick up Clare gently. I take her to her bed and tuck her in like I do every morning. I kissed her forehead and went back downstairs with the boys.
"Alright guys what do you want for breakfast?" I look at them and they both scream "Pancakes!" I smile and go to the kitchen, I start cooking them breakfast.
I hear footsteps on the stairs which means Clare's up. The boys screaming must have woken her up, I flip a pancake and lower the heat and go to the living room. "Clare I'm making pancakes is that ok? Or do you want something else"
"I'll find something to eat." she doesn't even look at me, I sigh and go back to the kitchen. This is how it's been for the past month. I get the cold shoulder for yelling at her a couple of weeks ago. I finish making the pancakes and go sit with her on the couch.
"Clare.." I wraps my arms around her and she tries to get up. "No, this has to stop now."
"Eli I told you it's fine." She didn't even look at me.
"Clare its not fine you don't look at me and you sleep with the boy" she kept her face turned the other way. "Clare I miss you." she kept struggling so I just let go of her. I can't take it anymore. She doesn't want to talk to me fine. I walked over to the boys and kissed their head "Guys I'm gonna go for a while ok? But I promise I will be back."
"You going to work?" Sky looked at me.
"Yeah Sky..I'll be back soon" I went upstairs and packed my things. I took a picture of the boys and Clare at the hospital out of its frame and put a different one in and pack the hospital picture. I grabbed a piece a paper and started writing I folded it and went back downstairs. I put on my shoes and looked at Ryan. "Ryan I need you to take care of your momma while I'm gone ok?" I handed him the paper and kissed his head. "Give that to her alright? I'll see you later"
"See you later daddy!" I grabbed my stuff and went outside, put everything in my car and drove.
Clare POV I heard Ryan say goodbye to Eli. He was probably going to work so I put the boys pancakes on a plate and sat them down at the table. Ryan handed me paper.
"Daddy said to give it to you" Ryan started pouring syrup on his pancakes and I took away the bottle, put some on Skylars plate and put the bottle away. They would finishes the bottle with a plate full of syrup. I sat down with them and opened the piece of papers. It was a letter:
Dear Clare Edwards.
I hate being here Clare. You don't look at me and when you talk to me I can sense the anger in your voice. I'm sorry that I yelled at you. I wasn't mad Clare I was scared. You weren't there at the parking lot and I thought I lost you. I feel so alone in this house. I'm gonna move in with Adam. Maybe we can work something out with boys. I'll still give you half my paycheck but I can't sleep another night on that couch. I want you to sleep in your room. Ryan and Skylar need their man space. I'm gonna be gone for about a week. I need time to settle in so apologize to the boys for me.
Eli Goldsworthy.
I looked at Ryan. "When did daddy give this to you?"
"Just now"
I got up and ran outside, he was gone. He left. Eli left me again. I started crying and looked at the letter. He left and this time it was my fault. I grabbed my phone and dialed Eli.
E-"Hello?"
C-"Eli!"
E-"What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
C-"What do you mean why am I crying! Eli you left! Again."
E-"Clare..you won't even notice I'm gone. Just like how you didn't notice I was there."
C-"I was mad! You screamed at me!"
E-"And I apologized a million times for that Clare"
C-"Come back.."
E-"Clare I have to go"
C-"Baby Goldsworthy."
E-"I know, we can work something out with the kids"
I hung up and sat down on the steps, I cried into my knees and remembered the boys, I got up and went into the kitchen. Thank god Cara had shown up.
"I'm gonna go lay down.." I mumbled and wiped my face. Cara knew me and Eli weren't doing so good so she let me go without questions. I laid in bed and cried into my pillow, I looked over at the frame that had a picture of me and the boys at the hospital, it was replaced with a picture of Eli and the boys.
I covered my face cried into the pillow.
Eli's POV
I had told Adam what had been going on with me and Clare so he said I could stay with him for a while. I got my stuff and knocked on the door. Adam opened it.
"Bad morning?" he let me in and walked me to my room.
"Yeah,I tried touching her and she flipped a table" I smiled and put my stuff on the bed.
"Well you can stay here for a while but eventually you know you'll go back" he stood by the door.
"If she wants me back"
"Dude I don't think you should have left"
"She acted like I wasn't there!"
"She's pregnant." Adam walked away. I sighed and laid in bed. Maybe I had made the wrong choice. But she shouldn't have treated me so harshly. I closed the door and laid back down, I called Clare. She picked up and I heard her crying.
"Clare dont cry.." I mumbled and listened closely, she kept crying and didn't say anything."I love you Clare Edwards. Please don't cry"
"Come back.." she whimpered on the other side.
"Clare I need some time..you treat me like shit" I sighed and heard her cry harder.
"I promise I'll come back. Just not now."
"Eli you promised you would be here.."
"I will be but right now I need to be here"
"Can I visit?"
"Everyday."
She hung up. I looked at my phone and put it away. I closed my eyes and tried to get some rest. Eventually I did fall asleep.
I woke up when I felt someone getting in bed with me. "Adam go away" I turned my head away and felt arms wrap around me.
"Daddy!" I opened my eye and saw the boy hugging me. I smiled and hugged them back. "What are you guys doing here?"
"Mommy brought us" Sky said and got up and ran to the living room, I followed them and saw Adam and Clare sitting on the couch. I looked at the time. I had been asleep for 4 hours, I walked over to the couch and tapped Clare's shoulder
"Can we talk?" I mumbled and she nodded. "Adam watch the kids." he nodded and I walked with Clare to my room. I locked the door and hugged her. "Don't ever cry because of me ok?" I mumbled into her neck. She hugged me back. This was the first time had even acknowledge my existence in a month. I laid her down in my bed and held her tight. I kissed her forehead and looked at her.
"You left me.." her voice cracked and she kept her eyes closed.
"I'm really sorry Clare.." I sat up and took off her shoes. She looked at me and wiped her eyes. I took off her socks and started giving her a foot rub. "Clare, you don't notice me until I'm gone..it's like I can't do anything right for you, I'm sorry I screamed at you but I can't go back"
"But Eli.." She sat up and looked at me.
"No Clare, I need time. I promise I will be here for you and this baby but maybe moving in was a little to fast"
"You weren't saying that while you were in bed with me" Clare got up and I pulled her down, I sat her on my lap and I kisses her cheek.
"Don't get mad at me Clare" I kissed her nose and whispered. "I love you so much Clare" I kisses her softly and laid her down.
"Why are you so difficult" She muttered under her breathe.
"I'm sorry" I kissed her feet and looked at her. She closed her eyes and kept quite. I laid down next to her on my side and kissed her forehead. We laid with each other until Clare fell asleep, I got up and went into the living room. Adam trying to play video games with the boys. I sat down and pulled Sky into my lap.
"I bet I can get Sky to learn faster then you can teach Ryan." I smiled and grabbed the controller.
"You're on." Adam pulled Ryan into his lap.
We tried teaching the boys how to play for hours until they started falling asleep, we put the boys into Adams bed and we both kept playing until we got hungry.
"Want some pizza?" Adam looked at me and grabbed the phone.
"Yeah order a pie with pineapple, do you have mayo?"
"In the fridge, when did you get such a horrible taste in pizza?" He laughed and started dialing.
"Not me Clare" I got up and checked on her, she was still asleep in my bed.
Adam and I waited for the pizza while watching a movie, when the pizza got here Adam paid for all of it I grabbed Clares pizza and stuck it in the oven so it would stay warm while she slept. Adam dug right into 2 slices and poured soda into his cup. We sat on the couch and finished the movie while eating our pizza.
After the pizza I went back to bed and laid down with Clare, she snuggled into my chest and mumbled. "Eli I'm hungry.."
I smiled and got up, went into the kitchen and got her a bottle of juice and her pizza, and the mayo. I came back and sat on the bed. "Did I order the right kind?" I looked at her and Clare smiled big and grabbed a slice, she open the jar of mayo and dipped a piece of pizza in it.
(A/N)Is it ok? Blah I kinda rushed it