What Holidays Bring
Disclaimer: I've missed of few chapters of this, but as always stated...I do NOT own InuYasha.
Chapter 37: Trust
Kagome glared at Aina as she bobbed her head, humming to the song playing on the radio as she drove them to God knows where. Somewhere her 'friends' were waiting. If Kagome didn't know any better, she'd think Aina was taking her somewhere to kill her.
"Okay, you're exaggerating a bit, Kagome." she thought to herself. "She just wants to catch up with you…you can't hide out in your room forever."
Just as she thought that, her phone vibrated in her pocket, and she pulled it out. Kagome smiled when she saw that it was a text message from InuYasha. Aina frowned, watching as she started to text to who she knew to be her boyfriend. Aina reached over, taking her phone from her hands and sliding it in her pocket.
"Aina!" Kagome exclaimed. "What are you-"
"You need a life, Kagome!" she said with an innocent laugh. "Is all you're going to do while you're here is talk to your boyfriend? Live a little!"
"Aina, give me my phone back." Kagome retorted through clenched teeth.
Aina didn't move to get it, but her expression changed from that of innocence to concern.
"You know, I don't really know why you're here, but I can tell it's because something bad happened in Tokyo. I just want you to have a good time, and relax while you're here. Please? I'm worried about you, Kagome. That's all." Aina said softly, glancing over at her.
Kagome felt a bit guilty; all she'd done was blow Aina off, and talk to InuYasha. She sighed,
"Okay. You have my full attention. Can I tell him I'll talk to him later, though, just so he doesn't freak out and fly down here?"
"Sure, sure." Aina said. "Here."
Kagome took her cell phone from Aina's hands, and then flipped it open. She pulled up the text she'd been half way through and back spaced it all before starting a new message:
Hey, Yash. I promise I'll talk to you tonight, but I'm with a friend right now and I don't want to be rude so I'll talk to you tonight. Promise!
Kagome was about to hand it back to her, but he'd replied with a few seconds. Aina laughed at this, and Kagome blushed.
"Maybe we are kinda obsessed with each other…"
Kagome leaned back again, opening the message and reading it:
Guy or girl?
She rolled her eyes:
Why does it matter? Don't you trust me?
He replied:
Just answer the question.
Kagome frowned:
You answer mine first! I'm not Kikyo, InuYasha.
"Something wrong?" Aina asked, eyeing Kagome's face curiously.
Kagome ignored her, waiting for InuYasha's response. Instead of a text message, an incoming call from InuYasha appeared on her screen. Kagome sighed, and pressed talk and put the phone to her ear.
"I never said you were, in any shape or form, Kikyo." InuYasha said before she could even open her mouth to say 'hello'.
"I know you didn't, InuYasha, but you shouldn't have asked me." Kagome retorted. "Even if I am with a guy friend, you're supposed to trust me. Do you?"
He sighed heavily, "Of course I do, Kagome. Call it…possessiveness. It had nothing to do with trust."
"I know you're possessive." she said with a slight shrug of her shoulders. "But I wouldn't hang out with anyone that'd want to hurt me."
"Well, I figured that much, Kagome." InuYasha said with a sarcastic tone. "The question is rather or not the guy likes you."
Kagome rolled her eyes again, "So what if they do? I'm not going to pursue it. Which is where trust comes in again."
"They?" he repeated. "They?"
Kagome replied, "InuYasha, would you calm down! I'm with a friend who's a girl, so you don't have to worry your dog boy of a head off about any guy showing interest in me, because God forbid that happen."
"Good." Was all he said.
Kagome gritted her teeth, "Goodbye, InuYasha."
She hung up the phone before he could say anything else, and dropped her phone quite forcefully into the cup holder between she and Aina. Aina looked at Kagome with a sort of shocked expression, and she furrowed her eyebrows,
"What?"
"Dog boy?" she repeated. "He's…a dog demon?"
Kagome nodded, "Well, half dog demon. His mother is human."
"I see." Aina said, keeping her attention on the road. "Everything all right?"
"He's just being an over possessive jerk today." Kagome said with a shake of her head. "An over possessive jerk with trust issues…"
Aina stared at Kagome in her peripheral vision while they were at a stop light. A small grin graced her lips,
"Trust issues, huh?"
With Kita
Since Miroku and Sango had arrived, Sesshomaru had been hiding out in Yukio's room. Kita wasn't going to waste her energy and go after him, because once Yukio woke up..well…
As predicted, not half an hour after Sesshomaru went in Yukio's room, Yukio woke up wailing. Everyone had been conversing until they heard him crying. Sango looked at Kita, a sort of desperation in her eyes,
"Awww. He sounds so upset. I haven't seen him in forever. Can't I-"
"Oh no you don't." Kita said with an evil grin on her face. "Maybe in a while, but a lesson needs to be learned at the moment."
Sango pouted, but sighed and nodded, "Fine. Fine."
One minute passed of Yukio crying…
Five minutes….
Seven minutes…..
"Uh…do you want me to go help him?" Bankotsu asked, a look of amusement on his face as he looked down the hall.
"Yukio's calling you dad. Somehow I doubt Sesshomaru wants you in there." Miroku said, looking at him as if he were some sort of idiot.
Kita smiled, "Just wait. Crying is not going to hurt him."
As minutes continued to pass, Kita started frowning, and eventually Yukio stopped crying.
"Hm…what were you expecting exactly?" Sango asked, biting her bottom lip and trying not to laugh.
Kita glared, "Oh, shut up."
"You shut up." she said, laughing now when Kita growled.
Kita got up, crossed her arms, and went down the hall. Once at Yukio's door, she opened it and stepped in. Sesshomaru was placing a nicely folded up soiled diaper into the diaper dekor. Yukio already had a fresh diaper on (correctly at that), and was sucking on his fingers happily with drying tears on his face. Sesshomaru looked at her,
"Problem?"
"MAA!" Yukio exclaimed, outstretching his arms toward her, and looking at Kita expectantly.
Kita ignored him, and walked over to Yukio. She smiled down at him,
"Good morning, baby."
Kita wiped the tears from his face, then picked him up and kissed his forehead.
"If you keep babying him, he's going to grow up to be…" Sesshomaru cocked his head to the side slightly. "…Kagome."
Kita rolled her eyes, then turned toward him, "I can baby him all I want, because…him, he's a baby!"
"Yukio's a full blooded dog demon. His growth rate, mentally and physically, are a lot faster than that of a human. What two month old human infant do you know can identify their parents already?" he asked.
She walked up to him, "Yukio's a full blooded cat slash dog demon, and regardless…he still has the mentality of a baby. Maybe not a two months mentality, but a baby's either way. So back off."
"Yukio's more dog than cat."
"But he still has both dog and cat in him." she retorted. "Acknowledge it."
Sesshomaru gave a sigh. Yukio looked between the two of them curiously, then looked at Sesshomaru and smiled. He reached his arms out, wiggling in Kita's arms. Kita blinked at him,
"Is he…starting to remember him?"
Sesshomaru stepped closer to Kita, taking Yukio into his arms, then walking over to the chair in the room and sat down. Kita frowned, but didn't say anything. She did stare at him, though, as he held their son. Yukio lied his head on Sesshomaru's chest, playing with his fingers and examining his sharp claws curiously. Sesshomaru looked at Kita with a slight raise of the eyebrow. She crossed her arms,
"Back to our conversation from earlier. Was I a competition?"
"Hoshi." Sesshomaru said, rubbing his forehead in irritation. "If I haven't told 'no' at this point, what do you think the answer is? Yes. You were a competition. Just like those other girls."
He said all of this so bluntly, Kita's face lit up like a Christmas tree. She opened her mouth to speak, but he beat her to it,
"No, Kagura wasn't a competition."
Kita just gaped at him before stalking over to the door and swinging it open so fast, it almost ripped off the hinges.
"Sango!" Kita yelled, her face turning from a light tint of pink, to a full on red.
After a few seconds, Sango was at the door; she looked at Kita's face with wide eyes,
"What's wrong?"
"Yukio. Can you take him to eat his breakfast?" Kita asked, trying to sound as calm as possible.
Sango blinked, but nodded and then walked over to where Sesshomaru was sitting. She glared at him, and then smiled at Yukio and laughed when he saw her, clearly remembering who she was,
"You've gotten so big! C'mere, you!"
She took him into her arms, bouncing him on her hip as she turned and left the room. When Sango was far enough down the hall, Kita slammed the door closed, then turned toward Sesshomaru.
"When?" Kita asked. "When did I become a competition?"
Sesshomaru replied, his face showing he didn't give a damn about how she felt at this point. If she wanted the answers so badly, then he was going to give them to her.
"The day you followed me to the cliff. Did you think I honestly paid much attention to you when you were stalking me beforehand? I only took interest in you enough to find out who you were, and why you were following me. Upon finding the answers, I didn't pursue anymore information about you." he replied. "I didn't realize who you were at first since it'd been a long time since I'd looked you up…that day you followed me to the cliff."
Hearing this, Kita thought back to that day:
"You're short." He said, grabbing her by the chin.
"Now that's just plain harsh."
"Is it just the fact I'm an interesting person or more of that you have a crush on me."
She stammered, "P-psh! Right. That's so it."
"It is, isn't it?" He smirked.
Kita blushed, thinking, "Damn it! I can't think of any combats. This isn't fair! He's taking advantage of his good looks."
"Don't have anything to say now?"
She coughed, pushing his hand away and started to leave, "Ha ha. Something like that. It's getting late, I better go home."
Sesshomaru grabbed her by the back of her collar.
"Not so fast. You annoyed the hell out of me, so it's my turn."
Kita's eyes widened but she looked elsewhere, "Seriously. My curfew is like in five minutes."
"It's 4:30." He replied.
"How would you know that…." Kita trailed off as he took her wrist and showed her, her watch. "Ha, ha! My parents are really strict."
He shook his head, "No, they're not. They're actually really laid back people."
"Say what?"
Sesshomaru grinned, "You didn't think I was going to let you be around my soon-to-be mate not knowing what your business was following me."
"Whatever." She frowned. "You don't even know my name."
He laughed, which was deep and creep but also very sexy. Kita's eyes widened.
"You're Kitahoshi Amori, fifteen. Lives a couple blocks from me. You're an A student which is quite surprised since you act so stupid."
Her eyes were the size and plates.
Sesshomaru walked around her, "To make it scarier for you, I even know your time of the month."
Her mouth fell open in shock.
"Should I continue or would you like to go home and do your usual? Drink at least five cups of coffee and start dancing randomly."
She swirled around, "And you call ME the stalker!? You're seriously starting to creep me out!"
"Creep you out? How so?"
"You know what you're doing!"
"What am I doing?"
"THAT!"
Sesshomaru raised an eyebrow, "Speaking?"
"Stop screwing with me!"
"Oh, but I thought you were interested in doing that with me."
Kita growled. The smugness in his voice didn't change,
"Am I annoying you?"
She got in her fighting position, "Walk away now and I won't kill you."
"I'm terrified. I'm going to get mauled by the world's smallest midget."
Kita eyes were complete slits now, "Are you picking on my height!?"
"Take your best shot, wench." He said.
She started throwing punches blindly, but he dodged every single one. Kita stopped, looked down, and then grinned. She kicked him hard in the shin. Sesshomaru growled, cursing then rubbing his knee. She grabbed him by the hair then pulled him eye-level,
"Anything else to say?"
He glared. Kita grinned. Sesshomaru pulled her hands from his hair then stood completely upward,
"You are different from a lot of girls I know."
"Manwhore." She said, frowning.
Sesshomaru replied, "I am not a manwhore."
"Whatever you say."
He shook his head, turning and began to walk away. The sky was beginning to rumble. A storm was coming. Sesshomaru stopped for a second, looking up,
"Tomorrow. Do not speak of this to anyone or speak to me."
"What? Don't want your reputation ruined? I thought someone like you wouldn't care what others thought."
"No, but those people may have parents that are linked to my father's company. So I don't want to drop down to your standard." He replied.
Kita looked down, "Well fine."
Sesshomaru glanced back at her before walking off again. What he said next surprised her,
"Meet me here tomorrow. After school."
Kita watched him leave in shock, but after a minute, she couldn't help but blush and smile.
"That smile hadn't been a 'smile' smile. It'd been a 'look of realization'/'I need to charm/humor her' smile. Him grabbing my chin, and looking at me hadn't been him just being humorous. He'd been studying me, and trying to 'pinpoint' who I was." Kita thought, and then began to shake in rage at this point.
"I didn't realize it was you until you near plummeted to your death. It came to me quickly; you were that reckless girl seeming to always get into pointless fights with people. Not very popular, average, and my 'LS', right?"
He was referring to the whole 'SLS (Sesshomaru's Little Stalker) unit' nickname she'd earned. Well…he might as well have said 'my bitch'. It sure as hell had sounded that way. Kita wanted to ask:
"When did you even start loving me?"
"Do you love me at all?"
"Am I just a prize you decided to stick with because I 'intrigued' you?"
She didn't, though, because her pride had healed too much over the time he'd been gone to ask him about his supposed love toward her…again. Sesshomaru got to his feet, beginning to walk toward her, "It wasn't serious to me for a while. Not until your senior year."
Kita was at a loss for words. They'd been together since the end of her freshman year, and he was a graduating senior. So…he hadn't fallen in love with her until his junior year in college. If he'd fallen in love with her at all…
She had known he hadn't really felt anything for her for a while, but she thought he had once they'd started courting her sophomore year. In human terms, meaning having sex and…all in which led up to that. Except, of course, the biting and marking which was the demon way for claiming your mate. It had been the beginning process of their mating, and she'd figured he'd loved her since he was making her his permanent mate. They'd become official mates in the middle of her sophomore year, so she'd thought…
Kita asked, furious now, "So what was I to you my sophomore when you started having sex with me, Sesshomaru? Or my junior year when you continued to do so? Just what was I to you?"
Sesshomaru just looked at her for a second before speaking, "Why does the past matter, Kita?"
Within a blink of an eye, Kita's hand slammed across Sesshomaru's cheek, and made him turn his head slightly to the side in which she'd hit it. Three claw marks appeared on his cheek, and blood began to stream slowly down the side of his face. Kita's eyes were darkening now. She growled,
"The past has EVERYTHING to do with our current lives right now, Sesshomaru! If the past didn't matter, you would not have cheated, or disappeared, nor would we even be having this conversation! Now answer the damn question!"
Sesshomaru's eyes reddened slightly, and he narrowed his eyes down at her but simply wiped the blood from his face with the back of his hand.
"You were mine." Sesshomaru answered. "My possession. A naïve girl who would do anything for me if I so much as gave a shadow of a smile for her. No, I did not love you then. I was 'fond' of you, and that was all. I did come to love you, which is why I don't know why it should matter at this point and time. Now, there's your truth and explanation, Kita. Are you happy?"
Kita's face paled, hearing him say all of this…it felt like she was being stabbed in the heart over and over…as every word left his mouth. When he finished talking…it just seemed to repeat itself. At first very loud, then an echo…like a broken record in her head.
"Sesshomaru," Kita's voice betrayed her, and cracked.
The redness disappeared from his eyes.
"Kita, you know I was not the same person then. I was colder."
"No, you're colder now." Kita backed away from him, looking about the room as if she were looking for something. "You were a lot more open to me then, but now...you can't even tell me you love me, or kiss me unless I'm forcing you."
Eventually, she looked at him again,
"T-that was my virginity, Sesshomaru. I…I trusted you with my innocence! And it meant nothing to you! It was just another lay for you…"
"Kita, that's not…." he trailed of as he looked at her. "There's no use in lying to you at this point. You wanted the truth, Kita…and I'm telling you it."
"You bastard." Kita said hoarsely as she looked at him with a sort of disbelief and confusion on her face; she didn't know this man in front of her at all. "You bastard…."
Sesshomaru took a step toward her, but she turned and walked out of the room. He smelt the infuriating scent of salt in the air and knew she was on the verge of tears. Sesshomaru looked down at the floor, and clenched his hands into fist.
Instead of going back to join the others, Kita went out the back door and nearly collapsed as she sat on the stairs. She ran her fingers through her hair, looking out over the back yard, and blinking as much as possible to stop the flooding of her eyes. They wouldn't stop though, and eventually she just gave in. Kita hugged her legs to her chest and began silently crying into her knees.
With InuYasha
InuYasha had gone back to sleep at his place another two hours before waking up again, and getting up to take a shower. He should go into work, but he honestly didn't feel like it. So, once he was out of the shower and dressed, he headed out with the intention of going to Kita's house. On his way there, though, InuYasha stopped by the local kid toy store to pick up a toy for his nephew. He was sure the kid, more than ever, needed a distraction from his crazy parents.
On his way in, though, InuYasha caught sight of a person, female, just as she was turning the corner. It wasn't just any girl, though. She was petite, and had mid-back length jet black hair. From behind, she'd looked like Kagome, or…
InuYasha forgot what he was currently doing, and followed the girl he'd seen. When he turned the corner, he met grey eyes, and InuYasha stopped dead in his tracks.
"Kikyo…" he whispered out.
A small smile came to her lips, "InuYasha."
InuYasha clenched his fist at his sides, then walked toward her,
"I've been looking for you."
"And I you." she said, meeting him half way.
When they finally came to stop in front of each other, Kikyo looked InuYasha over,
"You haven't changed at all."
There was a sort of bitterness in her voice, and he looked her up and down. There was something different about her, but he couldn't figure out what exactly. Kikyo's hair was still thick, black and long as he'd remembered it. Her skin was as pale as the moon, and her eyes as grey as storm clouds. To put it all in one thought, she was beautiful…just as he'd remembered her. There was something, though…
She looked very tired, and despite the amount of make up she used, he could still see the dark bags under her eyes. InuYasha frowned, asking,
"Where have you been?"
"Not under your nose, really." she said in an amused way.
He growled, "All the stuff you've done, Kikyo. You tried to kill my parents! Why are you going this far?"
"Because you were mine, InuYasha, and you just blew me off!" she retorted. "I know how messed up I am, and so do you. You know what kind of past I have, and you left me for someone whose baggage was slightly more bearable. Someone with 'more personality', even. You betrayed me. So…to be cliché, if I can't have you, then no one can."
"Kikyo, the past is the past and me knowing it made no difference to my decision. Yes, I could have done it a lot better, but lets be honest. You wouldn't hear it. I know there's a better man out there for you, but I'm not him. If you're not going to listen to reason, and you decide to pursue hurting my family, then I promise you I will stop you. Even if that means I have to stop you myself."
"Oh. You're threatening me, now?" she laughed, then stepped closer to him and took his hand.
InuYasha stiffened, and prepared for whatever she was planning to do, but instead of attacking him with miko powers like he expected, she pressed his hand firmly against her stomach. The shock of what he felt made him freeze in his place. Kikyo slipped her hand behind InuYasha's neck, and pulled his head down. She captured his lips into a deep and hungry kiss. A shock went through him, and he didn't know how to describe it.
InuYasha knew it wasn't from the shock he was feeling from the baby bump he felt on her stomach, because this…this shot of energy that went through him hurt. It was like he'd just been stabbed by a needle or something. His body slowly began to relax, and before he knew what he was doing, InuYasha was pulling her close to him and kissing her back. Kikyo grinned against his lips, and continued to kiss him. After a while, she pulled away and began to kiss down his neck. He winced when he felt her teeth sink into his neck enough to draw blood. InuYasha felt a rush of heat go through him, but then it began to fade and he pushed her away. He took several steps back, and touched his neck. InuYasha looked at his hand, expecting to see blood, but there was nothing there. He pressed at the spot she'd bit him, and it was only a bit sore. She'd given him a love bite. InuYasha scowled at her,
"What the hell do you think you're doing!? What kind of witchcraft shit did you just pull on me!?"
"Oh, so it's MY fault you kissed me back now?" Kikyo asked, glaring daggers at him. "The nerve of you, InuYasha! I didn't do anything, but kiss you and you kissed me back. Don't tell me you didn't feel that…that spark! We still belong together!"
"No, Kikyo, no!" he yelled, backing away from her as she tried to come closer to him.
Her eyes filled with tears, and the weird thing was…they were true tears. InuYasha knew Kikyo's fake tears, and never before did she look this way.
"But I do love you, InuYasha! Why can't you love me back!?" she yelled, tears falling down her cheek. "Are you going to ignore the fact that we're having a child together? Or are you going to ignore him, or her too? Pretend it isn't yours so you can start your clean slate of a life!?"
"You're…you're…"
"Pregnant!" she yelled, rolling her eyes then wiping her face in irritation. "We've established that already, InuYasha."
"You're lying." he said, shaking his head in disbelief as he stared at her stomach with wide eyes.
She shook her head, then walked up to him. Kikyo took his hand again, and pressed it against her stomach,
"Look me in the eyes, InuYasha. I'm not lying to you. When Kagome started working for us, you and I both know how much we seemed to go at it. You tried to block thoughts of her out, and I wouldn't be surprised if you imagined I was her, or…you 'tried' to get over your feelings for me when you knew your friends and family were right about me. Who else's could it be?"
InuYasha ripped himself from her arms angrily, "You're lying."
"Did you not just hear what I said?" she asked just as angrily. "Sniff my scent if you need to, InuYasha! The pups scent is yours!"
InuYasha knew he could have long ago done that, but he didn't want to. Seeing how pale he was, Kikyo grinned as she thought back to the day she'd planned all of this. Just moments after Naraku told her what she needed to do:
"Finally. We're moving along." Kikyo said to him, standing. "Is there anything that I can do?"
"Oh...believe me. I have plans for you, Kikyo." Naraku said with a grin as she walked up to him.
He slid his arm around her waist, pulling her close to him. Naraku dipped his head down, giving her a kiss before kissing down to her neck, and stopping at her ear, whispering,
"Earn InuYasha's trust again."
His first sentence had her intrigued, and as he continued...all Kikyo could think was,
"He's going to pay. Oh, he's going to pay soon..."
"You're genius." Kikyo whispered back, shivering when he continued to kiss down her neck, but her smile fell into a frown when she felt him slide his hand over her stomach.
She forced her smile back to her face, then pulled away, "I'll go soon, and he won't know what hit him."
"Good." Naraku said, dropping his hand to his side. "Don't disappoint me, Kikyo."
"I won't." she said, smiling as he walked out of the room.
When he was gone, Kikyo's smile fell and she glared at the door. She walked to the bathroom, and softly closed the door. Kikyo looked at her slight plump of a stomach, and glared at it. She wanted to accidentally 'fall', get stabbed by a knife, or shot even. Anything to get this bastard child out of her, but she knew Naraku would not allow it. Even when she went out to commence their plan, Kikyo knew she'd be watched by some of Naraku's minions.
"I have to do something. It shouldn't be his child inside me. It isn't fair." Kikyo thought, clenching at her hair in frustration, but then…it came to her.
She repeated to herself, softly, "It shouldn't be his child inside me…"
A grin; evil, cold, and psychotic even graced her lips as a plan began to form in her head. More than the plan given to her by Naraku. More than anyone would expect of her. Kikyo placed her hand on her stomach, then softly began to laugh to herself.
Kikyo came to, and blinked at InuYasha. She watched as he continued to stare at her stomach.
"Go on, InuYasha. Smell me." Kikyo said.
He clenched his hands into fist, looking into her eyes and studying her before approaching her. Kikyo pulled her hair to one side, and looked up at him. He leaned forward slightly, and took in her scent. It hit him hard. His own scent, mingled with hers, and it all came from her womb. Kikyo hadn't been lying. It really was his, but…how had he not seen this before?
She hadn't shown herself, and sent other people to do her dirty work. Could that have been why?
"No…no…this can't be happening." he thought as he stumbled back slightly.
Kikyo grinned, then walked up toward him, "Are you still going to kill me, InuYasha? Kill your own child in the process? I won't stop…so long as you stay with her, I won't stop InuYasha, and there's nothing you can do to stop me. Not if you want this child to be born into the world safely."
"Don't do this, Kikyo." he said softly, looking into her eyes. "Why can't you just move on…? Don't do this."
Despite the pleas that came from his mouth, InuYasha sounded defeated, and tired. She walked up to him, and wrapped her arms around his neck, pressing her stomach against his.
"Because I don't want to." she said, sliding one of her hands to his cheek and caressing it gently. "Until this baby's born, you're mine, and only mine."
InuYasha stared straight ahead. He felt disgusted, and guilty. What was he going to tell Kagome? It still wasn't safe for her to come back, but…while Kikyo was in this condition…there was nothing he could do, and she was going to take great advantage of that.
"What am I going to do…?" he thought to himself.