Ryland's Pov

Cambry is in my house and I was being surprisingly nice without Kayla having to yell at me, she wasn't bitchy and evil like she normally was she was actually sweet and down to earth so much that I didn't think she was actually Cambry, but then again I haven't really seen her off drugs well other then when she worked for us on tour but I didn't really see her all that much. "So Max is taking Kai today?" Kayla asked her, I looked over to Kai who was sitting on Harlan's lap watching YouTube fail videos, Kai seemed to really like Harlan he followed him around like a little puppy I thought he'd get annoyed but he really loves the little fella. Harlan even because accustomed to the way Kai talked and became his little translator with whatever he said even if we could make out the words.

"Oh he faw." Kai said giggling.

"Yeah Max is taking him." She said softly like she wasn't ready for today.

"Do I need to give you a pep talk?" Kayla asked and Cambry sighed shrugging.

"I don't need a pep talk i'm just worried about Kai he doesn't understand what's going on and I don't want him to be scared."

"How long is Max taking him for?" I asked.

"He said for like four hours I think he doesn't want to take him for to long because he doesn't really know what he's doing yet so he's scared to take him for to long."

"So like to kind of get to know him and get Kai use to Max being around."

"Yeah pretty much." She said and her phone chimed. "Shit…" She said picking up a backpack.

"Everything okay?"

"Does Max live far from here?"

"It's like a ten minute drive."

"Great…" She said putting down her plate of waffles. "Kai come here I need to get your nutrition setup because daddy is coming to pick you up."

"I can do it." I said she looked at me confused.

"He has a feeding tube I don't think-"

"When my mom was diagnosed with cancer she had a feeding tube and I did it for her so if you want to finish eating I can do it for you."

"Oh…. I didn't know your mom had cancer, i'm so sorry." I hadn't really ever saw her sensitive and meaningful.

"It was a really rough battle but my mom was strong, but if you want I can do it for you."

"Kai do you want Ryland to help you?"

"Oh!" He said clapping his hands and nodding.

"This is his infusion backpack but it works for both so the line runs down this part." She said pointing to a hole in the backpack it was actually really cool that way he wasn't stuck to a pole kind of like my mom was.

"Alright little man, let's get this show on the road," I said Kai moved from Harlan's lap and lifted his shirt up, Harlan was watching with such interest.

"Daddy what is that?" Harlan asked studying it.

"It's a feeding tube buddy."

"What's a feeding tube?" He asked.

"Kai has a bad tummy," Cambry said with a soft smile. "So he needs that." Kayla pulled out a thing of his formula and handed it to me. "And it goes into his tummy so that he stays nice and healthy because he can't really get all the nutrition he needs from food."

"Because he has a bad tummy?"

"Yeah…."

"Oh." Was all Harlan had to stay.

Max called to tell her that he was here she asked Kayla to take him outside but Sadie was in the car and Kayla wasn't ready to see her sister so I took Kai out while Cambry yelled at Kayla about being the bigger person. "Hey…." Max said he was leaning against his car.

"Hi." Kai said looking at the door. "Wha Ar?" Oh shit the dog….

"You forgot some stuff…" Cambry said and Arlo came out and straight to Kai, she took a deep breath before looking at Max. "This is his medication which he takes after his formula is all gone."

"How do I know when that is?"

"It will beep really loudly."

"And what do I do?"

"Have you not started reading all the packets and stuff I gave you."

"I um… I have." Sadie said softly.

"Well at least one of you did."

"We are starting a class on Friday on feeding tube and port care so I should be a pro next time I see him or you know kinda good at it."

"His pump is on slow today because he wasn't feeling good last nigh and threw up so it shouldn't be done for a few hours but if you don't know what to do just bring him back."

"And this is all I have to do after? Just give him his medication?"

"Yeah, oh and his emergency medication is in Arlo's pack on the little bag on the side."

"Emergency medication?"

"He hasn't needed it in months but it's still good to have close to him."

"Okay…" Max said.

"And nothing but water."

"Not even juice?" Max asked with an eyebrow raised.

"He needs the water for hydration, the infusions help with that but when it's not an infusion day usually he only drinks water and maybe something other than water with dinner." Cambry said.

"His body has a hard time absorbing water which is why he needs to constantly drink." Sadie said Cambry's eyes shifted towards her.

"Wow, you actually did read everything."

"Well not everything yet getting there though."

"Thank you."

"You ready to go?" Max asked Kai who nodded and held his hand out for Cambry.

"Go?" He said and Cambry shook her head.

"You are gonna go spend the day with your daddy." Kai looked at Max and then Cambry.

I didn't really catch what he said the words were fast and inaudible for me to understand. "No baby mommy is gonna stay here and you are gonna with Max."

"Haw."

"No baby Harlan isn't going."

"Oh." He said with little tears in his eyes.

"Here." Cambry handed him over to Max. "Arlo in the car." He jumped into the car and sat in between the two car seats.

"Hey, you don't gotta cry Kai you'll see her in a few hours okay?"

"Ota." He said softly.

"Do I have everything?"

"Yeah you do and i'm letting you know in advance that if you are ever going to like the zoo or something that requires walking he'd need his wheelchair so just let me know in advance if you think you'd need something."

"Right, thanks."

"Oh and uh Arlo usually gets Kai's water and stuff so just put like a rope or something on the fridge so he can open it and the water needs to be on the side like on the shelf and it has to stay there because that's where he's trained to get it from he will probably be confused just because he doesn't know the way around the house right now."

"Okay thanks."

"Yeah…"

Max's Pov

Kai was having trouble in the car seat because of his backpack but I didn't want to take it off because there was a tube running from the backpack all the way down into his shirt so I didn't want to take it off so he was uncomfortable the entire time whining, but I was amazed to see Arlo put his head on Kai's lap to calm him down. I wish the dog could calm me down because I was freaking out. "You alright?" Sadie asked.

"I think so, what if DJ and Rosie don't like him? Or they think I will treat them differently because of Kai."

"Max they are four and two."

"But-"

"You act like they will remember this when they are older."

"My cousin Logan remembers things from like when he was three."

"Well he's a genius."

"Are you calling our children dumb?" I asked jokingly.

"No of course not."

"I was just joking baby." I said she looked at Kai who had calmed down a little bit I don't know if he was whining because he was uncomfortable or because he missed Cambry. "I just want everyone to get along and for everything to be okay."

"Even if everyone doesn't get along today it doesn't mean it will always be like this."

"I know…" I said softly. "I'm sorry you didn't get a chance to talk to Kayla." I knew she wanted to apologize for everything but Kayla wasn't making it easy on her.

"I'm trying to give her time but it sucks I really miss my sister."

"I think she just needs some time to be pissed and then she will get over it and we can all be happy again."

"I hope so…."

When we got home Sadie's friend left she was watching the kids for us while we picked up Kai. "Mommy!" DJ yelled and ran to her Kai was standing next to Arlo holding his harness. "Oh…" He said when he noticed Kai. "Hi." He said coming up to Kai.

"Can you say hi?" I asked.

"Hi."

"What's your name?"

"K-"

"What?" DJ looked up at Sadie. "Mommy what's his name?"

"His name is Kaiser but everyone calls him Kai."

"My names DJ." He said and his little eyes lit up at the sight of Arlo. "A puppy!"

"DJ no." Sadie said stopping him from going to play with Arlo.

"Why can't I play with him?"

"Because he-"

"Ta off." Kai said pointing to the dog vest that said not to touch him.

I took Arlo's vest off and suddenly he started running around and grabbed one of Rosie's stuffed animals. "Oh Rosie going be mad…." DJ said but it didn't sound like he really cared. "Is he my friend?" DJ asked I didn't know how to say that he was actually my son so I just nodded.

"If you want him to be your friend then yeah…"

"Cool." DJ said he was more talkative lately.

Kai was looking around the house and DJ was trying to get him to go off and play. "Daddy he doesn't want to play with me."

"Daddy." Kai said clearly it was probably the first clear word i've ever heard him say, he's never said it before so it was pulling at my heart I just wanted to pick him up and squeeze him. Cambry had explained to him that I was his dad kind of how she was his mom of course he didn't understand it but that was the good thing that he was so young.

"No…." DJ said crossing his arms. "He's not your daddy." This could go bad, I looked at Sadie helplessly.

"Actually baby boy… Max is Kai's daddy too."

"Is he my brother?" DJ asked titling his head in an adorable way.

"Yeah player he is." I said and DJ jumped up and down.

"That's so cool." He said and grabbed onto Kai trying to pull him towards what Sadie called the kids playroom. "Come play with me." DJ said Kai nodded following him and even though Arlo didn't have his vest on he still followed Kai.

Sadie's Pov

It wasn't so bad I know Max was still freaking out but I eventually got him to sit down with me on the couch but he kept looking into the room to see DJ and Kai. "Everything is okay Max." I said and he sighed.

"I know… I'm just-"

"Mommy…." Rosie came to us rubbing her eyes and yawning.

"Morning princess." Max said picking her up and kissing her head. "Sleep good?"

"Yep."

"No!" DJ yelled before either of us could even reach he came running out with his little arms crossed. "Mommy! Kai is being bad." Kai followed him out.

"What happened?"

"He called you Adie."

"Okay…." I said confused.

"That's rude you are mommy not Aide."

"No baby, I'm not Kai's mommy."

"Huh?" He said clearly confused I looked at Max helplessly. I know Cambry did her best to explain to Kai that Max was his dad and that my name was Sadie but he didn't really understand what that meant.

"So you know how you have a mommy?" Max said and DJ nodded and pointed at me.

"She's my mommy." He said and Max nodded.

"Well Kai has a different mommy, kinda like Kayla is Harlan's mommy."

"Oh." DJ said and looked at Kai. "But he still brother?"

"Yeah because Max is his daddy."

"Okay." DJ said, I guess that's the good thing about kids is they don't really read into things that much.

"I thirsty." Rosie said.

"Me too!" DJ said. "Are you thirsty Kai?"

"Ar!" He said and Arlo went to him and sat beside him. "Ater." He said and the dog looked around. "Ater." He said again his little eyebrows knitted together and a small crooked frown formed and it melted my heart because Max does the same exact thing.

"What's he doing?" DJ whispered.

"Ater." Kai said again to Arlo but the poor pup just looked around the room.

"I can get it for you." I said to Kai who shook his head and pointed at Arlo.

"He go it." He said and patted the dog's head. "In ich lin." He said and looked around. "We?" He asked and I looked at Max who shrugged.

"What do you want buddy?" Max asked Rosie was sitting on his lap watching Kai.

"Ich lin."

"I don't know what that means…." Max said and Kai who was clearly frustrated started to cry, Arlo licked his face and Kai wrapped his arms around his neck crying.

"Can you show us what you want?" I said and Kai took his backpack off and opened it and pulled out cards with little pictures on them he went through them until he found what he was looking for. "The kitchen?" He nodded.

"Ich lin." He said again.

"Come on," Max said standing up and grabbing Kai's hand. "Rosie come on get you something to drink."

"Kay." She said getting off the couch and going with Max, she was younger then Kai was by two months and it was insane to think that in three months she will be three and then next month Kai will be three.

"Mommy…" DJ said tapping my belly.

"Yeah?"

"Why's he got that thingy?"

"What thingy?"

"It looks like a giant straw." He said confused.

"It's called a feeding tube it gives him food into his stomach."

"Why?"

"Because when he eats real food his body can't digest it properly so it doesn't give him all the nutrients his body needs."

"Why?"

"Because he was born that way."

"Why?" DJ said again.

"DJ." Max yelled. "You hungry?"

"Yeah!" He ran into the kitchen, I struggled to get up and slowly made my way into the kitchen and the baby decided now would be the best time to wake up and start kicking.

Rosie was sitting on top of the counter watching Max look around in the fridge, Kai was standing watching Max and Arlo beside him. "Ar, ater." He said and Arlo went to the fridge next to Max and picked up the ketchup bottle.

"No…." Max said taking the ketchup from the dog and handing him a water bottle he took it to Kai.

"Go boy." He said hugging the dog and he plopped onto the floor and Arlo laid down beside him.

"Do you want to sit at the table?" I asked Kai he was struggling to open his water.

"No." He said.

"Are you sure?"

"Hep?" He said holding the bottle up.

"Sure." I opened it for him and handed it back.

"Mommy come sit with me." DJ said I didn't want to leave Kai sitting there all alone though. "Daddy we're hungry." DJ whined.

"I know buddy but pancakes don't take that long." He said and DJ dropped his head onto the table, Rosie was still on the counter helping Max.

When Max was done he picked Rosie up and brought the full plate of pancakes over carefully and set the food down and kissed Rosie's head before putting her down as well. "Where is Kai?"

"Sitting on the floor over there." Max turned to look at Kai who was content on the floor rubbing Arlo's head.

"Do you want to come over here."

"No ank ou."

"You sure?" He said something that sounded like he wasn't hungry so Max went over and picked him up and brought him over anyway. "You don't have to eat okay? I just don't want you sitting over there by yourself."

Kayla's Pov

Cambry ended up taking Harlan and and Willow to the park to give Ryland and I some alone time. "So did you make up your mind?" Ryland said.

"About?"

"The whole stupid movie night thing."

"Wasn't that you that had to make up your mind about it and not me?"

"No I said I wanted Max and Sadie to come as well but you said no."

"I did not say no Ryland I said that I invited Cambry so if you invite Max and Sadie just let them know she's going to be here."

"And you aren't gonna be all pissy that Sadie's here?"

"I have no intention on speaking to her."

"Isn't that a bit much?"

"I'm sorry what?" I said giving him the shut up look.

"Nothing babe."

"That's what I thought…." I said just as his phone started to ring he rolled his eyes as he answered it.

"Hey mom." He said sighing. "No nothing's wrong just stressed." He said looking at me I rolled my eyes. "Saturday? Hold on." He moved the phone away from his ear. "Are we doing anything Saturday?"

"No but everyone's coming over on Friday."

"We aren't doing anything." He said I moved away from him he was getting on my nerves everything was getting on my nerves lately. "My mom is coming over Saturday to spend time with the kids." He said dropping his phone back down onto the couch.

"Ok."

"Do you wanna go get lunch or something?"

"No thanks."

"Do you want to watch a movie?"

"No."

"Okay I give up." He said throwing his hands in the air dramatically.

"Ok."

"What is your problem?" He asked I didn't say anything he sighed and came closer to me. "Kayla?"

"What Ryland?"

"What's with the attitude right now?"

"I don't have an attitude."

"Yeah you do."

"I don't know." I said I picked up my phone but Ryland grabbed it.

"Don't push me away just talk to me."

"She let my mom talk shit about our son, she stood me up multiple times and decided that I was the one being a dick about everything and should apologize first and here you are telling me to be nice to her? I don't think so."

I didn't say you had to be nice to her, I was just thinking that you could be civil with her."

"I don't need her in my life."

"She's your only sister."

"I have your sisters." I pointed out he smiled.

"I know but I meant she's your family, at one point she was the only person you had."

"I just want you to be on my side."

"I'm on your side Kayla but I think this entire thing can be resolved if you just sit down and talk to her, everyone makes mistakes and hers was choosing your mother who's never done anything for you guys over you when you would move mountains to make her happy."

"I already told her that as long as my mom was in her life I wasn't going to be, I am not doing this anymore i'm not gonna put my babies through that."

"I know."

"And she wants mom in her life that's fine I hope she's happy with that decision but I can't do it anymore…."

"When she comes over Friday you aren't going to talk to her at all?"

"I don't know what i'm going to do," I groaned laying down with my head on his lap. "She's finding out what the baby is Friday morning so I guess we have something to talk about but I don't know… I miss her and I miss being able to go over anytime I'm bored or lonely."

"I think you two will make up and everything will go back to how it was before and we can all stop walking on eggshells."

"Does it piss you off that we aren't talking?"

"I just want you to be happy Kayla that's all I ever want for you and I know that you and Sadie not talking is making you sad and moody."

"Basically i'm a bitch?"

"I didn't say that…."

"You thought it." I said.

"But I didn't say it." I rolled my eyes and he smirked. "We are all alone right now." He said softly I knew where this was going.

"Uh huh."

"You wanna have some fun before the kids come back?" He asked pulling me up into a kiss.

"Are we gonna build a fort?" I asked he laughed against my lips.

"Do you want to build a fort?"

"Maybe later." I said pulling him down on top of me.

"Shouldn't we go to the room?" He asked as I pulled his shirt off of him.

"Yeah."

"So get-" He groaned when I bit his neck his fingers digging into my side. "Kayla…."

Harlan's Pov

"You wanna get on the swing little man?" Cambry asked I nodded and sat on the swing next to the baby swings where Willow was swinging.

"Is Kai spending the night with his daddy?" I asked watching her push Willow she likes the swing sometimes right now she was laughing.

"No he's just visiting him today."

"Oh he doesn't want to spend the night?"

"I'm not really sure." She said and pushed Willow again she was starting to not like the swing.

"We're going on vacation soon." I said and Cambry looked at me.

"Oh really?"

"Yeah I heard mommy and daddy talking about Hawaii!"

"Have you been there before?"

"No but I sawed some pictures before and it's so cool."

"Yeah it is pretty cool."

"Have you been before?" I asked pushing myself but not to high because i'd get scared.

"Yeah once with my parents and brother."

"Was it awesome?"

"Yeah it was pretty awesome, my brother and I learned how to surf he was better at it then I was."

"What's surf?"

"Here." She said pulling out her phone while Willow was still swinging she looked like she was falling asleep, silly sister. "This is surfing." She said and handed me the phone.

"Woah…."

"Pretty cool right?"

"I want to surf!" I said and bounced up I forgot I was on a swing and I fell off.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah." I giggled.

"H-Harlan?" I turned there was a women standing there in front of me she looked familiar kind of and then she looked at Cambry. "Who are you?"

"I'm his mom's friend."

"You know where she is?" She had tears in her eyes I hid behind Cambry.

"Um yeah she's at home….."

"I've been calling her for months now and she never answers."

"I can tell Kayla you are trying to get ahold of her but-"

"Who?"

"Kayla."

"N-no you must be mistaken her name is-"

"Okay um you might know his real parents but my friend adopted him because he was living in on the streets."

"I don't… I don't understand…" Cambry pushed me behind her and picked up Willow.

"I can give his mother your number and you guys can figure out what's going on and who you are but I don't think they'd be comfortable with this." She said I was scared I just wanted to go home.

"O-okay…"

Ryland's Pov

"Hey Maxie…" I said as I opened the door he was holding Kai he was fast asleep. "What you do to him?"

"He played tag with DJ and Rosie and then hide and seek, DJ told me that he couldn't find Kai so I freaked out and Arlo brought me to him and the poor kid fell asleep under the table." He said I laughed.

"Cambry isn't here."

"Where is she?"

"She took Harlan and Willow to the park." I said and he smirked. "What?"

"Nothing…."

"What?"

"Freshly showered, completely relaxed, sappy-"

"Shut up….." I moved so he could come in.

"Where should I put him?"

"On the couch is fine." He nodded and went over to the couch. "Where is Sadie?"

"At home with the kids, we don't have enough car seats in the car for everyone to come, hell we don't even have enough car for all the car seats we need."

"Car shopping?"

"Yeah tomorrow I think."

"Are you busy Friday night? Or well midday?"

"The only thing we have Friday is the doctor's appointment to find out the gender and I think baby shopping, we were supposed to be looking at houses online but with everything that happened with Kai I don't think the move to New York is going to happen."

"Kayla said something about Cambry moving."

"What…." He looked up at me and then back to Kai he sighed. "Just what I needed…" He mumbled.

"Daddy!" I heard as soon as the door opened Harlan ran to me.

"Hey dude, what's wrong?" His eyes were red.

"I fell off the swings and landed on my butt…." He said pouting.

"Oh hey Max." Cambry said Willow was sleeping or either falling asleep.

"Cambry can we talk?"

"Actually I need to talk to Kayla about something important so if you can just wait like ten seconds."

"My conversation will only take ten seconds." He said sternly.

"Fine… What?"

"Is it true that you are moving?"

"Yeah in like two months I think."

"When the hell were you going to tell me?" He yelled and Kai whined in his sleep.

"Stop yelling around him." Cambry said glaring at him.

"Well?"

"I have to move because I have no money to pay my rent because I was fired by you." She said bitterly. "So Kayla talked to Aaron who is transferring to LA to be the manager of his department and he said I could work for him as his assistant, so yes i'm moving."

I can seriously never fucking get rid of this guy… Now he's moving to LA as well?

"This is bullshit…"

"Like I said I have no-"

"So have your fucking job back." Max yelled and Cambry took a deep breath.

"Can you calm down? Because you are starting to piss me off, I am not taking the job back you made it very clear you didn't want me working there so yes i'm moving to LA so I can have money to pay for my son's upcoming surgery."

"Surgery… What surgery?"

"Read the fucking stuff I gave you!" Kai started to cry. "God damn it…" She said and came over and handed Willow to me who was peacefully asleep she could sleep through one of my concert if she was really tired. "I'm sorry…" She said to Max as she picked up Kai. "I'm trying to be nice with you so that Kai can see that we don't hate each other because that's how my parents are now and I hate it, I don't want that for him."

"Neither do I." He said looking down at the floor.

"He's having heart surgery."

"He has a heart problem…." Max said softly, Max also had a heart problem and I knew that was something he definitely didn't want to pass to his children.

"Yeah he was born with it, they said it's probably because of the drugs because I don't have a heart condition."

"I do…." Max said softly looking at Kai with sad eyes.

"Oh…."

"W-What's the surgery for?"

"I can send you all the information his doctors sent me."

"Yeah…" Kai had fallen back asleep she put him back down kissing his head.

"I'm gonna go talk to Kayla, I'm glad he didn't give you any problems." She said and went upstairs Max looked at me.

"This is why I never wanted kids." He said rubbing his eyes.

"Max it's not your fault that-"

"I have a crappy heart, my son has a crappy heart because I have a crappy heart."

"Has the baby been checked."

"I don't think so Sadie would have told me."

"Well did she put that a heart condition runs in the family?"

"No because I always thought it was because my mom did fucking drugs not a fucking genetic heart condition."

"Just because Kai has it doesn't mean the baby will have it."

"With my fucking luck…."

"On Friday tell them about the heart condition."

"Speaking of Friday I don't know if you'd want to come depending on how things turn out but Kayla and I are having sort of a movie night, Cambry is coming with Kai and Kayla's friend Aaron and she wanted me to invite you, Sadie, and the kids."

"Kayla wants Sadie to come?" Max looked surprised I wasn't going to tell him it was actually me who wanted them to come.

"Yeah she does, but you and Sadie would have to play nice with Cambry." God where was this coming from? I actually sort of liked her now before it was a burning hatred for her and now I can actually tolerate her, I wouldn't go as far as calling her my friend but she was alright.

Kayla's Pov

It was Friday morning I didn't feel good I felt like someone punched me repeatedly in the stomach with a sledgehammer I told Ryland I wasn't feeling good so I got breakfast in bed and I started to feel a bit better. "You feeling better?" Ryland asked he put Willow down on the bed and threw the wipes down beside her.

"Yeah, I can't remember what I ate last night or if I even did."

"I text you to make sure you ate." He mumbled, he had a 'dude day' with Harlan, he didn't want to call it a daddy son date because that wasn't manly.

"I know but then Willow was crabby so I lost track of time and just ended up falling asleep with her."

"It has nothing to do with you stressing over who that chick was?" He asked I frowned.

I had told Ry about the lady that talked to Cambry and we called the number but she didn't answer so we just tried to forget about it.

"He didn't know who she was so I'm trying not to freak out he's our son and if someone tries-"

"No one's going to do anything, stop stressing."

"I'm trying…."

"I have to go to the store buy some things for tonight."

"Like beer?" I asked he shrugged. "You can buy beer I don't care."

"You are gonna drink?"

"I'm nursing, I can't."

"Aren't you supposed to like wait three or four hours after drinking to breastfeed or something?"

"That's what everything says but I'd still rather not drink."

"Fine…"

"Someone has to be sober to watch all the kids."

"That's what Sadie's for she's pregnant."

"I don't know maybe…"

"Get up everyone will be here soon."

"You told them noon…" I said confused I looked over to Ryland's side of the bed and Harlan was still fast asleep because Ry had him out until midnight he wouldn't tell me what they were doing but my poor baby was so exhausted.

"And it's already after noon."

"Why'd you let me sleep so long?"

"You yelled when I tried waking you up when Willow got up."Willow first woke up so I just left you to sleep."

"Was Harlan with us all night?"

"No I woke him up to eat breakfast and after he ate he said he was gonna see what you were doing and I came to check on him and he was asleep on top of you."

"Get bacon when you go to the store we have no more." I said sadly he smiled and nodded picking up his keys. "And coffee creamer."

"Okay baby." He went to open the door I coughed he gave me a look and I made a kiss sound he laughed. "I love you Kayla." His lips were always so soft and made me melt even at the lightest of kisses.

"I love you too RyRy." He didn't like when I added the extra Ry to his name he said that was reserved for his mom.

Cambry got here a little early because Kai wanted to see Harlan those two were inseparable when they were together but we also had to keep reminding Harlan to be careful because he always played so rough with him and I didn't want Kai to get hurt, Max and Sadie were on their way I didn't know if Sadie was even going to talk to me at all, I really did want all of this to be over between us but at the same time I knew that if I gave in she would try and push mom on me like she use to and that wouldn't be fair to Harlan.

"So why isn't he at school?" Cambry asked watching them build something with Lego's Willow was in her little walker sucking away on her pacifier watching her brother and cousin.

"Staff development day, they have the entire summer to develop and improve but of course they wait until the last minute…" I mumbled Cambry laughed.

"So when are you guys leaving." She asked.

"Leaving for what?"

"What?"

"What….."

"Harlan said you guys were going to Hawaii."

"What? When did he say that?"

"He said he heard you and Ryland talking about going to Hawaii and that he was so excited."

"We were thinking about going to Hawaii we didn't decide on anything though."

"Well Harlan thinks your going."

"Great…."

"What do you not want to go?"

"It's not that, Ryland and I have been arguing lately about stupid small stuff and it's not like he's doing anything wrong i'm being a bitch most of the time but i'm just getting myself ready for him to leave again and be all alone so I started to pick fights with him but thankfully we got it resolved and haven't fought for a week, that's the only reason I didn't want to go because I didn't want to fight but we have finally resolved that situation."

"Take it from a girl who at one point had her boyfriend and her brother away on tour. It gets hard at times but as long as you have people who can understand the empty pain you are feeling it isn't so bad but the guys never understand it even though they say they do they aren't alone, they have hundreds of people screaming their name and their best friends with them every day it gets hard but you push through one day at a time."

"Have you and Gabe talked lately?"

"We had lunch were he yelled at me the entire time about not telling about Kai, about lying to Max, about lying to him, about lying to my dad, pretty much just yelled the entire time and then he met Kai and took him out to a buy a toy."

"So are you guys okay now?"

"I think we are I mean he's coming over for dinner next week so that should be…. Fun I guess."

"You guess? Oh come on you've missed him."

"I have but he's still angry about the entire thing and i'd rather just leave him alone to be angry."

"And are you?"

"No because he won't let me I ignored his text and three hours later he came over."

"Guess you shouldn't ignore him." I said laughing.

"Who side are you on?"

"At the moment i'm rooting for your brother." She dropped her head onto mine laughing just as Ryland came in followed by Max and Sadie.

"Hey everyone." Cambry said taking a deep breath.

"Hey." Sadie said Max just waved and continued talking to Ryland.

"Harlan!" DJ ran to Harlan and tackled him to the floor he was giggling as he wrapped his arms around DJ's neck.

"DJ!" He said holding him tightly.

"I'm gonna go call Aaron see where he's at." I said and Sadie followed me into the other room.

"Can we talk?"

"About?" I said looking down at my phone he had texted me about ten minutes ago saying he was on his way so I didn't bother calling him.

"Mom…."

"I have nothing to talk about on that subject." I said trying to stay as calm as I could.

"Fine can we talk about us?"

"I don't want to talk about that either."

"I take it you don't even want to talk to me then." Sadie said and turned.

"Is the baby's heart okay?" I asked she stopped and smiled.

"Yeah they looked at the heart and said that everything looked good but once they baby is born they are gonna do all these test just to make sure everythings good."

"Good." I said I didn't know what else to stay right now.

"It's um it's a boy…." She said softly.

"I'm happy for you and Max but I know how much you wanted another girl." I said and she laughed.

"I think I convinced Max to have one more when this little one is older."

"Family of four." I said and she smiled I missed her smile it was always so warm and brought a smile to everyone around her.

"Well four or five depending on when we have Kai."

"How are you adjusting to that?"

"Taking it one day at a time it's hard on Max that he doesn't get to see him every day but Kai's really sweet and DJ and Rosie love him."

"He is a sweetheart much like his dad."

"Yeah…"

"Have you guys thought of a name for the baby? Or should I just call the baby him?"

"We actually have."

"Did mom pick his name out?" I asked bitterly.

"She wanted me to name him Thomas." She said and I had to close my eyes and block everything out Sadie knew how much I hated him hate isn't even a strong enough word for how much I despise that man.

"So…. Thomas what?"

"I told her no."

"You told mom no? Did she turn red? Did her head explode?" I asked and Sadie laughed a real one this time and I found myself smiling and an empty hole inside me was filling.

"She got pissed when I said no."

"Man if only I could time travel i'd love to see her face…." I said trying to imagine what she looked like. "So what name did you and Max pick?"

"Alexander Empire Lightwood-Bane."

"Ryland's already named the next baby we have Legend."

"Empire and Legend." She said shaking her head.

"Everything okay in here?" Max asked leaning against the wall Willow was on his shoulders with her hands in his hair pulling at it.

"Yeah we were just coming back." I said Sadie lost her smile but she followed me out.

"How did your doctor's appointment go?" Cambry asked she was trying to be as nice as she could without having to fake it.

"It went great."

"Do you know what you are having?"

"A boy." She said and Ryland pulled Max into a hug.

"Congratulations man."

"Thanks." Max said.

"Oh shit… Did you guys talk about the heart? With the doctor?" I looked at Cambry I didn't know how she'd feel knowing that it was just Kai who had the heart condition.

"Yeah we did they looked at the heart and said that it looked fine but we are going to a specialist to double check and then after he's born they are gonna do some more test to triple check." Max said he was smiling until he looked over at Kai, Sadie was also watching for Cambry's reaction to see if she was going to be bitter about it but she looked up and smiled at her.

"I'm glad he's alright, knowing what I go through with Kai and how many times i've almost lost him, I wouldn't wish that upon any parent." She said everyone was looking at Kai now he was laughing because everytime he would put a lego on top of the 'tower' the kids were building Rosie would take it off and put it back into the box of lego's.

"Maaa." Kai said. "Te don wa ta." He said pointing at Rosie.

"Come here." She said he dropped what he had and went over to her. "It's medicine time."

"No." He said.

"Stop."

"Noo." He started to cry.

"Kaiser." She said in a warning tone he put his head down on her lap crying Arlo was right by his side trying to get him to calm down she picked him up and his crying only got worse. "I'll be back." She said and walked off with him screaming.

"I should go see if she needs help." I said but Sadie looked at Max.

"I um… I'll go…" Max said.

Max's Pov

Cambry was in one of the guest rooms with all his medical stuff laid out he was sitting on the bed shirtless crying still. "Do you need any help?" I asked she looked at me and shook her head.

"I got it…"

"Are you sure?"

"Peas no." Kai cried and his face was nothing but pain.

"What's the medicine for?"

"His chronic illnesses."

"I've been doing a lot of research about them lately."

"Good."

"Can we have a normal conversation?"

"Like what Max?"

"Why does he need the feeding tube?"

"If you read everything I gave you then you would know he has a partially paralyzed stomach which is called gastroparesis with that and malabsorption it's not pretty inside his body he got the feeding tube because his gastroenterologist and nutritionist thought it would be best for him."

"How long has he had it?"

"Only about five months maybe six." He was still crying.

"Why is he crying?"

"One of his medications he gets through his port and it burns and he knows so he's cries and when he gets it he screams because it hurts him but there is nothing I can do." She said and started to prep some stuff. "You ready?" She asked him and he shook his head.

He didn't cry with the ones that went through his feeding tube and he actually swallowed a few pills and then she moved towards his port a little below his right collarbone and he started to cry again. "You're okay baby it's only gonna sting for a minute."

"No." He said holding his hands out.

"Kai please."

"Noooo." He said with little tears falling and my heart broke.

"What if I hold him?" I said she looked at me and then back to Kai.

"I don't know if that will help but you can try." She said I nodded and picked him up.

"Hey buddy… Daddy's got you." I kissed his head and his little hand gripped my arm tightly and he screamed at the top of his lungs before Cambry even put the needle into his port. "It's okay baby boy." I whispered to him I didn't know if this was helping or not but she pushed the medicine in through the line and he screamed again.

"Hur…." He said and started to choke on his tears. "Hurt…" He said pointing to his heart.

"I know baby, I know it will feel better in a minute." Cambry said and he continued to cry.

His breathing started to calm down a little bit and his little body relaxed against me that's when I realized he was asleep it freaked me out but Cambry was freaking out so I guess this was normal. "I-is he okay?"

"His body gets tired easily and his freaks outs take a lot out of him and the meds make him tired so he usually cat naps throughout the day and he falls asleep randomly."

"Like narcolepsy?"

"Yeah…"

"Tell me he doesn't have narcolepsy too…."

"Um no not that I know of… He can walk around without a problem for like an hour but if he's playing it's usually like fifteen minutes and then he has to lay down because his body can't keep up with what he wants to do which is why school is going to be tough on him when he's older."

"He's a trooper." I said fixing him. "Should I leave him here?"

"No I have to keep an eye on him while he sleeps."

"Why?"

"Central sleep apnea."

"Is there anything he doesn't have?"

"Well the sleep apnea was when he was a baby they say usually they outgrow that but I had a scare with him so he still uses this little machine that he gets hooked up to at night at it sets off an alarm if he stops breathing, he loves it because Shane use he says he's getting recharged and Kai felt like a robot."

"Who's Shane?"

"None of your business." She said.

"I think I have a right to know who my son is around."

"He's my ex boyfriend I dated him but he dumped him after Kai's first surgery said he that Kai took up too much time."

"I'm sorry."

"Guys are dicks." She said holding her hands out for Kai.

"I got him." I said she didn't say anything just picked up all the stuff putting it away as I took him back downstairs.

"Daddy is Kai okay?" DJ asked rubbing Kai's back.

"Yeah player he is he had to get some medicine."

"I never want that medicine…." DJ said shaking his head.

Aaron laughed I think that was the guy's name I can't really remember all I do know is Ryland hates him. "You want another beer?" Aaron asked Ryland who nodded.

"Yeah, you want one Max?" I looked at Sadie she smiled at me so I took that as the okay that I could drink.

"Yeah." She sat down beside me and brushed Kai's hair out of his face.

"Is he alright?"

"Yeah he is, he was pretty scared earlier but he pushed through it."

"Brave little boy." She said Cambry came back down and sat beside Kayla they were whispering to each other.

Kayla's Pov

"You aren't driving are you?" I asked Aaron he could barely stand he was way to drunk.

"No, no, no, no…." He said and then laughed.

"I can drop you off at home Aaron." He said something inaudible and then laughed. "I'm taking you home." I mumbled.

"I can do it." Cambry said putting Kai's jacket on.

"No I have uber." Aaron said holding the doorway so he stays up. "Uber." He laughed.

"I got him Kayla you deal with Ryland."

"Good luck Cam."

"Thanks i'm gonna need it."

"Same here." I decided to clean up a little before going to make sure Ryland was alright.

Harlan was in his room asleep and Willow was in her crib hopefully falling asleep she wasn't crying so I wasn't going to go in there, Ryland was pulling his clothes off when I got up to our room. "Hey handsome." I said he turned and smiled, he wasn't as drunk as Aaron was but he was still drunk enough to the point where he said what was on his mind and didn't hold back.

"Hey…" He said his eyes barely open.

"I think you might of had a little bit too much to drink." I said he shook his head, I put the bottle of water I brought him and some tylenol down on his nightstand because he's gonna need that in the morning.

"Nah I could go with like two more and then i've had too much."

"No more drinks because the kids are asleep and you are done…"

"Your not my mom." He grumbled as I tried to push him towards the bed.

"Well she will be here in the morning." He grabbed my arm and his fingers traced the length of my scar that I had got from Tanner.

"How'd you do it?" He asked.

"Do what?"

"You stayed with him even though he beat you and you let him beat you."

"Ryland go to sleep…."

"You are so stupid for staying with him."

"Stop it I mean it." I was trying not to get pissed off.

"You justified him beating you made excuses for him." He said laughing. "So fucking stupid."

"Go fuck yourself Ryland."

"No it's you that needs to go fuck yourself I ain't the fucking dumb one who let someone beat me for years but oh he loves you so you stayed like a fucking retard."

"Don't you think I fucking know that Ryland?"

"It's all your fault he almost killed you." He said shaking his head.

"Because I'm the one who told him to beat the hell out of me? I'm the one who told him to cut my arm? Yeah it's all my fucking fault right?"

"You would have stayed with him if he apologized to you after that." He laughed.

"Fuck you Ryland." I slapped him and ran out of the room.

I needed to leave I couldn't be here right now I didn't want to be around him tomorrow I'd come pick up the kids and go somewhere far away from Ryland I didn't want to wake them up and drag them off to someone's house not when I didn't even know where the hell I was going, I looked at the notepad where Ryland and I would scribble random notes to each other I was crying as I picked up the pen.

I called Sadie but she didn't answer they went home early because she was tired so they were probably asleep and Cambry had to take Kai to speech therapy early in the morning.

I knocked on Aaron's door but I didn't really have any hope that he would open his door he was more fucked up then Ryland was. The door opened he was only in his boxers. "Kayla…. Why are you here?"

"Can I crash on your couch? Ryland and I got into it and I couldn't be there right now."

"Sure." He moved letting me in. "You can have my room." He said sitting down on the couch picking up a beer.

"You are still drinking?"

"It's the weekend." He said shrugging.

"You aren't gonna remember shit in the morning."

"That's what I'm going for." He said downing the beer.

"You got anymore?"

"There's Kayla!" He said laughing. "Fridge." I got one and sat down sighing trying to push Ryland out of my mind.

"What are you watching?"

"Game of Thrones."

I was a light weight I also have been and I always will be Aaron made some stupid joke and I fell on him laughing his hand went to my waist. "I don't-" His lips were on mine I kissed him back he pulled the hem of my shirt up and over my head and then his lips were back on mine, he pushed me back against the couch. What the fuck am I doing? My mind screamed I pushed him away.

"No." He didn't seem to care I pushed him off of me but he could really form a complete sentence right now. "I think I'm gonna be sick…" I said and ran to the bathroom barely making it, all this was reminding me why I don't drink.

When I went back out to the living room he was passed out I pulled him down so he was actually laying down and put a blanket on him and then I went up to his room and fell into his bed, I fell asleep trying to come up with an idea of where the kids and I would go tomorrow.

Ryland's Pov

"Wake up." Someone said I groaned. "Wake up." I lifted my head too fast I groaned. "Mom…?"

"Willow was soaking wet did you not check on her at all?" She asked holding Willow bouncing her.

"Where is Kayla?"

"I don't know you tell." Mom said and I thought about last night and I remembered everything I said to her and how she slapped me, my hand went to my cheek.

"Can you watch the kids for a little bit?"

"Do you want to tell me what's going on?"

"I was drunk last night-"

"Kind of figured that one…" She mumbled kissing Willow's head.

"I said some shit to Kayla and she left." I said mom didn't say anything she just nodded.

"I'll watch them."

"Thank you…."

My head was killing me I picked up my phone and next to it was some tylenol and water. "Did you bring this?"

"No Kayla must have."

"I'm a fucking dick….." I mumbled mom didn't say anything but she also didn't disagree.

I grabbed my keys on the little table we had right by the door and I noticed the notepad had something on it. Kayla's engagement ring was on the pad with the words 'i'm done' scribbled in messy letters.

I called Sadie and Cambry but neither of them seen her so I figured Aaron's house I only knew where he lived because Kayla was going to let him babysit while we went on a date next week so he sent me his address so I could drop the kids off with him, now i'll be lucky to even see Kayla without getting kicked in the dick. I knocked on his door but no one answered so I banged on it.

"What!" He yelled as he opened the door. "Oh… What's up dude?" He asked holding his head.

"Where is she?" He only had boxers on so this made things kind of awkward.

"Who?"

"Kayla."

"How should I know?"

"Your telling me she's not here?"

"Why would Kayla be here?" He asked confused.

"Ryland…." Kayla's voice came from somewhere and she came down with no shirt on.

"What the fuck…."

"Kayla?" Aaron looked confused.

"You son of bitch." I said and he held his hands up defensively Kayla picked her shirt up putting it on quickly, i'm gonna fucking kill him.

Clary to the rescue in the next chapter she gives both Kayla and Ryland 'a talk'