37: Catharsis

Kay / Marc

He left work when Alexander found him in the hall. "Hello, Marc, how's it going?" He asked.

"Good, thank you," Marc said, shaking his hand.

"Actually, you don´t look very well, my friend ... would you like to drink a few beers and tell me what's wrong with you?" -

The relationship with Alexander had grown even stronger since he served as Cupid a year ago by reserving the room in Hamburg. He was a good friend and occasionally took advantage of some free weekend to join his teammates including Anne-Alexander's girlfriend- there, they prepared a roast and shared good times together.

"All right, come on," Marc agreed, "thinking he didn´t want to meet Kay at home yet.

They got to the bar and ordered a couple of beers; while they were attended, Alexander asked him: "Well, what is it, why are you looking like shit?

After telling him briefly what happened to Kay, he concluded by saying: "... the truth is that I feel hurt, do you understand what I'm saying? I feel that this important decision should have been taken together since even though Kay would be the biological father, I would be the father too; we would make a family and it seems that Kay doesn´t see it like this ... I feel that he is leaving me aside.

"I understand you perfectly," Alexander agreed.

"Besides, why the fuck does Kay let himself be influenced by Emma? I don´t know if he didn´t realize it, but it is obvious that she is attracted to him, and the fact of impinging on something so important would mean that he would be bound to her forever ... "Marc finished with a look of fury on his face -.

"Marc, you should talk to Kay and tell him how you feel; both of you make a great couple, I knew it from the first time I saw you, and these kinds of situations are the ones that must learn to get by if you want your relationship to last ... Not always is going to be happy and in this type of circumstances is where understanding and empathy must prevail, "Alexander advised.

"Yes, I know you're right; but he has fucked me with this situation ... Today he saw her and I don´t know what they agreed ... "It's not that I feel jealous ... well maybe a little bit, I have to admit it; although I'm sure Kay doesn´t feel any kind of attraction towards her, it bothers me anyway ... "

At that moment, his cell phone rang. It was the third time in the last two hours. He knew it was him because all the previous calls he had been diverted. Letting go of the impulse, he again diverted the call. "Fuck you!" He thought.

"I have to pee," he said to Alexander as he got up.

Kay at home looked like a caged lion; he went from one place to another without knowing what to do. He was worried about Marc so he decided to send him a message: "Marc, why don´t you answer? Is everything okay? He sent it and waited.

When he came out of the bathroom, he heard the WhatsApp beep; he read it but decided not to answer. He felt really hurt and angry. He returned to the table and continued to chat with Alexander, not only about his problem but about other unimportant issues. It was what he needed, he thought, to relax for a while and try to calm himself. He'd talk to Kay later.

"Scheiße!" Kay cursed when he saw that Marc had read the message but hadn´t answered. He went into the kitchen, took a beer out of the refrigerator, and leaned against the kitchen counter as he thought of Marc and at the same time recapitulated the conversation he had had with Emma that afternoon. He had to talk to her; because her proposal had not the slightest chance of being.

It was 2 in the morning when he heard a car parked in the doorway; by this time Kay was screwed up; looked out the window and saw Marc getting out of a taxi wobble drunk. "WTF ...!" He hissed as he opened the door. "Who had he been with?" It was the first time Marc had arrived under such conditions and Kay's jealousy didn´t please him at all.

Marc entered the house and ignoring Kay completely went straight to the refrigerator; He got out a beer and started drinking. Kay followed him and rebuked him: "What's wrong with you, huh? Why didn´t you take my calls? You're so bad you couldn´t even drive ... where did you leave the car and with whom have you been? Kay kept bombarding him with questions; he felt very upset.

"Hey, easy," Marc answered. "Why are you asking me so many questions?" "I went around ... having fun and drinking a few beers; since you were so busy that you couldn´t answer my messages, I decided that I could have fun too ... ". And without giving him an opportunity to respond, he headed for the guest's room.

Kay stood in the middle of the kitchen, unable to believe Marc´s attitude. "Scheiße!" He cursed. Since he did not want to make things worse, he went straight to the room and noticed that Marc was not there, slammed the door and lay down.

He was extremely annoyed ... "When had things become such that bad?" Kay wondered. An hour later the tiredness overcame him.

That night he dreamed of a bar. He was leaning on the bar watching people when something caught their attention. He began to walk towards a couple who was kissing in the middle of the track since one of them seemed terribly familiar; when he got there, he saw that it was Marc who kissed a guy, looked at him as if he didn´t know him. "What the fuck are you doing?" He asked as he pushed him against his chest with both hands. Marc just looked at him and laughed ...

At that moment he woke up ... His forehead was beaded in sweat, and tears streamed down his face. It had been a dream so real that he still woke up feeling as if the heart were going to get out of his chest. He stood up and turned on the tap of the cold water, rinsing his face. "Damn!" That dream had been so real that he was frightened by the deep feelings that awakened in him. "He had never felt as attached to anyone as he was with Marc." He admitted, lying down again trying to sleep.

It was almost noon when he woke; his head was hammering so hard he didn´t even want to open his eyes. "Scheiße!" He had drunk a lot and today he was paying the consequences. After ten minutes, at last, he got up and went to bathe. He went down to the kitchen and saw Kay sitting down for coffee. He had a face that said everything; "He's upset," he thought. "Good, because I feel the same way." Without speaking, he poured himself a coffee and left the house. He sat on the porch of the front door while he drank his coffee and thought of everything that had happened. He knew that his attitude might be somewhat immature, but the reality was that he didn´t know how to handle it.

Ten minutes later, he heard the door opened behind him, and in a few seconds, he saw Kay sit beside him. They both stood there without speaking for what seemed like an eternity. Until Kay broke the silence.

"Marc, we should talk." He said quietly,

"I agree," Marc said.

"I don´t like the direction our relationship is taking in the wake of this parenting issue." "I thought you said you would support me, but your attitude has proven the opposite."

Marc listened to him and was silent ... then he turned to look at him and said: "When Matthias was born it was one of the happiest moments of my life and now that I can see him and live with him I understand how a child changes your life forever "; "Of course I support you, I would love nothing more than to form a family with you and raise your son who would also be mine; just as you've grown fond of Matt, I'm sure I would have the same feelings for that little one, that's why I'd like you to include me in such an important decision. " "The truth is that I feel excluded in this whole matter ..." he finished, waiting for his reaction.

After a few minutes, Kay said: "You're right, I haven´t been able to handle this situation correctly, and seeing it from your perspective now I understand your reaction." "Help me to do well; I'm also excited about forming a family with you and even if this son won´t be of your blood, I know you would take care of him the same way as you take care of Matt. "

Marc heard him nodded; "Thank you for understanding how I feel; and talking about Emma, it's not that I have anything against her, but I don´t think it's the best decision". "If we want to have a child and be part of our family, having her biological mother close would involve not only explanations for him but also legal issues that we would have to touch since I suppose she would want to be part of his life." Have you thought about it? "He asked.

Kay was silent for a moment, remembering the conversation he had had with Emma; he didn´t want to confess Emma´s proposal because he wouldn't want to make matters worse between them. So he just managed to say: "I agree, I think I was rushed making that decision without thinking about the consequences that could lead." "I think the best choice is would be just as you suggested, finding a surrogate mother." He finished at the same time he held his hand.

Marc felt a deep relief. He didn´t think that Kay would have accepted the subject so easily, but it seemed that way and that made him very happy. "Let's do it; when do you want to begin all the procedures that are required. "What do you think?" He asked as he smiled openly.

"I Agree". "I have to talk to Emma to explain the situation." He said to him.