Jenna's Point of View:
I strode behind KC and his clique as we walked down the sidewalk of Degrassi Street at one in the morning - too early for my taste, but according to KC's demands, we had to be here right now this early to take their records.
Honestly, I didn't even wanna be here for the finding of Clare's records and seeing if she has some disease, I just wanna be with Bianca right now, oh Bianca.
Just the thought of that Latina brought impure thoughts to my mind, thoughts of tongue trailing down my stomach, down to my clit, her tongue was what made everything so damn enjoyable.
I just wanted to run my hands through her curly black hair, feeling the movement of her lips against mine, feel how she thrusts her body on mine which leaves my body in tingles.
I wanted Bianca DeSousa and dammit I wanted her now.
"Hey dyke? Did you hear us?" Owen grumbled and I snapped out of my reverie to look up at Owen who had a grimace on his face."N-No. What was it?" I stammered nervously as the image of a naked Bianca left my mind and KC rolled his eyes at me.
"We're gonna go in through the front doors, Fitz has a extra pair of keys he's jacked from last year. We're gonna be quiet though, make sure nothing goes off, we go into the Nurses' office, grab Clare, Eli's and Drew's files and then get the fuck out alright?" Owen explained to me and I nodded. "You'll be lookout too. Along with Jake." KC said as he nodded to the new guy - Jake who nodded nervously as he stuffed his hands in his pockets.
Eventually we all made it to the front of Degrassi, the sign still glowed as it said "Have a great summer kids!" Owen scoffed at it and spit at the sign, I grimaced as I saw the saliva roll down the sign and I returned my attention to Fitz grabbing the keys out of his pocket and spending the next five minutes to find the right key much to KC's frustration.
"Hurry up asshole!" KC groaned as he looked at Fitz and Fitz rolled his eyes.
"Chill out man. Its one of the keys." Fitz said lowly as he finally found the right key and finally opened the door.
"About goddamn time." KC grumbled as he rolled his eyes and strode inside with Owen right on his heels, I was about to walk in until Dave shouldered me and walked in front of me and then Fitz walked in after him, all of them completely forgetting about me and Jake.
Jake quickly grabbed the door before it closed and I expected him to walk inside after his posse, but he held it open for me and shyly smiled.
"Ladies first." Jake murmured lowly and I slightly smiled at his manners before walking inside with Jake right next to me.
We quickly found KC and his clique by the nurses' office and Owen looked back at us and scoffed.
"Thought we forgot something. A dyke and a newbie. Figures." Owen muttered as he turned back to Fitz who was trying to open the nurses' office door, he finally succeeded and allowed KC, Owen, and Dave to walk in before he did, but before Fitz walked in he looked back at me and Jake.
"None of you fuck this up for us okay? If all of this goes well, I'll try to talk KC into calling you two by your first names, 'cause to be honest the name dyke is starting to get on my nerves." Fitz informed us before returning to his mean demeanor and walking inside, leaving me and Jake alone outside the door as 'look outs.'
"I wouldn't call you dyke you know." Jake said beside me and I looked at him confused.
"Why not? Everyone else does. Why don't you jump on the wagon and join in." I spat before picking at my blue nail polish and Jake sighed.
"Because its rude to call someone who chooses to like girls a dyke. Its not their fault that is the gender they are attracted too. I just wish KC and his little group would understand that." Jake muttered as leaned against the wall.
"Why does it bother you so much?" I asked Jake as I joined him and leaned against the wall with him.
"My sister was.. A lesbian. So I would get pissed whenever people called her a dyke." Jake murmured, his voice seemed like it was on the verge of cracking.
"Was? Did she magically stop being a lesbian?" I questioned as I looked at Jake and I noticed how his hazel eyes were starting to seem.. Watery?
"Was as in.. She's no longer here. She's.. She's dead." Jake murmured and I suddenly caught my breath and felt awful.
"Oh damn.. Jake I'm sorry that happened to your sister." I apologized, but Jake just shook his head.
"Everyone said they were sorry about what Rebecca did. Just because she jumped off a bridge that day.. They were all sorry, but they weren't." Jake sneered as I saw his eyes get even more watery as he blinked rapidly to hold the tears back.
"Why.. Why did she kill herself?" I asked Jake and Jake didn't answer, he just tried to wipe his fleeing tear away and I suddenly kicked myself for acting so impulsively and just straight up asking Jake why his own sister, his own flesh and blood killed herself.
"Crap, uhm, I shouldn't have told you that. That was.. Rude of me. I'm sorry." I apologize once more and Jake forced out a laugh.
"Its nothing, Jenna. Don't apologize. Its been four years since Rebecca died.. I can handle talking about her without being a complete mess you know." Jake said as he looked me over with his hazel eyes. I took this moment to effectively look Jake over, I hadn't spent all that much time noticing or checking out Jake, he didn't seem that important to me, just a fill in for Eli, he was nothing to the group. But it seemed like he was more than that, he was extremely tall, had messy brown hair, beautiful hazel eyes if you really paid attention to his facial features, he wasn't a bad looking guy, I can now understand why Sadie was running her mouth about Jake now, she thought he was cute, which he was in a way, but I found no attraction to him, only proving how much of a lesbian I really am.
"She jumped off a bridge one day." Jake began and I noticed how he stuffed his hands in his pockets uncomfortably. "I remember coming home from school that day and seeing Rebecca, she was how she usually was, cheerful, but it seemed forced to me, I knew something was up with her, but I didn't push it. I remember her talking to me that day, saying how even though I was always a pain in her ass - I was the best little brother she had in the world. That.. That one day I would make a great man out of myself and I would make some girl out there happy. She said I would be one hell of a man." I noticed how Jake's voice was starting to crack and even now I could feel my eyes start to water. "She told me she loved me and then she took off, no note, no nothing. After that, she never came home, Dad went crazy looking for her and they didn't find her months until some guy found her body floating around in a river.. She had jumped off a bridge after talking to me. Automatically I knew why she did it.." Jake trailed off as he tried to slyly wipe his tears away.
"Why did she do it?" I urged him on, for some reason I wanted to know more about Rebecca. Why she did what she did to Jake. How she could be so selfish to take her own life away from people who care.. People like Jake and his Dad.
Jake looked at me with red eyes and sighed.
"She did it because her group shunned her for being gay. She had no one after that. Not even her girlfriend, her girlfriend Hannah had stopped having a secret affair with her and ditched her for her boyfriend. It crushed Rebecca.. It crushed her so badly. Rebecca couldn't handle it anymore. Just hearing Eli mentioning that guy Adam in his speech a couple months ago made me remember Rebecca. Made me remember how bullying can ruin a whole person and people around them.. Just take a look at Eli, see how that ruined him?" Jake questioned me and I bit my lip.
Adam's death did ruin Eli. I remember in my freshman year how Eli was this sarcastic smartass who did nothing but read comics with Adam, everyone always though Adam was some freak, but Eli never saw that. After Adam's death.. It took a toll on the school and on Eli, he wasn't the same, him and Drew changed.
"Why did you tell me this?" I murmured as I looked up at Jake.
"Because I don't want you to be like Rebecca. Trust me when I say this Jenna.. People care. Someone would be devastated if you ever took your life.. Just don't ever do it. Especially over these assholes." Jake sneered as he looked back at the nurses' office and I noticed how there was a gleam of light coming out from underneath the crack under the door, the boys were still in there.
"I won't." I told Jake and he nodded a small smile on his lips.
Suddenly the door to the nurses' office swung open and KC, Owen, Dave and Fitz came out with three files in their hands.
"Easy as fuck." Owen told us as he waved a file that had the name of Elijah Daniel Goldsworthy printed in big black letters and I gulped, wondering what information would be in there.
"I wonder what's in Clare's here.." Dave said as he began to open the file that had the name Clare Diana Edwards printed in big black letters on the front and KC snatched the file from Dave's grubby hands."Don't go through them now asshole. We'll do that when we get back to my place." KC told Dave.
Dave nodded and soon we all moved towards the front doors and I felt a nudge on my arm and I looked over to see Jake striding beside me as he mouthed.
"Remember."
I smiled and nodded.
I certainly would remember Jake Martin's words that day.
How could I not?
It was the day that marked when I actually found my first best friend.
Alli's Point of View:
"Drew! Drew that tickles stop!" I exclaimed as I found myself laying down on Drew's bed, his body hovering over mine as he continued to trail kisses down my neck - my sweet spot as Drew called it, always using it against me when he wants to make me laugh.
"So what gorgeous. I love hearing you laugh and this is the easiest way to hear that laugh." Drew murmured as he bent down and pressed a loving kiss against my blissful lips and I gladly accepted the kiss, even pressing more into the kiss and as I pulled away I looked at Drew and then at the door.
"Are you sure everyone is asleep?" I asked Drew and Drew nodded,
"Cece and Mark are asleep with Elizabeth and Eli said he had to go take care of some things and would be back home by at least three and right now it's one." Drew informed me as he pressed another kiss to my forehead as I smiled.
Things had been going amazing for both me and Drew. September was already here and we would be back at school in a mere couple weeks and already it was Drew's senior year. Ever since Cece and Mark had moved in with their daughter Elizabeth things had been going even better. Drew has gotten a liking to Mark and baby Elizabeth, even a couple times I was over here to see Drew, I even witnessed Eli with Elizabeth or as he called her, Lizzy. She was basically the spitting image of Cece, the only things Eli and Lizzy even shared was Eli's green eyes and when she was older she'd probably get a smirk as well, I mean why wouldn't she, it was pretty much a Goldsworthy or as she is now, a Carter-Goldsworthy trait.
"What are you thinking about Bhandari?" Drew questioned me as he looked down at me with those eyes I loved.
I reached my hand up and placed it behind his neck, gently rubbing his neck.
"Just about how everything seems to be perfect now." I whispered as Drew smiled in response.
"Does seem like everything is.. Perfect." Drew murmured, but soon his smile faltered and I cocked an eyebrow at him.
"What's wrong?" I asked him and Drew sighed.
"I was thinking about.. Clare.." Drew said as he bit his lip and I sighed, feeling sadness sweep through me.
Clare was still a topic yet to be discussed with Eli.
"I can't keep it a secret forever, Alli." Drew muttered.
"You have to, Drew." I scolded Drew and he sighed and sat up and I did the same.
"I know I do.. But Eli is my best friend. I hate seeing him so down and confused about what's wrong with Clare, he asked me a couple days ago if I knew what would be wrong with her and I didn't know. I just told him that he should be thankful that she's better now." Drew told me and I looked away at the posters on Drew's walls.
"This is just.. I still can't believe it.. If that was you.." Drew's voice broke and I quickly reassured him by pressing several kisses on his neck and face and even climbing in his lap.
"Drew don't think that. I'm not gonna die anytime soon alright?" I comforted Drew and he sighed.
"I just.. I love you so much.." Drew trailed off and suddenly I looked up at him with wide surprised eyes.
He loved me?
"You love me?" I asked Drew incredulous and he laughed nervously.
"Of course I do.. Why wouldn't I?" Drew asked and I rolled my eyes.
"I cheated on you.. You cheated on me.. I never thought you'd fall back in love with me." I murmured nervously.
"Who said I ever fell out of it?" Drew asked and I looked back at him with a grin.
"I love you Drew Torres." I said softly and Drew chuckled, drawing me closer to him so he could kiss me gently.
"I love you too Alli Bhandari." Drew said as he ran a hand through my mane of hair and I looked back at the clock before trailing my fingers up his chest, feeling his heartbeat quicken at that.
"You did say that Eli wouldn't be back until three right?" I asked Drew and he nodded as he breathed in and out heavily at my hand sliding under his shirt.
"Lets take advantage yeah?" I asked Drew and before I knew it, I was back on my back again and Drew was straddling me as we resumed where we left off.
KC's Point of View:
"So what does Drew's say?" I questioned Fitz as he went though Drew's file and he shook his head.
"Nothing really. Just says he has trauma from what happened to Adam, but we all knew that right?" Fitz asked and I shook my head as I took a long hearty drink from my can of beer as Fitz threw Drew's file on the coffee table.
"What about Eli's?" I asked Owen who was trifling through papers of Eli's, just squinting his eyes at all the information.
"Trauma. Same as Drew's. That and anxiety problems. Nothing major." Owen said with a bored tone as he threw Eli's file on the coffee table on top of Drew's file.
"That's boring shit. Clare better have something interesting." Dave noted as he looked over at me, as did the rest of our clique as I realized I still had Clare's file in my hands.
I set my can down on the table and opened up Clare's file, she had the usual any file would have, name, date of birth, parents information, home information. That was usually boring so I flipped through some more pages until I reached the health records part of the file, I squinted as I tried my best to read what the lettering said.
Trauma from death.
Human Immunodeficiency Virus
Human Immunodeficiency Virus?
Where the fuck have I heard that word before? Health class Guthrie.. Think back to Grade Nine.
"Guys? What is.. Human Immunodeficiency Virus?" I asked them all as I said the words slowly and looked up at their faces, which were blank and shocked. I looked at all of them narrowly. "What?" I asked again with a rougher tone and Jake cleared his throat."That is uh.. The long term for HIV. You know.. The terminal STD?" Jake informed me and suddenly I looked down at this piece of information in my hands like it was God. I couldn't believe I had found this out!
"Why would you ask that bro?" Owen asked as he set his beer can down on the coffee table and I laughed harshly as I held the file out to Owen who took it confusingly.
"Guess what I found out about Clare." I told Owen and after some skimming through, Owen's eyes widened at the news and he scoffed as he handed the file to Fitz as he smirked.
"I told you guys there was something wrong with that chick! She has an STD!" Fitz exclaimed and Jenna quickly snatched the file from his hands as she went through it and looked at it in shock.
"Holy crap.. She's dying." Jenna said with her mouth open agape and Jake leaned in closer to her to see the file and his own eyes widened at the news.
"Who cares! We just got our revenge!" Owen shouted and I smirked and nodded as I high fived, Owen.
"Milligan's right guys. We got our revenge." I told them all, but then Jenna spoke up as she handed the file to Jake.
"How can we use this as revenge?" Jenna asked as she crossed her arms across her chest and I sneered in her direction.
"I guarantee you Eli doesn't know about this. Or her friends. Or the school." Fitz started and I knew where he was going with that.
"I bet Clare cheated on Eli." I said sure of myself and Owen, Fitz and Dave nodded along with me.
"Clare doesn't seem like the cheating type.." Jenna murmured as she looked around at us nervously.
"And you didn't seem like the dyke type, but hey! Look you are." I spat and I saw as Jake's hands went rigid as he heard those words which left me confused, but Jenna quickly calmed him down as his lanky hands uncurled from their fist position.
"Anyway.." I said slowly as I looked back at my boys. "We plan this shit out before school starts. We get the revenge going a couple months into the school year so nothing will seem sketchy to them. Revenge smells so good boys." I told my group and they all smiled in response and I noticed from the corner of my eye how Jenna and Jake seemed off, like nervous and recluse.
I didn't need to care about those two anyway, I was too busy plotting for revenge. Nobody fucks with me.
Because if they do.. Their girlfriend will become the slut of the school.
Eli's Point of View:
Why was I out in the humid night air at two in the morning?
Could someone enlighten me to as why I had been sitting here for the past two hours?
Why I was sitting on my best friend's grave, expecting something out of coming here.
But I hadn't uttered a single word since arriving to Adam's grave.
Not until now.
I took a deep breath and opened my eyes, staring at the words Adam Torres carved onto the stone.
"Hey.." I started with a shaky voice. "I don't know if you can you know.. Hear me and what I'm saying.. But I needed to come here dude." I said as I looked down and started tearing off pieces of green grass. "I'm scared.." I breathed out as I could feel the sting of tears in my eyes and I blinked rapidly. "I'm scared about Clare.. And I don't know if she's okay.. She seems healthy now. She's smiling, laughing, giggling, she's the same ball of energy she always was. She tells me she just has a crappy immune system and that it always happens to where she'll get really sick, but.. I don't believe her Adam.. Sometimes I think she's dying just because of how she looks but.. She can't be dying.. She just can't." I said forcefully as I reached up and quickly wiped my tears away. "I just want my girlfriend to be okay.. I love her and.. This is so goddamn hard." I cursed as I felt more tears fall down my cheeks.
"I haven't heard you that emotional in months man."
That voice. I had heard that voice. It's been haunting me. It belonged to the first person who made me feel like I belonged.
It was the voice of my best friend.
I whipped my head to the direction of the voice and then I saw him.
Fully dressed in what I saw him last in a year ago as he strode towards me and I quickly stood up and found myself frozen, numb, like I couldn't run away.
"Ready to bolt so soon bro? That's a new one." Adam teased as he was soon in front of me.
"Who.. What.. I.." I scrambled to find words and Adam just nodded along and when I quit babbling, Adam raised an eyebrow at me.
"I'm not alive first off." Adam began and I felt my heart break a bit at hearing those words, a part of me wanted him to be alive, because I could really use the alive him right now. "Secondly. Everything will get better with Clare." Adam said knowingly and I gaped at him.
"How do you.." I trailed off and Adam rolled his eyes.
"I'm a freakin' angel dude. I see shit all the time." Adam told me and I nodded along like I knew what he meant when I was completely lost.
"I miss you." I murmured as I looked at Adam and he sighed as he stuffed his hands into his pockets.
"I miss you too bro." Adam said, his voice breaking and I knew I had to ask him.
"Why? Why did you do it? Why did you take your life away from everyone who loved you? Why?" I screamed and I noticed how Adam's blue eyes filled up with tears as he sighed.
"I had to." Adam simply said.
"You put me through hell." I told Adam harshly, I wanted to divulge into how deep my depression was and how much trauma I was in after he overdosed, but seeing the pain and regret in his eyes, I decided against it.
"I know.. I'm sorry." Adam apologized and I sighed as I leaned against a tree and looked at Adam.
"How did things get so fucked up." I muttered angrily.
"That's how life is. Its fucked up." Adam told me and I bit my lip nervously.
"I just want Clare to be okay." I murmured to Adam and Adam stepped forward and placed his hand on my shoulder, only to see it go through and send shivers down my spine as he did so.
"She will be.. Eventually." Adam murmured softly and I cocked an eyebrow at him.
"Eventually? When is eventually, Adam?" I asked him and Adam shrugged before whispering.
"Sechs jahre."
I only looked at Adam in even more confusion.
"What the fuck kind of language is that, Adam? At least say it in French! That I can understand." I told Adam annoyed and Adam chuckled.
"I never did take French did I?" Adam teased and soon I could see him disappearing.
"Adam! Dude - Don't go!" I shouted, but it was too late, Adam was already gone and I was soon left alone in the cemetery once more.
Sechs jahre.
What the fuck did that even mean?
How was that suppose to tell me when Clare was gonna be alright again?
Why won't anyone tell me anything?
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