Secrets- N-Dubz

Kelly POV

Before St Trinians I was a lone free ranger, fighting against the current. Nobody knows anything about me of course, it wouldn't do to have unwelcome and unneeded sympathy. The only people that know of my secret is Miss Fritton and Polly, that shouldn't be a shocking thing to know. Naturally Polly was looking for blackmail material when she found out, she'd never use it against me though. I trust Polly, she knows when to keep her mouth shut and when to open it. That is a rare skill within these walls, not many of us have it. Having Polly know of my secret is ideal because she can prevent the girls finding out accidently.

Mummy had problems that couldn't be fixed quick enough, Daddy couldn't cope with them. He left us, I don't blame him for what he did. Different people cope with things in different ways, Dad's way of coping was leaving. He left me to look after Mum, I wasn't even a teenager when I took on that responsibility. For a while I somehow managed to cope with caring for Mum, that was until I started secondary school. Things were fine to start with, I had managed to make new friends there and keep my secret from them. When I hit thirteen things changed, that was the year when all the bitching and rumours began. It felt like I didn't have any friends anymore, I decided to make new friends. Those friends were the reason why I was expelled from school.

We messed about in school, it was a joke to us. We thought we were cool and ten metres tall, I felt invincible. I was flying off of the rails and no longer taking my responsibilities at home seriously. It was because of my rebellion that Mum began to get worse, she stopped taking her pills and her illness was slowly taking over. She was getting worse by the day and I ignored it, I shrugged it off and carried on with my rebellion. It hit me hard when I came home one day and found two police cars and an ambulance waiting outside of our home, I can remember the feel of the lump that formed in my throat. At first I thought she had killed herself, then a police woman approached me. She seemed to know who I was and lead me over to a plain car.

I'll never forget that day, it will always be vivid in my memory. It was the day that Miss Fritton arrived to take me to the school that I now rule. She promised to not say anything and I then got on with things. I sailed through my years at St Trinians and enjoyed every one of them, as a bonus Mum began returning to her old self and took her medicine. Then Polly goes and finds out, I didn't show it but when she found out my world began to crumble. The red headed girl had found my only weakness. She tried to understand but it wasn't something you could understand without going through it, Polly was smart but she wouldn't be able to understand perfectly. "We're all family Kelly," Polly reminded me, "We help each other in every way."

Polly was right, St Trinians is my family. They still don't know about Mum and that's how I plan on keeping it.

I didn't know how to write this and that's why it took longer then usual. I'll write a happy one soon, maybe a Kel/Belle...

Review because I'm slowly getting around to the requests I haven't done?