I'm sooooooo sorry for not updating, and I was planning to write it tonight, but then I ran into a writer's block. I suddenly felt like nothing I wrote was good enough, and the need to rewrite everything just came over me! I suddenly hated ever word ever written in Newborn – I still do – and so, the story will make a twist, when I finally get on with it. The way I write it will change a bit, if not much. I don't know how, but I know that these emotions will have an inflict.
Of course I won't rewrite everything, though I want to. But this feeling is dangerous – it's feelings like that that make you stop writing a story. Right now I'm in the state of writer's block called self-loathing and hopelessness. There is one plus, though – I'm more up for writing my own stories now – though it is also depressing to me that I cannot write them in English.
Anyhow; I'm sorry for being such a depressed person! And I'm sorry that you have to bear with me. But I just don't feel as good enough a writer to continue the story right now. SO sorry! You can't even begin to imagine! Argh!
It's a real dangerous thing – reading other stories. You need it for inspiration and to develop your own writing and such, but it's damn dangerous because feelings as though I am in right now can come over you. *Sigh*
I'll try to get over it as fast as possible, but I can't guarantee anything.
Dawn