Entry 36
Tonight I talked to Keitaro about how he failed the exam. It was so hard to bring up. Oh Keitaro... If only I could have controlled my curiosity. I know that it is an embarrassing subject to talk about. I'm so sorry that I embarrassed you. Still. The answer that you gave me. About how you spent most of you life dreaming of your promised girl. How you wouldn't allow any girls to get close to you because you didn't want to lose your love for your promised girl. About how you would spend days dreaming of being with her. Of teaching yourself how to cook in case she couldn't. Of how you would spend you time in class dreaming of meeting her and not paying attention to the teacher. Of how happy you were when you thought that Naru-sempai was your promised girl. Of how you slowly came back to reality while you were here. How you found out that you could no longer afford to live in dreams. Of how Naru-sempai was so hard to study with. How she would never show you how to do the work. Of how she would just get upset at you and show you the answer. Of how for the first part of the year you couldn't study at all because we were working you too hard. I'm sorry Keitaro. Of how you teacher could see that you were paying attention and working hard this year. Of how your he gave you the idea of teaching somebody your work. How he said that you would probably be able to learn faster that way. Of how you wanted to help me with my math. How your two goals were parallel to each other. Oh Keitaro... We didn't get much studying done tonight but you looked so relieved to finally get that off of your shoulders. I never knew how hard it was for you Keitaro. I am so happy that I can help you.
Good night Keitaro. I love you