The rain from outside hit their windows loudly, so that made Meredith to open her eyes. She found herself in Derek's arms, facing him and her arms resting over his waist. Meredith smiled when she realized she was in Derek's arms and their bare bodies were covered by what, at that hour, seemed to be a brown blanket. Slowly, she turned around and looked over the clock to check the hour. It was almost 5 a.m., so there was still some time left for them to stay in bed. Meredith sighed with relief especially after the discomfort that the rolling gave to her stomach.

Derek felt her moves, so he woke up too.

"Are you ok?" He asked her in whisper, brushing her cheek with his thumb.

Meredith looked back and him and rolled into his arms. "Yeah"

"Morning" Derek leaned on her and kissed her.

"Morning" She answered to his kiss and then pulled away a little. "Where did you find this?" She asked him confused referring at the blanket over them.

"I had it in my car; see? I always take good care of you!" He chuckled and flipped her onto her back. He got on top of her leaving his body over hers and started to kiss her.

"You always take good care of me!" Meredith giggled kissing him and running her hands through his hair.

Derek returned to his previous position in bed and laid onto his back, sneaking his arm again under her neck. "Do you know what day this day reminds me of?"

"What day?"

"The first morning I woke up with you"

"After that night at Joe" Meredith smiled remembering that morning.

"That's right and your room and your bed, were looking exactly like this one!"

"Except for the missing pillows! I had pillows!"

"But you didn't use it that much then!"

"Maybe, but I had pillows!" Meredith giggled.

"You had pillows!" Derek laughed and came back on top of her. Just that this time, when he pressed his body over hers and started kissing her, Meredith pushed him away. "What?"

"I am not feeling very good!"

"I can see that! What is wrong?" Derek asked her hearing the tone of her voice and the way her body was trembling next to him. "Are you cold?" Suspecting the cause, he started to rub her body.

"No" Meredith moved him hand away from her then, she did the exact same thing with the blanket and stood up. She found her sweater from the previous evening and pulled it over the head and then, finding her panties too she put them on a got out of them.

"Where are you going?" Derek asked her confused after he had watched how she hurried to get out of the bed.

Meredith didn't have time to give him an answer running inside the bathroom.

Derek heard her throwing up, so he hurried to pull some clothes over him and went to check on her. He found her down in her knees, bent over the toilet and puking. He turned on the lights and got down on his knees holding her hair to back and rubbing gently her back.

When she calmed down, Meredith fell in her sit and leaned against the wall exhausted. Derek stood up and wetted a washcloth, chilling her out a little with it. "Are you better?"

Meredith shook her head keeping the eyes closed and mumbling exhausted. "I am dizzy"

Derek took a seat down next to her and wrapped an arm around her. Meredith rested her head on him and they stood there like that for several moments.

"I am a little better" Meredith raised her head from him. She saw Derek looking at her into a weird way. He seemed worried but happy too, in the same time. "Now what happened to you?"

"Nothing" Derek stood up and then he helped her up too. "I should run you some tests!"

"Why? It passed now!"

"You are still looking pale and what if…" He didn't continue and could not help not to smile.

"What if what?"

"What if you are pregnant?"

Meredith put a hand over her abdomen and fell back on her knees puking in toilet.

Any shade of worry from earlier, was far gone on Derek's face when Meredith started to throw up again.

The second round didn't last long and Meredith refused Derek's help, when he wanted to wipe her face and neck again. She stood up and moved over the sink, burying the face under the cold water. When she looked up, Meredith looked at her in mirror; she saw Derek standing behind her smiling.

"Stop Derek" Meredith snapped at him and shut off the water. "I can't- be pregnant!"

"Let's do a test when we get to hospital, ok?"

"No Derek!" Meredith turned around and pushed him away from her way. "I can't be pregnant- not now." She stormed out of the bathroom and returned in bedroom.

"But it is the possibility to be, so we have to check." Even though, Meredith was angry, Derek was still calm, less smiley, but not discouraged by Meredith's denial.

"Derek, please stop!" Meredith begged him looking back at him.

Her terrified face worried him again. "Come and sit here." Derek took her hand and led her to bed.

She took a seat and Derek kneeled in front of her. "Meredith, but what if- what if you are pregnant?"

"Derek" She pleaded him with her voice and her eyes to stop.

"What if, Meredith?"

When Meredith started crying at his question, Derek felt his heart sinking. He set down on floor, looking ahead in blank.

"I hope I am not!" Meredith stood up and started to get dress.

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Because the morning sickness brought the very early to hospital, Meredith took a shower in locker room.

Her friends found her laid down on a bench already dressed in her scrubs, when they came in.

"What happened with you?" Christina asked her.

Meredith noticed her friends' presence, so she stood up. "Nothing- just tired"

If the others seemed fine with her answer imagining the reason for her tiredness, Alex knew her too well and he knew that was something else, worse than the sex happening to her, so he hurried and changed into his scrubs. When he was done, he grabbed Meredith's arm and pulled her up from bench.

"What are you doing, Alex?"

"We need to talk." He said without giving too much attention to her struggle to escape from his grip and continued to drag her after him.

"I don't want to talk."

"I don't care, now come!" Alex was determined to find out what had happened to her that brought her into that state, so he dragged her out of the locker room.

He closed the door behind them and took her into a quiet corner.

"Now tell me what happened and please don't tell me it's nothing." Alex stood in front of her and took a serious position in front of her, crossing the arms against his chest.

"I might be pregnant." Meredith murmured staring at the floor.

"Again?! You might be pregnant, again?" Alex asked surprised but a little amused too in the same time.

Meredith gestured a nod without looking at him.

"God Meredith! I thought the last scare made you wiser and you would protect yourself more, coz from what I see, you are not thrilled at all by the idea of becoming a mommy!"

"Alex please!" Meredith looked up at him sad. "You can twit me about this later, now I can deal it."

"Fine" Alex leaned against the wall next to her. "Does Derek know?"

"Yeah- he drew me the blood earlier."

"What does he say?"

"He was excited, this is the problem and I am not."

"He was?!" Alex asked her confused.

"He was- until he saw I am not and he asked me what if."

"And? What if?"

Meredith shrugged. "I hope I am not!"

Alex put an arm around her and brought her to him for some comfort. "But still- what if?"

"Alex" Meredith cried out begging him not to make her say it.

"Mer, Derek loves you and you would be an excellent mother!"

"Alex" Meredith pulled herself away from him. "Are you saying I should keep the baby?"

"You love babies, Mer! You often used to tell me how anxious you was to become a mother."

"And I still am, but not now! I am only an intern and this is already too exhausting for me!"

"Would you want to lose Derek when you know very well you can have all?"

Meredith sighed knowing that Alex was right. "I will never have sex again, if I am not pregnant this time either!"

"Now you are overreacting, Mer! Try some pills; you don't have to be that radical!" Alex joked hoping that she would taste his joke.

She smiled slightly and put her head down on his shoulder. "We had such a great day yesterday!"

"So you found a house!"

"We did and it's gorgeous, but it also makes me think that Derek wishes more from us- he wants a family!"

"Now don't freak out! I am sure he does and you do too, but it doesn't mean he wants it right away! You should talk to him straight about you two!"

"I will" Meredith said silently.

Right in that moment, Bailey was coming to locker room, when she saw Alex and Meredith. She could tell from Meredith's face that something was wrong.

"The assignments" She informed them and walked inside.

Meredith and Alex followed her.

"Yang and Stevens, you two will work with Shepherd today, Karev you are with Sloan, Grey on scut…"

"What? Why?" Meredith protested.

Bailey held a hand up for her to shut up and continued. "and O'Mailey you go with Burke! Now all go, Grey stay!"

On his way out, Alex squeezed Meredith's arm for encouragement and followed the others outside.

"I want you to know that what happened with Anthony wasn't your fault, but what I don't understand, Meredith is why do you have to complicate your existence at Seattle Grace with your personal life?"

Bailey's tone as she said that was calm and like sympathetic, which is why Meredith remained stunned looking at her.

"Hey Grey" Bailey clapped her fingers in Meredith raising her voice.

"Oh sorry, is just that…um" Meredith rambled.

"Save it!" Bailey helped her and cut her ramble. "I know, but it's on my duty to make sure that you are alright!"

"Thank you!" Meredith smiled.

"Don't thank me; I told you… it is part of my job! Now tell me why do you make your life so complicated?"

"So you are not a fan of Shepherd's either!" Meredith concluded.

Bailey looked at shaking her head as disapproval. "Meredith, you are doing very well so far as doctor, you have the luck to have Ellis Webber as a mother, Chief Webber is also by your side supporting you, you should use your last name wiser."

Meredith smiled. It did not surprise her at all what Bailey had just told her. She was often hearing from many people that line. This time it was her turn to shake her head and disapprove Bailey's words. "I am sorry for what am I about to say and I appreciate your concern, but Dr. Bailey- you don't know anything about Ellis Grey or Ellis Webber, whatever you want to call her and you also don't know anything about my last name. I don't know anything about my last name either. Ellis is my teacher, my boss, your mentor, but she is not my mother, as for my father, the man who gave him his last name- I don't even remember him- he is a stranger, an unknown person for me! I can easily say that I am orphan." Meredith almost laughed at her own conclusion. "I've never felt Ellis as my mother, I am calling her mom maybe because that's how you have to call the person who gave you birth- actually probably my birth was the only time when Ellis was my mother." If at first she tried to stay calm and let herself overwhelmed by that subject, at this point tears had started to fill her eyes.

Bailey had listened her very careful and when Meredith took a break to breathe, she took her arm and led her to take a seat on bench with her.

"You have no idea how much I hate my last name" Meredith sighed. "I would give anything not to wear this name anymore and just to be called Meredith and Derek-" Meredith paused for a second. "He is the best thing that happened to me so far."

Then, the silence fell over them. Bailey kept staring ahead and Meredith to floor. Bailey nodded silently and looked at her.

When she felt her eyes on her, Meredith spoke again. "Besides I might be pregnant."

Bailey took a shocked face. "Fool!"

"I know" Meredith smiled and looked at her.

"But I was fool too in my first year as doctor and now I am a mommy!"

Meredith looked surprised at her. She didn't know Bailey was a mother.

"Yes I am a mommy and I am proud to be a mommy! My husband and my son make go on through each day." Bailey stood up and looked at her. "You might feel like you are going to die, but you can do it."

"So can I get something surgical?" Meredith asked hoping for a positive answer.

"So you are on scut!" She snapped. "Now go!"

Meredith nodded and hurried outside.