I kick a pebble, watching it skid across the asphalt. I sigh loudly, sitting down cross-legged on the sidewalk.

The rain is falling so hard that I'm soaked within seconds. At least now nobody can see me cry.

For hours I've been dying to get away. I've been stuck with all the alphas for hours, pretending to listen to them trying to lay new plans. Not even sure if they managed to make one. Like I said: I wasn't listening.

I push dripping hair out of my face, staring into the dark alleys.

I don't know why, but I feel my hands tighten in fists. Weird thing is I don't know why. I just know that sitting out here all alone I feel scared. I feel like there's something in the alley that will soon jump out and attack me.

'Scared, little cub?'

I'm on my feet and fangs out in a second. I recognise Kali who's standing a few feet away, looking smug.

I can't put my finger on it, but there's something about Kali. It's not just the fact that only a few hours ago she tortured my boyfriend and almost killed him, though that is a big part of me not liking her.

But there's something else. I know that before all of this – all of the moving to Beacon Hills and finding out about werewolves and becoming one – I've seen her. Maybe even met. Probably didn't like her then, either, but I have met her before. And somehow she hurt me then, too.

'What do you want?' I ask, drawing at my claws just for safety measures.

She doesn't answer me. She just takes a few steps closer, that gleeful smile of her face.

Remembering how she tortured Derek I can't help but feel the rage rise in me again, and without much thought I lunge for her.

I haven't fought anyone since I became an Alpha, and the feeling is remarkable. I feel so strong, so fast – and so in control.

I dig my claws into Kali's waist, scraping them up her body.

She growls in rage, swinging her foot at me and cutting my throat. Luckily I'm fast enough to bend backwards, so she doesn't get deep enough to kill me.

'Deucalion won't be happy when he finds out you tried to kill me,' I tease her. Her fangs are clear now, her eyes red.

I have a feeling I look quite much like that, too.

'You tried to kill me,' she says, but I just smile as I shake my head.

'Oh, no. I wanted to hurt you, not kill you.'

'Revenge for you darling boyfriend?' she sneers, a smirk forming on her lips.

I stand up straight, retreating my fangs.

Her smirk grows; 'did you really think you could hide it for much longer?'

'I wasn't hiding anything,' I shrug, crossing my arms over my chest.

Kali retreats her fangs as well, walking up to me.

'You got them into the vault,' she whispers in my ear. She walks around me slowly, before stopping on the other side.

'You're helping them.'

I turn to look at her, our noses nearly brushing.

'Says who?'

'Says I,' she smiles. 'Now that is something Deuc won't appreciate.'

I laugh. I laugh right into her face.

'Honestly,' I drawl, 'If you know about so so-called affair with Hale, then I can reassure you; Deucalion definitely knows.'

I give her a light shrug before I start to walk down the street, knowing Kali won't follow me.

She looses interest quite quickly.

As I turn a corner, I run.

I run as fast as I can, and I don't stop until I collapse on the ground from exhaustion. I look up, recognising the Hale house.

So much has happened since the first time I saw this house. Back then I was human, my biggest problem was the difficulty of getting a job.

I might've not realised it back then, but I was happy.

At least now all I want is my life back. My old life. Before werewolves and hunters and kanimas. Before everything.

From the sobs escaping my throat I know I'm crying.

I almost wish Peter hadn't bit me now, so that when I died… So that when I died, I stayed dead.

'Private property,' he repeats, his tone perfectly calm. 'I suggest you turn around, and leave.'

'You live there?' I ask, pointing towards an almost burnt down house.

'Yes.'

I frown. 'Really?'

Looking back at the house, I see several shattered windows. Planks are hanging down, on the verge of falling any time soon. A large chunk on the left side in missing, and it has no room.

The first time I met him…

It's so weird thinking about it. It feels like a lifetime ago – which it sort of is.

I shrug, 'too bad. He has homework, and because his father spends a lot of time at work these day, he's my responsibility.'

I can feel Stiles staring at me, and in the corner of my eye I see him gaping slightly. It's sort of funny, actually.

I don't think a lot of people reject this guy, because he looks quite surprised and taken aback.

'Now go and run along, handsome,' I smile and pat his cheek, before closing the door in his face.

Oh, I was so embarrassed after I did that. The memory makes me smile. I almost wish Derek was a normal human being, because that way I could have a normal relationship with him. Probably on/off like now, but still. I wouldn't have to have dealt with Alphas and kanimas on top of it all, as well as trying to protect Stiles.

I grab a stone and throw it at the house in rage.

'Why?' I call out. 'WHY ME?'

I gasp for breath, my shoulders shaking.

How could this happen to me? I have nowhere to run anymore. I don't even have parents who love me. They both blame me for their own mistakes.

I just want to start over. I try to hold on to that time when nothing mattered, when I was a normal girl, but I can't.

I've done too much since then.

I've even murdered someone.

You can't come back from that. You simply can't.

Drawing my knees to my chest, I wrap my arms around them and then I just sit there and cry. I let go of everything, letting my emotions pour out of me.

A/N: This chapter is completely off script, meaning as you've probably understood; it doesn't follow any episode. I just thought, that after everything she's been through Sophia's had to lock away a lot of feelings to stay sane. In this chapter she's starting to break. She's showing how much pain she's actually in. How mad she is at everything. I've also dropped a few hints as to why she moved to Beacon Hills, and there's more to come. She's got quite the story, and over the course of a few chapters I'll unravel it all. But what do you think of this chapter and me going off script? Let me know, eh?