Chapter 34 – Gone
"Mike!"
Sam was almost in tears, disbelief of the words escaping Michael's lips. Fright and disbelief struck Fi instantly as the words came from Michael's mouth, her ears buzzing. Her mind repeating the words. Her eyes stinging as she tried to battle the tears that threatened her eyes...
Sam tried his best, calling out and trying so desperately to get Michael's attention, to snap him out of whatever turmoil he was concealed in. Whatever he could...
His hands shaking, his heart pounding so hard deep within his chest, he could almost hear it.. The silence of the loft was deafening and traumatising...The issue they had before them was greater than any, even the events that occurred almost a month a go. This was almost impossible to deal with.
Fi watched him, her mind spinning. She was drowsy from the sudden strain and pressure dumped on top of them. She couldn't gather how any of this had happened, or why for that matter. Nothing made sense... Why exactly was this happening? Did they not deserve a much needed break from chaos? Her heart sank and split into millions of pieces. Shattered. She watched him, wanting so much to hear him say her name... But the lost look upon his face made her sob even more...
This was not, Michael.
"Maybe... Maybe if I got Maddie here?"
Sam struggled with his words, his brain racing. He tried to fix the problem, trying to figure it all out. Finding out ways to deal with it. He let his thoughts be heard. Only to have Fi sit there before Michael, her eyes glued to him. A sad and devastated look crossed her face...She clenched her hands in a fist...
"How.. did this happen, Sam?"
Fi finally whispered, a sorrow look at Sam before turning back to watch Michael...
Her voice so low and croaky. Hesitation struck Sam, as he tried to find some convalescing words. Nothing could sooth her any more, not now.
Sam felt a sudden strive to get Michael to react.. His hands shook more as adrenaline surged through his veins, full of anger and pain..
"Mike!"
He screamed into Michael's ear, no reaction. Just a slow blink...
He finally gasped...
"Stop yelling at me, My Name isn't Michael... I don't know who Michael is"
Fi cringed and shivered as he spoke the words, gritting her teeth then biting her lower lip. She had to get away from him before she let loose... Stepping out of the loft, Fi dropped down to her knees... Crying.
After everything that had happened, the memories flashed right before. The feelings and suffering surfacing her again. Stringing and pulling at her. She could barely breathe. The one man she loved had lost his memory. Everything they had gone through, the emotions, the words and actions... Nothing was remembered. It was all gone and lost. Only forever in her thoughts...Haunting her of what she once had and may never have again.
She felt there was nothing left to do, her mind was clouded. Her hands buried her face, filled with sorrow and pain she pulled her hands away.. Wishing, Praying Michael would come out and hold her and remember just how much he loved her.. just how much she loved him. Everything seemed dull and broken. Staring at the metal steps, her eyes caught the Charger... Swallowing the large lump that dug away in her throat. She tried to gather herself. Tried so hard to think positive and believe that this would end, believe that it wasn't permanent. She stepped up carefully and stood there for a moment... cleaning herself up, wiping and rubbing her drenched face, clearing her throat. She licked her lips and turned. Standing in front of the door to the Loft. Her hand shaking as she placed it on the handle, hesitating whether or not she was ready...
Walking in slowly and cautiously. She could feel she would set off and burst into tears again. She walked towards Sam and Michael.. Her eyes fixed on Sam, hoping he'd give her some good news.. But the devastated puppy look sitting on Sam's face was enough...
Madeline bursts in right after Fi, Sam called her and briefly said a few words. The tone in his voice was enough, and to hear that it was about Michael set off Madeline's alarms. Her face covered in concern, she could see Fi's face, so sore and drenched in tears... Something was wrong, very wrong...
"Sam!"
Madeline's eyes caught Sam in her view, her hands grabbed a hold of Fi's...Both, shaking.
She turned to see Michael, he looked normal. Just a little bruised from the accident...
"Michael..."
She gasped, almost with relief as she could see physically he was alright and well...
Sam lowered his head, his hands clenched... His eyes closed, wishing this plan would work...
He was afraid of Madeline's reaction as well, uncertain of how she'd react to her son having amnesia...How was he prepared to deal with that? He had no idea how Madeline would be feeling...
His eyes still on the ground as he sat there, Madeline spoke again with her hand on his shoulder. Startling him, Michael looked up at locked eyes with Madeline.. her smile soon turning into a frown as she could see the utter lost look in his eyes...
"Who are you?"
Madeline gave him a concerned and puzzled look before aggressively reacting...
"Michael..."
Giving him that tone they all knew of, although it hinted struggle in her words...
Michael stared at her then back at Sam, turning to see Fi...
"How many times, do I have to tell you? My name is not Michael"
Shouting, Michael stood up and hissed. Walking towards the door, towards Fi.. Fi stood and stopped him in his tracks...
"Maybe you'll remember this"
Fi screamed at him before punching his face with her fist... Michael's head snapped to the side, throbbing as she collided her fist with his cheekbone... Michael turned to Fi, nothing but an angered and irritated look struck him, his left hand softly rubbing his cheek...
Fi stepped back and awaited for a response.. waiting for him to retaliate or something...
Michael stood there for a moment and watched Fi, in disbelief she went and punched him out of nowhere for no reason...
"Get out of my way..."
The look he gave Fi broke her, it pained her to see... the look of disgust... She stepped aside, surrendering... She wasn't sure what to say or do any more, her hand gently massaging her knuckles... Was that really the last time she'd ever be in contact with him, she looked back and watched him leave, shutting the door behind him.. Fi couldn't let this be the last time she'd ever touch him again...
Fi ran out of the Loft, rushing after him. All she could hear was Madeline screaming, demanding she knew what was happening. She rushed out and saw Michael just leaving by the gate...
She pulled her way out of the gap between the gate and swiftly ran after him. Her hands pulled his arms back, spinning him around she pulled him close and clasped his face with her hands and brought him in, kissing him gently...Tears slipped from her eyes, her fingers stroking his cheeks. Smelling his scent, her hands dropped down to his chest. She could feel his heartbeat.. the very same rhythm that would send her to sleep...
Breaking away from the sweet kiss, Michael gave her a confused look...Fi kept a hold of him, her grip tighter on his arms as he slowly tried to pull away...
"I don't... know who you want me to be..."
The words sank through Fi, killing her inside. Tears fell from her eyes as she watched Michael walk away...
Author's Note (MUST READ):
This is an ALTERNATE ENDING to Carry Me. It is NOT the official ending. I felt that I'd end this because of the lack of reviews lately (Besides Chapter 32).The Official ending is nowhere near last chapter and is much more intense and involves the original plot line. If I get encouraged to go forth and have reviews insisting and sharing their love for this fic, I WILL continue on as normal and Delete this chapter. Reviews and enthusiasm is what us writers crave, we need it to keep going. If we don't, we feel our work is not appreciated and therefore not good enough to continue with. I hope you all are eager to see this fic through and find out what happens.. otherwise, this fic is Done. PLEASE Let me know on how you feel and how much you'd like this to continue...