A/N: Picking up right where we left off on the previous Chapter!
Previously:
"I've been thinking about some stuff and I'm not sure how you will take it so I'm not sure I'm ready to share with you just yet"
"Hey, look at me. Arizona, you know you can talk to me about anything right?"
"I know. Just been doing a lot of thinking lately about stuff and I don't know how you feel about it"
"Okay, so why don't you ask me, and I'll tell you how I feel about it"
"I'm going to; but Calliope I really need an honest answer or opinion from you here"
"Arizona, you're starting to scare me a little here. This sounds serious"
"It is serious Calliope"
"Then talk to me"
"Iwanttohaveanotherbaby!" I ramble out all at once
"Excuse me, I didn't get that, can you repeat it but try a little slower this time"
"I said: I. want. Another. Baby!"
Callie's POV
Okay I think I dozed off here on the park bench because there's no way in hell Arizona (my Arizona) is suggesting we have another baby. I don't think I heard her right. Could I have? She really wants another baby? Do I want another baby? Of course I do, she promised me 10 kids all those years ago. I can't have any more kids, so she's either forgotten that or she's suggesting she carries. She wouldn't have forgotten that would she? GOD there's so many questions running through my head right now I can't think straight.
"Calliope, you got awfully quiet on me, are you okay?"
"Hmmm?"
"I said are you okay, you look a little pale; like you seen a ghost or something"
"Ummmm Sorry, you just caught me off guard here is all. I didn't realize you were thinking about that. Are you serious? Do you really want more kids?"
"Yes Calliope, I am serious. We are stronger than we've ever been, we're open and honest with each other, we are communicating more now than we ever did in all our previous years together. I think now is the perfect time to expand our family. Sofia is just starting school and I think she'd make an awesome big sister. Do you not want more kids?"
"Arizona, there's nothing in this world I want more. You promised me 10 kids years ago, I think 10 is pushing it a little but YES I want more kids. I can't have any more though remember?"
"Calliope, do you really think I would forget something that important. I want to try and carry again. I'm in a better place, we are stronger than ever, I'm in a great mind space and I feel better than I have in so many years! I think it's the perfect time"
"Well, how can I argue with all that? Then my answer is YES Arizona, let's have another baby!"
"AWESOME!"
"I will call Addison tomorrow and see when she can see us"
"Oh ummmm yeah, about that"
"What's wrong?"
"OH, nothing's wrong per say but please let me explain myself before you go off the deep end okay?"
"Okay"
"I was just REALLY hoping you would say yes so I talked to her the day of our pool party and I have been taking the shots for a while now. We just have to pick a donor and insert the 'stuff'"
"WHAT? ARE YOU SERIOUS? What would you have done if I said no?"
"Ummmm begged and pleaded! Calliope please don't be upset with me. I thought it would be a nice to get a jump start on this. I was really hoping you would want more kids and if you decided you didn't then I've been taking these shots for no reason, no great loss." She gives me her full on dimpled smile, that she knows I can't refuse or say no to.
"Wow, okay well I guess you being on those shots explain a lot of what's been going on lately then"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Well, you've been a little moodier; one day you're your perky self, the next you're like someone else. And you have certainly been more open to sex; like anytime, anywhere and ALL the time. NOT that I'm complaining at all but it certainly helps me understand what's going on. I was starting to think there was something else going on with the mood swings."
"I'm sorry I kept this from you but I wasn't sure how to approach this with you. I would never intentionally keep anything this important from you Calliope, please don't be upset with me. I just really wanted to do this and wanted to get a head start 'on the shots' to get them out of the way. I was really hoping you would say yes and we could just move forward from here."
"I see"
"Calliope, could you please say something other than that? You're starting to scare me a little here, I can't tell if you're happy about this or upset with me."
"Arizona, I'm not sure how I'm feeling right now. You certainly took me by surprise. Can we 'table' this till later tonight that way we can talk without interruptions and we will be somewhere where this conversation is more appropriate and not in the middle of a kids park."
"Okay Calliope, but please tell me if you're upset with me"
"Arizona, I am not upset with you no, a little shocked yes but not upset. I promise we will discuss it all later at home okay?"
"Okay"
Arizona's POV
God, I hope I didn't just ruin everything here. I know I should've talked to Callie first before undergoing the shots, but I really want another baby and I was hoping she would too. Now I'm not so sure if she does. She doesn't seem upset with me and she tells me she's not but I can't get a good enough read on her to know 100% for sure. If I messed this up, I'm going to be pissed. I can't believe I would jump into this without talking to her about it. 'What the hell was I thinking?' I wonder to myself. Well as they say, there's only one way to find out if she's upset and that's to wait till later on; however I think I'm going to go out of my mind till then.
Once we are done at the park, we take the girls for ice-cream. We drop Zola off at Mer's and make our way home. Once we get inside, Sofia runs to her room with her backpack, I take her lunch box to the kitchen to empty it.
"What do you want for dinner?" Callie asks
"I don't know do you feel like cooking or ordering in?"
"Let's just order in, I don't really feel like cooking tonight"
"Okay, what would you like, Chinese, Pizza or Italian?"
"Mommy, can we have pizza?"
"Well, I guess pizza it is then"
"Alright, I'll call it in. While I'm doing that can you get missy bathed and ready for bed?"
"Sure"
I make my way to the bathroom with Sofia to get her bathed and into her jammies; ready for bed. Once that's all done we go back out to the kitchen to join Callie and the pizza has just arrived. We all sit down to eat then clean up and it's time for stories and sleep for a little girl. Once we have read her a couple stories, and tuck her in, we make our way back to the living room.
"Would you like some wine?" Callie asks and I think I'm going to need it for this conversation we're about to have.
"Yes please" She comes in with a glass of white for me and red for her.
"Thank you"
"No problem"
We sit there sipping on our wine for a few minutes in complete silence. I'm not sure how or what she's feeling right now and I'm not sure how to start this conversation either.
"Calliope"
"Arizona" we both start
"You go first Calliope"
"I'm not even really sure where to begin. Do I want another baby? Yes, more than anything; especially with you Arizona. I wouldn't want to do this with anyone else. Am I upset with you that you went behind my back and started the process without me knowing? Maybe a little; but I think it's more of being disappointed then upset. I know why you did it and I understand it, doesn't mean I have to love it. I like that you were thinking ahead yes, but I would have liked to have been part of that as well as the rest of it all. I really was starting to worry something was going on with you when the mood swings started. The wanting sex all the time; obviously I'm not complaining about that part. I have rather enjoyed that! However I am excited to extend our family with you, but please going forward keep me in the loop with everything."
"Calliope, I'm so sorry about the way I approached it. I get that it was a bad move on my part, and I am so sorry that I did not include you in on that part. I am also sorry that you have been worried about me and what's going on. I am sorry if I ever bit your head off for no apparent reason. I don't know what to say; other then I'm sorry. Something like this will not ever happen again. I will be sure to talk to you going forward about everything and anything and let you know what I'm thinking or feeling. Can you forgive me for this?"
"Of course I can Arizona, as I said I'm not upset about it, just disappointed that I wasn't included from the very beginning."
"Calliope, I truly am sorry"
"Baby, it's okay really just please talk to me from now on. We have been doing so well on that front, I want to know everything you're feeling or thinking okay?"
"Okay"
"Come here you" she says as she opens her arms for me to crawl into.
"I love you baby, please never doubt that. I am so looking forward to having a baby. Now we just have to find a donor and see where we go from there" she leans down and kisses my lips.
"Alright Arizona so what are you thinking of for ideas?"
"Calliope, really I haven't thought about it as yet, I wanted to do everything with you and see where your thoughts were, if you still even wanted more kids."
"Arizona, of course I want more kids, I'll take as many as you want to give us. I just wish I could carry more." I can tell by her voice she's sad about this. I know she would carry them all for us if she could.
"Calliope, please don't get upset over it. It was an accident and we will manage. I will carry our children from here. I'm not sure I want 10 however; but I have no problem giving us one or two more."
"Whoa, slow down there tiger. Let's deal with one at a time and see what happens okay?"
"Okay"
"So, we need to get in touch with Addison and see if she can give us a list of potential donors then?"
"Yes, we can call her tomorrow."
"Sounds good, then let's leave it here and pick this up tomorrow after we talk to her"
"That sounds like a great idea to me"
"Do you want to go get comfortable and snuggle down and watch a movie then?"
"Now that sounds even better!"
Callie's POV
I awake with the sun shining through the windows. I snuggle a little deeper in bed, trying to get a few more minutes of sleep. I roll over to snuggle into Arizona and all I find is cold sheets. Damn, I wonder how long she's been up for. I roll out of bed and make my way to the bathroom. Once I finish in there, I make my way out to the living room and I find my two favorite girls in the kitchen. Sofia is sitting on the counter next to Arizona who is making what smells like pancakes. I lean on the door frame and just watch them for a few minutes.
"Mama, is mommy still sleeping? Shouldn't we wake her if we cooking her breakfast?" I hear Sofia ask Arizona.
"Not yet baby girl, what do you say we surprise her with breakfast in bed huh?"
"YAY"
"Shhh, not so loud honey, we don't want to wake her too early now do we?"
"No we don't, not if we are making her breakfast in bed silly!"
"Okay, can you help mama with the pancakes?"
"Of course mama"
They continue their little conversation while cooking breakfast and seems my girls want to surprise me with it in bed, I guess I should go back there. I turn around and quietly sneak back down the hall and crawl back into bed. I'm lying there listening for any sounds of them coming this way. I don't have to wait too long before I hear the pitter patter of little feet coming down the hallway.
"Do you want to wake mommy up honey?"
"Yes" I pretend to be asleep when I feel the bed dip from Arizona's side of the bed.
"Mommy, are you awake?" I hear Sofia whisper while she puts her hands on my face.
"No" I say as I grab her, roll her over and start to tickle her.
"Mommy, no STOP …. MAMA HELP ME!"
"You're on your own kid, mama doesn't want any part of that" Arizona says from the side of bed after she's put the tray down on the night stand.
I whisper something in Sofia's ear, we both turn around and grab Arizona and pull her onto the bed with us and we both tackle her and tickle her.
"HEY, HEY I said I didn't want a part of this"
I roll off of Arizona and snuggle Sofia down on the bed between the two of us. We all stop laughing and try to catch our breath
"Good morning to my two favorite ladies, to what do I owe this wake up call to?" As I give them both morning kisses
"Mommy, mama and I made you breakfast in bed."
"You did? That's awesome, thank you so much. What did yas make?"
"Pancakes and coffee!"
"Oh my favorite!"
"Will you guys share it with me?"
"Of course mommy!"
After we eat our pancakes and Arizona and I finish our coffee, while Sofia has her apple juice we all get up and decide what to do today. I know Arizona and I have to get a hold of Addison today and see if she can send us some donor profiles to go over. We get cleaned up and then clean the kitchen and make our way to the living room where I put in a movie to watch. While Sofia is watching that we go into the kitchen and make the call to Addison.
"Callie, to what do I owe this phone call?"
"Hey Addison, you're on speaker phone with Arizona and I and I'm guessing you know why we're calling"
"Nope, no idea what you're talking about"
"Adds, don't play dumb, it doesn't look good on you. Arizona told me everything!"
"OH! She did huh? Look Callie, I'm sorry I thought she would've told you right away, I didn't want to do it and keep it from you but it came down to doctor / patient confidentially."
"Relax Adds, I know and it's okay. We've talked it all over and came to an understanding" I wink at Arizona who smiles back at me.
"Okay, so what can I do for the both of you?"
"We're calling to see if you can send us some donor files to go over"
"Sure. Let me get a pen and paper to jot down what you are looking for in a man"
"HA! Very funny Addison. Don't be a smartass, just send us what you have"
"Sorry, I couldn't refuse with you two! I'll send it over today. Good luck to both of you and just let me know when you've got a donor and we will go from there."
"Thank you … Bye Adds"
"Bye ladies"
"Okay, so that will be sent over today, then we can take some time and go over them"
"Sounds good Calliope, so what do you want to do for the rest of the day?"
"Well, I was thinking, seems we both have the day off we could spend the day in with the munchkin and just chill around home"
"I think that sounds like a marvelous idea Calliope"
A/N: Thoughts?