Author's Note: This may or may not be safe to read while at work or with others around you lol. It's not that racy but I didn't want to push things. Any feedback is welcomed.

All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons
they will dance, and we will play
With chairs, candles, and cloth
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
upstream or down without a thought
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle
to find peace
comfort on the way
to comfort
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love...

Fumbling Towards Ecstasy – Sarah McLachlan

Her body trembled in anticipation of what was to come. She could feel her cheeks burning as Alistair brushed some of her hair back behind her ear to get a better view of her face. His soft smile made her relax a little just before he kissed her. Her heart started to race with excitement and she closed her eyes as her arms slowly slipped up around his neck. She stood on her toes while his strong arms wrapped around her, pulling her closer to him as the kiss deepened.

Their lips parted to allow each other a moment to catch their breath while keeping their eyes on each other. The blush from Evelyn's cheeks grew right along with Alistair's and softly she laughed at how childish she was being. Her smile kept her expression soft and her fingertips brushed the back of his neck before she withdrew from his arms. She could see the puzzled look on Alistair's face and her smile became coyer. Her fingers untied the ties of the tunic as she moved towards her bedroll slowly, remembering she was not just a mere noble rogue but a woman too. She kept her back to him as she managed to pull the oversized tunic off exposing her bare back to him though simple panties kept her covered still. As she turned her head to look over her shoulder she found Alistair was already behind her. His hands gently caressed her soft skin, finding tiny scars from where the arrows had struck her the night they had lost at Ostagar. She closed her eyes as she took comfort in his caress and breathed slowly. His touch made her feel warm despite the coldness and when she felt him pull her closer she didn't feel afraid anymore. She enjoyed how his calloused hands moved over her breasts then along her sides. Her body reacted to his touch and she just let the feeling of pleasure guide her.

The tension that had built up between then had started to melt away as they took the time to enjoy each other. Her touch to him gave him the feeling of love he had never had while his touch gave her the comfort she sought. She realized her desire was not only the revenge for her family but to have him. The dream within the Fade found the secret in her heart and now she didn't fear it. Evelyn wasn't alone anymore.

Alistair stripped away his own clothes and showed his own scars from Ostagar and other skirmishes. Her skin was flawless compared to his but it didn't faze her. Instead she took the time to caress the scars as he had done to her and kissed him gently, showing him she loved him anyway. They shared a smile before he laid her on the makeshift bed. His lips trailed kisses over her body before moving to look into her eyes. She smiled softly as she helped him get her free of the one last bit of clothing she had on. They were skin to skin and no blush passed between them. Evelyn smiled as her hand moved up to caress his cheek. Then she turned and blew out the lantern to let the darkness take them.

Dawn broke and the sound of movement woke Alistair. He felt the warmth of another body and smiled realizing it wasn't a dream. Carefully he turned to look at Evelyn seeing her rest peacefully beside him. Her hair covered part of her face adding to the innocent look he saw. There was no sadness, just contentment. He settled again and held her close, letting her sleep. As he sighed Evelyn began to stir and her eyes slowly opened to see a content Alistair watching over her. She smiled before whispering, "Good morning."

"Good morning, my love." He whispered back then shifted so they were face to face. His hand moved along her side before resting on her hip.

Evelyn mm'd then got closer to him for warmth. He took the cue and covered them up properly before grinning, "Sleep well?"

She nodded her head and looked at him seeing the boyish grin. It made her laugh, "I can tell you did too." Gently she kissed his chin then snuggled with him, "I don't want to get up."

"I know what you mean. It's not every day I wake up to a beautiful woman beside me."

"I most certainly hope not." Evelyn replied as she tickled his side with her fingertips only to get tickled back. She laughed and squirmed before she yielded to him. It truly felt like a heavy weight had been lifted from her shoulders. Having this moment with Alistair made her feel whole again and she was grateful to the Maker for this gift. She could hear more movement in the camp and sighed, "I suppose we have to get up." Slowly she pulled away from Alistair then sat up. She closed her eyes when his fingertips moved along her back. Her head tilted to the side as he moved to sit behind her, his lips brushing her shoulder up to her neck.

"I think we have time." He whispered into her ear and smiled seeing how he could affect her.

She smiled and looked at him, "I wish we did but you know we need to move." They shared a loving kiss before she handed him his clothes before getting her own. They helped dress each other before venturing out into the cold morning air. Wynne and Leliana spotted the two lovers leaving the tent. Evelyn couldn't tell what they were thinking but she had a feeling she'd hear something from both of them later. Alistair headed for his tent noticing the two women as well and figured it best to make his escape only to bump into Zevran.

Zevran grinned, "I know that look. You're a man now." He put his arm around Alistair like a buddy would, "We need to celebrate. I have some wonderful Antivan wine back at my tent."

"I have no idea what you're talking about." Alistair raised his brow then removed Zevran's arm before hurrying off to his tent.

Zevran looked at Evelyn, "He is so coy…I love it. Of course now that he belongs to you I wouldn't dream of doing anything to him or you, but my offer for wine still stands."

He grinned in his suave manner before hearing Leliana speak, "I doubt she wants to drink poison."

"Tut, tut my sweet bard, why would I wish to poison our lovely wardens? Drug them maybe but poison? No, no, no."

Evelyn just shook her head as she laughed, "I swear that you two are perfect for each other."

"How could you say that?" Leliana gasped and put her hands on her hips.

Zevran managed to get close to her and slip his arm around her, "Because my dear saucy minx we are meant to be. My charms and your sweet voice are just perfect." He got slapped for his efforts and just kept smiling. Leliana walked off in a huff leaving Zevran to grin more, "I am wearing her down."

Wynne just shook her head at the whole ordeal before looking around for Shale. Her lips formed a frown, "I fear our golem has disappeared."

"Disappeared?" Evelyn frowned and noticed Wynne was right, "Where could Shale have gone?"

Morrigan joined the others and pointed towards the mountains, "Perhaps the golem wishes to go home."

"Why go back to that village?" Evelyn looked confused then paused for a moment, "Wait…You mean Shale has gone back to the dwarves?"

Morrigan nodded then headed back to her camp, "It seems our quest for the ashes will be delayed."