A/N: Hello everyone! I am afraid that I am going on vacation starting tues. so I will not be able to update of even write next week but I do have a little update for you. Sorry it's not very long but I've been really busy :) Oh! My review count is over 150! WoW! thanks guys! You are awesome! I'll reach the 200 mark in no time! :) which would make my day! so review lol Just kidding but seriously...I will give you more cookies! :D anyways i'm done rambling. I hope you enjoy this next chapter of Longing. And until next time...have a safe and wonderful week!

Izuma

He kept his promise. He had stayed with me all night. When woke up in his arms I knew that I could do this. If I was strong I could get through it. He left to take Hikari to Kuutso. I really felt bad for the girl. No one deserved to be his guinea pig. Not even her. Grimmjow hated her with a passion. Although I couldn't understand why. He wouldn't tell me. Something is up with that girl. She seems so familiar. Where have I seen her before? Was she the one with that carrot top at my house? Yeah! That must be it!

"What are ya thinking so hard about?"

I looked over to see Grimmjow standing in my doorway. "Oh..uh I was thinking about Hikari-chan. I know I've seen her."

"Well ya shouldn't think about that woman. She's nothing but trouble."

I leaned back on the couch. "Why do you hate her so much?"

"I've got my reasons."

I let my eyes wander over his features before replying. "Care to tell me."

He shook his head. "Fuck no. I don't have to tell ya everythin kid."

"Fine." I turned me head from him. He was hiding something. I knew it. "Why are you here anyways?"

I heard him snort. "I can leave."

I jumped up. "No! I mean…That's not what I meant. I just thought you would be guarding her."

"Chiara can slack off…so can I." He said slumping down onto the couch. "Besides that woman pisses me off."

"I pissed you off too." I pointed out.

"It's not the same. At least you were interesting to fight with. She just makes me wanna kill her for breathing." He said nonchalantly.

"Harsh."

"That's the real me kid. Deal with it."

I sat down next to him. "You're different around me huh."

He was quiet for a moment. "Yeah…I guess you could say that. I don't have those murderous instincts around you."

"Hmmm. Guess I just got on your good side."

He chuckled. "What good side?"

"The side with out that damn bone fragment." I teased.

"Why you!" He reached over to grab me but stopped when we both heard a blood curling scream.

"What the hell?"

"That was Hikari." He replied bolting up.

"That was human?" I asked in shock. It had sounded more animalistic to me.

"Yeah. That was her alright."

I glared at his unmoving body. "Well don't just stand there. Go do something. You can't let Kuutso kill her."

"And why the hell not?"

"Cuz it's not right. You're suppose to be watching her."

He rolled his eyes. "That bitch deserves everythin she's getting right now."

My mouth fell open in shock. What had she done to piss him off this bad? "You can't mean that?"

His eyes told me he did. "Fuck her. She's just getting what's comin to her."

That did it. I opened the unlocked door and started down the hallway. "Well if you're not going to try to stop it…I will."

He was behind me, pulling me up and over his shoulder a second later. "The hell you are."

"Hey! Put me down! I have to go! I know what that's like! I have to stop him from hurting her!"

He slammed the door shut behind us and tossed me back on the couch. "Why the hell do you care what's happenin to that damn woman?"

I thought about it for a moment. I just felt connected with her. It was like we had some kind of bond that I was unaware of. It didn't really matter. She was hurting and I knew what that was like. "I don't want anyone else to go through what I have." I finally admitted.

We heard another scream, this one more pained than the last. He looked over at the door and then back at me. "You wouldn't say that if you knew what she's done."

I shook my head and lowered my voice. "It doesn't matter. No one deserves this kind of existence."

We looked at each other for a few more minutes, listening to the sound of Hikari's inhuman wailing. "That woman…you shouldn't care about her."

"Why the fuck not?" I yelled in anger. He was starting to piss me off with all this nonsense.

He set his jaw before yelling, "Cuz she's the fuckin reason you're in this mess!"

"Wh-What?"

"She's the fuckin reason you're here." His eyes were glowing with hatred. Not for me….but for her. That girl. "She doesn't deserve your sympathy."

"I don't know what you're talkin about but she needs someone. Forgive me for not hating someone for no reason." I replied hotly before taking a step towards the door.

"Izuma."

I whirled around. "What!"

"Maybe you'd understand if you knew what she's done to you. Why I hate her so much." His eyes had softened and he was now walking towards me. "That woman….she's…your." He was interrupted by a thunderous crash that caused us both to skit to the hallway.

"What the hell?" I asked staring down the hall. Kuutso was carrying an unconscious Hikari in his arms and fire was streaming from her palms causing random fire balls to crash into pillars.

"Kuutso you fuckin dumb ass. Get her back to the lab before you burn this whole place up!"

"Oh there you are Grimmjow. I need your assistance." he didn't seem to notice me standing behind him.

Grimmjow grumbled and pushed me back inside my room. "Stay here. I'll be back later."

"Fine." I muttered and jumped into my bed. I could hear the girl moaning out in the hallway. Something weird was going on here. I had never reacted like that with my experiments…she was reacting so…violently to it…..and what had Grimmjow been trying to say before the crash? 'That woman…she's your..' She's my what? I thought closing my eyes. There was no point trying to figure it out now. I'd just ask him when he came back….If he came back.

Kari

There was nothing to focus on but the ever increasing pain. It got so bad that I had passed out. Every time I had tried to open my eyes the scorching inferno demanded that I kept them shut. I obeyed without resistance. It wasn't until later that my thoughts started to become fuzzy and everything mixed and muddled together.

I could hear my guardians voice. By the sound of it I was in his arms now. "What the fuck you want ME to do with her?"

"What ever you want. She'll be quite eager to obey any order given to her if you say it right."

"Say what right?"

I could hear that quack whispering something to him but his voice was drowned out by the raging fire building up inside of my ears. I cried out in pain again and felt strong arms pull me up into a tight hold.

"What the fuck are ya doin to her? She's gonna burn us all to ash!"

"Don't worry. She will be out of this part of the drug soon."

"Are you sure this is gonna work?"

"Like a charm."

Grimmjow grunted. "So who's gonna be going with her on her first assignment?"

"Well Aizen-sama is sending Curtis, Bazah and Ekit with her."

"What you're not going?"

"I am a man of science. Not a man of war tactics."

I heard him snicker. "You're a fuckin pussy. That's what you are."

"You say that, but aren't you the one sneaking around Azien's orders to be with a certain black haired prisinor?"

"Shut the fuck up!"

"I'd keep that anger in check if I were you. It gets you nothing but problems."

I stopped trying to hear anymore. I just focused on trying to regain control of my body. The pain allowed no such feat. I heard their muffled voices above me and a wicked laughter. Suddenly three words were spoken. I couldn't tell who said them or remember what they were but as soon as they were spoken my world as I knew began to plummet into darkness. Al l my memories were swirling together along with the faces I loved and the ones I didn't. Everything in my heated brain was being shuffled around. I struggled to keep my sanity. Visions of Ichigo and my family flashed in front of me. Now I knew what was happening. No! I don't want to forget! Please! Don't make me forget Ichigo! But my struggle was in vain because not moments later I was exhausted and my mind was turning to mush until I couldn't even remember what my own name was. I felt myself being laid down on my bed. The pain subsided along with all of my previous wonderful memories and feelings….I opened my eyes.

"Holy fuck."

"What's the matter?" I asked standing up and moving towards the blue haired man in front of me.

He glanced over at his partner. "What the fuck is wrong with her eyes?"

I turned my head to see the fanged man laughing. "That my dear Grimmjow is what happens when you gain control of someone's mind. She is ours now…..or at least until the serum wears off."

I didn't even care about what he was saying. I just kept my eyes on the blue haired guy. Grimmjow. Yeah that was his name. he was kind of cute. I let my eyes linger on his.

"why the fuck is she looking at me like that?"

"She probably thinks you are attractive. Right now all of her memories are barricaded inside a part of her brain that she cannot access at the moment. She isn't who she was five minutes ago."

I leaned in closer to the masked creature, ignoring the creep with the fangs. He backed away from me. "I can see that."

"Come on. Let's bring her to Aizen so he can test her out before the serum wears off."

He nodded and grabbed my arm. "I never thought you'd be this big of a pain in my ass."

"What don't you like me?" I asked, a hint of humor in my voice. "That's too bad."

He frowned and drug me forward. "Shut it you!"

"you know. You're kind of cute when you're angry." I said leaning my head on his arm. "I bet you're the type that like's it rough. Why don't we ditch boring ass here and find a room."

His frown deepened. "Kuutso! This damn woman is all sorts of fucked up! She's not under anyone's control! She's just horny!"

"I'm not the one that said the words to bring her into this state Grimmjow. You did. But you're wrong. She is under our control. Her feelings are just different. In order to gain the ones she's missing she must fill in the void. She just happened to get turned on. Lucky us." He smiled.

He was wrong. I wasn't looking at him at all. Just the one trying to push me away. "Yeah. Lucky us." he muttered as he lead me into a giant room where a man with brown hair and brown eyes sat on a throne.

"Who's that?" I asked bewildered.

"That's Aizen-same you dumb bitch." he hissed. "Did ya have to erase all her damn memories."

"Like i said. They have not been erased. They have just been temprorarily moved."

"Whatever."

I followed them to our seats and waited for the man on the throne to speak.

"You look good...Hikari-chan."

I looked around the room and then realized he was talking to me. "Oh...thank you."

"I have a special assigment for you."

I looked at him curiously. "Really?"

"Yes. It's a test for your new found powers."

Powers? I hadn't noticed until now that there was indeed a surge of engery inside of me, begging me to let it loose. I grinned. "Excellent."

An hour later

I stepped through the portal after my new commander, Curtis. Bazah and Ekit followed behind me. I was a little disappointed that Grimmjow was staying behind…but that couldn't be helped. Lord Aizen had sent me on this mission and I was going to pass. I didn't know why I was here but the pull in my body told me to obey these men. Especially Grimmjow and Lord Aizen. Right now my job was simple. Seek and destroy. That was easy enough. The power in my veins was already itching to be used and with one boot now firmly planted on Soul Society soil, I knew that my job was really going to be fun. I was going to seek the documents listed and destroy all those that got in my way.

I know sorry for the cliffy! you can kill me when i get back from vacation okay!

So what do you think about crazy Kari? Mind control and personality switch! holy crap! but no worries :) it's temporary. Wonder what will happen if Ichigo sees her? Is that a hint for next chap? MAAAYYYBBEEE guess you'll see...when i get BACK! hahahahahha i'm so evil. i'm sorry. :D wait no i'm not. i'm gonna make you suffer while i'm laying on a beach. heheheheheh anyways. have a great week guys and stay out of trouble. i will be back after the 13th with another update.