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Author's Note- First of three chapters to be posted today. This is a past chapter, I got a little tired with all the present time chapters. Plus I needed a bit of a break for my plans to go smoothly. Enjoy.

One year, eleven months ago

December 26th, 2009

Dear Riku,

Yesterday was Christmas. I think that it might be a little unhealthy that Kairi and me didn't spend more than five minutes apart all day and we cried more times than I can remember. But I guess it's not really unhealthy if it keeps you going, keeps you awake and alive and not on the edge of killing yourself, on the edge of a metaphorical cliff. Or, a real one, I guess.

There's plenty of cliffs here on Destiny Islands, do you remember the bluffs? We used to all go out there with baskets of picnic lunches our mother's packed, and we'd spend an afternoon out there. Sometimes we'd bring kites, the wind was always stronger up there. Sometimes we'd just sit up there and watch the sky, like we did so many afternoons. We wouldn't come home until it was dark out.

You know, we're lucky that none of us ever tripped and fell off of the cliffs, it would have been so easy. Especially when we'd walk home that night. We'd be tired and distracted, it would be Dark and none of us would be paying much attention to where we were walking. It would have been so easy for one of us to trip over a rock and end up dead on the sand below.

We were always lucky as children, nothing bad ever happened to us, we never got hurt. Destiny Islands always seemed almost perfect back then, like something from a picture come to life.

I think I'm on a bit of a cliff right now.

Kairi...she wants something from me that I can't give her. I think that I'm becoming dependant on her, almost like I was with you, but not because she could never be you.

She's not like either of us, Riku, she's stronger and she's so much better at coping, so much better at moving on than either of us are.

Not like you or me, we cling to the past like if we don't, we'll forget everything the moment we let go. We get close to one person, and when they're gone...we fall apart completely.

I know that I did, when you disappeared.

I miss you.

Your friend,

Sora

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