A/N: So I know this one is really short, but don't kill. Also, I hope that this chapter clears up a lot of things for everyone.
Also, I'm beginning to wonder whether this story is worth continuing. I had two more sequels planned in my head, but I'm not really getting the readership that I wanted. I will finished this part, so you don't have to worry about that. But I'm just beginning to doubt whether the work I'm putting in is worth the response I'm getting out. Let me know how you feel in reviews. If there's enough support, we'll see what happens.
But enough talk, onto the story!
I sat up and sighed. "What did you mean?" I said, turning back to Sirius.
"It's very easy to piss me off when it comes to you, present tense. You said it like my feelings for you have changed. They haven't." Sirius said very seriously.
I sighed and walked into the kitchen.
"Please don't evade me like this. I hate it when you do that." Sirius said, agitated. He stood up and followed me.
"Maybe I'm not ready to have this conversation. We just started talking again this morning." I said, my calm a little forced.
We were standing on either sides of the breakfast bar. He was leaning across it and I was just leaning on it.
"But we need to talk, Songbird. I have to know what you want me to do to show you that I'm worthy." Sirius said.
I looked at him sharply. As soon as the words were out of his mouth, he looked startled by them, as if he hadn't meant to say that.
"I never said that you weren't worthy. I said that you need to grow up." I said, starting to get exasperated.
Leave it to Sirius to blow everything out of proportion to turn himself into the victim of the situation.
"I'm trying. I feel like I already have. I used love my unofficial fan club. Now they just piss me off. They're all so shallow; none of them know me like you do, Songbird." Sirius said.
I rolled my eyes. Usually those cheesy lines used to make me smile and melt. Now they just felt forced.
"If they annoy you so much, why don't you tell them to take a hike?" I said, trying to remain calm.
Sirius sighed, but didn't answer.
"I'm going up to take a shower." I said, walking around the breakfast bar.
As I was passing Sirius, he grabbed my arm. I turned and looked at him, my eyes a little hard.
"If it matters, I get it now. I get why me doing what I did to Snape was such a big thing. I was putting people's lives at stake, and it looked like I didn't care about what they wanted or were feeling. I think, to you, it showed how easily I could just toss someone aside. I would never do that to you. I feel like anything ever happened to you, if I were to lose you…" Sirius's voice broke.
The whole time he was talking, he was looking at me dead in the eye, and I could see the tears forming in them. When he looked away, a single tear ran down his face. It took everything I had not to gather him up in my arms and kiss away the tears and the hurt. But I needed to see that he truly had changed, not just a promise that he would. Sirius took a deep breath and let me go. My skin felt a little colder where he had just been touching me.
"It matters. But I need to see it, not just hear it." I said softly.
Sirius nodded. "I know. And you will. I promise you that. I won't stop until you are satisfied." He said.
I smiled slightly and turned and continued up to my room. I went into the bathroom and closed and locked the door behind me. I sat down on the toilet and held my head in my hands. I scolded myself for allowing those feelings to come back. I needed him to learn his lesson. And I needed him to learn it for his own good, not because he wanted me to come back. I shook my head and went and stood in front of the mirror over the sink. I was ready to give myself a real talking to, but then I spotted something that made me stop dead in my tracks.
Sitting on the counter of the bathroom was a box of pads that Lily used. I stared at the box, trying to do the math in my head. I was trying to remember, but I couldn't, for the life of me, remember when my last period was. Then suddenly, I remembered. I nearly fell backwards as the realization dawned on me. I sat down on the toilet unable to believe what I was thinking.
"LILY!" I shouted at the top of my voice.
I knew she was back by now. I went out into my room as I heard a few pairs of feet thundering up the stairs. Within seconds, James, Lily, Remus, and Sirius came bursting through my door. All of them had their wands drawn.
"It's not like that. But you, you, and you, leave." I said, pointing to James, Sirius, and Remus.
My voice had taken on a rational, no-bullshit tone and they looked at me confused. When they didn't move, I literally grabbed them by their shirts and threw them bodily from the room. Despite their protests, I slammed the door, sealed it, and sound proofed it.
"What is going on?" Lily asked after a moment.
I grabbed her hand and dragged her into the bathroom, shutting the door behind me.
"Please just tell me what's going on." She begged.
I grabbed her box of pads and held them up.
"Are you on your period?" I asked, still trying to figure out a way to ease into this.
"Yeah. I started a couple days ago. I forgot to put the box away. Is that what this is about?" Lily said, violently confused.
I sighed and lowered the box. I held it in both of my hands at about waist height.
"Well, I'm not, and I should be by now." I said softly.
Lily started violently. "How late are you?" Lily said, lowering her voice.
I figured that she realized that I hadn't gone off the deep end, so she was calming back down. If what I was thinking was actually true, she wouldn't be for long.
"Almost three months." I said, my voice barely above a whisper.
A/N: Okay, now don't kill me! I know I'm leaving this off at a weird spot, and this is a really short chapter and I just dropped another huge bomb on you. Express your outrage in reviews, if you have any.