I studied his expression, so many of his features mirrored my own. I remained sitting whilst he stood statuesque. His usual golden eyes pitch black and accompanied by his stern expression. He looked almost scary, dangerous. My eyes pleaded with his, begged him to speak. My mouth opened slightly with my apology threatening to escape but yet my brain wouldn't allow it. No sound was released, only a sigh. I looked down for a moment. I needed a break from the disproval in his gaze. Guilt was eating at everything inside of me. The break of eye contact did no good as I would still feel his gaze upon me, so I returned my eyes to meet his. He took in my expression. I was too overcome by shame to even register what it was, but it obviously was something that portrayed all the sorrow and remorse I had inside of me because his face softened. He gave me a small smile and I returned it. He could hear my thoughts, he could tell why I had done what I did, why I abandoned my family, why I was willing to endure a life of misery for their safety.

"Renesmee," he said softly, and moved to sit down next to me.

I didn't care if he was still angry. I didn't care if he hadn't forgiven me yet. I didn't care what he would say or how much he would yell at me, because right now I just needed him. I needed my dad… I threw my arms around him once again and clung tightly to him and he held me close.

We were in my quarters. Ever since the unexpected arrival of my father we hadn't had a chance to be alone. Aro, in his joyful excitement of the addition of my father to his guard was so eager to get dad settled in, hadn't left us alone, until now that is.

My brain obviously thought now was the appropriate time to speak. "Dad I'm so sorry," I said faintly, there are so many more things I want to say but I know he can hear them.

He smiled, "I know Renesmee," he said sadly.

"How mad are you?" I asked miserably.

He chuckled, "Renesmee I'm not mad. Disappointed? Maybe. But not mad, how can I be? I'd be a hypocrit if I was," he said chuckling again. "I did the same thing, ran away in order to protect Bella, knowing full well how much it would hurt her, but I thought it was what was best."

The words he spoke were exactly my thoughts on my situation. I knew how much my sudden departure would hurt my family, but I knew it was what was best for them.

Dad obviously heard this, "Renesmee, you need to learn what I figured out the hard way. Sometimes we don't get to make decision about what is good for others, that's their decision alone."

I contemplated this, as if my family would ever choose to give me up for their safety. That's why I made the decision for them, they would never decide on such as thing.

Once again hearing my thoughts, dad replied, "Maybe it's because they would rather be in danger than lose you. I know for a fact that any one of us would give our lives for you Renesmee."

I knew that, that was the problem. I didn't want them to. The fact they would sacrifice themselves for me when I was only a baby still terrified me more than anything. If any of them were to be harmed now I couldn't even consider what I would do, let alone if their harm was due to protecting me.

"How's Mom?" I asked, determined to change the subject.

Dads face instantly dropped. "She is worried sick about you," he said.

I cringed, I knew this was going to be the answer. I guess I just thought I needed to punish myself with pain some more. "You shouldn't have left her Dad, she needs you. How on earth did she let you leave?" I asked, as soon as I saw Dad for the first time here in Italy I was sure that in a matter of seconds my mother would appear. They were never apart, seeing my father without her made him look incomplete.

Dad's eyes looked down, avoiding eye contact with me, but I could still see the pain in his eyes as he focused on the ground, and it hit me.

"You didn't tell her!" It wasn't a question, it was an outraged statement.

He didn't respond. I was horrified but I knew I was in no position to judge. I had done the same thing.

"She will know where you've gone, she will come! Dad, she can't endure this as well!"

He raised his head. "Alice would have told her my decision. She would know not to come. Jacob will look after her," dad said reassuringly, but it wasn't me he was trying to convince.

My heart ached at the mention of Jacob, my God how I missed him. I didn't feel the same during my absence of him. I felt like though my body and my mind were here, my heart still remained with him, and now I was simply just this unoccupied body filled with pain that was only being ordered what to do. My logic to survive, which was basically 'shut up and do what I was told'. I considered my father's words once I managed to repress the pain and almost immediately I was filled with another unconstructive emotion… jealousy. I knew it was immature of me to be jealous of my mother at a time like this, at a time where she needed support, a time where her husband and daughter abandoned her. I was still jealous that Jacob was with her and not me.

Dad laughed quietly, "Jealously is a trait you get from me."

I felt ashamed at my thoughts, forgetting that I wasn't the only one listening to them.

Luckily my embarrassment was interrupted as a loud knock on the opposite side of my enormous doors echoed around my room. Dad and I both looked up and without waiting for my greeting the door opened. Adriana stood in my doorway stiffly, refusing to put one toe into my room.

"Edward, Aro needs your assistance," Adriana said casually, though she sounded pissed to be fetching people for Aro she sounded different when she wasn't being resentful; maybe she only saved that much for me.

My dad stood up and kissed my forehead quickly. I marvelled at how he managed to stay so calm. Every time I was given an order, the urge to destroy everything in my sight was so strong that I felt the dangerous instinct take over me. Once my room was empty I felt the need to do something to distract me, wallowing in self pity didn't help… I took off my cloak and observed my reflection. The attire wasn't really inconspicuous so I moved toward one of the other huge double doors in my room and opened it. My eyes widened as I took in the enormous closet. One side of the hallway was filled with many robes that were very similar to the ones I currently had on with a few slight variations to the style. But on the other side there were more casual outfits, each in shades of black or grey. I moved toward a light grey dress that caught my attention. I pulled it off the rack and liked what I saw. I got undressed and pulled the grey dress on. It was extremely tight fitting, clinging to my waist and chest showing off a fair bit of cleavage. The dress was loose from the waist down and stopped half way down my thigh. I enjoyed wearing a dress, something that wasn't reasonable to do in Forks. I twirled around foolishly as I looked at my reflection once again. I was on the right track, distracting myself was definitely the way to go.

I put on a pair of black heals and left my room. I headed down the hall, trying my best to remember which way led to some sort of exit. I was down an unfamiliar corridor when I saw a familiar face. Marissa poked her head out of a pair of large doors which looked similar to my own and smiled at me.

"Oh very nice," she said gesturing toward my outfit. "Heading out?" she asked sweetly.

I smiled, "Yeah I think I might explore for a bit."

Marissa looked a tad bit upset. "I envy you. We can only go hit the town at night, or when it's cloudy, which is usually never."

I felt guilty. "I'm sorry."

Marissa chuckled, "Don't be. Oh wait, just before you go," she gestured me to follow her into the room she had appeared from.

I entered the room and it was basically an enormous closet filled with many familiar designer brands. The room was organized so that every wall contained sections for a particular type of clothing or accessory. Marissa moved toward the far back wall and reached up on a set of shelves that contained at least 50 stunning hats. She grabbed a beautiful black hat and then moved toward a set of shelves that contained hundreds of sunglasses.

"How do you afford all of these?" I asked, as Marissa continued searching through the shelves of sunglasses.

She laughed. "Money isn't a problem. We have more than we need, but I didn't pay for any of these. It's amazing how much free stuff you score when you flash a guy a smile," she said smugly. She found the pair she was looking for and then walked back to me smiling.

She placed the hat upon my head and handed me the sunglasses. "There we go," she said, and then admired my look. "Perfect!" she said proudly.

She moved me toward one of her mirrors and I observed the hat on my head. "It's beautiful. Thanks Marissa."

"No problem, feel free to borrow anything you want. We are probably about the same size. It's nice to have someone around here who actually has a sense of fashion. Well Heidi does but she wants to burn me so, yeah," Marissa finished off laughing.

I chuckled. Marissa lifted her finger as if she had an idea, "I just remembered. You probably want to go shop for bras and stuff. Your closet won't have them."

I noted it. "Thanks will do. Hey can you show me the way out?"

Marissa happily showed me toward the exits. She tried to explain of the whereabouts of them all but I forgot it as soon as I stepped out the door. The door opened up to a back street that seemed deserted. Marissa instructed me that if I followed the street I would end up at a set of gates and the guards would know to let me out. Marissa warned me they would give me a tracking ring which would inform Aro of my whereabouts. I was fuming at the idea of being under surveillance, but I ignored it.

I headed into the town and was amazed by the atmosphere. Everything was so bright and sunny. Everyone was so incredibly tan and happy. Aromas of a mixture of foods filled the air. Each store was amazingly decorated. I walked through the streets and tried to avoid the sunlight. Even though I didn't sparkle, the glow on my skin could cause curiosity, but when it came to sections where sunlight couldn't be avoided, the glowing of my skin didn't cause too much of a stir. I was approached constantly by short Italian women calling me beautiful and offering me food. I had little girls come running up to me and calling me pretty and then run off giggling and I even had a little boy who looked to be 5 give me a bunch of flowers. I was astonished by the hospitality and kindness of these people, and none of these amazingly wonderful people knew they lived in the same town as the most vicious vampires in the world. I was happy at the fact that I knew they were safe. Aro liked the residents of Voltera. He informed me that they were off limits. I did my shopping and as I was walking aimlessly around the streets I was encountered by a frail looking man. He stood huddled in a corner screaming out warnings.

"They're after all of you! They will kill us all! We must leave!" He was screaming at anyone who passed him.

I stared at him with curiosity. He met my gaze and jumped up and ran toward me, "You better watch out missy," he said eyeing my neck, "they like lookers, they will love that pretty neck of yours."

I frowned; if only he knew that what he was warning me about I actually was one myself. "Vampires own this town. No one is safe, you're not safe!"

I grew uncomfortable as the man grabbed me and attempted to shake me, though I didn't move the slightest.

"Alright, easy there man. Leave the lady alone," said a voice from my left.

A tall boy grabbed the man and pulled him away from me gently. "She will be fine, the vampires won't get her." The man who just warned me stared at my rescuer in horror and then ran back toward his corner, but he was silenced.

The boy looked at me. Well he wasn't a boy, he looked slightly older than I did, maybe 19 or 20? He smiled at me, a wide grin, not as marvellous as Jacob's but still pretty impressive. He had bright blue eyes accompanied by sandy blonde hair that had that messy look he would have spent hours trying to accomplish.

"You okay?" he asked, the familiar accent was comforting, American for sure.

"I'm fine, umm thanks for that," I said. Though I knew I would have been perfectly fine without his help I may as well be nice to the guy.

"No problem, but maybe we should go get some garlic and crosses for you. Don't want those vampires to get near that pretty neck of yours," he said laughing.

I chuckled. "I'll be fine, vampires don't scare me," I said honestly.

My company raised his eyebrows and smiled complacently. "Oh yeah, little miss tough. Well they don't scare me either," he said smirking.

It was my turn to raise my eyebrows. Well that's a good thing because you're talking to one buddy, was what I wanted to say. "Impressive," I said sarcastically, laughing.

The boy smiled, "Oh, I'm Conner Wilson by the way," he said happily, extending his hand.

"Renesmee Cullen," I said taking his hand and shaking it. "But Nessie for short."

"Beautiful name for a beautiful girl," he said smirking.

"A real charmer you are," I said laughing.

Conner shrugged, playing along with my joke. "What can I say… well how about I buy you a coffee, I know the best place in town. I can tell you some vampire stories."

I considered his offer. I didn't want to head back just yet, and this would kill some time.

"Sure, sure," I said. "So, vampire stories eh? You like our friend over there? convinced this town is shared with vampires?" I was interested on his opinion, see if he was as clueless as everyone else.

Conner smiled as he led the way, "Yup" he said simply. "I'm pretty sure there is, but they're clever and don't cause a scene. Don't want to draw too much attention to themselves."

"Oh really?" I asked, proud of my acting skills.

"Yeah, but they stay inside cause they obviously can't walk in the sun. Speaking of sunlight, do you know how amazing you look in the light? You're almost shining," Conner said, eyeing my exposed skin as I moved into the shade.

"What can I say?" strategically using his words against him, he caught on and grinned.

We reached the café and sat outside. Conner spoke in fluent Italian to the waitress and ordered me a coffee. Since coffee tasted like strong mud for me I asked the waitress for water instead. Water was one of those things that had a nothing taste even when you were a vampire. It wasn't until I declined food as well that Conner questioned me.

"Not hungry as well?" he asked, taking a sip of his own water.

"Not really," I said. I thought of something quickly to change the topic, "So you live here?" I asked curiously.

"Nope. Been to Italy a lot though, but I have always been drawn to this place," Conner said smiling as he looked at his surroundings. He returned his gaze to me, "How about you?"

"Umm, no just visiting. I live in Washington," I said, almost truthfully.

"Washington, no sun down there eh?" Conner said, I caught on.

"Are you implying that I'm a vampire?" I asked in actual shock.

Conner grinned mischievously. "Possibly. Apparently vampires are supposed to be insanely beautiful, and you are beyond that."

I frowned, "Does that classify as hitting on me or as still implying I'm a vampire?"

"Both," Conner said smirking.

"You saw me in the sun a couple of minuets ago. Shouldn't I have burned or something if I was a vampire?" I asked, once again proud that I was this good at lying.

"True true. Maybe you're not then," Conner said smiling, "But I'll keep an eye on you," he joked.

"Just don't come running at me with a wooden cross, or throw holy water on me or anything."

Conner laughed. "I won't, but I may try wearing garlic around my neck, just to be safe. I mean I can see you eyeing it."

I couldn't get over this guy. I scoffed in disbelief and raised my eyebrows. His bright blue eyes shone brightly in amusement I could tell he was enjoying this and the smirk on his upper lip confirmed it. "You're unbelievable," I said and I unwillingly laughed.

This made his smirk transform into a grin, "That's a good thing," he said confidently.

"If you say so," I concluded shrugging.

I felt the ring on my right hand sting me a little. I looked at my hand confused then remembered Marissa's words, "It will shock you. That means Aro wants you. Don't ignore it or it will get worse and the only way to get it off is to chop your finger off, which actually does hurt. Adrianna tried it."

The slight pain increased as I became aware of it. I knew there was no point in avoiding it.

"You okay?" Conner asked me. Having forgotten his presence I looked up in shock, startled.

"Umm, yeah. Umm, I have to go," I said standing up.

Conner's grin disappeared. "Was it something I said?" he asked concerned.

I looked at him. "Oh no, absolutely not. It's just I have to be somewhere," I frowned as the stringing on my finger increased. I get the point!

"Would you like me to take you…" Conner was cut off as we heard a crash and someone screaming.

We both turned toward the noise. The window front of the café was smashed and a girl was on the ground. My mind understood the image instantly; the girl had fallen through the window, all patrons of the café rushed to help the girl and I forgot about the stinging on my finger and went to offer my assistance as well. I was stopped in my tracks of attempting to help as an overwhelming smell hit me with brutal force. The smell of sweet, delicious blood. I stood stiff, each muscle in my body tensed. With the last shred of will power I had, I forced my body to stay still and I screamed at my limbs to take me away from the temptation, but they wouldn't budge. They wouldn't move, which could be considered a good thing as it prevented me from moving toward the girl whose cuts were now beginning to seep with red, hot, thick, mouth-watering blood.

A hand gripped my shoulder. My head jerked toward it then my eyes followed the arm of the hand until they reached the eye of the person it belonged to. Conner was speaking to me, looking concerned. I couldn't hear his words, the only audible sound was the thumping of my heart, the blood of the girl slowly pouring out from each cut, the sound of white blood cells attempting to clot each of the wounds… and all of these sounds echoed within my head. I guessed that Conner had come to realisation as to what was causing my sudden immobility as I felt him trying to drag me away from the smell. I let myself move with his force and as the distance between the appetizing liquid and myself grew, I found it easier to gain control of my sanity. As soon as I had control of my stance, I regained my posture from the statuesque position.

"Not a fan of blood, I see," Conner's voice slowly became recognisable over the thumping of my heart.

"Yeah," I breathed

Conner chuckled. "Nor am I, so it's nothing to be ashamed of," he said reassuringly.

I couldn't hold the self control any longer. My throat burned for blood and my eyes were searching for a source of it, and Conner was the only one is sight. My hands clasped my throat.

"I have to go," I said and with that I ran off.

As soon as I was out of eyesight of Conner I shot through the back streets and headed toward the set of gates I left from. I found them fast enough and once I was inside and away from sources of human blood, I found it easier to regain control of my animalistic instincts. I found my father around the first corner I took. His arms were open and I ran eagerly into them.

"Breathe Nessie," he said soothingly, stroking my hair.

He waited until I was rational again.

"It's hard sometimes daddy," I said defensively, ashamed of myself.

"I know darling."

My brain remembered the stinging sensation on my finger. "What does Aro want?" I asked gesturing toward the ring on my finger.

"Not sure. Come we will go see him," Dad said. I clutched onto his arm as he guided us.

We reached the room I was accustomed to be being summoned to. Aro was positioned on his throne with Marcus and Caius at his side. The usual image, accompanied by the guard positioned around the room.

"Took your time," someone muttered underneath their breath. I recognised the voice to be Jane's. I shot a furious glance at her which she returned with burning hate in her red eyes.

"How nice of you to join us," Caius spat, looking down his large nose at us.

"My apologies," Dad said formally.

"I called you here as I have just been informed of new presences in our territory," Aro said to all of us.

A hiss or snarl was the response from most of the guard. I raised my eyebrows at them and dad nudged me, obviously this was to be taken seriously.

"Are they passing through?" Alec asked. He stood protectively near Adrianna.

"I'm not aware of their intentions just yet," Aro responded.

I was still holding onto my father's arm when I felt him stiffen. I looked at him.

"What's wrong?" I pushed my concerns into his head, but he ignored them.

"Who exactly are the intruders?" Adrianna asked.

"Bella Cullen and Jacob Black," Aro said. His words registered in my mind and my head snapped from focusing on my dad to him.

"What!" I exclaimed in fright. "They're not coming here are they?" I asked my heart was thumping pathetically. I wanted nothing more than to see them both but the thought of them here was horrifying and simply not an option.

"I'm not sure. They are both suffering very dearly Renesmee. I understand their concern and I can only guess why they are here."

This statement was like a knife being shoved into every vital organ in me and the guilt within me was like that knife being shoved further and twisted. I had never hated myself more, knowing full well just how much I was hurting them. I was a disgusting person, I was a sadist…. As well as a masochist. I intentionally made decisions I knew would hurt others and I knew would result in hurting myself.

"Its very unfortunate that they have to suffer. Of course you know they are welcome here. You could stay together," Aro said.

I scolded the part of my mind that was tempted by this offer. "No!" dad and I said forcefully.

Aro smiled, having obviously predicted this response. "Shame, but of course I can make their suffering minimal. In fact I can cease the pain they are experiencing." I looked up in horror and Aro understood my accusing eyes. "No, No! Darling Renesmee, I won't harm them. It's just that it is within our power to stop their heart ache and worrying."

Now this offer tempted me. I looked at my father. He would be able to tell whether Aro's offer was legitimate.

"Is he telling the truth dad?" I pushed the words into his head.

Yes, Dad's voice echoed in my head.

"Then do it," dad insisted. I nodded showing my agreement.

It was Marcus that responded, "Of course."

"Well enough of that. It is almost suppertime. Heidi is here," Aro said happily.

That was my cue to exit. My father did the same, as he walked out the door he kissed my forehead and muttered that he had to do something quickly. I was tempted to follow, but from his tone I could tell he wanted to be alone. As dad was gone in an instant I was left alone in the corridor. I sighed once again not having a clue as to where I was going. I forgot that I dropped Marissa's hat in the entrance in my haste to reach my father's comforting hug, so I attempted to make my way along the corridors to the exit I had used today. I pushed open a large set of doors that led to a very large hallway which I recognised. The reception-like room was attached to this hallway. I was getting better at this. I moved down the hallway and then I heard the approaching footsteps of at least a hundred people… oh shit!

I heard Heidi's smooth voice guiding the footsteps down the hallways. I knew I had to get away. There's no way I could stand to see the faces of hundreds of innocent lives that were about to be lost. I moved quickly to the opposite end of the hallway into the reception and found that there was no where to go. The only other door led to the room I was just in that contained Aro, Caius, Marcus and the guard. I moved to the far corner and attempted to escape but it was no use. Heidi was already in the room, followed by excited looking tourists in some form of a messy line.

"This way please," she instructed them and she pushed opened the large doors. They all followed her in the room, like cattle for slaughter…

I couldn't stand it. I couldn't watch this without doing anything. I rushed toward the people whom hadn't entered the room yet, but I was too late. Everyone had entered the room… all but one. And that one person I slammed into and pushed toward a back wall just as Heidi closed the door and the screaming began….

I sighed feeling sick. I looked at the one I managed to save and my eyes widened in shock as I took in the figure.

"I knew it," said the amazed voice of Conner Wilson.

Dun Dun Dun ! :P

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