NEVER BE FORGOTTEN
miley p o v
Brandi grab the phone
Coughing attack followed as my sister reached over me and grabbed my phone as my heart pounded like crazy it had to be her..it just had to be. I could hear her sweet voice in my ears telling me that it was all alright that she loved me and she had been kicking herself for acting so stupid and that she wanted us to start over..but she was afraid that I would hate her..never Mandy I could never hate my Manderz..
hello yea she's here
I don't think she wants to talk to anyone [Brandi]
Give me..yes! [me]
She gave me a look but shrugged as she handed me the phone and I struggled to sit up which took the wind out of me. Shakily my fingers took the phone and I held it up to my ear almost dropping it but Brandi's hands steadied me.
Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes and held the phone tight..
Hello?
Miles..
Nick...[me]
Yes that's what my mom told me
Well your mom is a smart lady so I'm assuming
your who u say u r..[me]
gee thanks your confidence in me is over whelming [nick]
no problem Nicky..
so um how come your calling? [me]
gee I don't know cause you passed out in my arms
AGAIN! [nick]
oh yea that..uh I heard u caught me
well there wasn't much choice seeing as there were
witnesses [Nick]
yea that would look good in the press
Nick J Causes Head Trauma To Former GF [me]
yea well that's why we have PR people they can
spin it to fit our favorite [Nick]
well of course that's why we pay them [me]
in all seriousness how are you sweetie?
Uh okay doing better still tired and sore
but I should be resuming tour very soon
good we miss u
what do u mean we miss u? [me]
shit..uh..
Well I mean we only saw u for a few minutes b4 u pulled
your diva act
DIVA ACT!
I AM NOT A DIVA!
Didn't say u were just said u were acting like one [Nick]
what's the dang difference?[me]
uh loads [Nick]
loads [Nick]
yea start naming them..[me]
uh oh I hear mom
I got to go take care miles
thanks u 2..
Shock doesn't describe what I was feeling as we hung up Brandi was gazing at me grinning I shrugged and buried myself into her arms. Which felt amazing she smelled amazing as well her fingers ran over my scalp and head making me relax.
Why is it so frustration?
What's that ? [Brandi]
love? It was so easy before [me]
u were a kid then [Brandi]
yea I know whys it so different now? [me]
She seemed to think about this and laid her head into mine as she spoke slowly when she did as always she was worth the wait..
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a women, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection, then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.
Her words hung on me as she fell asleep what did those words mean? For so many months I had been angry at Nick was that childish? Was she telling me to grow up? Because I always said I was grown was it time to act it and forgive him? Have faith that it would all work out and hope in the end he could forgive me? Cause in the end all that matter was love..I fell asleep pondering that notion.
In the morning Brandi drove me to the doctors I was sleeping in the passenger seat in between bouts of nausea which is why I was holding a bucket between my legs. The papas were out in full force snapping away calling out out to us we smiled and waved even posed when we were out of the car. I was feeling weaker though then I had since I was up. Brandi had to hold me up when we were walking which didn't send a great vote of confidence how things were going to go. More lies out of the paparazzi mouths as they called out to me the latest rumors. We laughed at most of them..but some almost stopped me cold..
Miles is it true Mandy dumped u for Selena?
No comment
is it true U hate her because she stole money from u
And your father beat her?
No comment
I wanted 2 add asshole to it but kept my cool as we went inside. Why would someone even ask something as awful as that who would even think it? Why would my dad beat Mandy? He has never had a violent bone in his body it made me so damn angry but I knew better then to say anything after all it was just another rumor which would die as quick as it started.
Brandi held me after she checked me in my head was pounding and I was sick to my stomach again not to mention my throat was on fire.
When the Rn called us in Brandi helped me up and we went back as soon as we got in I had to step back on the scale.
103 miles [Brandi]
well that's better then I thought [me]
We went back and waited for the exam which of course consisted of all the normal stuff blood work breathing tests the exam itself of course the stream of questions were never ending as well thankfully Brandi answered most of them so I could rest.
It's the longest time when your waiting for the your whole life to be decided I missed preforming so much and this waiting was killing me!
Miley Ray..[Dr. Tanner]
Yes..
Aw my throat sounded awful Brandi had to laugh...which got her a great look from me. Struggling to sit up caused a coughing fit. She came over and rubbed my back till I gagged...she held the bucket for me. Then gave me water to rinse myself out.
So is she okay to go back Dr.? [Brandi]
yes well her platelet count is still low
and her red cells are low as well
but her infection is going down and her
lungs are almost cleared
I''ll let her go but she should get a follow up in
a week I want her tests results faxed to me
okay any antibiotics? [Brandi]
yes I'll write a prescription and have it faxed to the pharmacy [Dr]
thanks Dr
she needs to rest as much as possible as well
she will believe me mom will make sure of it.
Exhausting hit me as we got in the car and I fell asleep while Brandi went in to grab food for our parents.
Some how even that sparked controversy she didn't know to tip the guy at the take out and that set out all this name calling that we were cheap and our parents raised us as spoiled brats who thought we were better then anyone and that no one was worth our money. My parents blew it off but I hated it, dad was making me laugh however and went around acting like he was this all powerful king who's subjects were beneath him . When he gave me my medication he wore a mask making motions like he was afraid of me which made us laugh like crazy.
The next morning he made us breakfast in bed and brought me roses which made me cry so of course he held me and laughed.
Ella p o v
lets go girls step it up!
Focus everyone needs to focus!
We have a competition in three weeks
if u want any shot at making nationals when your older
this is the first step no time to get sloppy
As I prepared to mount my vault I cleared my head all I could think about was miles she was so sick when I spoke to her a few days ago and in a lot of pain. I couldn't believe these lies that the media was spilling. She kept telling me that it was all apart of the game though.
After 6 grueling hours I finally got out and headed to half a day of school with Steffi we took our sweet time neither one of us wanting to rush,stopping to grab taco bell for lunch before we got to school.
Finally after I got home I got the news I was waiting for miles had left a message that she was cleared to resume tour and would be coming to DC in two days I was stocked!
NAZRIA P O V
Nazi! Get down here!
What is it mama! [me]
Quickly grabbing my dance bag I hurried down the steps when Mama calls u answer trying not to trip I flew down the steps and skidded in front of her as she stood in the kitchen frying bacon and flipping pancakes and waffles as she was on the phone yelling at someone...
no she is not!
Because are you kidding me!
Why?
Because she's 13 years old that's flipping why!
No she is..no you are the
shut up!
No I'm telling you!
Because I'm her mother because I have custody!
You promised her don't try to make me out
to be the bad guy u broke her heart
no u can
oh no u don't !
Send the money or I'll take your ass to court
Good-Bye!
She slammed the phone down and cussed
Mama what is it? [me]
I threw my bags in the corner as she turned to me sighing pushing her hair back as I went over and hugged her
baby I got some good news
and bad news for u [mom]
oh no what happened? [me]
well u got the part your agent called late last night [mom]
OH MY GOD!
I GOT IT!
I REALLY GOT IT?[me]
Yes you did baby![ mom]
AHHHHH!
We were both standing in the kitchen screaming and jumping up and down hugging each other as my younger brother Tirolean or Lil T as he likes to be called came in and looked at us like we were aliens.
Elon came in and looked at him and whispered "girls" then I sighed and looked at her
w..h..a..t'..s the bad news?[me]
She took my hands
bad news hon is that your dad
won't be home so you won't
have any place to stay [mom]
why? [me]
well your dad
has decided that he needs to find himself
so he's taking a 5 month vacation to Brazil
with her? [me]
well yes I assume that his wife Sandra is going as well
so as usual his new wife comes before us [me]
well it ain't stopping me I'll find a way to still be in the play
darling I know you want this but I can't possibly pick u up
and your not taking the bus that late at night I'll be flying late
and you are too young to stay by yourself
but mom I can take care of myself! [me]
I did it all summer!
No u did not u had counselors and nurses
mom please this means everything
to me I need this! Rent is a huge production
this Director can make me or break me
he has connections all over in this business [me]
baby I'm sorry I know u want this and I want it for you
but u need a grownup [mom]
I'll find one mom! [m,e]
By today ? [mom]
Well if that is what it takes then yes! [me]
Look..baby..[mom]
no mom I will not give up!
Fine good luck u better have a place to stay
by tonight girl if I find out u r lying or..[mom]
mom relax I'll find a place!
I got to go! [me]
Sighing I grabbed my bag and stormed out
Nazi aren't u eating?
Not hungry! [me]
It was times like these that I wished Nessa and I were still friends I could use someone to talk to , exciting my house I bundled my jacket closer at 6 am it was cold yet a bit windy as well there was only one person who I thought about that could help me and I hated to ask but I had to get this part pulling out my cell I called.
Taking a look around I saw kids heading to the bus stop for school but I wasted no time in hurrying away and going to the public bus stop.
Mandy's p o v
Moving through the crowd proved to be a lot harder then u would think when your drunk off your ass which there was no way to describe how I was expect that way the music was pumping loud and it was making me move as I shock my hips and twirled laughing my hair flowing free as I grinded against whatever semi to totally hot guy would give me the time of day which wasn't hard to find since most were fighting to get next to me. Drink after drink flowed through me as Doma and Noreen and I danced the night away laughing Dom flipped back my hair as I danced by her my eyes closed as I felt a guy's hands over my butt and he pressed up against me dancing close I could hear Noreen laughing as she whispered
be careful girlfriend
Careful was the last thing I had in mind however as I started dancing with him my arms up as his hands caressed my whole body up and down. His breath was sharp and reeked of Alcohol as his lips nestled my neck making me moan..we started moving in sync and after an hour I started to turn and kiss him back ..his hands pulled me close as we moved from the dance floor to a private table in back..where the drinks flowed endlessly we barely made it into a booth before my shirt came off and he had me laying down kissing my body making me moan clothes flew off as I felt him slide inside of me causing me to groan as our hips moved in sync his groans filled my ears as his lips filled my lips he slapped against me as I bit my lips groaning over and over till we both came.
Exhausted we sat up our bodies hot and sweaty pulling out of me as I gasped his fingers massaged me down there and he grabbed a bottle of Grey Goose. I had half of it drowned laying down against him as I closed my eyes he kissed my head as I felt him slip something in my mouth, I didn't open my eyes I didn't trust him but I didn't care either I should have been scared but I wasn't which worried me but I didn't want to be worried so I let it go as something cold was slide over my arm opening my eyes I saw him slip a needle in my arm I tried to speak but it didn't come out vaguely my eyes spotted the heroin on the table as someone handed me a joint which I took and lit up smoking it closing my eyes leaning back his laughter rung in my ears. I have no idea how many joints I smoked or how many shots I did liquid or needle wise all I knew. I was feeling damn good and I couldn't get enough we had sex on every table ever chair all over the floor and danced naked bottles were emptied and broken as we partied there had to be about 50 people all celebrities and friends. I'm not even sure what time it was but at some point I felt hands pulling me off a bar top I tried to push them off but they knew my name and kept pulling me no matter how hard I pushed they held me strong and whispered to me.
Mandy you have to stop
Please your wasted lets go
Sweetie please..your friends are worried
Get off of me! [me]
Who ever you are let go
Take your hands off me..[me]
Hey let her go!
Mandy..
Fergie hey~[slurred] [me]
Yes sweetie come on
I was only trying to help [guy]
Well I got it now thanks [Fergie]
Her arms wrapped around me as she pulled me away while I stumbled as we went past them I saw the guy who had grabbed me
Brian..
Yea Mandy I was just trying..
Mandy someone help me!
She's going down! [FERGIE]
I felt my legs give out as arms caught me and voices panicked. Everything went black as I felt heat rushing up.
Pain intense pain was the first thing I felt when I woke up it swarmed my head and made me gag a slight groan escaped my lips as I fought the urge to vomit violently. Darkness filled the room providing
A slight sparkle of release my phone blared out low by Flo Rida making my head pound even worse another groan as I pulled my covers over my head and rolled over. I was SO not in the mood to talk to anyone, closing my eyes I tried to return to the safely of darkness but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't ..how much I wished miles was here..she would know how to help me..
Mandy...[Garret]
Go away Garret..[me]
I tried that last night one effing business trip
And look what happened..[garret]
I'm a grown ass women if I wanna get drunk I will
It ain't any of your damn biz so go away! [me]
It is my damn Biz [Garret]
Why [me]because I love u and your my lil sister
Who's all grown up and can take care of hers..]ME]
I was standing somewhat by now as our voices rose with each angry word and the world started to spin more..as I tried to convince him that I was fine even though we both knew that I was far from it..why should he be brought down by my own insecureness and weakness..nausea rose
Both of you stop it now! [mom]
MOM! [BOTH]
Oh god I'm going to be..[ME]
I ran to the bathroom and fell in front of the toilet as I emptied my stomach. Closing my eyes as I heaved over and over again..mom at some point placed a wet wash cloth over my head which provided some relief as I tossed everything in my stomach up over and over till I felt blackness come over me again.
Nazi
So this was a huge risk I was taking I mean skipping school which I have never done! Going all the way across Ca on like 5 different public buses to a part of La I had no idea where I was, when I had no idea if she would be home, the creepy looks I was getting from these older men were enough to almost make me call home, then I would see something some kind of add or hear a radio commercial that would remind me why I was doing this and I would keep going, nothing was coming between me and my dreams even taking the wrong bus twice, and running out of money..so okay I had to walk a lot more then I wanted to, by the time I got to where I thought I needed to be I was sweating hot scared soaked and hurting, and it was getting late so I knew school had to have called home already , thankfully mom had to be in the air already so I was free on that account dad well he wouldn't care anyway he'd tell them call mama my real prob my older brother when he got home and heard the answering machine messages from school he would be flipping.
Finally I got to the township but then it hit me I had no idea what her address was and only a vague remembrance of what the building looked like. So I started asking which earned me a lot of stares and questions which got me angry but I thought at last I got lucky and some sweet old lady let me inside..only she called the cops and said I was a runaway not totally true but still I ran..like hell..on wheels..out of breath I collapsed on the side walk miles away...I wanted so bad to close my eyes and cry I could feel my dreams slipping away..
Yo lil sis are u alright?
Huh?[Me]
Great my luck I'm about to be mugged...I could hear my mom now
Girl what have I told ya about wondering
those streets?
Too many young punks out there thinking they thugs
where is your common sense child
Yes mom I get it now too late...I opened my eyes expecting to see a gun or a knife but instead I saw the deepest pair of Hazel eyes I ever saw..he had the cutest dimples and this head of corn rows he was rocking the dopiest of outfits to straight of the racks of Sean John he held out his right hand his left was full of books heavy books taking it he pulled me up now normally I would be pissed at some boy I didn't know saying I was his lil sis like I was his but I was just glad to see a friendly face..
You lost?
No I just love hanging round strange neighborhoods on
blistering hot days [me]
Ah a sense of humor I like that
I like common sense [me]
Alright ya got me
Cool [me]
So where u trying to go?
My friends house but I don't know her address
What's her name?
Mandy J
Fer real?
Yea [me]
You know her?
Yea she my neighbor
Thank god!
Boy u betta not be playin me either or fer sure
I'm gonna whip your ass
Alright calm down Lil' Homie
I ain't stupid man my mama didn't raise no fools
or lairs
Good cause my mama gonna whip my ass when she finds out I'm gone
whoa u didn't
nah I just really need to talk to Mandy today
We walked for what seemed like forever but finally we got to the building just my luck it was a secure building thankfully he punched in the combo and we were in we rode up to his floor and went round the corner as a door flew open
Marshall Bradshaw
Get your butt in here now! Boy u r late
Late means time which means money
Money I'm losing cause I ain't working
Why ain't I working cause I'm home waiting
For your trifling slow butt
Yes Ma'am
Well u know my name [Marshall]
Yea I'm Nazi [me]
I tried not to laugh he was blushing like mad
Mandy's across the hall
He pointed
Thanks [me]
Sure..
Mars..[HIS MOM]
Got to go see ya round [Marshall]
yea hopefully [me]
Taking a deep breath I knocked loud voices were inside I was worried what if she said no I mean she had no real responsibility to me now camp was over. No answer I grew worried I was so hot and sticky thirsty and I had to pee bad..foot steps came closer and the door flew open a guy who had to be in his mid 20's answered..
I'm sorry were not buying
It's not a good time
I'm here to see Mandy [me]
How do u know my sister?
We meet at Camp my names Nazi
pls I really need to talk to her..[me]
Like I said it's not a..
Garret let her in
But mom..
No buts don't be rude
Her mom ushered me inside she was gorgeous I saw were Mandy got her looks from..
What's wrong you look wrecked
I wasted no time in telling them why I was there her mom let me freshen up as her and Mandy's brother went in the next room and I heard them arguing...as I came out of the bathroom I saw Mandy laying in bed her back was slightly turned to me so her face was only participially visible to me she looked feverish and very thin . Her hair was scattered all over the pillow, I saw her move slightly so I backed up fast and went into the next room, where I heard the argument louder
It may do her good Garret [mom]
Or it may make her worse she can't even care for herself [Garret]
She needs someone to focus on
Anything to forget about what happened with miles [mom]
So your going to use this kid to experiment and hope Mandy
plays good girl and everything will be okay? [Garret]
Yes if it works and it helps my daughter I will do anything [Mom]
And what if it don't work? What about that kid?
She's young mom she has medical problems she needs someone who can
be in charge of her and care 4 her [Garret]
I'm not stupid young man I know that and she won't be alone [mom]
Well I can't do it mom I'm having enough problems balancing
my career and taking care of Mandy [Garret]
No kidding thats why she got into the mess she's into ,[mom]
Thats not my fault mom [Garret]
No it's hers she's a big girl she made those choices
But she needs help and maybe this kid can help her
She made a huge difference in her life this summer maybe now it'll
be what she needs. [mom]
I felt funny spying so I went to the spare room and laid down exhausting was slowly going through me as I shifted a yawn my whole body was tense though I had to be given permission my whole career could ride upon this. Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes and slowly prayed..
God of Light and Truth,
Thank you for giving me
A mind that can know
And a heart that can love.
Help me to keep learning every day of my life,
For all knowledge leads to you.
Let me be aware of your presence
In all things and at all times.
Encourage me when work is difficult
And when I am tempted to give up;
Encourage me when my brain seems slow
And the way forward is difficult.
Grant me the grace to put my mind to use
Exploring the world you have created,
Confident that in you there a wisdom
That is real.
Please lord I ask of ye give me
The blessings that I seek on this day
For comfort and shelter lead me into this world I have chosen
With courage and hope and allow me thy chance
To follow this divine path you have set out for me
I ask of thee but just a chance to prove myself
Amen.
At some point in the prayer I felt a peace a warmth come over me almost like hands reaching down to comfort me and I just knew inside it was going to work out smiling I cuddled myself and felt sleep take over me.
Nazi sweetie wake up..
five more minutes mom...
I swear I'll take out the garbage..
baby..[laughter]
No need to do that just wake up
U don't want to be late for rent..
RENT!
I shot up looking around as Mandy's face came into view she was smiling as she sat by me oblivious she'd been up and showered for a little while she looked amazing but so thin.
We have to leave soon if u want to make it early [Mandy]
What are you..
I can...
Oh my god ..really? [me]
Yes sweetie of course u can stay [Mandy]
Oh my god thank you so much! [me]
Your welcome [Mandy]
I threw my arms around her and she laughed hugging me holding me like I was her life line but I would take it cause she was mine because of her I could continue to chase after my dreams. She felt amazing to I had missed her so much her arms embraced me strong and steady rocking me. She smelled sweet like pineapples.
In the car she told me that she had talked to my mom who was pissed I skipped school and did what I did but she was relived I was safe and had found a place of course she told Mandy she was grounding me for life when I came home. Not looking forward to that one let me tell ya..but I'll take it.
It was great that she was working as a co-choreographer so it wasn't out of her way , now that I was here well the nerves set in big time could I handle Mimi could I handle the music keep up with the dance? Who were my co-stars would there be any ego's any one I hated? Any cute boys? Hey I am a American 13 year old girl OK! Warming up I stretched out on the stage as I got into a routine losing up every part of me..hearing the music in my head..as I always do I lost myself in the music and by the time I had come up the place was packed with actors on stage, stage directors the main director stage hands choreographers and musical directors band members..taking a deep breath I got up and worked out last minute cramps as the director and called us all over to center stage where he asked us to sit down and introduce ourselves and tell what character we were playing ...no one wanted to go first of course but I looked at Mandy who nodded as I stood and raised my hand he nodded at me so I took a deep breath and introduced myself which seemed to make everyone at ease next one of the boys stood up he was cute with curly red hair and blue eyes like Sapphire
Hi my names Aaron Vernon
I'm 14 and I'm playing Marc
Next was another boy who had light tan skin with deep chocolate eyes he was tall and lanky but not nerdy like ...he definitely worked out.
Hey everyone
I'm Nelson Angel I'm 14
and I'm playing Angel
That got a few laughs the boy next to him low fives him
I'm Derron Marcello I'm 13
and I'm playing Collin
whew hottie!
We laughed at one of the girls yells this out Derron who's average height with spiky brown hair that had different colors highlighted through I spotted purple ,blue ,pink and red he had green eyes and damn he was amazing looking. The girl who yelled had long red hair that flowed to her back and laid in
soft waves she had almost Grey eyes
I'm Nina Holloway
I'm 16 and I am playing
Maureen
Yo was up everyone I'm Beth Ann O'Connor
I'm playing Jo Ann
No man your hot
Too bad I'm hotter!
Yea I know self absorbed and modest
and totally hot!
Oh yea I'm Yerevan Frankincense
I'm 15 and I'm Roger
For the next hour we did improve which was awesome so funny and random I was laughing like crazy.
By the time we wrapped up though I was wearing down as we calmed down and took water breaks he went over our home school agenda. Mandy whispered to me she would help me since by then most parents had arrived.
After wards we went out for pizza and soda we really started to talk and laugh I was so excited for this ,I knew this would be amazing.
By the time we got to go home I was beat but Mandy had me talking and we blasted music as she drove home, of course I was wide awake by the time we got home so we decided to work on some vocal excises I grabbed drinks and she went to the piano when I got there she was looking sad and didn't see me right away , when she did there were tears in her eyes she didn't try to hide them and when I came over I saw the picture on her piano was of miles looking absolutely amazing laying down in a field with sunlight streaming over her face which is turned towards the camera she was smiling at something off in the distance which Mandy said was her taking the picture sighing I went over and put my hands on her shoulders she tried to cover her tears but I put my arms over her shoulders she rested her chin on my head and whispered that it was okay to cry..she wouldn't however just started to play a beautiful melody taking deep breaths to control herself she started to sing..
I'll always see your face You will never be forgotten I can't hold your hand
The corner of your smile
And all the little things that no one will ever know
Like it was yesterday, won't ever fade away
Goodbye is just a word that I will never say
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You're more than a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten
Or look into your eyes
And when I talk to you
It just echoes in my mind
But If hearts are made of dust
And if we fell from the stars
I look up tonight and know just where you are
I joined in with her our voices blended together nicely and it stretched my vocals out which is what I needed to play Mimi.
And the world just keeps on going You will never be forgotten
You will never be forgotten
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You're more than a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten
It has no way of knowing
That you're gone
A million days could pass us by
But what is time but just a dream
Oh I still feel you here with me
You're more than a memory
Oh you will never be forgotten
Never be Forgotten by Jessica Andrews