Dianna
It was at. Nov. 21. I was in the bathroom of Annabelle's place. I didn't remember how I got there or even getting there. The last thing I remember is seeing the sidewalk. So someone must've brought me here and I hope it was either Annabelle or evan. I didn't know what time it was.
I heard Annabelle and evan talking.
"do you think she's awake?" evan asked.
"idinno but I'll check," Annabelle replied.
"ok. Bring this."
"I will."
I heard someone walking down the hall and then they knocked on the door.
"dianna?" it was Annabelle.
"um yeah?" I answered.
"hey I have something for you."
"uh ok."
I moved back and opened the door. She came in closing it behind her. She was holding a cup.
"here drink this. you'll need it. It's soda," she told me.
"oh."
I took it from her and drank it. I drank a good amount. About a 6th of it.
"good. How are you?" she asked.
"um. Confused. I don't remember how I got here."
"oh um well yesterday you passed out. I think you were on your way to the store. you've been sleeping on and off ever since. evan and I brought you here after a lady called and told me. I don't want you going out untill you feel better physically. I'm sorry I know it sucks. But we're just worried is all."
"yeah but I should be resting anyway. But yeah it does. Wait. she called you from my phone?" I asked.
"yeah why? Ohhh…right… your dad. Um. Ok well I have another phone you can use."
"ok thank you."
"yeah sure. I want you to drink all the soda. And you don't have to drink it quickly but you do have to drink it. The…the cup of soda I mean although if you end up drinking an entire bottle today then that would be great but I get it if it doesn't happen."
"ok."
"we have berries if you want those. And burritos. And eggs he makes good eggs. um oh and bacon that's pretty good. Please eat something today w/e sounds good and if we don't have it I can go pick it up."
"ok," I said.
It was later that day. I'd had 2 cups of soda and had eaten berries, eggs, bacon and 2 burritos. I guess I really was hungry. My legs had stopped hurting but I still felt dizzy. I felt full and nauseous. I was lying down in the bathroom.
"hi how are you feeling?" Annabelle asked coming in.
It'd felt so good to eat so I was really emotional about it. I was still slightly crying..
"um not. Great," I said: "my legs stopped hurting though. God I'm full."
"yeah. Are you nauseous?"
I nodded.
"your body's not used to this much food."
"I'm dizzy."
"yeah I know I've been there. It sucks."
"but oh it feels so good to eat."
"yeah. I know."
"um there's something you don't know about my dad," I began.
"yeah?"
"he…..I didn't eat for 5 days bc of him. He wouldn't let me."
"omygod wow."
"yeah and that's my way of keeping him away from me. Is, not eating. Keeping him appeased."
"good word."
"yeah."
"who else knows?"
"no one yet."
"oh."
"I'm really thirsty," I said.
"well if you kill off the rest of the soda it's ok. We can always get more. And you're probably dehydrated. Does your skin feel like it's burning?"
I shook my head.
"ok good. Cause if that happens tell me."
"ok."
"soda dehydrates you as you probably know but at this point I'd rather have you drink that than nothing at all. And so, does alcohol and you've been drinking a lot lately."
"yeah I know. I want to make it stop."
"I'm not. Upset w/ you hon. I get it I've been there."
"you're not?" I asked my eyes wide.
"no why would I be? I don't have a reason to be. I'm upset w/ your dad for what he did to you and to anyone else if there was an 'anyone else' but not w/ you. I get why you think that way though but also you have a disease. You're sick. you've been through a lot," Annabelle was so nice to me.
"yeah I am. Very," I said.
I was so tired. And my body hurt. My heart felt like it was being squeezed. My bones hurt.
"do you ever just hurt?" I asked.
"I have. Not in awhile but I have," Annabelle answered.
Even though I'd just eaten fries sounded good.
"hey um so fries sound good right now," I said.
"ooh they do. And the place is still open too. I'll get him to pick some up. And ketch no actually we have ketchup here."
She told evan we wanted fries and he left.
I slowly got up and opened my insides into the toilet.
"oh honey," Annabelle said: "I'm so sorry you're in this much pain. I mean I get why but it makes me sad."
"I am," I said.
"you ate too much and too fast and this is the reaction."
I felt so alone at their place. Even though she was really sweet and evan seemed cool I felt like an outsider. It wasn't a good feeling.
Annabelle rubbed my back w/ one hand and held my hair back w/ the other. I wondered if I'd be ok to make it to the living room.
"hey do you smoke?" she asked.
"uh cigs or weed?" I asked.
"weed."
"oh. I have. Why?"
"I just. I mean it might help. Idinno if it'll help your appetite but it'll help you calm down."
"um. Do you want money or something?"
It was the least I could do given they'd taken me in.
"oh no I got it. I'll be right back."
"ok."
She left the room.