Hey guys. Thank you for all the reviews. Some of you expected the shocker, while some of you didn't. Now, the question is, what did Haley do about it? I'll be honest with you. I had this shocker planned since day one, but now that I actually got here, I was completely torn and had no idea what to do next. Basically, I had to rethink the whole thing, and I still have doubts about what I decided. Anyway, the important thing is you guys like it.

Oh, and I posted my new story Sway, and I'd really appreciate it if you guys would check it out and tell me what you think.

Please review, and enjoy!

--Sera

Disclaimer: I don't own a thing.

There was something about the whole feel of a hospital. You never went there unless something wrong happened. And if you did go for a good reason, you were most likely to be leaving disappointed or upset. At least, that was what Haley thought. She had never stepped into a hospital her entire life. Okay, maybe a clinic or two, but not a hospital. There was an eerie sense of melancholy in the air, as if everyone around her was expecting bad news.

Haley nervously wringed her fingers, refusing to look up. She didn't want to look at the next somber face of a doctor and wonder if he or she was her doctor. She didn't want to look him at the eye and hear the dreaded words come out of his mouth. What was she all worried about? She was of legal age – and working. It was perfectly normal to be pregnant at her age.

Not when the dad of your possible kid is a one-night stand in the form of Nathan Scott.

How in the hell had she gotten herself into this sort of mess? If Haley knew anyone who was in this sort of predicament, she would have given them a long, winding lecture on safe sex and saving one's self for marriage. She would have probably even mentioned something about sex being something special shared between two people who loved each other with all of their hearts. It wasn't something that was carelessly done just because you were in the mood, and the guy who talked to you was impossibly hot.

Haley bit her lower lip nervously, knowing that with each passing second, she was a second closer to knowing the truth. She remembered how she broke down when she missed her period a few weeks ago. Of course, it was nothing to be afraid of – but when you were her and had done something stupid like have sex without thinking of the consequences, you would break down as well.

She felt immensely guilty about hiding it from Brooke and Peyton. They deserved to know; after all, they were her best friends. But Haley James couldn't bring herself to tell them. She couldn't even bring herself to admit it to herself – or to the nurse at the information awhile ago. Haley was the last person to be in a situation like this, and she couldn't bear to accept that she was. As far as Haley was concerned, she didn't know herself anymore. She wasn't the person she used to be – and she was no longer going to be that person. She had thrown all her morals and belief out the window for one night of sex. Regardless of the result, Haley was never going to be the old Haley James.

She then felt someone tap her shoulder. Feeling her stomach drop – knowing exactly what that tap meant – she slowly turned around. She was met by the same nurse at the information desk awhile ago, smiling pleasantly at her, as if she had done this a million times before.

"Miss James, thank you for waiting."

Haley merely nodded, too nervous to speak. Her mouth had gone dry, and she felt the slight tremors of anxiety race through her. Her gaze fell on the piece of paper in the nurse's hand. Her name was printed at the top but she couldn't see what else was written. Somehow, Haley found herself not wanting to know anymore. She could just go on with life, and see for herself if she really was carrying Nathan Scott's baby or not. She wasn't sure if she could really act calm and composed if she saw what else was written.

The nurse held out the piece of paper to Haley. "Your results just came in. It's –"

"I'd really like a moment alone, if you don't mind." Haley quickly cut in before the nurse could continue.

She smiled graciously in reply. "Of course,"

Haley watched her walk away, and felt her knees give in as she sank back onto the hard, plastic chairs. She willed herself to turn the paper over and look at it – just one peek, and she would know what she would have to do – but she couldn't. She really couldn't bring herself to. Still shaking, she reached into her purse and scanned her phonebook for the right name.

She paused for just one moment before pressing the call button, and nervously waited for an answer. Within moments, she heard the familiar, comforting voice ask, "Haley – what's the news? What happened? What's the result?"

Haley could barely contain a sob, holding up a hand to her face as she tried to hide the tears that were falling. "I can't do it, Vivian. I have the results right now, but I can't look at the paper. I can't."

"Just look at it, Haley – and whatever happens, I'm here for you."

"Vivian, this is going to change everything! This is not who I am." Haley sobbed into the phone, completely forgetting that she was in a hospital waiting room, filled with people anxiously waiting for news of some sort. It was just lucky no one was paying any attention to her.

"I'll be honest with you, Haley. When you called me about this, you were the last person I'd expect to one day tell me this. But you need to know that the people who love you will always be there for you, whatever happens."

There was a moment of silence on the other line.

"We are all going to change who we are at one point or another in our lives. Some of us just need a radical change."

"I got pregnant."

There it was. The three words all together in one sentence that Nathan had never expected to hear, even more so from Haley. He had always been careful when he slept around, even if he was drunk. The thought of just getting someone pregnant had always scared him, especially after what happened with Kiley. He didn't want to be so vulnerable again – getting so excited in the beginning, but ending up losing everything.

He couldn't believe that less than a minute ago, he was professing to her how much he loved her and now, he could barely believe what he just heard her say. Suddenly, he wished he didn't know – that he didn't plead that she tell him what she was hiding. He couldn't suppress the sickening feeling in his gut that was rising in his throat – something he knew he shouldn't feel.

"We were protected! I – I made sure of that!"

"Not when we made love, Nathan." She whispered to him, her voice so broken that if he weren't looking at her, he wouldn't have heard her.

The sickening feeling was getting worse and Nathan was practically swaying in the spot where he stood. "You're joking, right? I mean, this has got be a joke or something because –"

"Because you think that it would never happen to you? Nathan, this isn't a joke! This isn't something I would lie about just to get back at you for what you've done, because what I went through alone is not a joke!" Haley screamed at him in tears.

"How could you lie to me like that, Haley?! How could you keep it from me for so long?!"

"What was I supposed to do? Just suddenly bring it up from out of nowhere? You don't know how hard it was for me to keep it from you – how hard it was to look you in the eye every day, and hide it from you! And when exactly was supposed to be the right time to tell you? We were happy, Nathan! I was happy – I was happier than I've ever been with anyone else, and I was just going to ruin all of that? It's not something I'm proud of, Nathan. I threw all my morals and all that I believed in when I slept with you, and could you imagine how even worse I felt when I found out?"

If Nathan had been furious before, it was nothing compared to the shame he felt now. When he spoke, his voice was gentler, but there was no hiding the fear and dread in his voice. "Why didn't you come to me when you found out? I wanted to see you again. I told you that."

"So I could tell you I was pregnant? Be reasonable for just one minute, Nathan and try to see the sense in all of this. Imagine yourself just walking into your house one day and seeing me there and then hearing me tell you that I'm pregnant with your kid. It's not something you would want to hear."

"It beats hearing it now. It's been two years, Haley. Brooke and Peyton have no idea. How could you hide being pregnant – and then having a child – for two years?" He asked her.

He watched her eyes go teary again, and saw the heart-wrenching pain flit in them as she spoke. "It's because they never knew I was pregnant. After I got the results, I called my sister Vivian in Boston and went there, telling Brooke and Peyton that it was a family emergency, and I needed to deal with it on my own."

"So you spent nine months in Boston?"

"No. I spent four months there," she sighed when she saw the confused and questioning look on his face. "I lost the baby, Nathan."

There was that feeling again – the helpless, gut-wrenching pain Nathan felt when he lost Kiley. He had hoped that he would never feel it again, but there it was – slamming right at him so strongly like a brick wall that he fell. His legs gave way, and he fell on the floor, unable to speak.

Haley threw herself on the bed in frustration. She hated reliving everything that had happened – and now seeing Nathan's reaction just made it even worse.

"I couldn't hide it from Chris. If Brooke and Peyton believed me right away, Chris was instantly suspicious. He wanted to go there and see what was really going on. When he did, and he saw me pregnant – it was hell. We had this huge, huge fight – and he started – he started saying so many things I couldn't handle. He called me a slut, and a whore and it just – it went out of hand. He broke up with me that day, and I was devastated. When he left, I just broke down. The next morning, when I woke up – I was in the hospital. The doctors said it was because of so much stress that my body couldn't handle it. I lost the baby.

"It was a couple more months until I went back. When I did, Brooke and Peyton instantly noticed that something was different. I told them that Chris found out about me and you, and he broke up with me. They weren't suspicious about anything else, because by that time, I was getting better at hiding it. I mean, there were nights that I just broke down all over again, but I kept burying it and burying it, until it was so far down that it was almost like it never happened. I never thought it would come back to haunt me again."

Still shaking, Haley reached into her bag to pull out a worn-looking folder and gave it to him.

Nathan opened it to reveal a sonogram picture of a baby – their baby. All throughout the time Haley was speaking, he couldn't look at her. He had been too busy trying to imagine what she had been going through, and he had never felt guiltier in his life. Just one disbelieving look at the sonogram gave him the strength to look her in the eye.

"I may not have wanted the baby in beginning, but I eventually did. I almost pictured how he would look like – just like you. I wanted the baby more than anything, because I thought that even if I didn't have you, I had your child. And I would have loved it as much as I love you, if not more."

Somehow, her words brought strength to him as Nathan stood up and pulled Haley into his arms, kissing her senseless. When he pulled away, they were both breathless. "I'm sorry, Haley. I've made so many mistakes in my life that I never cared about, but my mistakes with you are the worse. If I could take back every mistake I made with you, I would. I'm sorry you had to go through so much alone, and I'm sorry that I'm an assuming jackass, but I want you to know that I love you – and I always will."

He gently kissed away the tears falling from her eyes and held her close. He then held her at arm's length and remarked, "This is supposed to be the part when you tell me that you love me too."

Haley couldn't help but giggle at this point. "You know, the part when I said that I love you was from the heat of the moment."

Nathan threateningly gave her a look, making her laugh. "Haley …"

"I love you, too Nathan," she planted a kiss on his lips to reassure him, and sighed. "I honestly don't know how to Brooke and Peyton, though."

"Hey, if you were able to tell me, you can tell them. They're your best friends, Haley. Don't close them off." He told her.

Haley nodded. "I've always shut people out because I thought I could deal with things on my own. It looks like all I need is just someone to lean on."

"Which is why you have them – and me," said Nathan. "I'm here now, Haley – and I'm not going anywhere, I promise." He paused for a moment, then continued, "You know, a few days back, I told myself that I would make you love me. I didn't think we would through all of this to find out you already loved me."

"Love you," corrected Haley, standing on tiptoe so she could give him a lingering kiss. "There's a difference."

Nathan mumbled something incoherently as they fell on the bed, still kissing. Haley let out a soft moan when his tongue parted her lips and found hers. A smirk started to play on his lips as he hungrily kissed her. When he pulled away, he remarked, "Now would probably be a good time to have sex, though."

She swatted his arm in reply. "Hey, just because all of this happened doesn't mean we're going to have sex."

"Sure it does. It could be really hot, make-up sex." Nathan chimed in.

Haley rolled her eyes at him as she pushed him off her. "Come on, we still have to tell them what happened."

"We? Why is there a 'we' all of a sudden?" He asked her as they climbed off the bed.

"Because we don't get hot make-up sex until we talk to our friends."

"Let's go talk to them." Nathan immediately said, quickly pulling Haley towards the bedroom door.

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