Hey guys sorry this story is so freaking long. My intentions were only to make it around 20 chapters, but as you can see I got a little carried away. I do plan on ending this story after the points have been made and we see our lovely Andre here in a few. I hope you guys aren't too bored with this story. Anyways here's Chapter 37. Happy Thanksgiving again! ;)

Chapter 37

This is Not Happening Right Now

[Jade's POV]

After I was showered and dressed. I walked downstairs dragging my feet feeling an emotion that I can't quite put a name to, but I hate the feeling. Its times like these I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up 100 years later.

"There you are Jadey. Are you ready?" Cat asked as she tied her son's shoes.

"Where are we going Cat? I don't like surprises, and when did you get all ready?" I asked as I looked over her neatly clean outfit.

She smiled. "Oh I used the downstairs bathroom. Now I'm ready too!"

I rolled my eyes. "Where are we going, this is the last time I'm asking."

"Somewhere fun!" She said as she picked her son up and held him in her arms.

I sighed. "Whatever." I didn't even care where we were going. To be honest, I really didn't care about anything at the moment. It's just, whatever.

Once we were situated in the car my phone went off. I growled knowing it was Tori probably begging me to come home again.

I hate when people do shit like that. They tell you to leave then beg you to come back. Hell no, fuck that. I was actually thinking about heading back until she sent that bullshit. Tori is full of it…..or maybe I'm full of it? No fuck it. I don't care. She can cry all she wants to.

No, Jade what are you saying? What the fuck is going on right now? What are you doing? You're out about to have whatever "fun" Cat is planning while your wife is at home probably crying her eyes out. But she caused this to herself. Right? She made me leave. Ugh! I can't. I can't go out, I can't do this knowing she's at home. This is my fault no matter how much I try to blame her. No matter how much I try to blame anyone. Nothing like this has ever happened. We are always so happy. We rarely to never argue, and now I've been kicked out of the house in the matter of a a heartbeat. What has gone wrong? Is it me? It is me. It's all me. I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I never meant to hurt her. Things have gone way too far and I don't know why I haven't stopped myself. I need to stop myself before it goes any further, before things get any worse. But how can things be fixed? Of course with me going home first. I have to go home. My family needs me.

"Cat, I have to go home, now."

Cat turned down the radio and glanced at me. "But Jade..

"-Cat don't." I said putting my hand up to stop whatever small speech she was about to give. "We can always spend time together. I just really need to fix things with Tori, with my family."

"Tori, Tori, Tori. Do you not live with her!? Are you not married to the girl, Jade? I'm asking for one day! Just one day with you. Is that just so much to ask? What? Do you hate me now or something? What have I done?"

I was a little shocked at her sudden outburst, but of course this is Cat. So anything I will try to explain to her she won't understand. She will just take it as me not wanting to spend time with her, and it's true though. I haven't spent time with Cat like Tori does since she's been back. I haven't because I can't. I don't want to. I only run to her when I need her. I use her. I use her like I always have. She so vulnerable, it's just so easy to. I hate the fact that I do it so when she does actually want to spend time I dodge it, because I know deep down she has no idea what I've been doing to her all those years. She had no idea that even though she called me her best friend I played it out to be hers, but deep down I didn't really call her mine. I was selfish. I still am selfish. I can't help that. It's me. If I can use you I will and I will have no remorse. But Cat, I took something from Cat that I never took from anyone before, not even my wife. Something I didn't mean to take. And ever since that night Cat was clung to me. She kept wanting more and I couldn't give it to her. She had a boyfriend and so did I. It was a one time thing and she didn't seem to understand that. So I had stopped talking to her right after high school. I did everything I could to avoid her. After me and Beck finally broke off I wanted to run to Cat, but I just couldn't. I felt so guilty. So I ran to Tori. Tori was there. I never meant to fall in love with her. It just happened. I told her everything. I told her how I used Cat and she seemed to have understood. For the longest she thought I was using her as well, but after time, she finally told me she loved me and I loved her too. Even though Cat had someone in her life, I remember the night I asked Tori to marry me. It was at a farewell for Cat and Robbie actually. They were both going to college or wherever the hell they were going. As I held Tori in my arms my eyes landed on Cat. Her expression was a look of devastation and I had no idea why. I had already made it clear to her there was nothing going on between us, but I knew she still held onto that night. I wish it never had happened. Even though this happened so many years ago, every time I see her, the memory comes back and I feel guilty as hell. I never apologized to her. If I owe anybody an apology Cat has to be the first, but I know, I just know she won't understand.

New Text Message

Sender: Shiloh

Shiloh: Jade when are you coming home? I know it's only been like a day, but I miss you. Are you guys going to get a divorce? Roxy's parents might and I don't think I could live anymore if my parents did.

The message instantly went straight to my heart.

Me: Shiloh no! We are never getting a divorce. I will be home soon. I promise. I love you. Tell your sister I love her. Tell your mother I love her.

I sighed after a long moment of silence as Cat still drove to our unknown destination. "No Cat I don't hate you. You haven't done anything. It's what I've done." I said as I looked down at my lap.

"Jadey what's wrong?" She said as she grabbed my hand.

I looked up and noticed we where parked at the Carnival. I've should've known.

I shook my head and grabbed both of her hands in mine. "Cat, I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"I know you might not understand. I don't want to hurt you with my words, so all I'm going to say is that I'm so sorry for everything. I never meant it. You were always there for me and I took advantage. I didn't care. You have a big heart Cat and I didn't mean to abuse it. I did, even if you think I didn't. You really are my best friend and I'm just…just sorry. I know you probably don't understand this, but just know I'm sincerely sorry okay." I felt small tears start to form in my eyes, but I held them back. I hate crying. It's a sign of weakness and Jade West isn't weak. I've cried more in the past 6 months than I have my entire life and that's going to stop today.

I watched as Cat shook her head in confusion as she brought her hand up to my face giving it a slight rub in which she was wiping a small tear that escaped my eye without permission away.

"It's okay Jadey." She whispered.

I shook my head. "Cat, no you don't understand…I I-"

"-Shhhh." She whispered again as her finger moved in front of my lips to quiet me. She looked me in my eyes and I saw something, something I've never seen before and I couldn't figure out what. It was in that split second I figured out what her eyes were saying as she tilted her head and started to lean forward.

[Stallone's POV]

I stomp into the front door and slam it behind me as I threw my keys on the table but missed and they ended up on the floor. But fuck it. I don't care.

"Stallone, honey are you okay?" I heard Tori ask, but I was in no mood to talk. I ignored her as I stomped up the stairs and to my room. I was happy to see that my room was Roxyless as I slammed the door behind me.

What the hell did I say? I just spilled it all to her and she runs! She fuckin' runs! Fuck her then!

I punched my wall and then threw myself on my bed with my face buried into my covers. I should just smother myself.

After a moment I started to struggle to breathe when a knock on the door interrupts the process of my smothering.

"What!" I lifted my head and screamed irately at the door.

"Stallone are you alright? Can I come in?"

"No Tori! Just leave me the hell alone!" I threw my face back into my covers.

I heard my door opened and close and I gave a loud growl at how she is now invading my privacy.

"Tori get out!"

"No." I heard a bang against the wall then moments later I felt the bed sink in.

I started to pant into the covers as my body struggled to get more air, but I didn't care. We don't always get what we want, so my lungs will learn the hard way.

"Stallone stop it."

I ignored her as my panting increased.

"Stallone!...Stallone!" This time she grabbed the back of my shirt and yanked me up. I started to cough as my lungs started to fill with way more air then they needed.

"What the hell? Are you trying to smother yourself!?"

"Yes I was! And I didn't need you saving me!" I yelled as I sat up and brought my knees to my chest.

"What happened? Did you not have a good lunch?" She laughed.

"Did you not have a good lunch?" I mocked Tori as I turned back around and let my face fall back into the covers again.

"Oh no you don't." She rolled me over. "What happened?"

"I don't want to talk about it." I covered my face with my hands.

She sighed. "Alright, but I'm not leaving." She said as she scooted back so her feet were hanging off my bed.

"We'll I guess you'll just be here because I'm going to bed." I said as I crawled up to my pillow and laid down. I didn't even bother pulling the covers down. What's the use?

"It the middle of the afternoon?" She said as I felt her crawl up behind me.

"Yes now leave me alone." I reached up and pulled another pillow over my head.

"Ahhh c'mon lonieee, talk to me please?" She begged as tugged on my sleeve.

"Ughh don't call me that, I hate that!"

"Then talk." She said in a slurry voice, but I ignored it.

"Tori what do you not understand about leave me alone!?"

She sighed. "Fine, I'll leave you alone. But I'm still not leaving until you talk."

"Whatever! Goodnight!"

"You mean afternoon."

"God Tori shut up!"

"Shut can't really go up? Can you explain that process?"

"I swear Tori."

"What exactly is a swear?"

"5."

"Oh a count down huh?"

"4"

"Rhymes with door."

"3"

"I'm shaking at the knees."

"2."

"It's Halloween! Boo!"

"Tori this is a warning, I'm not paying with you right now."

"Okay I completely get it."

I gave a sigh of relief until she started to hum.

"Toriiiiii!"

"What? I'm not bothering you!" She giggled.

"The hell is wrong with you!? Why are you in here? Leavveeeee!"

"Told you I'm not leaving until you talk."

"Fine, I'll leave." I removed the pillow from my head and jumped off of the bed before I headed for the door in which Tori beat me too and stood in front of.

"Move!"

"Alright I'll move. But first you got to tell me what's wrongggg?" She smiled as she hit me on the shoulder.

"Tori what. The. Hell?"

She laughed and took a step closer to me grabbing my hands. "Pleaseee?"

It was then I smelled the strong scent of alcohol on her breath.

"Have you been drinking!?"

"Pshhhh!" She waved me off. "Nooo, I don't drink Stallone."

I pulled her closer to me and smelled her breath. "Yes you have Tori! Why the fuck are you drinking!?"

"Oh now don't try to turn the questions on meee." She tapped my nose and smiled.

"Dude you're fuckin' drunk, get the hell out of my room."

She frowned. "But I love you Stallone." She reached over and ran her fingers through my hair in which I instantly grabbed and yanked away with fury.

"What? Now you don't love me either!? First Jade now you!" She instantly started crying.

Oh my fuckin' gosh! This is not happening right now.

[Evelyn's & Arizona's Text]

Evelyn: I think she tried to ask me out.

Arizona: She did! What did you say?

Evelyn: I ran.

Arizona: Wtf! You idiot! Why did you run!

Evelyn: I don't know. She just went into apology mode and she was telling me all kinds of things and it was just so much and I didn't know how to react.

Arizona: Earth to Evelyn! You two were supposed to kiss and live happily ever after! You ran like some romantic idiot. This isn't a damn movie or a damn book! I didn't even know people actually ran away in real life. You are two kinds of stupid!

Evelyn: Thanks Ari, you make me feel so much better!

Arizona: I keep it real. No but really, you just left her there?

Evelyn: Yes

Arizona: SMH, so ahhh you need to go back.

Evelyn: I can't go back! I doubt she's even still there.

Arizona: Uhhhhh, she has a house I'm pretty sure she went to!

Evelyn: I can't she probably hates me now!

Arizona: I doubt she hates you. She's just probably confused as to why you ran!

Evelyn: I mean it's just wow. I never knew she felt that way. It seemed like she didn't want me.

Arizona: What did she say?

Evelyn: A lot of stuff, I'm not going to repeat everything. Basically she was saying she wants me and she's sorry for everything.

Arizona: And you rannnnn? I can't believe I'm best friends with the biggest idiot in the world.

Evelyn: Arizona!

Arizona: Okay I'm sorry. But you know what you gotta do.

Evelyn: What?

Arizona: It was a statement.

Evelyn: I think I know.

Arizona: And that is?

Evelyn: Go get her.

Arizona: and…

Evelyn: Make her mine.

Arizona: So what are you waiting for?

No reply 10 minutes later

Arizona:…. Haha, that's my girl.

Thanks for reading. REVIEWWWWWW! ;)