I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I've held on to

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

"Hanging by a moment" by LifeHouse

Bella's POV

Perfect-washed white tiled flooring.

Pastel-colored walls standing plainly.

Metallic, painful, uncomfortable Chairs.

Small wooden tables containing year-old magazines.

Vending Machines storing decaying food.

I looked around. A place so quiet. Where you could barely hear the whispers among the people. But where you could see their pain and worry in their eyes. Some, staring at the clean floor. Ignoring the world. Lost in their heads about times where it wasn't like this. Where they weren't waiting to give their last goodbye to someone in the rooms outside these glass doors. The only noise was between the TV that entertained itself and Nurses typing away on their Computers.. But occasionally the only movement, besides the pacing, was the reflex action. When a Doctor would step into the room, everyone looked up. Hoping they would bring good news.

"Bella?" It took my about five seconds to be able to look up. To meet the gaze of the heartrending Emerald Eyes. "You should really go Home. Im sure Chief Swan doesn't appreciate the fact that you're here so long," Dr. Cullen said as he stuffed his hands into his white medical-robe.

I shrugged. Staring at the purple circles underneath his eyes. "Im not leaving," I picked up a magazine from one of the tables in the waiting room.

"Bella," He sighed. "It's not healthy for you to loose so much sleep,"

"Im not really worried about my well-being," I flipped through the Index pages.

" Bella," He repeated again. "You haven't been to school. Your about to graduate soon. You need to attend. You need to go home other than to shower. You need to eat. You need to get out of this Hospital, Breathe some fresh air…."

"No." I said, still looking through the old magazine. "I don't need to go anywhere,"

"Look, I understand-"

"No Mr. Cullen," I hissed sharply. Tossing the magazine aside carelessly. "You don't seem to understand. No matter how many times you ask me to go home and rest, or the times you call Charlie, or have Esme talk to me, I will not leave. Im determined to stay here and I will."

He sighed again. "What about school?"

I shrugged, looking away from his tiring expression. "It can wait,"

"No Bella. Your future cant wait. You need to go to school." He said in a parenting-tone.

"Excuse me Mr. Cullen but"- I turned to face him again-" Fuck that. How can you tell me to think about my Future when Edward is in that room. Disconnected from the world….from me. There is no future if Edward isn't there," The burning behind my eyes began to ignite.

"You cant keep waiting on Edward," He told me softly.

I glared. Anger swelling in my chest. "It's been a week Dr. Cullen, surely you couldn't have given up on him right now"

"Im a Doctor Bella. I've been treating patients in comas for a long time now. I know its been a week. But this can take one month. One year-"

"I have a life time." I glared.

"You must go home and rest," He said flatly.

I groaned. It's been the same argument with Carlisle Cullen for the past five days. An argument he never wins. "I'll go home until you give me what Im demanding," I said.

"You cant see him Bella. Not even Esme has gone in."

I crossed my legs. Looking up at him angrily. "Then Im not going home," Edward was always right. I am stubborn.

"Do I need to get your father-"

"Oh not this again!" A small smile threatened to crawl on my face as I heard the Pixie whisper loudly. "Why is it that all the time I come the two of you are always arguing? No wonder Esme rather wait in the Cafeteria," She huffed as she gave Mr. Cullen an one-armed hugged.

"Good evening Alice," Carlisle greeted her.

She smiled at him. "Argh," She raised her eyebrow as she looked at me deeply.

"Shit, thanks" I rolled my eyes.

"Well Bella…Look at you. Im sure Edward looks a lot better than you," I threw her a dirty look. What is it with her and Emmett making jokes about this. "What?" She asked innocently. "Don't give me that look Swan! You know you look like they mopped the floor with you!" She took a seat next to me.

"Where's Jasper?" I tapped my leg on the floor. I looked up from the tile to notice that Carlisle had left.

"Somewhere trying to find his left nut," She smirked, expecting her nails in the light from above.

I shook my head. "What did he do now?"

"It's more of what he didn't do," She grabbed the same magazine I had thrown.

"Explain Tink," I focused on a young Women sitting a row away from me. Her black hair tied up in a messy hair-bun.

She grunted. "He is an asshole," She said in a matter-of-a-fact way.

Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete

I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

The lady's hand remained on her chin. Making the weight of her head rest on it. Her face looking blank. And her grey-eyes looked so distant. So far away. "What did he do?" I asked again. The Pixie really needed to know how to get to the point. She drags everything out.

"Bella, Im three months pregnant. As soon as I found out I told all of you. It's not like me to keep something so important from the people I love. And telling Jasper about it was….hard. But telling my mother about it was a mission. I even had the paramedics on speed dial incase she went into a fit. " She sighed. "It was hard. I felt like I disappointed her. I figured she would be furious and she would kick me out, but it was all a risk I was willing to take. I took that chance for my baby. And…."

"And what?" The women with the grey distant eyes clutched onto a chain hanging from her neck with her free hand. Clutching it tight, like her life depended on it. A tear fell from her eye. It made a damp mark on her purple shirt. She had been in the same position as long as I've been here. Or even longer.

"He cant tell his parents! I thought he had already! Until Rosalie made a joke about their parents killing Jasper once they found out about me and my extra ten pounds! He should have said something Bella! If I took the chance he should too! That's why god created him with a Penis! Aren't they suppose to be all tough? God I have more cajones than that fucker." She clucked her tongue. "Bastard," She mumbled after two seconds.

"But its different Alice," The lady that sat a row away, looked like a women in Love. She looked like she was suffering from a great deal of pain. When you loose a family member….It hurts. It stings and it breaks your heart into two pieces. But when someone you Love…your other half…is stuck in the middle of living or leaving…it tears you apart. It kills you slowly. And I imagined the way She looks, so distraught and with a fierceness of keeping faith, is the same way I look. Hoping that my Love will make it out Alive. "Your much closer to your Mother than Jasper is to his parents. And you know that. It isn't like any kind of communication is normal between them. " I turned away from her and looked at my Friend. She needed to be alone with her faith, and I wasn't anyone to over-see that.

She snorted. "Sure. Side with the Blonde." She crossed her slender arms on her chest. "It's not that I don't understand Bella….Im just mad that he hasn't even had the balls to try and say something."

"Don't be so hard on Him…."

"Bella…" She sighed. Her cold hand touched the top of mine. I could feel her knuckles and bones through her skin. What ten Pounds? She was skinner as ever. "How are you holding up? I hate to get involved" -I scoffed-" But Carlisle is right. You cant stay here all the time. You need to move on."

I pushed her hand aside. "Why does everyone make it sound like I've been here a year? It's been about a week. I still have plenty of time"

"We graduate in two months Bella. You need to go to school. Catch up with Homework. Pass classes. Or do you plan to stay in Forks for the rest of your life?"

"If Edward hasn't awaken by then, then I will stay here until they bury me," I spat.

"Bella," She sounded irritated. "If your wasting away your time because you think that-"

"It is Alice!" I hissed. "It is my fault! Why else would he be here? Why else would he ever have considered the cowardly idea of suicide? Why would he want to take his life away? Because of me! Because I was so stupid! And I thought of my own Pain!"

She took my hand again. Holding on to it roughly. "How were you suppose to know that Tanya was just fucking with the both of you? How were you suppose to know that nothing happened? It isn't your fault Bella. This was all a set-up and it sucks that it came to this, but it was the way it was suppose to be,"

I scoffed. "Don't tell me you think that this was written in our futures again?" I rolled my eyes at her. There is no way the Universe plan for Edward to almost leave me…or to fully be gone. His soul belonged to me. And so does his Life. There is no way this is part of a greater Plan.

"You have to forgive yourself," She spoke in her usual soft tone.

"Bella?"

I rubbed my eyes. "Yes Dr. Cullen?" I looked up to Edward's Fathers expression.

"You can see him,"

I froze. "W-What?" I gasped.

He sighed. And I could sense in his expression that he was debating about this heavily. "You can come in. You can go and see Edward. -But only for a few minutes," He added quickly.

"Thank You," I smiled with a rapid heart beating in my chest.

I turned to look at Alice. Standing onto my feet. Feeling my body un-numb as I stretched. "I'll be here when you get out….and….I'll call everyone…"

I shook my head. "No. They need to get on with their lives. They cant always be here. You should go too. You'll be seeing the hospital in a few months," I winked.

She rolled her eyes. "Great. Like I needed to remember Im going to have someone look into my…stuff… and not to mention this baby is going to tear me apart," She slapped her palms to her stomach. "Im going to be loose as Jane Volturi during Spring Break,"

"See you in a bit," I felt bad for being mean to the Pixie. It's just that her optimism about everything that goes wrong in Life, scares me. How can someone always see the light? Even in her current situation, she has to know that her life is going to drastically change once she has her Jasper Jr. That she is going to be a Mother. And she has to stop living the way she has to begin living for a child. And now, with my Edward….with him being in the situation he is in…She still sees the chance that it will all be over. Even when I badger people about giving up faith, when I was the first one to loose it. It's like she knows, and as crazy as it seems, I might even trust her judgment. Just maybe.

"Bella" Dr. Cullen grabbed my forearm. We stood outside of one of the identical plain rooms of this Hospital. With the same colored walls that' the Waiting Room had. Except this room was different. Room 713 was beyond plain. It held him. Edward. He was inside. Just inside those two doors. "After this….you have to promise to go Home. Please. Don't take it as Im trying to get rid of you…I know that you love my son very much. But Im trying not to waste your time and life. Im sure Edward would have wanted the same. So…."

I nodded. " I understand Doctor. That was the deal anyway. Ill see him. Then I'll go Home. Go to School. Come back here after class…..Then I'll go home after a few hours," I obeyed his wishes.

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I've held on to

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and not quite sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

He nodded. Reaching for the door. "Good." Doctor Cullen pushed the doors open. Allowing me to walk in first. I had to take in a deep breath first. My courage was being tested as I tried not to take a peek inside. "You wanted this…" He reminded me. Placing a hand on my back. Directing me inside.

As I entered the pastel-colored room, the first thing I noticed was the shiny, sleek-clean tiled floor. Subconsciously I believed it was the way I guarded myself. I shook my head at my cowardly thoughts. Carlisle was right. I did want this. I had to look at Him. How can I not? I put him in here after all. "I can do it," I chanted to myself. My brown-eyes lifted off the floor. I looked around to the two black chairs sitting on the right side of the room. And from the corner of my eye I could see the edges of the Bed. The black chairs rested by the counter. Next to the many medical tubes and piles of papers, was a giant 'Get Well' card bought by McCarty and Jasper, and Flowers by the Girls.. My blood started racing as, centimeter by centimeter, I looked to my left. Towards the middle of room 713. My heart dropped. "E-Edward," My voice cracked. Wrapped in white sheets, Edward laid lifelessly on the Hospital bed. With tubes in his mouth, and the sound of the monitor in charge of keeping his heart-rate up, beeping slowly.

"I'll…um…leave you two…alone" Mr. Cullen coughed awkwardly. I heard his footsteps, quietly, walk out the door. Hearing it shut lightly behind him.

One step at a time, I walked towards Edward. "Um.." My hand shook over his chest. I was Only two inches away from actually touching him. His chest raised up. He was breathing. And I felt like grabbing his shoulders and shaking him out of his comatose state. I needed him Back. I need him with me. Out of the damned coma. I needed him alive. "Edward…" I whispered. I felt like an idiot. I carefully sat at the edge of the Hospital Bed. "Edward I-" I couldn't believe I was actually doing it. I couldn't believe I actually believed that he could hear me. But there was something about the way his heart began to beat slightly louder, that gave me Hope.

I sighed. Slowly, I reached for his hand. His skin was cold. Pale. But I felt a sudden rush as my skin came in contact with his. It was like the day I first met him all over again. The way I felt electricity run through my veins when He brushed by me. "Your dad finally let me In…which means I finally met him," I snorted, in an almost-a-laugh sort of way. "He really is….Firm. But He cares a lot about you. I guess Emmett cant make fun of you now, right? Your dad has been here day and night. Just like Esme of course. And…..I've been in the waiting room for a week. " I gave his hand a squeeze. Please Edward, Come back to Life. "All of your friends have been here too. Alice is in the waiting Room right now. She is complaining about gaining weight but honestly Tink can be about to go to the Delivery room and she wont look pregnant," I gave a nervous Laugh. Well if I felt like an Idiot before, I feel like Mike Newton now. I picked my gaze back up. Away from the tingle sensation I was feeling form holding his hand. I had forgotten how…..natural it felt.

I gripped his hand tightly. Out of frustration. My throat tightened. He still laid there. Still. Unmoving. Some part of me actually believed that my presence……Argh. Alice is wrong. Hoping is for the people who are too ignorant to see the Reality of things.

"You didn't sleep with Tanya." But I was caught in the middle. I still hoped. But my hope was fading. "You never….you never did anything. Denali brewed up a plan in her cauldron to make you think that you did. But in reality….Edward your innocent. You never c-…cheated on me. Never." A tear fell from my eye. "Im so sorry E-Edward!" I cried. "Im sorry for every cruel thing I ever said to you. I lied…..I always did. How could you have honestly believed all of it? Look at you! Look where you are1 I thought you knew me better than that! You had to know….It wasn't really how I felt. Everyday I cry for you. Everyday. And I still…..I never got over you Edward."

If only I could go back in time. To change the last words I ever said to him. If only I could have forgave Him…..But there was nothing ever to forgive. Every word I said to him was directed to murder him inside. I wanted him to suffer. To feel miserable. I wanted him to feel like his world was ending. Just like I felt. The way I thought he caused me to act and think. I wanted him to feel it. To hurt. To cry. To feel anguish……I wanted him to feel like dying….

The guilt is eating me up inside. How could I have ever wished for something like that? How could I ever wanted Edward to leave me? I would have never found the strength to leave. Never. In the privacy of my miserable room, I still read old notes. Texts. And kept pictures that fire didn't seem to destroy. I was a fool to think I could ever forget him. And I was a bigger imbecile for making Him believe I did.

I pressed my face onto his chest. "I need you Edward. Please…..Please wake up. Im sorry for everything. I don't hate you. I don't want you to be away form me. I want you by my side. To hold me. I need you to look at me with your enchanting Green-Eyes…..Please!" I sobbed onto his Hospital Gown. "Don't ever leave me….Don't ….You're my…you're my life…"

"I felt a tug on my hand. "Isabella…I-Isabella S-Swan….don't….-cry," I froze.

"Im hearing things," I whispered to myself. There is no way I heard that velvety-

"B-Bella…"

"No…nooo" I shook my head into his chest.

"Bella!" I abruptly jolted up into seating position. Carlisle Cullen stormed into the room, along with two nurses.

My chest pounded. Green Eyes. Emerald eyes were staring at me. Wide Open. And the owner of those eyes was giving me hand a squeeze. "Edward," I gasped.

"Check his signals" Carlisle ordered one of the nurses. "You, check the monitor," I heard heavy movement from behind me. But all I could do…Was stare at those eyes I never thought I was going to see again. "Son….How are you feeling?" I could also hear Carlisle Cullen's emotion as he spoke to his Son.

"Bella," He said. He was trying to pull me towards him. There was a soft smile playing at his luscious lips.

"Don't you ever!"- I slapped his leg-" Fucken think about leaving me Cullen!" I slapped harder.

"Ow," He flinched.

"Bella…He just came out of a coma, hitting him is not wise," The Doctor smiled.

Another tear rolled down my cheek. "I love you Bella" My soul was about to leap towards him.

I rushed to his side. Pushing Carlisle away. Fucken Pixie. She was right after all. I was never going to be able to live this down with her now. "You scared the shit out of me," I hugged him. Feeling like I was Home. Feeling in peace. His arms wrapped weakly around me. And I couldn't stop crying. And this time it was out of Joy. Edward was Okay. He was awake. And with me. "I love you so much More,"

There's nothing else to lose,

there's nothing else to find

There's nothing in the world that can change my mind

There is nothing else

I'm hanging by a moment

Just hanging by a moment here with you

Phew.

Okay Guys Im REALLY REALLY sorry I havent updated in a while.

1st- I was grounded. Then after three days I was allowed back on.

2nd- My dad forgot to pay the internet! And that took like four freaken more days! Argh!

Well Hopefully this chapter was long enough for the wait. Sorry I kinda rushed it at the end but I really wanted to update. SO yeah...

Enjoy?