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Back To Abnegation
Chapter 37
The thought of Natalie just seeing the scars on my back, are almost mortifying. Yes, she knows of Marcus' abuse. But it's one thing to hear about it, it's another to have the outcome stare at you in the face. I hate anyone that gives me pity. The past along with Marcus is where it should be, in the past. I want it to stay there. Although like many secrets, they cant just stay buried. At least not for long. Although I would love to dwell on this some more, I know right now is not the time.
As Tris and I both race back upstairs to her bedroom, we need to hurry if we are to get dressed and make it back down stairs before Caleb and Tris' father arrive. The last thing I would want is to be on Andrew's bad side when it comes to Tris. He knows I love Tris more than anything in this world, but Natalie is right he is full Abnegation through and through. Not only that, but he has a father would probably kill me for sleeping with daughter. I think about it, if it was my daughter, no mater the age, I probably would kill the son of a bitch who dared to touch her.
I throw on my dark gray jeans, along with a lighter tone gray shirt. I pull on my socks, shoes, and grab my coat. When I look back to Tris, she has already pulled on her three layer gray dress, and is working on getting her hair in the standard Abnegation bun. She turns placing the finally pin in her hair, and glancing at me asking that unspoken word. "All set?" I nod and we waste no more time heading back down stairs fast as we can. We hear a knock on the door just as we reach the final step. Tris, Natalie, and I let out a sigh of relief, noticing that we made it just in time.
"We will chat about this later." Natalie says pointing her index finger at both Tris and I.
She than walks to the door to let both Caleb and Andrew in. I take that moment to steal a glance at Tris, who is glancing back at me with the same expression. A thankful relief and smile. I would imagine that we would both be laughing, if it wasn't for the approaching presents of Caleb and Andrew coming in.
Caleb is the first one to come into the house, his gaze lands on Tris the moment he steps in. His face contorts. I can tell so many emotions threaten to over whelm him. Of course, I forgot. Caleb hasn't seen Tris since the day she dead, in the weapon lab. He was the last one to see her alive. Not to mention her final words on this earth was telling him to pass a message to me. "Tell Four, I didn't mean to leave him." She had to told him to pass to me.
I know some how both Caleb and I will have to eventually get pass this hurt and hatred we share for each other. Deep down I know what he did, he did it because of the war. I know. I did it too. I made my own share of mistakes. I wanted to believe in someone that we show me a way to end the war, end the hurt and the pain. The end result were almost the same, we were both responsible for killing and hurting those we cared about at the end. He was responsible for Tris. As I was responsible for Uriah along with dozens of others injured and killed that day of the explosion that I help cause. Damn Nita.
"Beatrice. Tris." Caleb says taking a step forward. He holds out his arms, hesitate at what her actions might be. But relieved when he sees she runs into his arms, accepting the embrace. I bow my head at Andrew, standard Abnegation greeting.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry. I shouldnt have let you go in the weapon lab. It was suppose to be me. I was prepared for it to be me. I was the one suppose to be protecting you." Caleb tells Tris letting his sobs over take him.
"Shh." Tris says trying to sooth her brother. "Its ok. We all are ok." She pulls back slightly looking up at Caleb. "So you remember?" She ask him.
"Yes. That's... kinda why I am here. Cara and I have been going over things and..." He stops looking around the room. He sees his mother and lets one arm open further for his mother to join them. "Mom." Caleb says almost a whisper.
"My dear boy." Natalie says placing her arms around her children. "It's alright now."
After a few minutes they finally break away from each other. Tris comes back a few steps joining our hands together. "Hello Four," Caleb greets me. "Good to see you. What you living with my sister now?" I stiffen at his question. Tris on the other hand tries to play it cool with laughter. It's moments like this, I take all I just said about wanting to forgive and forget our past, back. Dumb ass!
"Caleb." I greet through my gritted teeth, I look at him with my intimidating "Four mask." Need I say more, he knows what that means. I can still kick you sorry ass any time.
"So as I was saying, Cara and I have been discussing the million point question. Why are some coming back with memories from the other world and some are not." Caleb says drawing everyone's attention. "And we came up with a theory." Caleb says taking the seat at the dinning room table. We all join him, taking seats and settling in for what feels like might be a long conversation.
"And that would be?" I ask. Urging him to continue.
"Our own Will." Caleb answers. WHAT? "Think about it, Four what is the most important thing to you?" Caleb ask me.
"Tris." I say like its a no brainier.
"Right, Tris. She was everything to you. That's power. It gave you will not to forget her because she is everything to you." Caleb says light its a no brainier. What?
"Mom, Dad... you both were shot and killed. So many regrets. Not being able to help with the war, leaving your kids to deal with everything. Protecting Tris and possibly failing. Why would you want to remember that?" Caleb says.
"And Tris, you had the most regrets of all. Me as a traitor, killing Will, betraying Christina, betraying Four, Uriah's death, always having the weight of the world on your shoulders... She had no will to fight to remember." Caleb points out.
"But I had dreams... or I should say images in my dreams of Tobias. That's how I knew to have so much faith in Tobias. How do you explain that?" Tris ask. Good question.
"That's easy. Tris he was family for you, he was everything. You last words to me, knowing you might die, was a message for him. You needed him to know that you didn't mean to leave him. Of course, your subconcious is trying to tell you he is still everything. Even know the rest you don't want to remember." He says taking another deep breath. "Take Eric, he hated you Four. Hated you from day one, you told me." I nod agreeing. "You were the one that executed him. In his eyes, you won. That is WILL right there. He wants a shot at redemption. He remembers because he needs to win this time. I remember because my of the awful things I did. I wouldn't want to do it again." Caleb says.
"So you are telling me that those that have no memory, is because they don't want to remember. Those that do remember is because they have a motive to better themselves. Is that right?" Andrew asks.
"Just about, yes." Caleb says. Wow seems to easy. "The stronger the WILL, the better." We all nod taking this all in. Seems so easy, so straight forward. But makes sense at the same time.
"Now, the next topic at hand. Cara and I created a hover craft, we needed to know rather or not the Bureau was still out there." He did what?
"There's nothing. The hover craft flew, there's no french, no Bureau. We are along. This city only." Caleb points out.
"Are you sure?" I ask unable to wrap my head around it. Was the city the only thing that was placed here.
"Yes, the hover craft flow many directions for many hours. Nothing was out there. It went to were the Bureau should be.. Nothing." Caleb says. "The good news is we are no longer experiments. We can live our lives as we please. David, or Jeanine has no control over this city. We do." Caleb says. I wonder where this is leading.
"What are you suggesting Caleb." Natalie asks.
"I suggest that we rethink our way of life. Faction before blood? Why? Maybe we need to rethink make this city better." Caleb says.
"I agree." Tris charms in.
"I would like to be able to see both my children. Also some friends back in Dauntless." Natalie agrees.
"It would be something to brain storm on." Andrew says.
"I think so too." I agree. "We can bring it forward to the next meeting. Any ideas how?"
"I can think of something." Andrew says. Since he has been in government for many years, I prefer his judgment.
"Sounds good Andrew." I say.
The rest of the after noon passes smoothly. Tris and Natalie both decide to make dinner for everyone, while Andrew, Caleb and myself speak about different ways to better the city and those the live in it. Ideas get thrown around, some written down to save for the upcoming council meeting in a few weeks.
After dinner, Caleb hugs his parents and his sister good bye and begins to head out.
"Caleb." I say catching his attention. " I just wanted to say take care." I say holding up my right hand, he takes it and we both firming shake hands. At least this is the first step in the right direction, I hope.
Natalie offered to help Tris in the kitchen, to do the dishes. But I reject her offer as quickly as she gives it. As weird as it sounds I prefer to be alone with Tris doing the dishes. Its been a long day.
"Aren't you going to retire to your home, Tobias?" Andrew asks me firmly. Shit he knows.
"I will once I help Tris out." I respond and he aspects it for now.
"Why don't you run along, Andrew I will be home in a minute. I need to speak to Beatrice for a moment." Natalie tells Andrews and he nods. He says he has a lot of reports to go over before the morning and must get home.
"Now you listen up you too. I understand the importance of young love, I understand getting away with your emotions, I certainly understand the need to be close physically to one another. But this isn't Dauntless, this is Abnegation. You need to be respectful and more aware of your actions in the future. Do I make myself clear? Just to think what would have happened if Andrew was the one here instead of me this morning." Natalie says, disappointment written all over her face.
"Natalie, I just want to apologize for any discomfort or anything at all that we may have caused you of course." I say.
"Tobias, I was raised in Dauntless. I have seen worst. I just worry about other's response." She says as she turns to leave. But stops in her track turning to ask her last and final question. "Please just tell me you both are being safe." She asks.
Did she really just ask us that. I glance at Tris who is now staring at the floor like something is fascinating her. Her cheeks are bright red. I know my cheeks are many shades darker that normal.
"M-o-m." Tris says out of embarrassment.
"Yes, Natalie. My friend got us.. we are being safe." I blurt out. Wow so awkward conversation to have your future mother in law.
"Well than Good night than." Natalie says exiting Tris' home, closing the door behind her.
"Tobias, please don't take this the wrong way but..." Tris begins but I cut her off.
"Yea, don't worry I don't think I can either tonight." I finish for her. Our lust for one another at rest for one night. "Why don't you go relax. Ill do the dishes."
"Yea, ok." Tris says.