The next day or what was still technically classed as a Sunday I woke up to a tear stained pillow case. Lily was awake and over by the mirror in the corner of our dorm room, putting in a set of pearl earrings. She was actually look very done up and beautiful, she was wearing a light blue blouse and a black high waisted pencil skirt. I never liked pencil skirts and she had a penchant for wearing them. Lily and I were so opposite me fairly grunge and her fairly I'm basically royalty. Meaning it was rare to borrow each others clothing.

Wiping my eyes hoping it came off as getting rid of the sleep in my eyes and not that I was still crying. "Hey there sleepyhead you're up?" She said loudly forgetting one earring and rushing over to me. "What's wrong?" she asked concerned sitting down beside me and resiting her hand on mine.

"What makes you, oh who the hell am I fooling here just Remus," I said collapsing back down on the bed and throwing a pillow over my head and hoping it would smother me and I wouldn't have to face the world. There wasn't much use playing innocent with her and the last thing I needed was an argument this early in the morning.

"Not again?" she sighed over all the dramas I had had with him now. Maybe it was time to just call it all quits? I mean how much could one couple go through before you realise it just wasn't worth it?

"Yes again," I sighed letting her remove the pillow from my face. "But this time I have no will whatsoever to get back with him. I'm official done, forever." I finished as definitely as possible. When does high school ever produce a long relationship anyway?

Lily however was looking at my sceptically, I mean I guess with all of our small little things or the larger ones we did always end back together and Lily was clearly doubting the fact I was suddenly completely over the guy. "What happened that made you leave last night?"

"Okay seriously is there a cult happening that meant everyone was out last night?" I joked trying to deter her away from the Remus situation.

"Nice try," she said sounding a little annoyed. "I can see when you're avoiding the topics, I've known you for 11 years."

"I just don't want to talk about it okay," I said looking out the window, the sun was still in the process of rising and the sky was a mix of orange and pinks. "Maybe later."

"Fine," she said dropping it. If there was one thing Lily knew it was how to take a hint and not pester me about elements of my life I didn't want to discuss. At least at the time it was positive she was going to annoy me about it later but for now she would drop it. I could honestly life at how much my life was ending up like a soap opera right now. "You just going to lie there all day?"

"It's like 7am Lil."

"Okay see you later," she mused heading out the door. I was definitely curious as to why she had herself dolled up so early. Lily was similar to me in the ways we liked to sleep in, so personally I was hoping she had a date with James. The chances were slim, but I a girl could dream.

Up until the point Sirius runs into your room.

Lily

Leaving Red I was smiling to myself, felt a little selfish leaving her like this though I'm sure if she knew the reason she would be ushering me out of the door faster than she moves on her broom. Though heading down the stairs I met Sirius on the steps looking at each other very briefly before both shrugging and heading in our separate directions. Maybe he could get it out of her. It seemed unlikely and was more likely that she would kill him or curse him for waking her up. Red was not a morning person by any standards what so ever, a few cups of coffee and you had her. First thing in the morning while her hair was a mess and she had bad breath, not so much.

Though I was a little nervous and a little happy Red hadn't asked me to stay or why I was up this early. Truthfully I was hardly believing it all myself, but none the less here I was heading down to the black lake to meet James Potter.

Reaching the spot I said I would meet him, still in complete disbelief of it all. It was that tree, the one Red and everyone had been situated around for years. There was a small blanket laid out on the ground next to it and he seeming to have noticed my presence.

"Didn't think you'd actually come," he smiled standing up and heading to where I was.

"I can hardly believe it myself," I muttered while out of his earshot and chose to smile in lieu of reply.

"New I'd crack you eventually," he winked taking my hand and I would be lying if I ignored the spark that flooded through me at the contact. Blushing shyly and not letting me see as he led me down to the red stripped blanket and taking a seat. I was still a little hesitant but it wasn't taking me long to realise I didn't actually completely hate his company anymore.

"So I think you can officially be a part of this," he said busting out a small knife.

"What is happening?" I asked and he laughed at the scared expression on my face.

"Tree," he said pointing to it as if that was an answer; classic James Potter being aloof.

"Well thanks Corporal Vague," I joked sounding so much more like Red than myself. I guess friendships that last as long as the one we have I guess you start to pick things up from each other.

"Should be right, ah there," he said there a little louder and pointing up to some scratch marks in the tree. Looking up closer at it I saw the six names the first being Red's though I had no idea how she had gotten her hand writing on a tree to still look like calligraphy. Thank god she writes on parchment it was practically made for her hand writing. The next was Remus' neat and proving once more the guy had excellent penmanship –or quill whatever- and the word Moony written next to it equally as neat. Then there was Sirius/Padfoot not the handwriting I would have expected straight yet still neat and boyish. Peters/Wormtail was messy and I didn't pay too much attention to because then there was James and Prongs, that familiar handwriting kind of spiked with the messiness on the same time. The same hand writing that I had seen on many notes he'd passed me in classes asking me out in a variety of ways. And last Georgia just her name stated simply, no nicknames or whatnots next to it.

I hadn't realised I had been tracing my finger over the names; well one particular name. Dropping my hand quickly though that didn't stop me seeing the goofy grin that was plastered on his face. A little embarrassed knowing the slight flush on my cheeks I turned to him instead, "What exactly do you want me to do here?"

"Write your name," he said sampling handing me the knife.

"Is that yours?" I asked curiously.

"Nah," he laughed handing it to me. "nicked it from Sirius and it's enchanted hence why it's all so neat."

"And Sirius owns that?" I asked bemused.

"Well Remus charmed it," he smiled bringing my hand up to the free spot under the names.

"And Red isn't going to mind?" or maybe anyone will see I had to think but ignored the thought quickly. Would it really kill me to write my name on a tree with the people I had been hanging around for the past months? But I still wasn't sure how I felt about him yet and I didn't exactly want the world to know. Well at least not yet.

"Evans the girl that thinks of you like your her blood and you think she'll kill you for writing on a tree?" he said using as much sarcasm as possible. "You're right forget about it."

I eyed him; I hated it when he called me Evan's. Well not really, I mean I sort of liked it in that weird way. It was something he had been calling me since I was eleven years old same way I always called him Potter.

"I do have a name you know Potter," I said glaring him down. "Or Prongs, what is that all about?"

"I'll tell you one day," he smiled. "For now just carve."

James smiled taking my hand and holding it back up and to the tree causing me to smile, maybe I wouldn't mind more of this.

Red

"Get out," I said throwing a pillow in his direction, as soon as Sirius entered my room "Can I girl just get some sleep?"

"Just tell me what happened last night," he said moving over and taking a seat next to me resting a hand on my knee. "Well a few hours ago anyway."

"You know what you sound like Sir, a pesky little gossiping girl," I said crossing my arms hoping that would make him leave. I was not a morning person and a lot more snarky without caffeine in my system.

"I accept that on the grounds of being the most attractive girl here," he said before adding a wink, "After you of course that is."

I groaned falling back down onto my pillow, "Please Sirius if you want I promise I'll tell you later when I tell Lily and probably James as well, but for right now get the hell out of my room." I felt a little bad for yelling but in the six years I've spent in this room Rose and Emily basically never woke up. But if Sirius wanted to stay here any long I could promise there would soon be fire.

"Nope," he crossed his arms trying to do a power pose. "Now."

"Fine, but if youw ant to know you'll have to get it out of me sleeping," Lily was not the only that talked in their sleep.

"Red," he said taking out his wand and pointing it at me. "Don't make me use this."

Bad move Sirius Orion Black bad move, if that's how he was going to play it well I could go there and it wouldn't be pretty, bringing my palm up to his face and lighting a fire in my palm. "If you want to play with fire you're going to get burnt."

"Really?" He said shattering whatever personal space I had left and coming close to my face wand under my chin.

"Really really," I said back and at least he had the courtesy to brush his teeth before coming in here and well I felt a little bad because god only knew how much mine reeked. "Well night, morning or whatever it was on what is now technically a Sunday. Enjoy your voyeuristic conversation with the unconscious person."

"Fine by me," he said leaning back and I opened one of my eyes to see him smiling.

"God fine if it will make you leave," I sighed in annoyance. "I went into the library to study and saw Remus shagging some trollop. Happy now fuck off."

"Ohhh," he said looking slightly guilty for pushing so hard. "Shit Red," he said immediately pulling me into a bone crushing hug. Great so now I had gone from sleeping next to him to him actually spooning me. I knew a lot of girls in my situation would kill to be me right now, but I mean considering the situation it wasn't exactly desirable or ideal.

"Can you just leave," Is aid my voice cracking slightly indicating tears were sure to come on again. I really didn't like crying in front of people.

"No chance of that happening," he said looking at me straight and brushing a few stray blonde hairs out of my eyes. Great so I've gone from natural colours to plain ones.

"Fine," I said throwing back the cover and removing myself from his arms, "but can you just look away or something while I change?"

"Why I've seen you half naked before?" he winke.

"Sirius, seriously turn away or leave," Is aid more forcefully than expected and making a small fire burst out in the bin making both of us look over. Putting it out with a wave Sirius respected my privacy and let me change in piece into the same clothes were back on my floor. I don't remember when I changed back into pj's but regardless I was back into the same clothes when I saw something that broke me. Maybe I should set these clothes on fire? Good plan actually. So I quickly grabbed another set of clothes from my wardrobe sadly it was another dress I had gotten from Hope. It was like the world was trying to annoy me.

"Hot," he nodded at me.

"Get a life black," I laughed heading to the door. "Let's go."

I wasn't sure where I wanted to go, and last time this happened it ended badly but the idea of being trapped in this room any longer was just making me highly claustrophobic.

"Where to?" he asked throwing his classic arm around my shoulder.

"Anywhere but here."

Lily

James Potter was holding my hand. Had I walked into some alternative reality? But there I was walking hand in hand with Potter no James, my black heel in my other hand while we walked along the small bit of sand located near the black lake. It was like one of those beach scenes from romantic comedies, the ones Red actually made me watch and not one Georgia would have forced on her.

"You know Potter this wasn't so bad," I said finally breaking the conformable silence. He smiled at me and it was well kind of cute. And one if I didn't know any better may have been considered coy then again knowing him it probably was.

"Not it wasn't Evans," he smiled turning to look at me and I could feel a heat rise from my spine and to my neck, thank god I wasn't like Red or I would have that fateful dead giveaway of fire engine red hair.

"Don't make me take that back," I warned him with less heat than usual.

"Not a chance," he said leaning closer towards me before I turned away at the last minute. I may be starting to like James but a kiss wasn't quite on the books. But suddenly I wasn't sure why I hadn't said yes to a date all these years ago. James didn't seem to mind the slight blowing off of a kiss and decided to press one to my cheek anyway causing me to smile shyly.

Red

Sirius and I were aimlessly wandering the halls of the castle occasionally darting off in the other direction when we heard someone coming. Our problem however was when we saw Professor Jackson heading our way so we ran straight into the closest broom closet. It was a tight fit so I was pressed up against him much too close for comfort considering I could feel his breath against my neck.

"So this is nice," he smiled.

"Seriously?" I said making me scowl he always hated that word.

"Come one he should be gone by now," I said reaching for the door handle at the same time as he did. The touch of our hands made me flinch and drop it immediately similar to him. I would be lying if there wasn't a slight spark. Avoiding his gaze Sirius went for the handle again only to find it was stuck. Okay great this day that was technically now a Sunday was officially turning to be one of the worst days of my life. Was I seriously stuck in a freaking broom closest with Sirius?

"Please tell me you're just too inadequate to open a door?" I asked him hopefully."

"You really are nasty without that first cup of coffee aren't you?" he laughed which was quickly shut down by my glare. "But no looks like we're stuck here and I may have left my wand in your room."

"Great," I sighed. "Just great."

"Hey," He exclaimed causing me to laugh.

"You know what I mean," I sighed resting my head on his chest. "This day is just a lot in a few hours."

"Please tell me you're not also claustrophobic," he said.

"ALSO!" I said. "Jesus seriously how is this happening, okay you breath and also can you smell that what is that?" I said smelling the air. It was kind of like dragon scales, what part of the castle where we in?

"Kind of like," he sniffed. "Old dragon scales. Did we wonder into the dungeons?"

"Well we did see Jackson," I said with a laugh. "The prick was a Slytherin teacher."

"So we're screwed."

"Completely," I said with a laugh.

So it had been about three hours now, I managed to get Sirius to calm down about the small space and we were now sitting on the cold ground occasionally swapping sarcastic remarks about people and between each other as well as a few bad puns from yours truly. The thing that surprised me most of all was it wasn't uncomfortable? Sirius and I yeah were usually this weird combo of playful and flirty but it never wet any further, right up until the point where he put a hand behind my neck and pulled me close to him. His lips were cold against mine and the kiss was brief when it dawned on me what was happening and I pushed him off.

"What the hippogriff are you doing?" I shouted at him. Okay it wasn't a shout, but hte whisper kind of shout. He shrugged almost like he was moving in again, "Okay this room is making you crazy and don't you dare shrug at me right now."

"Probably," he said getting closer until his lips were back on mine.

What on earth was happening?

Probably another uncomfortable hour had passed when the door finally opened and Sirius and I were about as far apart as we possibly could be in the fly foot closet between us. Then again I think I would have stayed here in this sexually confused tension of a closet when Jackson opened the door. Talk about a saviour you didn't want. I mean it would have been better if it was that kind of cute new Hufflepuff guy, no instead it was that one teacher than loathed me and my friends. YAY, Hello soap opera life we've just entered the next segment pause for dramatic music.

"I don't know what you two have been doing in here but I will see you both on Monday afternoon for detention," he smiled stepping in and grabbing a jar of dragon scales taking the smell away with him.

"Guess it was the scales huh," Sirius said awkwardly.

"Yeah," I said staring blankly ahead and deliberately avoiding eye contact. "So well we're free and it's ten so ah we should get going."

"Right," he said as we both left the broom closet taking off rapidly in other directions. So this was my life know, avoiding all of my male friends. Possibly forever, I clearly had drama when it came to them. Things couldn't get any worse at least right?

Why is that people say that? Do they not realise they have just jinxed themselves. Whenever anybody says a line like that it always back fires right in their face. My life was a sham, no not just a sham my life was three and a half shams; straight past one and two.

Since I was out of the closest with no pun or fact intended there, so when I went out into the bright new world. Bright being the operative word, because it was pouring outside just as I reached the middle of the courtyard as well. Everything just came bucketing down, closing my eyes and letting out a groan. See this is why we don't say/think things couldn't get any worse especially when opening my eyes the only other person that was caught in the middle of this storm was Remus Freaking Lupin.

Not knowing what to do I just stood there, part of me wanted to run up and punch him in the face the other part of me wanted to fall to the ground and cry. So instead I just stood there, my arms stuck by my sides limply staring at a man part of me wished I'd never met.

"Just let me explain," he said taking a few steps towards me and I immediately took a few back managing not to slip on puddles of water that were forming.

"I don't have to let you do anything," I replied harshly. There was no way I wanted to speak to him, hear him out or do anything remotely near him hence why I kept taking steps back. The rain was falling down heavier and it was becoming harder to see him, for once the power of water was in my favour.

"Reds, please," he pleaded once more moving closer in time to a loud roll of thunder making me flinch and giving me time to move further away from him.

"Don't call me that," I warned him.

"Look I thought it was you," he started out and a strike of lightening hitting a near by tree making us both flinch.

"Remus seriously, I don't want to hear anything you have to say," I shouted at him. "Just stay the hell away from me."

I felt like a powerful surge of magic had just gone through me and suddenly there was a spiral of blue light surrounding the rain drops. It was like I was in the eye of a storm, like I was the storm. The water was circling around me and I could feel every inch of it. And then I realised this was what Dumbledore was talking about, letting my emotions take over and I summoned and element in a more than over active way. This was the reason they wanted me dead before I had a chance to really live; I was dangerous.

I tried to calm down, tightly closing my eyes and unclenching my fists and taking in a deep breath. But I was still feeling the magic; honestly I didn't want to let it go. It felt right, even warm. But I had to let it go. I took one more breath and felt the relief wash over me. My head was killing me. It felt like something was trying to rip itself out of my brain through my skull and muscle and suddenly I felt dizzy falling to the floor.

"Red?" he said suddenly right next to me and I wrenched out of his grip. I didn't want him to touch me. I didn't need him.

"Don't okay, I'm serious," I said with more power than I felt. "Don't touch me, don't talk to me, just leave me the hippogriff alone," I finished taking off the promise ring he gave a mere few months ago now and throwing it towards the black lake. "Just stay away from me." I said taking one last look at him before charging off.

Walking in the rain was something I usually did to calm myself down, another reason I loved it when I was said. No one could really tell you were crying. It was easy to just blame it on the weather. Looking up over at the castle, too nervous to go in just yet on the off chance I would run in to him in the common room or just anywhere. But there was a group of people holdin gup a sign reading Get inside idiot which I just ignored and kept strolling forward.

I didn't mind being alone. Maybe that could be my life now, a lone wolf. Oh great I just had to go and use the wolf metaphor. I was soaked through and was probably going to end up spending the next few days in the hospital wing if I kept this up either due to the flu or hypothermia.

"Red?" I heard someone shout at me causing me to stop and turn around. "You should really get inside."

"Just go away," I called back to whoever it was.

"Not until your inside with me," they called back and I quickly recognised Stacy's voice. She had a red and white polka dotted umbrella over her head which she quickly darted over to me and covered me with it as well. "What's going on?" she asked concerned.

"With me oh you know the normal soap opera type stuff," I laughed off with a shrug. "What about you? You've been kind of well absent." Maybe now was the best time to bring up her sudden lack of presence and general weirdness but I went with it regardless.

"Oh just out," she shrugged I hated it when people shrugged. They were always hiding something. "I don't sleep well and some classes are just so boring I can't even. Nice dress, even though it's hella damp." She said clearly changing the subject.

Looking down I hadn't remembered much of what I had put on but I knew it certainly wasn't the skin tight blue that seemed to have crystal like practicals flare out when it reached the waist. Can magic do that? And thenmy necklace, the ruby one my grandmother gave me was suddenly a sapphire.

"What the," I muttered to myself, starting to internally panic. Wasn't this all a little insane, I knew magic was well magical adn mysterious but wasn't this a bit much?

"What?" Stacy asked loudly in my ear, it was a miracle she could even hear anything over the thunder. Why was she also out here? I had my own reasons and I highly doubted it was just because she figured I'd be out here.

"Nothing," I said equally as loud and flashed her a smile, but she was staring at me. And not just in a normal way. It was like she was studying me. Stacy wasn't someone I had ever been overly comfortable with and this was making me feel like I was under a microscope. It was like I was some science project and she had so much to learn about it. A science project that was hers and hers alone.

Nice and long update and shall be trying to make these longer, anyways thanks to everyone that is still reading. have so interesting things planned so yeah :) Hope you're enjoying it all so far and I promise I will stop dicking around eventually with my own ship.