Jessica's Flashback

I remember it was scary, my first day at ' while training, I went up with Linda. I didn't know her that we'll we went to college together and in the same class but whist she always isolated herself I was with friends. I worked with her once because she didn't have a partner so I went and helped out. She was really clever, we grew closer and closer. After our placements we became real nurses it was quite sad to see Frieda leave but she tried her best. That night me and Linda went for a take away and then went back to mine. I had a veggie burger and Linda had a cheese burger.

"Your so good", Jessica said.

Linda smiled. After a good night's sleep they arrived to work, Linda went to her first patient a baby boy called Freddie. Freddie had taken a tumble and hit his head while trying to walk. Freddie looked up at Linda and smiled it was really cute. I was playing with Daisy a three year old who liked baby dolls. Daisy was so cute but the best thing was when Freddie pooed in his nappy Linda's face was so funny. While she went to change his nappy a little girl arrived her name was Alana. She couldn't speak.

"Hello Alana I'm Jessica", Jessica said.

I started treating her while her dad kept butting in everytime I got near a bruise. After a while I took Alana to the toys where Daisy and Freddie were playing with Linda by playing I mean watching Linda hog the toys. We walked over and Alana looked up at me.

"Can Alana play", Jessica asked.

"Sure", Linda replied.

"Linda a word", Jessica said as Linda got up picking up Freddie.

"If it's about why Freddie loves me so much then I don't know why", Linda replied.

"No its about Alana, she can't speak", Jessica replied.

"Ok, can you watch them Freddie needs feeding", Linda replied.

As I played with Daisy and Alana, it looked like Alana liked Daisy as she kept smiling at her. Alana was teaching Daisy how to share which I thought was really cute. As Linda came back she sat in the chair cuddling Freddie. Freddie started making noises at Linda and she had no idea what was going on.

"Linda his talking to you", Jessica replied.

Linda just looked at me like I was mad. As the time got on she went to put Freddie to bed. Freddie laid awake smiling at Linda. He put his little arms up as he smiled.

"Dada", Freddie said.

"Night sweetie", Linda replied.

I drove Linda home in my new car and I then drove back to mine. I felt sorry for Linda having to live in her nan's house while her mum and dad were on a business trip, no one knew where Denise was and Victoria had Lola. The next morning I arrived at work to find Linda wasn't there. I started to worry, Linda was never late. I then asked the sister if she had called in sick but she hadn't. Alana was discharged and Freddie was waiting for Linda. I went to Daisy's cubicle where she was eating her breakfast.

"Freddie wants Linda", Daisy said.

"She'll be here soon", Jessica replied.

Daisy got out of bed and went to play on her own. A ten month old baby came in with his worried mum and his older brother.

"Please help him his my baby, Michael please", The mum said.

"Mummy is Michael ok", Barry asked.

"Michaels fine Barry daring", The mum replied.

Sean Anderson rushed in and started working on Michael but it was no use, the ten month old baby sadly passed away. The mother hugged Barry and they went to say goodbye to him. Sean and Jessica went over to a corner.

"You look upset", Sean said.

"I'm worried about a friend", Jessica replied.

"Oh", Sean replied.

I went and helped Daisy play with others as Linda finally walked didn't look good, she didn't look ill she looked upset. She picked up Freddie as the sister came over to her and brought her to her office. I was worried about her. As Linda came out she was crying and Freddie was putting his hands all over her. I left Daisy playing and followed Linda, she never cries and now it looked like she couldn't stop.

"Hey", Jessica said.

"I'm f-f-fine", Linda replied in tears.

"What's wrong", Jessica asked.

"Nannie died", Linda replied crying.

I hugged her tightly. The shift ended and Sean took me for a drink and then we went back to his house. When I woke up I was in his bed and a few weeks later found out I was pregnant. I went to work to find Linda upset, social services had found Freddie a new home. The family were a father, mother and two daughters. I put my hand on Linda's shoulder.

"Linda, I'm pregnant", Jessica said.

Linda just shrugged and walked off. I wasn't to sure why she did that but she did. I told Sean and he seemed quite happy about the pregnancy. After nine months Amelia was born. I chose Linda and Maggie to be her godmother and Darren my brother to be her godfather. Linda didn't seem to intreasted in Amelia. After a year I got pregnant again. As she was my friend I went to tell Linda, either I'd upset her and didn't realise it but I never thought she'd say what she did.

"Well,if you don't want it theirs always the back of the clinic", Linda said.

"I'm not you", Jessica replied.

She took the pebal she gave me off me and I didn't know what I had actually done. Lucas was born and I stopped working at St James' after a few years I got a job at holby ED where I met Adam, we had an affair. Yes it was wrong because I was married to Sean but he wasn't being faithful either having an affair with Zoe. I found out I was pregnant the baby could either had been Sean's or Adam's. I went into labour and a man called H delivered him. I named him Harry after H. I then went to marry Adam we got married six months after Harry was born but we crashed. Sadly Harry died. I was in a coma and Adam told me Linda came to visit. We hadn't spoken in years. Two weeks later I bumped into Linda, she'd sprained her wrist.

"I'm pregnant", Linda said.

I broke down I'd just lost Harry and bang Linda was pregnant. I wanted a fresh start so I moved away to America with Linda. On the plane was hard because Linda decided she needed the toilet. I unstrapped her and helped her to the toilet. She had to wear jeans the day she sprained her wrist. We went back to our seats. Once we arrived I got Amelia and Lucas into school, I didn't realise the school nearest was over six miles away. I got told a school bus would pick them up. I started to feel funny and took a pregnancy test. I was pregnant. I was excited but sad that Harry would never meet his younger brother or sister. Linda gave birth to a beautiful baby with me by herside she named her Chantelle. Linda and Chantelle left to go back to England leaving me with Orabelle. Orabelle is the female of Adam it's amazing. I moved back when Orabelle was three. Now she's four me and Adam are trying to work out for her.

I love Adam and it's for the best I know it is.

Author's note: I know Harry died at 9 months thanks to Gillian Kearney Fan