Eddie barely got stopped in front of Janet's house before he thought she was going to loose it in his truck. She didn't throw up that time but she looked like hell. They made it inside and Janet kicked her shoes off in the middle of the floor dropping her purse in her wake and headed straight to her bedroom, closing the doors before Eddie barely made it past the front room tripping on her shoes kicking the purse he'd bought her across the floor and finding her house in less than Janet perfection.

"Janet, come on don't make it harder than it already is. We need to talk and you need to eat something" Eddie called through the door. She didn't answer and he sat their food out on the coffee table once he shoved the laundry off of it. She seemed to take longer than he thought should be necessary to do whatever it was she was doing. He figured she was just hiding from him.

He opened the bedroom door just as she was walking out of the bathroom in her bra and panties, a set that Eddie was particularly fond of.

"Don't you think you've seen enough today" She snapped at him as she headed to her dresser and pulled out one if his t-shirts. She claimed it early on and slept in it nearly every night. He was speechless just staring at her. His mind was somewhere in Providence and Janet noticed a dazed look on his face though she misinterpreted the reason.

"I don't want to hear it, it's comfortable and right now that's the only thing I care about" She slid it over her head then pulled her bra out from underneath Eddie snapping out of it as the bra left his sight.

"I wasn't going to say anything, but is that really the only thing you care about" Eddie was taken back and Janet was furious as she slid out of her panties and into a fresh pair.

"I didn't mean it like that" She bent over to dig her slippers out from under the bed. "You know I get why you think I'm a whore but do you really think I wouldn't care about a baby? MY baby" She bitched when she stood back up talking with her shoes in hand and she angrily put them on.

"I..Janet..I" She quickly interrupted him

"My god Eddie" She took her earrings out "Why the hell did you ever ask me out, it wasn't for being deprived of sex, it wasn't because you thought I was the one, so what you needed a challenge"

"No that's not.." He was abruptly cut off again

"You sure as hell got one, how did you know I was there anyway" She was definitely irritable

"Windows, Ronnie saw you" He answered shyly as she continued to verbally assault his intelligence

"So you thought it was okay to intrude on your ex-girl friends vaginal exam" She wasn't cutting him any slack

"No, I didn't think about what they were going to be doing. I didn't think at all. I just wanted to know if you were okay" He felt attacked but was still watching her get ready to go to Bye Bye Birdie at a vanity table. His mind was so confused

"I would have told you" She was brushing her hair furiously

"How, we've been avoiding each other for weeks. Would you have really come to find me?" Eddie finally fought back

"Does it matter, you would have been sucking face with your ex-girlfriend and then kicked me out of the room. So no I probably would have called you which you would have just blown me off in return so you could enjoy the hard on you were getting from staring at her ass and thinking about all those sweaty nights you spent with her only to conveniently forget to call me back. I guess there's always the gossip, it sure seemed to be swirling the day you dumped me for her. What happened Eddie she decide she didn't want you beat up so you confess to me so casually like it was nothing. I'm glad my feelings meant so much to you that day. Do you know how special it makes me feel to know my freakin boyfriend felt it was more important to avoid hurting his ex-girlfriends feelings by not telling her to leave than it was to be honest with me. Damn Eddie what the hell is wrong with you. I called you, left messages, came to see your egotistic ass….." She took a deep breath "I believe you. She sure as hell stirred something up for you"

"OHH GOODIE! It's like a weight lifted off of my chest now that I know you were only thinking about my feelings while you were sweating and moaning under Russo like some bitch in heat. That's my bad though because if I had been worth a damn the night before you wouldn't of needed him. It makes me feel real special when my so called girlfriend wants it so bad she doesn't even care if it feels good. I guess I fell down on the job, should of never let you get in that shape to begin with. Two men in one day, Janet even I haven't been that deprived but tell me something though whose name were you screaming while he was pounding into you." He walked right up to her as close as he could get

"It may have been 24 hours but it wasn't the same day" She knew the argument was weakwhich explained why her voice was as well. She couldn't even look at him and say it.

"Were you calling for me, Janet." He started to run the side of her face with his finger but his voice was hard

"Eddie" she began to speak nervously and her whole body tensed at his touch

"Did you miss the way I touch you.( he cupped her face) before I let you down…Did he kiss your neck the way you like, the way that sends chills down your spine.(he demonstrated) Whisper how good you feel in your ear to make you wet.( he brushed his lips against her ear) Can he turn you on with just a look.( He looked right into eyes) Does he know your body, Janet the way I do" He kissed her softly and pressed his body into her holding her just above her rear and pulling her body to him. He had done similar questioning in the past and it was a turn on like no other as he whispered to her but this time the nature of his voice was bone chilling against the comparison of his extremely soft touch.

Janet's breath shuttered softly but alarmed as he continued to kiss her tenderly and the tears ran down her cheek. He wiped them away like he did his own all those months ago.

"What is it, Janet" that time his voice was soft and she found the courage to speak because of it. Though she still hadn't so much as swayed she still couldn't look at him.

"You weren't here. You were doing this with another woman" She spoke as he kissed her lips. He froze for just a second his lips still pressed to hers. Janet took the opportunity to walk away. Eddie quickly picked up his ego, manhood, and heart without saying a word to turn and watch her walk away.

She sat down on the couch and Eddie joined her. He began to eat as she picked at hers.

"You need to eat something" He said swallowing his own soul as a side to the burger and fries.

"I'm not hungry" She was still timid with him.

"Yeah but the baby……" he added and she picked up a French fry and bit the end off of it then threw the rest back down

Eddie just looked cross at her "The baby's the size of a seasame seed, I would think I'm good for the next week or so" she replied and he couldn't help but laugh. He still made her eat.

"I know you've thought about the chance that you may not be my sperm donor" Janet mumbled and Eddie sat his food down then attempted to take a sip of drink but only got gurgles. Janet immediately got up and went to the kitchen and brought him back a beer.

"Here, I can't drink them anyway" she handed it to him after she twisted the top off. He couldn't help but find her sexy standing in front of him in nothing but his t-shirt and her panties twisting the top off of his bottle. He had a flash of a few more things he wouldn't mind her twisting off. Eddie Latekka was hornier at that moment than the whole of his life including when he was 14 and Rory took her shirt off in front of him.

"Could you have made that sound any less romantic. You're acting like we were a one night stand."

"I'm sorry if it's selfish but admitting I don't know who got me pregnant isn't something I want to say" As always she was honest with him.

"When we were together I had unprotected sex with you because I was willing to except the risk that we might end up having a child. Granted I didn't really expect it to be happening but it is and I'm here"

"I was to drunk to know if it was protected or not. I remember how it started and when I woke up but in between is a blur" she confessed "I know what that makes me sound like but if I had been sober it would have been protected but then again if I had been sober I'd like to believe it would have never happened"

"When you tell him your pregnant, just ask him." She had a strange look on her face. Eddie's only emotion was puffs of air and rolling his eyes. He was cold about it.

"He's pretty likely to remember even being drunk" Eddie added but she still looked perplexed

"What is it" Eddie asked even less excited

"It's nothing I just thought about something is all" she replied

"Damn't Janet you told me you had sex with him, don't start lying to me now" His words and tone were harsh

"He wasn't drunk" she knew Eddie was going to have a meltdown and she wasn't going to lie just not bring it up. That information didn't have anything to do with him

"What do you mean he wasn't drunk" Eddie asked confused

"I came home after I saw you making out with Rory…."

"It was one kiss, I didn't make out with her" Eddie was defensive

"That's it tell her the truth and lie to yourself. I drank the last of the tequila I had then you sent me a message and I really wasn't in the mood to hear how you'd found the love of your life again and then he called and I hung up on him. He brought liquor at my request apparently I sent him a message sometime after that. I don't remember whatever, I drank………….. he didn't"

"Just so I've got this straight…he knows I kissed Rory, he brings you alcohol while you're upset but he waits until you're drunk to try anything" Eddie asked

"Almost, but I have to tell you something that you're going to even hate me for more than you already do" she was to honest for his liking.

"Go ahead" He took a deep breath, it couldn't get any worse he was sure of that.

"He started telling me all these really nice things which are partly true partly not and I'm the one that started it" At least he couldn't kick her out of her own house. He may tell her to rot in it but he couldn't kick her out.

Janet waited nearly an hour for him to say something back. He just sat holding his beer and his head leaned back looking at the ceiling. She wanted to say something else but what was there. I'm sorry wasn't worth the oxygen it wasted to him. She wouldn't ask for pity or mercy, she shouldn't ask for understanding or compassion, and she couldn't expect compromise or reconciliation.

Eddie was aware she was watching him. He needed some time and he was going to take it right then and there the world be damned it could wait on him for a change. He closed his eyes and Janet soon thought he was asleep. She got up to go lay down not knowing Eddie watched her the whole way. He use to watch her walk to bed just a few steps ahead of him. Usually in the mood to love on him and let him love on her.

She left her room door open so he would know she was still willing to talk when he got ready. She heard the door slam just a few minutes after she laid down. Eddie had walked out the back door and sat on the porch finally letting it out, whimpering like a child. When he returned he watched her sleep for a long time from the couch. He had a month to deal with their problems, and only a few hours to come to terms with a baby now being involved.

Janet woke with Eddie standing in her doorway staring at her. She rolled over onto her back and Eddie was afforded another nice view as she tried to untangle the shirt from around her waist.

"Leave it" he said to her again demanding in tone. His arms were stretched above his head and holding onto the top of the door frame. Yeah, he had been picturing the things he wanted to do with her that he never would. He was realizing it had more to do with making her satisfied than him self and his shameful thoughts.

"I want to see you" he used his sexiest voice

"Eddie you're scaring me" She felt uneasy around him for the first time

"You know I would never touch you if you didn't want me to" She could see the desire he had bulging in his pants.

"What are you doing" she asked of him. He looked so intense but yet relaxed.

"Watching…I never took the time to do it and I regret that" he replied putting his arms down

"I don't understand"

"You were never openly naked in front of me, at least not outside of being in the heat of the moment anyway "

"I'm sorry I was never comfortable enough to do that for you" she replied but he changed the subject un-nerving her even more as she scooted further into the bed.

"So it was in our bed"

"What?"

"You had sex with him in our bed" he said calmly

"Did he fuck you on my side?" She began to weep again

"Janet stop crying over something that can't be changed, you don't need to be so upset. Its not good for the baby" Eddie nearly whispered and she knew he was playing head games with her and her temper flared.

"What am I supposed to do, Eddie? My baby's father is either the man that hates my guts or the man whose gut's I hate, and right now I'm not to fond of it's mother either" She tried to wipe the tears away as she pulled her knees to her chest giving little thought to modesty.

"Why our bed, because it was handy or because you wanted to hurt me" he asked

"Eddie I was hurt, drunk and stupid. I didn't try to hurt you I tried to stop you from hurting me" she answered and Eddie pulled her to standing and he sat down on the bed. He pulled her to stand between his legs. His hands rested on her legs.

"Eddie I'm not expecting any respect out of you but I'm not going to let you use my body to settle the score between us. It's got more important things to take care of right now. That alone is taking everything I have. "

"I know baby" he replied running his hands higher

"Don't do this. Your just going to hurt more when your done hurting me"

"We're both adults Janet. We can do what we want to"

"Eddie don't" She said scared to death because she wanted to even if his needs were for his ego. She needed to feel him again. A few minutes would be enough she was convincing her self. She would worry with that piece of her broken heart when it was over but like an addict she needed a fix.

"Don't what" he asked looking up at her knowing her voice was peculiar. She was frightened and trembled as she froze dead still. She was panic-stricken.

"Are you really afraid of me" Eddie was horrified. He had never touched a woman in a way that induced that kind of reaction. "Janet, I couldn't hurt you or the baby. I'm sorry I don't mean to scare you" That was his worst fear. Nothing compared to that feeling for him. It hit him how fast they'd gone from her complete trust of her body in his hands to horrified of his touch

"I'm fine, Eddie" she whispered back

"No your not your terrified ." His eyes began to water "Baby what happened to you" Eddie's voice cracked but half thought, hoped really that it was just the hormones causing the problem.

"I don't know, it's just I don't remember much but it felt so filthy for him to touch me and when I looked over and saw him next to me I got scared. It was more than knowing what I did. I know I brought it on myself but it was so cold. I don't ever want to feel like that again."

"Did he hurt you" Eddie asked now seriously concerned. She didn't deserve anything like that even if she was cheating and especially if she could have been carrying his baby.

"I was uncomfortable but not hurt. That was because he really sucked at it what I can remember anyway. It didn't have anything to do with me, it was all about him hurting you by making sure you could never touch me again. He wanted you to treat me like I feel so I would run to him" Janet eyes watered but the tears held back for the most part.

"Janet, look at me. You know I would never do that. Remember you're the one that had a fit because I was to soft. It took you two hours one night just to hint around at it before I got what you were saying" Eddie assured her.

"I know. I'm just afraid it worked because I know I destroyed everything and hurt you so much. "

"I'm touching you now." Eddie made her twist her hips back and forth trying to loosen her mood.

"Can I ask you something" Janet had eased up drastically after a few minutes of Eddie's gentle caressing and talking.

"Yeah"

"Why do you think of this as our bed?" Janet could feel the urge as his fingers tingled across her bare skinned thighs

"We've shared most of our sex life in this bed. It's always been a place we could just let loose and have fun. I guess also because we slept in it almost every night since the first night plus there's been a lot of orgasm's in this bed that I like to remember from time to time. Why? You don't ever think about any of them?" He asked inching her shirt up over her butt as he ran his hands over her slowly.

"We have in your bed to but you don't call that our bed. I don't even want to know how many orgasms you caused before I made it there"

"A lot" he said quietly as he began to massage down the front of her panties with the palm of his hand as he watched. He didn't lie.

"I've had a few myself in other beds and I never considered any of them 'our' bed. I'm pretty sure the same holds true for you"

"That's because we didn't make love to any of them" He slid her panties down slowly still watching. Loving the satin and Lace in his hands.

"Was that what we did Eddie, because you have to be in love with someone before you can make love to them" Janet felt his breath between her legs as he bent forward to take her panties from around her ankle.

"You know we made love over and over again"

"Eddie, I can't have sex with you. I'm to sensitive and it'll hurt right now"

"I don't doubt it for a second it didn't look all that satisfying, well there was one part that…."

"You're disgusting you know that. Only you could be turned on by a pregnant woman having her vagina poked and prodded. I'm glad that somebody got to enjoy my discomfort" Janet scolded lightly

"Ohh come on, you know I'm just teasing you….sort of" Eddie grinned mischievously as his hands eased up and down her sides.

"That's exactly what I'm scared of" She replied back about the time she felt him brush against the bottom of her breasts.

"Babe, don't worry this isn't going to hurt at all, just pure pleasure" He wasn't even looking at her face just her body.

"What do you want me to do because to be honest I don't want to have sex with you and I can't really see why you would even be attracted to me" She swallowed hard

"Help me get some closure on this mess we made"

"Specifically?"

"I want you to watch me watching you" he ran his hands up her back and pulled her against him.

"You just want to see me naked?" She asked unsure that she understood

"I want to touch you, lay with you, sleep next to you, kiss you and talk to you naked. You never not even once just let me see you, all of you completely raw" he kissed her softly

"I'm not understanding what you mean"

"I wanted to be the man you needed. To free you from your insecurities and make you see how beautiful you are. How much desire you elicit. I did the opposite and I'll never be able to live with myself for what I did to you. Please let me fix some of it, baby. I have to." Janet still didn't understand but was submissive to him. All she could think of was how vulnerable he looked and she didn't want to risk hurting him more than she already had even if it meant facing her own pain. She remained still as he ran his hands over her body.

"What can I do to make you more comfortable, just tell me and I'll do whatever you want so I can be with you finally. I've waited so long, Janet. Longer than you'll probably ever know" Every word he spoke confused her and she wondered if it was due to being pregnant or did she really miss out on that much of their relationship. She felt like an idiot and as if she had slept through every moment they shared together so she trusted his turn of blind seduction.

"Be naked with me" She replied kissing him back

Eddie slid her shirt over her head and then his own. He stood up and she took his pants down. Soon followed by his boxers.

"Look, touch, feel me Janet. Don't be scared you're safe with me" Eddie was holding her breasts gently

"I have many times, Eddie"

"No you haven't. Stop running from me. Find out what you want to know" Eddie put her hand around his dick

"I know what you feel like, I know what it looks like and I know what it does. What's the point we're just going to be uncomfortable in the end." She asked uneasy just standing naked in the middle of the room holding Eddie's rock hard member in her hand.

"When's the last time you actually looked. I mean really looked" He wasn't ashamed of his erection.

"So all this is just to get me to get you off" Janet wasn't pleased

"No"

"What is it that you think I want to know" she asked unable to keep her hand from pleasuring him without even realizing she was doing it.

"If doing this was going to make me think any less of you. If I was going to start treating you like he did when you began to enjoy pleasing him. If you could ever mean more to someone other than just a night in the bed." It didn't take Eddie long after they started having sex to realize there was something major about Janet never being in a relationship and that she was the one who prevented it from ever happening.

"I didn't ……."

"I'm not talking about him. I'm talking about the man that killed your desire"

"You don't know what your talking about" She quickly informed him

"Don't I though. How can a iron-willed, force-full, free thinking, tenious, intelligent, determined and independent woman be so beautiful and not know it or how can the angel I held in my arms every night be satisfied by a coward like me. How can you satisfy me so completely but not look at me while you do it. What did he do to make you feel like you weren't worth love if you pleased your lover. Baby, it doesn't matter what we did it wasn't dirty to me." He had her sobbing before he was done.

"You don't want to tell me who he was fine I want make you" Eddie added already knowing she didn't from pre break up conversations

"He didn't want me, not to be the one doing it. Are you happy now. You got what you wanted, he's got what he wanted and I threw mine away. So please for once just be a good guy Eddie. Leave me alone, I'm begging you I don't want to relive it, I don't want to relive you. I just want to go to bed by myself like I did before you. As much as it hurts to admit I'm happy we're over"

"You can't mean that" Eddie cupped her face with both hands

"Stop telling me what I do and don't want, need or desire. Damn it Eddie I was relieved when you kicked me out of your room. It was over, we were over and I wouldn't have to sit around and wait for it anymore."

"Janet" He spoke softly knowing she was far more upset than was healthy and it was his fault.

"What do you want from me Eddie. You've gotten everything I have. I'm sorry you'll just have to wait for your baby, if I could give birth tomorrow I would but I can't so just tell me what you want so I can do it and get it over with" He wanted to talk to her about her true feelings about having his baby or a baby at all, he knew she wasn't exactly estatic with the notion but it wasn't the time.

" I just wanted you to be secure enough that the idea doesn't scare the hell out of you…will you be more comfortable if I go first"

"I'm not scared and that depends on what you're going to do" Janet asked

"What do you want me to do" There was no answer "Fine I'll just guess"

Eddie crawled into the middle of the bed and sat up against the headboard. He held his hand out for her to join him. She crawled in front of him and stood on her knees. He rubbed over her body mindful of her sore breasts.

"Show me what you like" "Eddie I can't" she answered

"Why do you feel like you don't deserve to be touched" he asked gently rubbing the inside of her leg"

"I'm a unmarried pregnant woman that doesn't know who the father or her child is. Some might argue that I've been touched enough" She sighed "I shouldn't be doing this"

"Here" Eddie traded places with her and propped her up againt the head board with all her pillows. Eddie laid on his side next to her propped up himself facing her

"Janet close your eyes for a minute and relax. All you have to do is say the word and I'll leave the room and you can put on everything you have in your closet if it makes you feel better" She closed her eyes and waited for whatever it was Eddie was going to try. She figured it would be to his benefit but was surprised that he stopped touching her in the first place.

"Can I touch you" he whispered and she nodded. Eddie lightly laid his hand on her stomach. "Is that okay" he again whispered and she nodded. He gently stroked across her skin with his thumb.

"Think about anything you want, as long as it's not him" Janet flipped her eyes open

"That's not funny" she snarled

"Close your eyes"

"Eddie are you jacking off with the other hand" she asked

"No, but I will if you want me to as long as you watch" She slapped at him. She had remarkably good aim for someone who couldn't see the target. "If you want both hands ask for both hands"

She waited several minutes before she got the nerve "Eddie"

"I'm right here"

"I want you to touch me" She didn't say both hands but she tried. He could give her that much.

"Are you sure this isn't morally wrong. I know premarital sex is but I'm talking about with the baby" Janet asked him.

Eddie rubbed her belly softly. "Can I kiss you" he asked "Have you ever asked if you could" She expected it to be on the lips or her extremely tender nipples.

He bent down and kissed her belly. "As long as this baby is growing inside of you it's our child. He still deserves to know but I'm the one who put in the time and I don't deserve to miss a moment of it if you are carrying my child"

"Eddie, what happens if you spend the next eight months becoming attached to a child that turns out to be another mans" She had to ask and he looked up at her. Her eyes were still closed and he kissed her belly again. "We'll cross that bridge when we get there.