Disclaimer: I do not have any relation to Glee or any of the writers on Fox. Purely fictional.

Finn looked really nervous, fumbling into his pockets like that. He started to have this look of fear, and his nervousness did not make me feel good. A wave of uneasiness washed over us, and I started to turn away. Maybe the iPod was too much a gesture. I mean, I didn't expect him to get me anything too. Being a Jew, I don't usually give Christmas presents, but I always made an exception for the ones close to my heart. The worried expression on his face made me realize that maybe I should do something about the situation.

"Finn," Rachel laid her fingers on his wrist. "You didn't have to get me anything you know."

He pulled out his hands and looked at her sheepishly. Before he could speak up, a soft thud sounded and the pair turned to the noise.

"Rach? Finn? What are you doing here?" Quinn asked, her coat on the floor with a bewildered expression on her face. Sam came up right behind her, and bumped into the actress from her sudden stop at the door.

Rachel scrambled to her feet while Finn furrowed his brows. They sure did have perfect timing.

"What is he doing here?" He growled at the actor's presence.

"Dude, you got to stop asking that question." Sam replied defensively.

Rachel looked at the two men and wrinkled her nose in annoyance. Ever since the break up, any time when the two men were found in the same room together, the atmosphere took a toll on her.

He was slowly getting over Quinn, really, he was. And this week, he proved himself right when he realized that all he wanted was for Rachel to be happy. But it didn't mean that he stopped disliking Sam. The man seemed pretty rude, and he couldn't help but snap every time he appeared before his eyes.

"You got a problem with me being around man?" Sam continued louder.

Due to her tiny frame in comparison to his built, Rachel's prevention was to no avail. Finn was at his toes the second Sam narrowed his eyes at the producer.

Pushing his shoulders roughly, Finn snarled at him. "Did I do something to offend you man?"

Sam came up to his face as close as he could. "What is your problem with me? Ever since I saw you, you've given me nothing but crap!"

Realizing that a fight was about to break, Quinn and Rachel attempted to pull the two men away from each other. Steeping in the middle of the argument, Quinn raised her voice, in hopes that everyone would stop talking.

"HEY! HEY! HEY! Stop it you two! Seriously, what is up with the both of you? It's Christmas for crying out loud. We don't have to do this today." She commanded.

Finn taking in what she said let out a breath and walked back to the living room with Rachel following quietly behind.

Sam exhaled slowly and Quinn rested her hand on his chest.

"Sammy, are you okay?"

He nodded.

"Why don't we head up to my room?"

He nodded again and the pair started to ascend the stairs.

Watching the couple move away, Finn turned around and sunk deeper into his seat on the couch.

"Finn?"

The man looked up and saw the tiny girl looking more terrified than ever. He pulled her into his arms and combed her hair down.

"I'm sorry that you had to see that Rach."

"That's okay." She replied quietly against his him. Rubbing her fingers across his arm around her neck, she let out her breath and started to fidget away.

"Finn, I can't do this anymore."

"Do what anymore?"

"This. This whole uncertainty thing."

"Rach, I've got it all figured out."

"No, you haven't Finn. How do you expect me to believe that you've gotten over her completely when you're still pissed by every scene you see them together in?"

"He bugs me."

"Because you still have feelings for her."

"Rach, you don't know about what I'm going through right now. If you listen to me, you'd understand that I..."

"I'm sorry Finn. I think you should leave." She stood up from her place and walked to the door. Pulling it open, she leaned her head on the furniture and stared at the corridor outside the penthouse. He sighed and walked towards her.

"Rach, I..."

She pushed him slightly and he dejectedly listened to her. As he turned around to look at her once again, she had the door close to a narrow line.

"Merry Christmas Finn." She whispered before shutting him completely from her sight.

Quinn knocked on her best friend's door softly before opening it.

"Hey stranger." She greeted gently before allowing herself in.

The room was cold and silent. Nothing could be heard besides the gentle breathing of the tiny brunette. She had the lounge chair turned away from the door; so all Quinn could see was the back of her head. Her face was looking at the streets of Manhattan, and when the actress saw her best friend's shoulders drop, she started towards her.

"Quinn, could you just leave me alone? Please." She requested in a faint voice.

"Rach, are you okay?"

The brunette turned slightly so that Quinn could see her profile. "I'll be fine. Have a good time with Sam."

"Nonsense, if you don't want to be with us, then at least let me be with you."

"No Quinn, I just... I just really need to be alone now please." Hearing that her command was close to begging, Quinn panicked. She moved closer to the girl but before she could take a good look at her, Rachel hugged her knees close to her and buried her face in the gap.

This was an action Quinn didn't often witness, but knew about. Rachel meant what she said. Not wishing to go against her, Quinn made her way out, disappointed that she couldn't be around for her best friend during this season.

It wasn't fair that Rachel had to spend this holiday alone. Sure, they had work creeping up on them the second this is over, but this is Christmas.

Rachel heard the door click shut and raised her head after a moment of silence. Her eyes returned to the view of her favorite city, but this time even the skyline of New York didn't seem to cheer her up. From her window, she could see Central Park, and she found her eyes fixed at the place where they had their 'first date'.

Smiling at the memory he had first previewed his feelings for her, her heart started to race.

"That's cause you're mine, girlfriend."

When she recalled the events that followed thereafter, her grin started to fade off. That was pretty much the only moment when he seemed to have reinstated them as a couple.

She wiped the tears that were on the brink of her eyes. She was always a strong girl. While Finn had the ability to make her heart pump so hard, she might die from a heart attack. While he had the power to make her weak in the knees with just one kiss, while he had the warmth to make her feel that nothing else in this world would measure up to him. She knew that she had to be strong.

Walking to her iPod that had been plugged into her speakers, she picked one of her favorite songs to sing during this season.

Greeting cards have all been sent
The Christmas rush is through
But I still have one wish to make
A special one for you

Merry Christmas, darling
We're apart that's true
But I can dream and in my dreams
I'm Christmasing with you

Holidays are joyful
And there's always something new
But everyday's a holiday
When I'm near to you

Oh, the lights on my tree
I wish you could see
I wish it everyday
The logs on the fire
Fill me with desire
To see you and say

That I wish you Merry Christmas
Happy New Year too
I've just one wish on this Christmas Eve
I wish I were with you

Scrolling through the images on her phone, she stopped at the snapshot of them together. She was snuggled in his lap; with a hand cupping one side of his cheek while the other was in contact of her face. Her eyes were close, but the grin was explainable of how happy she had been.

This was her favorite one of them yet. It was taken after they had just shared their first kiss, and in the photograph, it reminded her of not only how much she loved him, but also how comfortable she could be around her best friend no matter the situation. It was the time when everything was a blur, but even then, he put her at ease by just holding her like that.

I wish I were with you
Merry Christmas, darling

I missed him already. It was a couple of hours ago, but I missed him already. I very much would like to freeze the night before and this morning if I could. But that's why reality can be a bitch sometimes. Because it's not perfect. You can't have something forever. I guess, maybe we weren't ready for an adult relationship just as yet. I needed to deal with my jealousies, and that's why I pushed Quinn away. I'm not jealous of her. No. I'm just envious of the fact that she had him. I could have him too, but how was I to measure up?

Another chapter pumped out! Hopefully I'd be able to squeeze one out by tonight too! Glee reference to S02E10 and S03E08! :') I'm extremely sorry that this turn of events hadn't been the Finchel bubble you might have been expecting, but it's also a hint that they'd be on their way back to each other! I just might finish this story before Christmas! :')

Laylita83, Melly233, JulGleek and noro Yay! You guys loved it! Hopefully this wouldn't make you hate me though! Promising you that happy Finchel would be back soon!

Tazzie-mae, Apple, you guys have been missed! Like I've said before, it doesn't matter that you haven't been reviewing because my story should be at the bottom of your things-to-do list! It just warms my heart that you'll notify me that you're reading this still, so I just wanted to say that I love you! :)

Finchel21 D'aw honey! Why are you reading this in algebra? You're so cute, you make me laugh! Algebra can be a huge bore sometimes, so I get why you'd need something to distract you :') But hopefully, I wouldn't have made you missed out on too much. Lots of love are coming your way from me to you! :)