Author's Note: This chapter was inspired by "Decode" from Paramore. I love this song and the entire Twilight soundtrack is pretty good. I highly suggest that you all go buy it (yes I said buy it and not download it illegally; if I can do it, you can do it too)!

CH. 38

"Ahh no!" I screamed out loud sitting up and panting.

"Bella what's wrong? Did you remember something?" Edward asked in a worried tone as he rubbed my back in comforting circles.

"No. I just-I was just scared in my dream that you left," I replied still trying to control my breathing.

"Oh sweetie, you know that I would never leave you. I'm yours for as long as you will have me," Edward whispered softly against my hair as he pulled me into his strong arms.

"Don't ever leave me," I answered as I snuggled deeper against his chest.

"You have my word sweetheart," He replied before he kissed my forehead.

*Knock knock*

"Yes Alice, what do you want?" Edward called out to the door not once loosening his hold on me.

"Is that any way to treat your sister? Is it alright if I come in?" Alice responded from behind the door.

"Fine but not for very long, Bella needs her rest," Edward asserted as his sister opened and closed the door in a flash.

"Hey Bella. You're looking a lot better than before," Alice said to me as she sat down on the other side of me on Edward's bed.

"That's good," I whispered chewing on my bottom lip.

"Alice," Edward announced in a warning tone with a frown adorning his beautiful face.

"Edward," Alice answered back with a lift of her perfect eyebrow.

"Bella," I said a loud as they both looked at me strangely. "What? I felt left out," I mumbled out of the corner of my mouth.

"Ah my beautiful Bella," Edward replied with a chuckle as he kissed my forehead again.

"I hate to break up the moment but Emmett and Jasper asked me to come up here and get you," Alice said a loud in her cheery voice.

"Tell them I'm with Bella. Whatever it is can wait," Edward replied with a wave of his hand as he focused all of his attention on me.

"It can't wait. It's important," Alice said giving Edward a significant look before he ended up sighing in annoyance.

"Alright. I will be back as soon as I can love. I promise," Edward whispered into my hair before getting up and leaving a second later.

I snuggled back under the sheets. Although I had absolutely no intention of going back to sleep, I wanted to give Alice the illusion of me wanting to in the hopes that she would leave.

"So do you want to tell everyone that you remember everything that happened or should I?" Alice said with a no nonsense tone of voice.

Damn she was even better than I thought.

FLASHBACK

"I'm taking her to bed. This is enough interrogating for one night. She needs to rest," Edward demanded as he lifted me softly off the couch and into his wonderful arms.

"Edward, I really think that we should continue…" Carlisle trailed off in a pleading tone.

"No. She said that she didn't remember anything about the party and I believe her. That should be enough. Now stop badgering her," Edward replied through gritted teeth giving Carlisle a significant look.

"I'm sorry," I muttered out trying to fill the intense silence that followed Edward's statement.

"Don't be. If you honestly don't remember, then you don't remember," Carlisle said with a comforting wave of his hand.

"Yeah if you honestly don't remember, then you honestly don't remember," Alice repeated looking me in the eye.

I gulped soundlessly. The look that she gave me made me think that she knew more than she let on. Of course this was Alice. Alice, the spiky haired 4'11 pixie psychic with years of experience at lying under her belt.

Before I could really fathom the very real possibility that Alice knew that I remembered everything, Edward had already taken me to his room and laid me down on his bed.

"It's perfectly okay that you don't remember. If it comes to you, it comes to you. And if it doesn't, that actually might be a good thing," Edward said as he tucked me under the covers.

"Why would it be a good thing if I didn't remember?" I asked as innocently as possible.

"Don't worry about it love. All I want you to do right now is to go to sleep. You definitely need some and then when you wake up, I will make you something to eat. Does that sound okay?" Edward asked as he laid down beside me.

"Sounds good," I muttered before drifting off to sleep. The last thing I heard was Edward humming my lullaby.

END FLASHBACK

"I know you remember Bella. There is no use in lying about it anymore," Alice said sternly shaking me from my thoughts.

"I really don't remember," I replied stubbornly looking anywhere but the small woman in front of me.

"Are you seriously going to play this game? That's it, I will tell everyone then," Alice answered getting up from the bed.

"No wait, you're right. I do remember," I whispered out frantically as I grabbed her hand.

"Now that wasn't so hard was it?" Alice replied happily as she sat back down on the bed.

"I don't want to remember it. I don't want to remember what that sick man tried to do to me. If he's even a man at all," I muttered with tears starting to form in my eyes.

"Bella. I know you don't but you're not going to forget it. Ever. And the quicker you talk to someone about it, the quicker you can press charges against-," She tried to get out before I cut her off.

"No, no, no. I-I don't want press charges. I-I don't want to see his face again. Please don't make me ever face him again," I pleaded with her as I felt the tears start to roll down my face.

"I'm not going to make you do anything that you don't want to. However, I will tell you what I think. I think that if you don't say anything, you're going to live a life of regret for not ever talking about it because you will always think to yourself, what if? I think that if you don't tell Edward exactly what happened, you wouldn't be able to live with the guilt. And I know that you're scared about what Edward will think and even more frightened about what he will do if you tell him. Just know this, Edward is strong but his will for making you happy is even stronger," Alice finished as she grabbed me into an embrace.

"Can't you just tell me what will happen?" I asked with a sniffle against her small shoulder.

"You haven't made the choice yet. Right now I see two different paths that you keep switching back and forth between. You alone need to decide for yourself," Alice replied as she released me from her embrace and turned to look at the door.

"You need to stop being so selfish," Rose called out to me from the partially opened door.

I blinked and sighed. I held tightly on to Alice's hand. Rose was the last person I wanted to talk to and I sure as hell wasn't going to let Alice leave me alone with her.

Author's Note: Sorry guys for ending it here but I have my reasons. Again I am so sorry for leaving you guys hanging for so long. School has been absolutely hectic. However, winter break will begin in about two weeks and then I will have more time to write. I am excited about that because I missed hearing from all of you. Just know that I have NOT abandoned this story and I will NOT abandon it. I'm here but I'm just very busy at the moment. So please review, review, review and I will be sure to update in the next few weeks and it will be more regularly I promise. Thanks again for being with me all of the way. I really appreciate it. You guys are seriously the best readers that a writer could ever ask for. Happy belated Thanksgiving by the way! :)