Lose Yourself
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone from One Tree Hill
A/N: So I didn't take too long updating this time did I? I tried my best to write this in a busy week so I hope it's okay.
"So..." Brooke started as she sat across from Nathan in his office at Tree Hill High. "Tell me something" she mused as she looked around his office with her eyes.
"Tell you what?" Nathan asked confused as he glanced across the desk and eyed his best friend suspiciously. "Don't tell me you are here for gossip" he moaned.
"No!" Brooke defended quickly, a little too quickly for Nathan's liking. "I'm not!" she repeated "I just want to know what's going on with you right now..."
"There's nothing going on" Nathan answered simply.
"Nothing?" Brooke questioned with a raised eyebrow, clearly not convinced.
"Nope"
"Nate"
"Brooke"
"Tell me!" Brooke moaned.
"There's nothing to tell!" Nathan defended and raised his voice a little causing Brooke to send him a pout "Brooke, seriously...there is nothing going on"
"Okay..." Brooke sighed "So there's nothing going on between you and Rachel?" she asked.
"No" Nathan muttered "Been there, and done that. Trust me, Rachel was just a stupid one night stand that didn't really mean anything"
"So what have you been doing? You seem to be keeping your distance from us lately..."
"On your orders" Nathan pointed out with a frown "The whole Rachel and Haley thing hasn't exactly gone down well with you...which is a little hypocritical of you, don't you think?"
"And what is that supposed to mean?" Brooke asked confused and a little taken back by his accusing tone.
"Well just take a look at your past boyfriends Brooke, they don't exactly have a good record do they, I mean, Felix Taggaro? Seriously!" Nathan scoffed.
"I was in High School!" Brooke defended with a gasp "And it barely lasted a month no thanks to you!"
"Okay, Lucas" Nathan smirked.
Brooke glared at him "That was different and you know it!" she hissed angrily.
Nathan chuckled and shook his head "Fine, and what about Chase?"
"What about him?"
"Well...you guys were together for a long time, Brooke" Nathan pointed out "The guy was a jerk but you put up with it, in fact, I am surprised that you guys lasted as long as you did"
"Chase was different" Brooke frowned.
"What, like Lucas Scott different?"
"No not that kind of different" Brooke shook her head "Just...different"
"Do you think about him?" Nathan asked with an amused smile.
"No" Brooke glared at him "Why are you even asking me all of this? Chase and I were over for a long time before we even broke up"
"I'm just curious, Brooke. I mean...you go on at me for making bad decisions with Peyton or Haley or...Rachel, yet, your relationships haven't exactly been successful have they? Here you are sitting all single and dateless" he smirked.
"You're an ass" Brooke glared at him.
Nathan shrugged "I'm just giving it back" he said before sending her a small smile. "So why don't we call a truce on the whole relationship advice thing?"
Brooke looked at him for a few seconds before letting a small smile creep onto her face "Okay" she agreed and reached her hand out for Nathan to shake "Truce"
"Can I ask you something?" Grace said as Lucas continued to push her on the swing in the park.
"You can ask me anything princess" Lucas smiled as he held onto the swing once he caught it causing it to come to a halt. "What is it?" he asked softly as he walked in front and leaned down in front of his daughter.
"Are you and my Mommy ever going to get married?" Grace asked curiously.
Lucas sighed and sent the five year old a small smile. "I don't know baby girl" he admitted honestly "Maybe we will someday, but maybe we wont. I just don't know"
Grace frowned confused "Why not? Do you not want to marry my Mommy?" she asked sadly.
"No, no" Lucas quickly defended "Of course I want to marry your Mom, she is beautiful and sweet and kind and she's the best woman in the world, well...maybe second best" he winked at her causing Grace to let out a small giggle. "But...not all Mom's and Dad's get married, Grace, and I think you will understand that when you get older"
"Why not?" Grace questioned again.
"Because that's just what happens sometimes and it's life, which is why you should be glad that your still a kid because boy do things get complicated when your an adult" he smirked.
"That's what Mom always says" Grace smiled "I think you should get married, I think she likes you"
Lucas chuckled softly before giving her a quick peck on the forehead "You're too clever for your own good" he teased "Now come on, I thought we were in the middle of a record here on high you would swing" he smiled before standing up and returning to his place behind the swing as he started to push her again.
"Okay, seriously! Are you stalking me or something?" Brooke asked annoyed as she walked through Tree Hill's mall, Jake walking quickly to her side.
"You aint that special darling" Jake smirked as he walked by her side, Brooke speeding up her walk clearly trying to get away from him.
"Well can you leave me alone then?" Brooke muttered not in the mood to deal with his annoying ass today. Work was already kicking her ass.
"And where's the fun in that, B?" Jake asked with a laugh "It's not my fault I enjoy your company"
"If you don't leave me alone in 5 seconds I am going to scream" she threatened as she came to a halt and turned to face her old classmate. "I'm being serious" she warned.
"Come on" Jake smiled "I'm a changed man, B, I promise"
Brooke scoffed "3..."
Jake chuckled "Brookie"
"2..."
"Just have a coffee with me"
"1..." Brooke warned.
"Fine" Jake sighed "Don't hang with me, it's your loss"
"Trust me, it's not" Brooke sent him a bitter smile before turning to walk away.
"Oh and Brooke!" Jake shouted after her.
Brooke grunted before reluctantly turning around.
"Tell Lucas I said hello" Jake smirked causing Brooke to glare at him while giving him the middle finger before turning around annoyed. "Bye!" Jake chuckled as he watched her go out of sight.
"Lucas!"
Lucas turned around, Grace holding his hand down by his side and smiled as he saw Lindsey quickly approach them. "Oh hey Lindsey" he greeted.
"Hey" she grinned before looking down at Grace who stood shyly by her father side "And you must be Grace" she smiled "Nice to meet you, I'm Lindsey"
Grace eyed her suspiciously before looking up at Lucas nervously. "It's okay baby" Lucas reassured her "Lindsey is a friend" Grace didn't reply as she spoke a quiet hello to the taller woman. "She can be a little shy sometimes" he told Lindsey with a smile. "But she's normally very loud" he laughed.
"I'm just glad that I finally get to meet her in the flesh, I have heard all sorts of stories from your Daddy about you" Lindsey looked down at Grace while grinning.
"What kind of stories?" Grace asked confused.
"All good ones" Lindsey smiled before turning her attention back to Lucas. "So...I thought you were going to call me, and well...it's been over a week" she smiled nervously.
"I was?" Lucas asked slightly bemused "Because I am pretty sure you said you would call me..."
"Right" Lindsey nodded "Well, I figured since you were the guy..."
"Oh" Lucas nodded and sent a short glance down to his daughter "You see, the thing is..." he started unsure of what to say to the girl without giving out the wrong idea "I have been kinda busy lately with Grace, her Mom has this big fashion deal or something coming up and she's been extra busy so I've been looking after her a lot"
"Really? That doesn't really seem that fair on you..." Lindsey trailed.
"What no!" Lucas quickly defended with a smile "I love it" he admitted.
Lindsey nodded before turning the conversation slightly "Well...are you free on Friday night?" she asked him curiously.
"Uh I don't know yet" Lucas replied a little confused "Why?"
"Well I was wondering if you wanted to go out for a drink or something?" Lindsey asked with a nervous smile "You don't have to...I just thought it would be nice"
"Uh, yeah okay" Lucas shrugged "Sure"
"Great!" Lindsey grinned widely "Well I will call you, see you Friday, bye Grace" she waved before turning around and leaving.
"Bye..." Lucas frowned confused before turning to face his daughter and lifting her up into his arms "Come on then princess, I promised you an ice cream" he smirked as he tossed her into the air causing Grace to let out a loud giggle.
"Oh I missed you!" Brooke gushed as she lifted Grace into her arms and repeatedly kissed her on her cheek causing Grace to groan and pull her head back slightly. "What?" Brooke asked in fake hurt "You didn't miss me?"
"I've only been gone for one night Mommy" Grace told her confused.
"One night too many" Brooke smirked as she placed her daughter back on the floor and turned her attention to Lucas "You want to stay for a drink or something?" she asked with a smile "I think I need one after the day I have had"
"Want to talk about it?" Lucas asked with a smile as the two followed Grace into the living room. "We could swap stories, I mean, I have had a pretty rough day myself"
"Really?" Brooke asked surprised as the two sat down on the coach, Grace already sitting on the floor watching TV. "At the park?" she asked confused.
"Yup" Lucas told her with a straight face "Swings and slides can be pretty traumatising, and that's not to mention the dreaded monkey bars" he smirked "I mean, really, how do people think that's a safe place to take their kids? My heart stopped over a dozen times chasing Gracie around and making sure she wouldn't fall off anything!"
Brooke let out a small laugh "I know that feeling"
"So...now that my traumatic event has been discussed, let's move onto you" Lucas smirked and reached his hand out to Brooke's arm "Come on" he urged "Tell me all about it"
"I don't think it can top the monkey bars" Brooke smiled.
"Have a try" Lucas smirked.
"Okay" Brooke sighed "Just work, you know, it's been a bit much lately"
"Take a vacation" Lucas shrugged "You're the boss"
"Exactly" Brooke muttered "I am the boss which means I can't just take off whenever I want"
"Tell me something, Brooke, when was the last time you had a vacation?"
"I took the weekend off a few weeks ago" Brooke shrugged.
"Okay" Lucas smiled "Now, tell me when was the last time you took a real vacation"
Brooke frowned "I don't know..." she mumbled "A while ago?"
Lucas chuckled and shook his head "You work too hard Brooke Davis" he told her before standing up "Come on, we are going out"
"What?" Brooke asked confused "Where?"
Lucas shrugged "Somewhere to eat, somewhere fun"
"Oh Lucas I don't know" Brooke sighed "I'm tired and I think I would rather just chill at home tonight" she admitted.
"Well that's too bad because I'm not taking no for an answer" Lucas grinned "Gracie get your shoes on baby, we are going out"
"Where?" the little girl asked excitedly.
"Hm...Charlotte" Lucas smiled.
"Charlotte! Lucas are you kidding me! It's six thirty! We do not have time to go to Charlotte" Brooke argued.
"Oh come on" Lucas smiled "Be a little adventurous" he said while grabbing her hand and leading her out into the hall where Grace was waiting for them. "Come on"
"You're crazy" Brooke pointed out.
"And if I remember correctly, you used to be too" Lucas teased. "Just get in the car, Brooke"
"Urgh!" Brooke groaned "Fine!" she gave in with a small smile. "But if we go there and find nowhere open that is suitable for a 5 year old girl, I blame you!"
"Fine with me" Lucas smirked as he grabbed his car keys and led them out the house.
"Well this was successful" Brooke muttered while rolling her eyes as she looked at her daughter who was sleeping deeply in the back seat of Lucas' car. "I knew this was a bad idea"
Lucas chuckled "Hey now, it's not all bad" he smiled "We had a good road trip..."
"Hm, that's if you call singing Hannah Montana songs none stop as good" Brooke sighed "I don't think I will ever be able to listen to the Hoedown Throwdown again without losing my sanity"
"Well I had fun" Lucas smiled.
"How could you have possibly had fun?" Brooke asked slightly amused "We have only just got here and sleeping beauty back there doesn't seem to be waking up anytime soon, not to mention the fact that I am starving"
"Well lets go and find some place to eat" Lucas suggested.
"Don't you think it's a bit late for a 5 year old? I don't even know why I agreed to this" Brooke muttered.
"Oh come on, I'm sure there will be a McDonald's around here somewhere"
"Great! Fast food! My favorite" Brooke smiled sarcastically.
"Why don't we stay the night" Lucas offered "That way, Gracie will have a bed to sleep in, you will have some awesome room service and we can hang out"
Brooke frowned slightly "Was that the plan all along?"
"Nah not really" Lucas smiled "Although now that I think about it, it is a pretty kick ass idea. You need a break from the store, I want to spend time with you, it's a win win situation, we could make a little mini vacation out of it"
"Except you have a job, and Grace has school, and we both have responsibilities back in Tree Hill, we can't just run off to Charlotte whenever we feel like it" Brooke sighed.
"I don't have to be back at the garage until Wednesday, we can stay in a hotel tonight, spend the day here tomorrow and travel back to Tree Hill on the tomorrow night" Lucas told her urging her decision "Come on Brooke, live a little..."
"I don't know Lucas..."
"Come on" Lucas smiled "I know you will enjoy it"
"Urgh" Brooke groaned "Fine!" she gave in. Again.
"Great!" Lucas grinned widely as he started up the car again "I saw a hotel that looked pretty good about five minutes back, we can stay there" he told her as he turned the car round in a U-turn.
"Great" Brooke repeated his words with less enthusiasm. As appealing as spending the night with Lucas in a hotel room was, it also scared the crap out of her.
Brooke smiled softly to herself as she leaned back up after tucking her daughter in bed in their hotel room. This trip seemed a bit of a waste so far, but she was looking forward to spending the day with Grace and Lucas tomorrow, a situation that hasn't happened in a while. "Sweet dreams" she whispered before turning around and leaving the small room.
"She is out like a light" Brooke called out as she walked through the short hall into the living area and was stunned by what she saw. "Lucas?" she questioned confused as she looked around the room to see candles lit and the couch pushed back.
"Hey" Lucas smiled softly as he approached her, a bottle of wine in his hand. "Come sit" he ushered her over to the small blanket that was placed on the floor.
"What is this?" Brooke asked nervously as she slowly leaned down onto her knees, a little shocked at what seemed to be happening.
"I just wanted to show you how much I have missed you" Lucas smiled as he poured her a glass of wine. "How much I still want to fight for you like I said I would"
"How did you even manage to do all of this?" Brooke asked baffled as she looked around the room, dozens of candles lit everywhere. Lucas shrugged with a small smile gracing his lips and Brooke's jaw almost dropped with shock "Did you plan all this in advance?" she asked surprised "The trip? This hotel..."
Again Lucas shrugged "Maybe" he smiled at Brooke's frown as she tried to urge him to explain. "Okay, fine yeah" he grinned "Although I have to admit, I thought it would be a little harder to try and persuade you to come to Charlotte on such short notice like that"
Brooke smiled and shook her head "You're crazy" she told him with a grin.
"Good crazy?" Lucas asked while smirking.
"Hm" Brooke mused mockingly "I guess so"
"And would you think that maybe this was crazy?" Lucas spoke quietly as he slowly leaned forward. Brooke's breath hitched in her throat as Lucas let his fingers run down her cheek gently before he finally placed his lips softly against hers. Brooke placed her hand behind his head as she leaned closer into him while kissing him back.
Brooke smiled as she slowly pulled away "Definitely a crazy move" she whispered causing Lucas to grin widely. "But a good one" she continued before attaching her lips back against his, only more forceful this time.
Lucas leaned back before falling back onto the blanket, Brooke falling on top of him, neither of them ready to break the kiss. Lucas' hands travelled down Brooke's back before holding onto her waist.
Brooke ran her hand down his chest quickly and tugged onto the bottom of his shirt, urging him to take it off however Lucas surprised her by grabbing onto her hands and pulling away from her. "What's wrong?" she asked confused as she looked at him intently.
"Brooke" Lucas stuttered out of breath as he slowly sat up, Brooke also moving off him as he did so. "I want this so bad" he told her honestly when he noticed the frown appear on the brunettes lips.
"Well then come on!" Brooke urged as she tried to kiss him again but Lucas shook his head stopping her. "Lucas I-" she started but the blonde cut her off.
"Brooke" He started again "I love you" he told her softly and Brooke turned her head away slightly "And I want to be with you...but I don't want to rush this, I want this to be more than sex"
Brooke didn't say anything as she slowly stood up and grabbed her glass and bottle of wine before walking into the kitchen. Lucas sighed loudly before quickly standing up and following her. "Brooke!" he shouted at her. "Why are you mad with me?" he asked confused.
"Are you serious?" Brooke asked him shocked and glared at him heavily "You do all this and when I give myself up to you, you turn me down! How the hell do you think that makes me feel, Lucas?" she asked angrily.
"I'm sorry!" Lucas quickly defended, not wanting things to happen like this. "I just didn't want to rush you, I thought I was doing the right thing, Brooke, believe me when I tell you that I want you, but I want all of you, not just your body!"
Brooke turned her head and looked away as she stubbornly took a sip from her wine.
"Brooke please" Lucas spoke to her pleadingly as he reached out and grabbed her hand, forcing her to turn around to face him. "Tell me you want to be with me" he pleaded "For real...me and you as a couple, like a family"
Brooke stayed silent as she looked anywhere but his eyes.
Lucas let out a dry laugh and shook his head disappointingly as he dropped her hand and took a step back "I see" he muttered coldly before leaving the room.
Brooke watched him go stunned and slowly raised her shaking hand to her eyes, wiping away the tears that were already threatening to fall.
A/N: I hate to end it there I really do! Don't all hate me all at once :)
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Sara x