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Here is Chapter 34, please forgive all mistakes! Also, beware of an M rated scene.
"I want to retire as a Guardian," Dimitri told me the next morning. We were snuggled up in bed. I was laying on my stomach and Dimitri was laying on his side with his legs stretched out, his hand running up and down my back. It was perfect.
"As in like this year? A couple years from now? Ten years from now? What?" I asked him a little confused.
"Soon, maybe in a year, maybe in two years," he shrugged. "I just don't think I want to do it anymore."
"Why not?" I propped my self up on my elbows so I could look at him. "You love being a Guardian, you have always loved being a Guardian. I am not saying I won't support you, I am just trying to figure out why."
"My entire life was preparing to Guard and protect Moroi," Dimitri told me, his hand stroking my back softly as he laid on his stomach looking at me. "And I was okay with that. It didn't bother me. But now with everything Aunt Tati wants me to do, with being on the Royal Council and on the Guardian Council. It's just getting to be a lot. I am ready to start pulling back and focusing more on changing Guardian lives and working conditions."
I laid there thinking about his words. He did spend his entire life preparing to Guard and protect Moroi, he was okay with it. But I understood what he wasn't saying, he was okay with it because of Ivan. He spent so much time preparing to Guard Ivan, his best friend. I always got the sense that since Ivan died, Dimitri was a little lost. He didn't really know what to do with his life.
"That makes sense," I nodded thinking about it. He was taking on a lot, he was going to burn himself out working so hard. It was something I worried about too. My man was amazing and he would take on the world to make me happy and everyone else happy. But it would take its toll on him.
"Plus, I figured with a less active position on a day to day basis, maybe I could teach a little," he shrugged. "I enjoy teaching you so much and it's obvious you are above your peers, maybe it would be a good idea to give back a little that way."
"What are you thinking?" I asked him watching his brow furrow in thought.
"Just that how much do Guardians lose their lives because of the falling numbers and how much are the falling numbers because they are losing their lives," he whispered.
I rolled his words around in my head thinking about what he was saying. I didn't understand what he was getting at. "I am lost," I told him after a few minutes.
"It's more about how they relate to each other," he explained. "Are more Guardians dying because there aren't enough of us? Or is the death the cause of there not being enough of us?"
"Okay," I said thinking about what he said. It was starting to make a little sense. "So you think that there is a breakdown in why so many are dying?"
"I am wondering if maybe our teaching practices haven't adapted to accommodate the Strigoi," he explained to me. "Or maybe they have adapted too much and that's the problem, we need to go back to the basics."
"You know you might have a point," I agreed with him. "I had to do an oral qualifier because of how I was training, and it was much more difficult. The scenarios constantly changed as I answered the questions. And I wasn't allowed to go back and think about it. It was much more on the fly."
"That's how all my qualifiers were," Dimitri said to me. "They stopped after my year. It is more difficult and harder to administer, you need heaps of Guardians to do the qualifier that way."
"Yeah but because I was being trained for that qualifier I learned how to analyze information faster," I told him. "It's what helped in Spokane."
"I agree with that," Dimitri nodded. "Anyway, I just don't know if I want to be on active duty anymore."
"Well, babe it's up to you," I told him. "I will support you no matter what. I love you for you not because you are a Guardian."
"I love you too," he grinned at me. "I am going to talk to a couple of contacts at St. Basil's and just get some information. What do you think?"
"I think that's a good idea," I smiled at him. "You know what's also a good idea?"
"What's that?" He asked me as we cuddled.
"I don't want to be Lissa's Guardian after I graduate," I told him honestly. "I know we have only been here for a little while, but I am remembering what it's like to be me. With Lissa, I am always her bond mate, but here I am just me. I forgot what that was like."
"Lissa does have a way of taking over," Dimitri agreed. "She just can't help it."
"Yeah," I nodded. "But I don't want a life following her around, I want my own life. Does that make sense?"
"It makes a lot of sense," he said softly. "Well, maybe we both should spend some time talking to your dad and St. Basil's, figure out some of our options together."
"Okay," I grinned at him. "What do you want to do today?"
"I was thinking we could spend some time in town today," Dimitri suggested. "I want to go to St. Basil's on Monday."
"Want to see any of your old friends?" I asked him as I went to get out of bed. I climbed out and went to pick out clothes for the day. I noticed Dimitri was super quiet. "Comrade?" I asked turning around.
I looked at him and noticed he had been staring at me. Neither of us had put clothes on last night, so both of us slept naked. Dimitri had been watching my naked butt when I had gotten out of bed. I looked him over, he had kicked off the covers and his hand was wrapped around the shaft of his cock.
"Babe?" I said again.
"What?" He asked me huskily. I crossed my arms over my chest, involuntarily putting my boobs in a better position. I heard him moan softly, his hand moving lazily up and down.
"What are you doing?" I asked him as I watched his hand move up and down.
"Admiring the view," he whispered.
"Is that so?" I asked him, flipping my hair out of my face. "I don't understand why you just want to sit there admiring."
Dimitri grinned at me before springing out of bed. I shrieked as his arms wrapped around me and pulled me to him. I could feel his fingers tickling me as he pulled me toward the bed. I was squealing from the ticking as we fell into bed. Dimitri immediately trapped me under him as we were in bed. His lips immediately capturing mine in a smoldering kiss. He kissed me hard, his mouth dominating mine easily.
He pulled away and rested his lips by my ear. "Want to do something kinky?" He whispered softly. I moaned loudly nodding my head. "I need a verbal answer, Roza."
"Yes, please," I moaned again. I could feel my thighs becoming sticky with my body's natural lubrication.
"Stay there," he whispered into my ear. "Close your eyes."
I closed my eyes and felt him leave the bed. I laid there hearing him rustle around the room slowly. I was curious what he was doing, but I trusted him enough not to do anything I wouldn't like. I could feel goosebumps rise on my skin as the anticipation settled in.
The bed dipped with what I was assuming was Dimitri's weight. I felt his fingers run down my arm, his hand tangling in mine. He pulled one arm up toward the headboard and then did the same with the other. I felt cold metal wrap around my wrists and I realized he had handcuffed me to the bed.
Soft silk was wrapped around my eyes. I felt him tie the silk behind my head. My skin tingled with anticipation. Dimitri's hand trailed down my body, I felt his fingers skim my sex. Close enough to touch but not enough to really put pressure and relieve tension. I bucked my hips up toward his hand, trying to get some friction.
His hands skimmed over my body teasingly, my flesh having a hot and cold sensation. Parts of me were too hot and begging for attention, others were too cold and pebbling as a result also desperate for attention. One of Dimitri's hands went back down my body, I felt him rest it on the inside of my thigh.
"Please," I begged him.
"I am in control, Roza," Dimitri chuckled. "Just relax and enjoy the ride."
One of Dimitri's fingers swirled around my clit, collecting wetness. I moaned at the slight friction. He did that a few times before resting his finger on my lips, I opened my mouth immediately and felt him slip his finger into my mouth. I swirled my tongue around his finger, just like I would his cock, tasting my wetness as I did. I lightly scraped my teeth on his fingers as I sucked it hard. I heard him growl lightly.
He pulled his finger out of my mouth with a pop. "Do you trust me?" He asked huskily.
"Yes," I told him. I was eager for him to give me some relief. Plus I trusted him more than anyone else in the world.
I felt him slip two fingers inside of me. I moaned loudly at the sensation. Dimitri made a come-hither motion with his fingers which caused me to squeal and buck my hips. I was sure I was soaking the bed. His thumb went to draw lazy circles on my clit as he continued his ministrations inside of me.
Dimitri blew cold air over one of my hardened nipples before taking the pebbled flesh into his mouth. He sucked hard on my breast as he continued his movements down below. "Oh god," I groaned out.
He switched nipples and continued to tease my burning flesh. I could feel myself getting closer to my peak but he was keeping it just at bay. Part of me was frustrated because I wanted him to bring me to that glorious high and the other part never wanted him to stop. I moved my hips as best as I could with being handcuffed to the bed. I could just lay there and take it, he was in complete control.
"Please, please, please," I begged him continuously and loudly. My body was on fire and I could the fire burning deep in my belly just waiting to roar.
I heard him chuckle, the vibrations from his mouth wrapping around my nipple in his mouth. My body was slick and I was sure I was soaking his hand with my juices if I already hadn't. I could hear the squishing noise as his hand moved inside of me. And as much as I loved his fingers, I really wanted something longer and thicker deep inside of me.
My pleas had turned to a whisper as he continued to his movements. Dimitri's hand sped up suddenly. I was getting closer and closer, my pleas had turned to loud moans and whimpers. I was trying so hard to cum. I was almost there.
"Oh god," I groaned out. "I am going to . . . cum."
The minute the words were out of my mouth Dimitri pulled away from my body and I almost screamed in frustration. Before I could register what fully happened, I felt something hard, thick and long slam into me. I came instantly, screaming at the force of my orgasm.
Dimitri held himself inside of me, not moving as I came down from my high. The moment my breathing returned to normal he started a slow and sensual pace.
"Feeling okay?" He whispered softly as he moved inside of me.
"Uh huh," I moaned loudly as he continued.
"A little speechless?" He asked me chuckling softly. Dimitri swirled his hips and he hit a sweet spot inside of me causing me to groan loudly. It felt so good.
"Don't stop," I whimpered as he continued his slow sensual pace. "Uh!"
I heard Dimitri chuckle as he continued his pace. I felt my body clamp down on him, I heard him moan loudly at that. My body was so wet and I could feel him sliding in and out of me easily.
Dimitri kept up his teasingly slow pace. Every so often he would swirl his body and hit a spot deep inside of me that felt so good, too good. He continued thrusting in and out of me, never stopping, never speeding up, never slowing down. I knew we had been going at it for at least an hour.
"I am so close baby girl," Dimitri moaned suddenly.
"Me too," I groaned out. Dimitri suddenly started to speed up, soon his hips were slapping against mine.
Dimitri kept a brutal pace, almost painful. I could feel the fire in my belly burning hard. Everything about my body was screaming at me to cum, but I wanted him to cum with me. Dimitri grabbed one leg and put it on his shoulder, he then grabbed my other leg and did the same. I felt him slide deeper into me, I heard him groan as he did.
"Yes," Dimitri moaned as he picked up the pace even more. I loved when he moaned, it made me feel good that I could do that to him.
"Oh!" I squealed, I was having a losing battle fighting off my orgasm.
I was just at that point when I was going to cum when I felt Dimitri's hips jerk out of the pattern. His hand went to push down on my pelvis, his thumb was rubbing my clit. I could feel his movements becoming more jerky as he continued.
"Roza," he moaned loudly.
"Dimitri," I responded. "Oh, fuck!" I squealed loudly as my second orgasm washed over me in rolling waves. Dimitri jerked his hips one more time before he stopped moving, holding himself inside of me as he came down from his high.
"Fuck," he whispered as he slowly pulled out of me. I felt him lean over and undo the handcuffs, he then removed the blindfold.
"Wow," I said as he laid down next to me.
"I think we waisted the morning away," he chuckled as he cuddled me after. "Though it was well worth it!"
"I would have to agree!" I grinned at him. "Ugh, I am all sticky!"
"Why don't you shower while I make us some brunch?" Dimitri grinned at me as his stomach growled. "I might be a little hungry."
"Just a little," I teased him. Dimitri kissed me quickly before the two of us got out of bed to go to our respective places. This vacation was turning out to be a really good idea.
"Roza, stop pacing," Dimitri said to me as I paced the room.
"I can't help it," I told him as I continued. "I am just nervous, what if he doesn't take us? What if he doesn't give us a good option?"
"Roza, this isn't our only option," he told me for the millionth time today. We were currently waiting in the Headmaster's office at St. Basil's. Dimitri and I decided it was a good idea to get all of our options spelled out.
"Yeah, but still," I groaned as I flopped down in the chair next to him.
"All we are going to do is find out if there are two teaching positions available for both of us next year," Dimitri explained again. "That's all, they would be crazy not to want either of us. And if all else fails I can work just on the councils and you can go to college if you want. Or just live off your trust fund."
"I don't want to be that much of a spoiled brat," I sighed softly.
The idea of teaching at St. Basil's was super nice. I could teach combat classes, which I love doing! The idea of theory makes me gag. But I loved training and I think I would do a good job teaching combat. Plus, when Dimitri and I had a family it would be a little easier to keep doing instead of being an active Guardian.
Dimitri was right, I did have the option to go to college if I wanted too. But I would have no idea what to major in. Plus what would I do with a college degree as a dhampir, it's not like I could go do anything else in our society. Plus I hated school, did I really want to put myself through another four years?
I really didn't want to live off my trust fund and do nothing. I totally could, God knows there was enough money in there that half my graduating class could live off of it for life. But I didn't want to be that spoiled, I knew I already was but something about living off my trust fund put it in a whole new level. Not to mention if Dimitri was working and I wasn't, I would feel like a failure.
"We will figure it all out, I promise," Dimitri told me as he took my hand. "Now, he should be here any minute. So let's sit back and wait. I promise everything will be fine."
"I hope so," I nodded at him.
"Rose Mazur, Guardian Belikov," I heard from behind us as the Headmaster walked in. I watched as he walked by us and went to sit at his desk. "What a surprise! Miss Mazur, I believe the last time you were in my office you were getting in trouble for what was it? Ahh, I remember, you were in trouble for beating up a Royal."
Dimitri turned and raised one of his eyebrows at me. I shrugged sheepishly. I guess he was right, I did beat up a royal. But he was being an ass, and he told me if it wasn't for Abe I would be a blood whore. He so deserved the beating.
I hope you all enjoyed this chapter! Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me for so long! I so appreciate it! I promise we are getting near the end soon, just stick with me a little longer :)
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