Halcyon

PART III

Chapter 12

Next thing I know, Carlisle has a notepad and pen out, testing my new and improved abilities. Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett, Edward, Bella, and Jasper are all watching me. I can't help but feel a bit like a circus performer with everyone watching me, but it's okay I guess. I'm pretty interested in my dexterity as well. I guess since I'm not a "pure" vampire, per se, I won't be as strong as the Cullens. I don't know why, but I like this Seer side still lingering in me. It makes me feel like I'm still Liliana Swan. I'm still me, deep down in this beautiful shell.

"Lily, can you leap as high in the air as you can?" Carlisle asks me and I nod, I bending my knees and launch myself in the air. I feel graceful as I land on the ground, right back on my feet. I stifle a chuckle when I see Bella's eyes are pretty big, as she watches me. Carlisle writes something down in the notebook pertaining to how high I jumped.

"How far up was that?" I ask Jasper, curious.

"About twenty-five feet." he tells me and I nod. I don't really know if that's good or bad, it's good in my standards.

"Jasper, how was she with running?" Carlisle asks him while Jasper nods, smile on his face.

"She was good, about as fast as me." the golden-haired vampire tells his adoptive father as Carlisle writes in the book again.

"Strength is obviously good." Carlisle says, glancing towards Emmett with a small smile.

"Yeah, just wait until she's not a newborn." Emmett says and I get a smug smirk on my face. I then walk up to my future father in law, needing to tell him about the vision when we were hunting.

"Carlisle, when we were out hunting, I saw an elk dipping its mouth into a brook in my head. I knew exactly where it was and I saw it. It was like a vision, but it was struggling to get in, but when I focused on it, it cleared up." I tell him and he frowns, considering this.

"Interesting. I think your visions could strengthen. Has that ever happened before?" he asks and I shake my head.

"No, I don't think so. I just concentrated on it and I saw it perfectly." I tell him and he writes something down.

"I have a feeling that your visions could probably be controlled. Maybe even to the point of doing them on command. It'll help you hunt." I read from his lips and my eyebrows shoot to my hairline. Really? I could control them? "Your dexterity is strong, but I would like to re-test you as time goes on, seeing if it weakens." he tells me and I nod, understanding.

After the "testing," Jasper and I are sitting in his room on his couch, just talking. He has his cool arms around me and even though I'm still warm, it's not uncomfortable, it's actually extremely comfortable. When I look over at him at him, I see that his face is a little saddened. What's wrong with him? I can practically feel the sadness from him. I take his hand in mine and he looks down to me, forces a smile on his face. Well, that was a fake smile.

"What's on your mind?" I ask him and he looks like he's struggling to get it out. I gently squeeze his hand and this gives him the push to say something.

"All I kept thinking about when we were fighting was you and how this is going to make you safe. I was so happy when we finished with all of the newborns, I just wanted to run up that mountain and sweep you up in my arms. When I heard Seth's howl, it sounded like a painful cry and I knew that something was wrong. Then when I saw you on the ground...and I smelled all the blood. There was so much of it." he says, his face pained. "I thought that I was going to lose you. You were bleeding so much, but you said my name and I would have cried if I could. I thought that if you died, my life would be completely meaningless. When Edward read Sam's mind to bite you, I didn't hesitate, but, I was still scared that I was too late, and you then you weren't waking up." he says, but his golden eyes soften "When I saw you standing today, I was so relieved. Then you said that you heard my voice, and I think that was the best thing that I've ever heard. When I saw you hunting...you were amazing. You're incredible, Lily, you're utterly incredible. I just feel extremely happy." he says and I smile, laying my head on his chest.

"I had a dream the night before the battle. Lacrimosa was killed by another vampire who drank her blood. Her blood killed him because he drained her. When I saw Victoria go for Bella, I figured that if my blood was poisonous, then it would kill her. I didn't exactly plan on her ripping some of my neck off." I say and Jasper visibly winces. "She told me that you're my sanguinem coeunt." I look up and see him frowning.

"Sanguinem coeunt...blood mate?" he asks and I nod.

"She said that her and William were the same way. My blood appeals to you, but you don't thirst for it." I say. "She also said that our love is stronger than anything in the world."

"Well, I believe that." he says, pulling me closer and I nuzzle my head into his chest.

"I love you, Jasper. I love you, so much. More than anything in this entire world. And sometimes, I'll look at you, and think that I'm so unworthy of you and your love when I'm just...me. Just Lily Swan." I tell him, needing to lay everything out. Jasper brings his hand up to my face and swipes his thumb across my cheek. I then realize I'm crying. I'm actually crying. What kind of vampire cries?

"Lily, I'll tell you again - I'm the one who doesn't deserve you. To me, you're perfect. I'll love now as Lily Swan, and I'll love you always, as Lily Whitlock. Just...please don't cry, it pains me to see you do so." he says and I immediately crash my lips to his. Whatever I did to deserve him and his love, I don't know. I do know that I'm extremely blessed and lucky to have him.

A little bit later, Jasper and I walk downstairs, seeing Edward, Bella, Carlisle, and Esme all in the living room. They all look up as we enter and I hold my breath, wanting to be extra careful around Bella. I would sooner kill myself, than want to hurt her. I know that I would never hurt her, but I cannot trust the blood lust. Jasper and I sit the farthest away from them, while I focus on not breathing.

"What are you up to?" Esme asks us and Jasper wraps his arm around my shoulders while I force a smile at him. I feel like Jasper when we first came over, I'm trying to keep my distance from Bella. I don't want to breathe in her scent. I haven't smelled it yet, but I'm scared of what will happen if I do. I couldn't handle hurting her or hurting my dad. I have to admit that I'm pretty nervous to go back home. I just hope that I have good self-control. I hope. The Cullens fall into a nice conversation while I just keep focusing.

Don't breathe, you're doing great. Don't breathe, you're doing great. Don't breathe, you're doing great. Don't breathe, you're doing great. Don't breathe, you're doing great. Don't breathe, you're doing great.

I look around the room and my eye catches on the piano. "Edward." I say, turning to him. Everyone turns to me, curious. "Could you play the piano?" I ask him and his lips twitch into a smile.

"Sure." he replies and I smile. Bella and Edward stand up and walk over to the piano, sitting down. I stay where I am, sitting on the couch with Jasper while Edward starts to play. Jasper takes my hand and I freeze, hearing music for the first time. Edward plays a gentle song, very soft and very happy. I squeeze his hand, realizing how beautiful music is. Jasper leans over and places his lips to my temple as I listen, a smile spreading across my face. Bella is sitting on the bench next to Edward, watching him admiringly. Music - it's not such a mystery anymore. I relax and lay my hand on Jasper's shoulder, cuddling closer to him. Today has been, amazing. One of the best days of my life and I know that I'll never forget it. I wish I could freeze this scene and live it forever. Sitting with Jasper, actually hearing music. It might seem so simple to other people, but this is perfect. This is where I want to be.

Laying my head on Jasper's shoulder while the gentle music comes from the piano. I find myself closing my eyes and feeling completely at ease. I feel the warm, darkness enveloping me and I let consciousness go, actually falling asleep.

Somewhere in between consciousness and unconsciousness, I can hear people whispering.

"Is she asleep?" I hear my sister.

"Yes." Jasper whispers.

"How is she sleeping?" Bella asks and I don't hear an answer, but I feel myself being lifted. I'm too tired to protest, all the excitement from today taking a toll on me. I feel myself being carried, hearing Jasper's steps. I then feel myself being lowered on to something soft and I inhale, realizing I'm in Jasper's bedroom on the bed. I feel the bed shift as he climbs on, pulling the covers over us.

"Sweet dreams, my Lily." I hear him whisper before something cold is placed against my forehead. His lips. I fully drown in the comfortable darkness, falling asleep.

My dream tonight isn't filled with any terrors, giving me hope that there aren't any in the future. Tonight, it's filled with Jasper's face, his voice echoing in my head. That lovely, lovely voice of his.

Opening my eyes, I see the sunlight streaming into Jasper's bedroom. I blink a couple of times to clear up my vision and look around, seeing that I'm alone. I sit up and get off the bed, walking over to the door to Jasper's connected library, peeking in seeing it empty. I frown and walk over to the door, exiting the room. I then see a long, blonde head of hair walking down the hallway away from me.

"Hey, Rosalie." I call and she stops, turning around towards me.

"Yes?" she answers, perfectly arched eyebrow raised.

"Feel free to say no, but, can I borrow some clothes?" I ask and her lips twitch into a smile, nodding.

"Sure. Come on." she says, nodding her head towards her room. I walk over to her, focusing on not moving fast. Okay, you're doing good, Lily. I follow the blonde vampire into her and Emmett's room, widening my eyes when I see it. Emmett let Rosalie do all the decorating. That brawny man really is a teddy bear when it comes to her. The walls are an off-white with lilac accents all over the place. You can't mistake that it's a girls room, and I'll laugh every time I think of Emmett in this room. They have a bed in their room with a white comforter, but I don't expect that they use it for sleeping. I grimace at that thought, and follow her into a connecting room, widening when I see that it's a bigger room that's turned into a closet. Rosalie's clothes are all hanged up neatly to the left, while Emmett's are on the right. She walks over to a part where many, many pants are hanging up. She takes off a pair of jeans and hands them to me. "They might be a little bit, I'll get you a belt." she tells me and I nod. She walks over to a bunch of hanging shirts and pull off a dark green, long-sleeved shirt. I take it from her and she walks over to a wall of shoes. It's amazing how many shoes she has. Her closet it is like a little girl's dream. Rosalie grabs a pair of brown boots and hands them to me, also taking a brown belt out of her drawer. "There you go." she says and I smile.

"Thanks, Rosalie...for staying with me through the change. I really appreciate it." I tell her and her perfectly colored lips twitch into a smile.

"You're welcome, Lily, and, please, call me Rose." she tells me and I nod, walking out of the room with a smile on my face. I walk down the hallway over to the Cullens bathroom. I turn on the light and look up and the mirror, my eyes widening. Usually when I wake up, my hair is comparable to a rat's nest and my eyes are puffy, but now, my hair looks like it barely moved an inch from yesterday, falling in light curls. My face is still as startlingly beautiful as yesterday. I have to scowl when I see my eyes. I really hope this red doesn't stay. Maybe it will change like the other Cullens and turn gold. I hope. I pull myself away from the mirror and pull on the new clothes. I run my hand through my now silky smooth hair and walk out of the bathroom and back into Jaspers bedroom. It's a little weird hearing now. I'll hear some things like the opening and closing of a door, footsteps, hearing the waterfall yesterday, different sounds of the forest, etc. It's like I have to learn what the different sounds are where people have been hearing this since they were born. Everybody is ahead of the game.

I put my clothes from yesterday back and Jasper's room and walk downstairs to find him. I walk down the steps, only hearing footsteps as Esme walks by. She looks up, sees me, and smiles.

"Oh, you're up." she comments and I smile.

"Hey, Esme. Do you know where Jasper is?" I ask and suddenly I feel two arms snake around my waist.

"Here I am." Jasper says softly into my ear. Esme smiles and walks away, leaving us some privacy. I turn around and smile, wrapping my arms around his waist while he wraps his around my shoulders. "Did you sleep well?" he asks and I nod.

"Yes, actually, I did." I tell him and he leans forward placing his lips to my forehead.

"Are you thirsty?" he asks and I sheepishly nod, feeling the burn in my throat. Jasper smiles and takes my hand, walking outside. We both take off into the woods, running through it to hunt and settle my thirst. I have to smile while running, feeling incredible. I've decided that their isn't a better feeling than running through the woods with Jasper, my sanguinem coeunt.

Hey guys!

So, shorter chapter, but next chapter should be longer. If you want to know more about Lily as a hybrid, check out the wiki page. It should answer your questions and if you have anymore, just leave a review or PM me.

I feel like Lily and Renesmee are going to bond more because they are both hybrids. Even though Lily has blood flowing through her body, she isn't able to have kids. She's going to be one amazing, protective aunt, though.

To everyone who reviewed, added Halcyon to your favorites, and added Halcyon to your story alerts, thank you so much. I really appreciate it and I'm happy that you are liking my story.

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Thank You!

-Jalen-