Aston Martin Music

by CallMeJoz

What would you rather ride in a Prius or an Aston Martin? Would you rather wake up and eat a bagel, or fly to Paris and eat a bagel just because? Applebee's or Four Seasons? Crocs or Jimmy Choos? VIP section or general admission? Decisions decisions... They say cheating is bad but who knew it'd land you in the lap of luxury and in the arms or someone you love even more. Femslash

38. We're not okay

Hi stranger :) long time no see eh? Ik Ik I'm sorry it took me forever and a decade but I had to go to extreme lengths to get you guys this dosage. I'm lying I've just been busy with school, work, and my social life leaving me very little time to write it's that and my muse has been off cuz I was too busy being a hoe and it really fucked my emotions. But I've decided to just go this alone and stay away from intimate relationships because they only seem to distract me from what I like doing. If I haven't disappointed you yet from taking so long to upload this chapter, then this next part will... There's no smut this chapter it's actually kinda sad and I apologize in advance. But a chapter is a chapter and that's good enough. I'll catch you at the bottom. Oh and this is a present chapter

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Sasha's POV

"What?! No!" I giggled then suddenly there's a set of lips on mine. I really wish I can remember her name but I'm so gone I don't even care

"You wanna go someplace quiet?" Asked... shit I can't remember her damn name. I'm not even sure if she even told me her name. I just remember it's some sexy ass French name. She's French and I love French girls. They give the best kisses I swear. That being said I pressed my lips back to hers. Hahaha god her tongue is working some sort of crazy sorcery on me because it's just drawing me more and more into her trance. "Baby come let's go get more familiar."

"I can't remember your name." I spoke honestly because it's true.

"Well Boss the only name you need to know is Colletta." She purred kissing my neck.

"Mmm Colletta." I purred with a slight shiver. She's right on my weak spot behind my ear. "That's a sexy ass French ass name beautiful." I grinned looking down her dress. She's sitting on my lap so I have a right.

"Thank you. I think Sasha is a pretty sexy name. I bet I can make it even sexier." She purred with her cute little French accent.

"Oh really?" She grinned and let out this cute giggle. She then began to feel up my arms. I mean a pretty lady is feeling me up of course I'm gonna flex.

"Yeah. Take me to bed and I'll show you." She purred placing a kiss on my nose. She then kissed my lips and got up off my lap. She then took down the straps on her dress and it fell to the floor. Now she's just in her thin black thong. "Come on Daddy." She purred walking away from me and she headed down the steps towards the lower part of the yacht. I'd be crazy not to follow. Finishing the rest of my drink I took in a deep breath. Thank you lord for this hopefully delicious meal coming my way in a bit. Getting up I started to follow. She made sure to take her time because when I got to the steps she was almost to the bottom.

"You know I don't ever chase my meals, they always come to me." That got her to look back at me and grin.

"There's a first for everything." She then blew me a kiss and continued down the steps. Ugh she's practically begging to have the sense fucked out of her. If that's what she wants then the Boss shall deliver.

"Yo Sasha!"

"I'm busy." I mumbled following the Frenchie.

"Nuh Nuh Nuh Nuh! You my friend are not busy right now." Then suddenly there is a hand grabbing my arm pulling me back up the steps.

"Hey what are you doing I have business to take care of down there." I complained trying to fight my way out of the hold as I'm being dragged back up the steps.

"I can't believe I'm even doing this but you are not going with that girl." It was here we made it back to the top of the steps.

"TREY! That's some quality French pussy down there and you're cock blocking me!" I Growled pushing him off me.

"Sasha are you fucking crazy? You have a girl you don't need to be chasing pussy. I saw the video of Becky cursing those girls out I'm not fitting to be next."

"She's not here so how is she going to know?!" I sassed because I'm right. He then took a glass of water and threw it on me.

"You motherfuc-" I was then met with a slap in the face.

"I'm sorry sis but you're acting up. You aren't in your right mind right now and I forgive you. But I absolutely refuse to let you ruin your life all over some broad who probably doesn't even know anything about you besides your bank account." He then threw me over his shoulder and started to walk somewhere.

"Excuse me Hercules put me the fuck down you goddamn ogre!" I argued hitting his back hoping he'll put me down.

"I can't let you fuck this one up. Rebecca is too good to you. I'm jealous as shit but I see how happy she makes you and I cannot have you holding that over my head." I heard then suddenly I'm splashing into the hot tub. I remember being under water then everything after that turned black.

...

"Get up!" I then felt someone kick my hand waking me up fully. Damn my head hurts so much.

"Mmm." I groaned rolling to my side. My stomach hurts I think I'm gonna puke.

"Look at you! You reek of liquor and regrets." Then suddenly the blanket is being ripped off me.

"Nooo!" I groaned.

"You need to get up now and get your shit together because if you don't you are going to be royalty fucked. You're already fucked but you might still have time to make it right." Subtly opening my eyes I can barely make out who it is talking to me right now. The voice sounds familiar but I can't place it. I'm not sober enough to process everything that's going on right now.

"I-" I couldn't even get out another word before I felt the urge to throw up. Conveniently there is a trashcan right next to my bed. Grabbing it I let it all out.

"Jesus Christ Sasha! I swear to god you better have a good excuse for last night so I don't have to kill you myself." The voice then came to stand in front of me and I was able to put a name to it.

"Bayley?" I asked because I'm pretty sure she lives in Florida.

"Surprise!" She spoke flatly filling me with guilt. I'm so fucked and the thought of that made me throw up some more. "Yeah get it out now because I'm gonna beat the shit out of you when you're done."

"Why are you-" I could only talk a bit before I continued throwing up my insides. "Here? Where am I?"

"I was out here with E because he scheduled a surprise trip for us out here. We were in the middle of a romantic date when I get a phone call." She then grabbed me by the hair and lifted my head out the trash can. "Trey called E and told me that you were drunk and damn near cheated on my best friend. What the fuck is wrong with you?!" She growled.

"I love Becca." I murmured because it's the one thing I know for sure right now.

"No you don't. You don't love Becks."

"Who the fuck are you to-" I was interrupted with a hard slap across my cheek making my headache even worse.

"What we're not going to do is be in a relationship with my best friend and then turn around and make out with some random ass bitches on a fucking yacht. And let's not forget you were riding jet skis with different naked bitches!" She spoke letting me know I'm in deep shit for stuff that I hardly remember doing. Bayley never curses so the fact that she's cussing me out now must mean something serious. "I ought to kill you where you sit but you're so lucky Becky loves you so much and my boyfriend is one of your best friends elsewise I'd end you right here and now." She is not very nice when she is mad.

"What'd I do?" I murmured tearing up and looking at the ring on my finger. If Bayley of all people is here yelling at me about Rebecca then I know I fucked up bad I just hope I can fix this.

"Let me see." She then began to mess around on her phone. "It is about one thirty back home. So that gives you exactly a half an hour to get yourself together and figure out how you are going to explain this to your fiancée." She then showed me her phone and I almost threw up again. It's pictures of me and Trey on the yacht with a bunch of naked females. They have photos of us on the jet skis, they have photos of me making out with one of the females. And the one that sucks the most is it's a photo of my left side and they zoomed in on my hand and they must have searched up what kind of ring I have on. So now the world knows that I damn near cheated on my fiancée.

"Oh my god." I groaned. Never have I ever hated social media so much in my life than right now.

"Where's your wallet?" Asked Bayley taking her phone back.

"Now is really a shitty time to go shopping."

"I'm shopping for flowers and fruit baskets to send to Becky. You need any kind of brownie point you can get." Looking around for good I'm somehow back home in my bed. I have no clue of how I got here nor do I remember where my wallet even is.

"I don't know where it is." I mumbled getting up. "Ha I don't even know how I'm gonna fix this at all. I leave tonight for England to finish up my tour. The next time I can go see her won't be for another three weeks. I'm fucked Bay. I can't reschedule another show it won't work."

"Yeah no shit Sherlock! You're just gonna have to call her and pray to god she answers."

"What if she doesn't answer? If I were her I wouldn't answer if she called." I asked picking up my phone off my bed side table.

"It Becky she'll answer you, she always does."

"But-"

"No buts just go get yourself together look presentable and FaceTime her. I know Becky and I know she'll forgive you that's the kind of soul she is. I trust that Trey stopped you from actually sleeping with someone else so I can back you up. All you have to do is call, explain the situation, then let her decide your punishment. The worst she'll probably do is one of three things and none will be too harmless.. you know to me and Char I don't know about you though." Bay shrugged sitting on the bed still messing with her phone.

"Harmless to me how?!" I asked now more alert because I don't like the way that sounded. If anything it just made me even more scared.

"Do you think she's gonna want chocolate covered strawberries?"

"She wouldn't break up with me over this would she? I refuse to give this back." I murmured looking down at my Claddagh ring that she gave me. Just looking at it gives me goosebumps thinking of the day she made me her fiancé. This ring was my Christmas gift from her and I refuse to let it go. Hell I beat her for trying to take it away from me so I'll never give it back.

"Oh Sash take this with you to the bathroom, it stinks." She answered handing me the trash can I threw up in. "Hurry up and go call because I bet you she's with Charlotte and I guarantee you she's gonna try to talk her out of forgiving you. Or she may even convince her to cheat back I dunno. Char has always been the most skeptical about you and you just proved her right so she was probably first to tell her of your indiscretions last night."

"Fuck me." I groaned taking the trash can and going into the bathroom. Setting it on the floor I decided to use the toilet and while I'm here I decided to pull up her contact. She was the last person I called so I can't lie and say I lost her number. I'm just gonna call and hope for the best. Finishing up my business I washed my hands and sat on the edge of the tub. Here goes nothing pressing her name it started to ring.

Becky's POV

"I always knew there wasn't something completely a hundred percent with that girl. No celebrity of her age and status can stay loyal to one person. I hate to be that guy but-"

"No. She didn't cheat on me. I know Sasha and I know her heart. She loves me and I know she wouldn't do that to me." I spoke handing her back her phone then going to wipe myself because I'm done using the toilet.

"What are you talking about the proof is literally biting you on the face!? Becks you said it yourself that Sasha is an absolute sexual feign when she's drunk and that every time the two of you get drunk you two end up fucking. She was drunk on a boat full of a shit ton of beautiful models and you're telling me that she didn't get drunk and fingerblast at least two of them?" Washing my hands I nodded.

"Sasha knows her boundaries. I'm mad she kissed one of them, I can forgive a drunken kiss. But sleep with any of them I doubt." I shrugged simply leaving the bathroom because I don't really want to talk about this. I'll be honest this whole ordeal upsets me a lot more than I'm letting on. I want to say I really truly do trust Sasha's drunken judgment but I don't at all. Things have been pretty spotty between us as of late. And I haven't been all over her like I usually am so she probably has a fair amount of pent up sexual energy. I don't know ever since the whole Shiloh incident I haven't quite been able to look at her the same way I once did, thus meaning we haven't been having sex as often as we used to. She loves me I know she does but her given situation I'm scared that there's a chance that she might have done it. And if she did I wouldn't blame her.. I'd eventually get tired of fucking me too.

"Becks this is nonsense you can't let her get away with this. This is not okay. You guys are far from ok."

"I know Char... I know I can't but I just don't want to believe it." I murmured avoiding making eye contact because I can feel the tears coming. I don't want to be so hurt by this but I am. It hurts a lot to see your fiancé was drunkenly kissing other females. Then on top of that I don't know if those kisses lead to more. And if they did lead to more, did she give away everything that belongs to me to some random model?

"See I hate seeing you cry especially when it's over Sasha. In the entire time I've known you never once did you ever cry over something Finn did to you. But now you're with Sasha and she basically cheated on you and I'm so terribly sorry about this. I hate knowing she made you cry and not being able to punch her in her face for making you cry." Cooed Char hugging me from the side. "Next time I see her I need your permission to fight her."

"Char there's no need to do that. Me not being with her would be more than enough pain for her if it really comes down to it."

"So then it's a wrap for Becky and The Boss?" Right when she finished saying that My Goggled Orange started to play from my phone meaning one thing. She's calling. Before I could think to pick it up Char grabbed my phone. "It's a FaceTime call go get in bed."

"Char she-"

"Go get under the covers so we can trap her ass." I want more than anything to talk to my dominant so bad right now. I can feel myself dropping and it's not at all fun. She hurt me but I miss and need her so much right now. They will never understand just how bad I need that woman I dunno if I can do without her and it makes me so mad. But oddly enough I found myself going to the couch and lying down before covering myself up under the blanket that's on the couch. "Yes?"

"Where is my wife?" God just hearing her voice makes me shiver in both a good and bad way. I miss the hell out of her I'm dropping and I need her. But then I remember she's the reason I'm dropping so soon and it makes me angry.

"You mean Rebecca to you now? Yeah poor thing cried herself back to sleep thanks to you. So don't even ask you can't speak to her."

"Charlotte I didn't cheat on her. I may have stupidly kissed another female but the last woman to touch me sexually was Becky. The last woman I touched sexually was Becky I promise you I'm semi innocent."

"Yeah because that makes it any better you still kissed someone who wasn't my best friend. I have every right to hang up on you right now. You so lost your-"

"Jesus Christ put my wife on the fucking phone! I'm sorry but I don't care about what you think. I fucked up and I need to fix it before it's too late." Sasha demanded and boy did that make me smile a bit. I love when she gets bossy like that it's such a turn on even if I'm mad at her. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to get loud I'm hungover and very upset and I would just like to talk to my wife please. Don't try and lie to me saying she's sleeping because I know she's up. I watched the cameras so I know she's chilling on the couch. Please put my wife on the phone and go get my son from outside before he has a heat stroke it's hot outside." Right when she said that I took off the blanket and cursed those damn cameras. Yeah they're awesome for security purposes and finding out who left the empty orange juice carton in the fridge, but they suck because I can't get away with anything.

"Well I don't think she wants to tal-"

"Char give me the phone." I spoke sitting up because there's no avoiding this conversation. I'd rather have it now instead of later so it saves me some sleep at night.

"Becks?! This isn't the-"

"Char she's innocent until proven guilty. We have to at least hear her out first before we determine her guilt."

"What are you talking about she's guilty and we have evidence." Char complained coming to hand me my phone.

"I didn't fuck another woman!" Yelled Sasha through the phone.

"Yeah as far as we know."

"Char can you just go get Sih?" I pleaded giving her my puppy eyes. I just want to talk to her I need to talk to her.

"Fine whatever but just know I don't trust her anymore after this." She spoke handing me my phone.

"Well then I hope I still can after this." Char then gave me this disapproving look before going outside to go get Shiloh.

"You have every right to be mad at me and I understand if you are. But I really need you to know I wasn't lying when I said you were the last woman I fucked. I'm not going to lie I came close but thank god Trey was there to distract me. I remember chasing this Frenchie then next thing I know he's grabbing me then threw me in the hot tub. I remember surfacing and then I remember waking up in my bed twenty minutes ago. I feel like absolute shit my head hurts and I'm starving. Surprisingly I'm still confused on how but Bayley woke me up today and cussed me out. Did you know E took her on a surprise date to LA yesterday?" I shook my head no but it makes sense from what Char told me. "Well he did and she was the one who slapped some sense into me. I've actually never heard her cuss so much before and it was scary I still am kinda scared. But she did make one thing very very crystal clear. Apparently Trey called E to come bring me home last night and he told them everything so there are whiteness to my innocence. But on top of that she made it clear that I'm only allowed to be with you and only you.. I mean it's not that I already didn't want to be with you forever but it-"

"Bay is over there?" I asked because I don't want to talk to Sasha anymore. She was drunk so her version of last night could be false and I know I can trust Bayley. Then after that I'm going to go to the root of my sources here. I want so bad to trust Sasha and prove to everyone she didn't cheat on me and I know that Trey has a big crush on her. It's obvious every time they're together. There have been times where he flirted with her right in front of me. I never felt any way about it because according to Sasha he's been trying for years now but it just didn't workout because Sasha is gay. So if anything I trust him to actually tell me the truth whether or not Sasha slept with another woman or not.

"Yeah. I dunno where she-"

"Ok cool." I then hung up on Sasha and FaceTimed Bayley. After two rings she answered. "Sasha told me you have insight on last night." It was here I got another call from Sasha but I ignored it.

"I am happy to report she's only guilty of swapping spit with a model." She spoke looking at me.

"And how sure are you of that?"

"Unless Trey lied to us I'm a hundred percent sure. Besides that woman is obsessed with you." It was here I got another call from Sasha but I ignored that too. "I'm not choosing a side but I see no need for severe measures." Sasha then called again but I ignored that too.

"Bay she made out with another woman. Several other women for that matter. I just don't know what to do Bay."

"Well I say just let it go. I mean I know you love Sasha and she knows that. You gave up and do so much for her so I'm sure she knows how valuable you are to her. She's never done this before so I say it's a strike one."

"She promised me her loyalty and she broke it how do I simply forget about her shoving her tongue in another woman's mouth?"

"The same way you forgot about your ex, just forget it happened."

"We're supposed to get married what happens if something like this happens again while we're actually married? What do I do then?"

"Well we gotta pray she learns her lesson from this and doesn't do it again."

"Bay I really am in love with this woman. Like if she ever.." I couldn't even finish that because it hurts just to think it. If she ever cheated on me my whole world would probably crumble. I don't know what's I'd do but I just know it'd destroy any and all trust in our relationship. It took me so long to actually really trust Sasha and not question it. With her being so famous her supply of women is endless and I know that. I know that at any given moment or time she can bed any female she wants. It's cool but it's a flaw because that means I could be replaced at any time and she made that clear last night. That thought has always been in my head and that's why it took so long for me to admit I loved Sasha. I was so scared she'd just play me but when she'd look me in the eyes and tell me she was going to marry me one day it gave me that weight to see that maybe she won't hurt me. And now here we are and she has proved my nightmare could come true and that thought alone was enough to bring tears to my eyes. "Bay I'll call you back." I spoke wiping my eyes then hanging up. Then I called Sasha back and she picked up after the first ring.

"Rebecca I'm sorry. I love y-"

"Please don't lie to me Sasha. I trust you with everything I have and I need you to be honest with me. Did you sleep with any of those females last night on the boat?" I asked trying my best to hide my tears.

"The last female I slept with was you. The last female who lied next to me in bed was you. It's you I want Becky, I swear to god you're the last woman I fucked." When she said that I watched her face and I can see the sincerity in it. But a facial expression isn't enough to make me truly believe her. The situation was too perfect last night. A boat full of probably foreign females who'll sleep with anyone for a jump in Hollywood. Then add to that her friends, like anyone's, would lie for her. I wasn't there so I don't know what really truly happened. I'm just so flustered about this whole situation.

"I am in no position to deal with this shit Sasha." I spoke looking down at the blanket on my lap before looking back at her. "Sasha you know it's already hard on me having to take care of Shiloh. Every time I look at him now I get so upset because I trusted you to watch him and now he's paralyzed. He was supposed to help me cope with my drops but now he can't because of you. You are supposed to be my anchor and now you're out there kissing other bitches while I'm over here stuck in a drop with nobody to help me out. I'm dropping Sasha and it feels like you don't even care."

"I care! I care a whole lot how do you think I feel seeing you go through this alone when-"

"Well you just found other bitches to kiss so you probably feel fine." I interrupted because it's true.

"Becky I love you. I love you more than anyone I've ever known. Rebecca you're my everything and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I let you down you're my fiancé and I only want you. Please baby I just need you to trust me when I tell you that you were the last person I had sex with. I don't want to have sex if it isn't with you. If I could I'd be home to fuck you later tonight but I gotta be in London for my show tomorrow. And you know I always make time for you no matter how tight my schedule."

"You say all that but how can I believe it? How are we supposed to come back from this? You spent so damn long to cement it into my head that loyalty is everything to you yet you just broke your own rule that you made up. This is all so fucked up and it's not fair."

"I know it is and it's my fault, but we'll be okay."

"But we're not okay Sasha! I'm not at all okay with this." When I said that I could see her realizing just how hurt I am by this. "How does this all make me look? I sacrificed so much to be with you and this is how you decide to repay me? My on fucking father disowned me because I love you so goddamn much Sasha. You know fathers can usually tell when a guy is going to break their daughter's heart, maybe he saw this coming long before I did."

"Becky I nev-"

"You really showed your bedazzled arse last night. You proved to everybody that there are flaws in our relationship now. They know you're easily influenced by alcohol and a couple shots is all it takes for you to kiss another woman. How many drinks will it take to get you to sleep with one of them?" At this point I'm just spilling my heart and the insecurities that came with this situation. I'm crying and she is too now. I'm not excited to be starting my day off like this and it's all Sasha's fault.

"Baby I love you and I don't want to lose you. You're my Goggled Orange I can't let you go and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for last night. I'm sorry for embarrassing you the way I did. I love you mommas I really truly do because if I didn't I wouldn't be crying at the thought of losing you. Just give me another chance please I at least deserve that. When I get done tour I wanna be able to know I'll still come home to you and Shiloh. You two are my world without you both I'd have nothing and what good will my life be anymore after that? Just don't leave me over this Rebecca please stay." She pleaded tears in her eyes making my heart throb. I hate her so much for putting me in this position but she's my fiancée. I wouldn't have made her my fiancée if I didn't think I could spend the rest of my life with her.

"Okay but let this be a lesson learned Sasha Banks. I don't know what happened on that boat but I'm gonna give you the benefit of the doubt and forgive you for this. But do not mistake this as a weakness I have just as descent of a following too. I will leave you and not look back you proved to me that it's possible to love two people at once. So next time you want to act up the way you did you certainly can expect to come home to an empty house." I stated firmly looking her directly in the eyes.

"I'll never take you.. or us for granted ever again. I love you."

"I love you too but I don't have to love you right now."

"That's fair."

"Shit Becks he like just peed all over the deck and himself." Spoke Charlotte poking her head in the house.

"Did he pee a lot?" I asked looking at her.

"Yeah homeboy must have been holding it for a good minute."

"Well just get the pitcher and wash him up a bit get the pee off him. Then when I get off the phone I'll bathe him."

"Mkay." Char then came inside and went into the kitchen to I assume look for the pitcher.

"How's Shi? Is he recovering okay?" Asked Sasha bringing my attention back to her.

"Yeah he's doing okay. He has his next appointment in two days so we'll know for sure." I shrugged.

"Well you've been taking good care of him so I know he's probably doing much better."

"I dunno he doesn't seem any better but again we'll find out tomorrow." I love Sasha but I don't feel like talking to her right now. She hurt me and I don't want to be bothered by her right now. "Anyway Sash I gotta go help Char so I'll talk to you later ok." She gave me a bit of a sad face before speaking.

"Ok. Promise me you'll call?"

"I'll call I promise. If I forget you call me."

"Yes ma'am. I love you to pieces Becks."

"I love you too."

"Buh-bye." She then smiled that gorgeous smile that I love so much reminding me why it is I even bothered forgiving her.

"Bye." Flashing her a small smile I hung up. Setting down my phone inlet out a big sigh. I wish I could go back an hour and go back to sleep. I wouldn't even get out of bed I'd just lay there maybe then I wouldn't feel so worthless right now. I have so many emotions running through me right now all I wanna do is cry. I feel so lost and confused. She loves me she wouldn't cheat on me.. I hope. I want to believe her but I don't know if I can. Kissing always leads to something and I know how she is when she's drunk. I just find it hard to believe she didn't let those kisses turn into something. No I trust Sasha I have to trust her because if I don't then I'll probably spiral out and I'm not prepared for that right now. Honestly I don't want to think about this anymore because it's just making me depressed.

"Becks?"

"Yeah?" I asked wiping my eyes because I'm sure I look like I'm about to cry.

"I can use a hand out here. Not too sure what I'm doing here." It's best I make myself busy that way I won't get lost in thought.

"Yep. I'm coming." Wiping my eyes once more I gathered my emotions and got off the couch. I'm so thankful Charlotte came to bother me this morning and hopefully she'll stay all day. I don't want to be alone right now.. I'm scared of what I might do if I'm alone.

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Two mornings later

"I'm probably gonna head to the office for a bit today." I spoke picking out an outfit to wear to go to work in. Right now I'm in the closet looking with Sasha propped up on a shelf being we're on FaceTime.

"Ok don't forget to for sure send me updates on how business is doing. I heard that somebody won two-hundred thousand on the lottery at one of our stores the other day." Responded Sasha cuddling into her pillow. She's over in London on the tour bus because she just got done her sound check not too long ago for her show later that night. She has downtime until then so she decided to call me and check in.

"Yeah I heard so I'll see what all that was about." I answered simply before I focused back on finding my outfit.

"What are you gonna wear?"

"Dunno. Probably this dress." I then held up my navy blue Michael Kors dress.

"Is that the Channel one?"

"No it's Michael."

"Oh no I don't know if I want you wearing that because it definitely makes you look like a snack and I'm gonna be jealous because I won't be able to have a piece of you." That got me to smile a little bit.

"Why don't you just come home and get a piece then?" I sassed because I love making her feign for me. It always works when I want her to come and fuck me. I just put on a provocative outfit and talk about how she can't touch me, and then she usually goes out her way to make sure we fuck.

"Oh baby you know I would if I could. I'd tear that ass apart trust." She purred licking her lips. It was here I decided to drop my robe revealing my matching black lace bra and panties. "Damn ma you can honestly just stop right there for a sec." She called out smiling as she's watching me keenly.

"You said take it all off?" I teased with a grin. This got Sasha to change her position letting me know she's getting into this.

"I wanna see you strip right now 'cause Daddy needs some new visuals. I need something to think of when I go to bed later tonight." She smiled winking at me.

"I bet you do Sash. Too bad I'm still mad at you." I shrugged before putting on my dress.

"Touchè I deserved that. You know what it's fine I have plenty of other videos I can watch instead."

"Yeah ok you do that."

"I will actually thank you."

"No problem. Now to decide on some shoes." I mumbled to myself going to look at my shoe collection. At this point it's pretty extensive thanks to Sasha constantly spoiling me. A good percentage of my shoes are heels so I understand exactly why I can hear Sasha groaning.

"You just better be picking out sneakers to wear."

"No I was thinking my black Jimmy Choos." I spoke showing her the heel before bending to put them on.

"You're asking for trouble and I don't like it." I simply smiled and blew her a kiss.

"Trouble is my middle name."

"Mmm I promise you as soon as I land back home I'm fucking the shit out of you. You're not gonna feel your legs for a week when I finish with you."

"Great I look forward to it." As I was saying that I grabbed my purse and headed out the closet.

"Why do you always have to look the most delicious when I can't have you?"

"I only do it to make sure your attention stays where it needs to be. Also because it's nice to watch you drool over me." I answered honestly.

"Well it's working." To that I flipped my hair and smiled earning me a small moan.

"I know. Anyway baby I gotta put Shi in his bed so I can head out." I spoke looking down at Shi who is laying on his bed in our bedroom. I want to put him in his bed in the family room because it's brighter out there so he isn't in the dark. And also because there he can look out the back doors at the water which he often times does.

"Mkay Fine. I love you!"

"I love you too Sasha."

"And I love you too Shi. Mommy misses you." His ears perked a little when she said that but he didn't move much.

"Shiloh loves you too. Bye baby."

"Buh-bye." She then blew me a kiss which I caught before hanging up.

"Here you can have this kiss Shi I'm still mad at her." I mumbled bending down to give him the kiss I caught. I then picked him up and carried him out to his other bed. I enjoyed this to some extent because he licked my face the entire time I carried him. "I love you too buddy. I promise I won't be gone for too long my King. Mommy just needs to check in on our empire, make sure everything is going ok." I explained still holding him. He just kept licking me. "Glad you understand." Kissing him on his nose I put him down on his bed. "If I'm not home in four hours call the cops ok?" He doesn't have to say it but I know he understands. "Kay I love you bubbas see you in a bit." I then ventured into the kitchen and grabbed myself a water before going to get my purse and headed outside.

Talking to Sasha usually helps me when I'm feeling down but I dunno today just wasn't the case. Ever since the other morning I'm just having a hard time believing that Sasha isn't overseas banging some broad just for the hell of it. She texts me or calls me for most of her time when she isn't performing or sleeping making it abundantly clear that she isn't cheating or doing anything she shouldn't be doing. It's nice to know but it doesn't help in healing the wounds she gave me. I want us to work so badly but I can't seem to keep my thoughts together. No matter how hard I try to focus on one task I can't do it. I'm in the middle of probably one of my worst drops to date with nobody to help me but me. So in efforts to do that I figured if I surround myself with people I'll feel less shitty than I would if I stay in the house. So my first step is going to the office just check in on everything. I decided to drive to the office myself because I'll grasp at any sense of normalcy I can get at this point.

"Hi Ms. Banks how are you today." Smiled Brooke as I walked in. At first I didn't know she was talking to me but then I remembered that I'm a Banks and I basically own this building.

"Hi Brooke I'm doing alright, I miss the wifey but she's off doing what she does best. What about you how are you?" I asked going up to the desk.

"I'm good. I just got a puppy last week and he's been driving me mad."

"Awe what kind of puppy?"

"A Brussels Griffon, his name is Jaws."

"Pictures?" I asked because I love looking at other people's animals. Brooke then pulled out her phone and showed me photos of Jaws. "Awe he's adorable but he just looks like trouble."

"Oh he is but that's my baby."

"Maybe When Shiloh gets better they can have a playdate."

"I look forward to it."

"Super. Anyway I'll see you later."

"Bye." And with that I got in the elevator and rode it up to third floor where my office is. Stepping onto the floor it's the same usual sounds and sights of the office on a regular day. Normally I'd go sit in Sasha's office but being in there will only make me miss her even more. Following my usual routine I marked off today's date on my door calendar before opening my door and settling in. It's honestly been so long since I've been in my office that I sorta forgot what it looked like. Then again my office looks pretty much the same as it always has. The only difference between now and when I first started here is there are pictures of me and Sasha on my desk and not Finn. I told Sasha one day a while ago that I wanted new office supplies so for a week she kicked me out of my office and when I was allowed back in I had a brand new desk, computer, rolling chair, artwork, and filing cabinet. And mysteriously the picture I had of me and Finn disappeared. Finn and I were still together at that point and when I asked her about it she said one of the movers must have took it. But I know she threw it out I just didn't care because I was more obsessed with her so I didn't care.

*knock knock*

Looking up it is Eli. As much as he annoys me I do enjoy seeing him sometimes. "Hey Eli. If you're looking for Sasha she's-"

"I'm not looking for her actually. I actually need you to relay a message to her." He spoke coming in to stand in front of my desk.

"Okay what is it?"

"Can you tell her that I have a new girlfriend and that I can no longer continue being in the relationship we are in. Tell her it wasn't anything she did it was me." He spoke in a saddened tone.

"That's gonna break her heart but okay. I'll be sure to tell her."

"Thank you Rebecca. I knew I could always count on you. Thanks for doing this for me I can't handle her crying and begging for me to take her back."

"Happy to take that load off you then. Would it be okay if I tell her that over ice cream?"

"Yeah that'll probably help lighten the blow. I'll even pay for it." He then pulled out his wallet and handed me a twenty. Normally I wouldn't take money from others being I have no need to but I'll always take money from Eli. In fact he just brought me sushi for dinner tonight.

"Ok cool I'll take her out for ice cream then I'll take her home to my house and cheer her up." I smiled because there's several positions that will cheer Sasha up no matter what. Eli simply smiled at me.

"Thank you so much. Anyway I gotta get back to work." He then left my office so I went back to checking my email. Nothing really new is happening around the office. I mean apart from a couple contracts needing to be renewed or new contracts to be reviewed everything is running smoothly. So in total I only ended up spending two hours there before I left. This worked out because I need to go to the store and get Shiloh some more wet food to see if he'll eat it. I also want to get more candles because I want more candles. I decided to just go to the Walmart closest to the house. Just because I'm engaged to a celebrity doesn't mean I'm too good for Walmart. Besides Walmart has everything and a decent collection of candles. I just hope I can get through this trip without being noticed. Since I drove the Audi I parked on the more empty side of the parking lot so it was a bit of a walk to get in but I wasn't too bad. Going in I grabbed a shopping cart and began to search for items I need starting with food for Shiloh. I've been to this store enough times to know where the dog food is so I got Shi a few different options before moving onto find my candles. I always enjoy the candle aisle because I love smelling stuff. I was walking that way until I walked past the kitchen appliances and I remembered we need a waffle maker. We don't have one and I'd like to be able to make my own waffles. They have many options to choose from so I found myself standing staring at all of them for a good minute.

"This might be random but I can make a mean strawberry shortcake waffle." Spoke a random voice. I ignored it and continued to look at the waffle makers because this is way more important. Besides I'm taken and have no time for flirting with randoms. "If you're looking for a decent waffle maker I'd recommend the Black and Decker one there. It's the one I have and it comes out perfectly every time." Then there was a hand reaching out in front of me pointing to said box.

"Thanks. Don't remember asking but thanks." I murmured because that low key annoyed me. Turning to look at the guy he's actually really attractive. He's about maybe six foot three and is a little on the chubby side. He's not extremely fat but he's also not skinny but more in the middle. He looks like he might be Puerto Rican judging by his tan skin color but I wouldn't know I don't know him.

"Sorry I just love inserting my two sense when not asked for. That and you seemed confused and I'll always go out my way to help a pretty lady." He grinned showing me his beautiful smile. He has dimples and I wasn't expecting that. Inspecting him further he's in a dress suit so it looks like he has his life together maybe or just a really good job.

"Well I appreciate the gesture but I've got to get home to my son." Most guys don't go for females with kids so hopefully he'll leave me alone.

"Awe how old is he? I have a nephew who is six and he loves my waffles. Whenever he stays with me he's like uncle Ray please can we have waffles for dinner! It's the cutest thing ever."

"He's two years old supposedly not sure he was adopted by me and my fiancé couple months ago." I spoke looking at one waffle maker that has heart shaped griddle patterns.

"He's lucky to have an awesome mom who cooks waffles for him. I'm kinda jealous."

"Oh you should be if you knew who I'm engaged to." I spoke again trying to drop hints to leave me alone.

"He must be one lucky guy but insane at the same time. What dude in their right mind would let you out the house alone with that beautiful smile?" Rolling my eyes I picked up the heart patterned waffle maker and placed it in my cart before turning to look at him.

"Well SHE is very lucky to have me. And she usually never lets me go out without her but she's busy overseas touring. Trust me we wouldn't be having this conversation if she were here."

"Awe shit I'm sorry I didn't know."

"Don't assume stuff."

"Well tell her thank you for her service. As a military raised kid I truly apologize."

"Oh she isn't in the military my fiancé is Sasha Banks she's on tour right now as we speak." He stared at me for a bit before he put everything together I assume.

"Ooooh so you're the one who stole her from me?"

"Yup sorry not sorry. Nice talking to you Ray I won't tell Sasha you tried to hit on me." Winking at him I walked away carrying on with my shopping. As annoying as that was it boosted my confidence a little bit. Sasha doesn't know how lucky she is to have me and the fact that I'm so loyal to her. I'm just as attractive as she is and I can have anyone I want too. Lucky her I fell in love with her because if I didn't I definitely would've made out with that guy out of revenge. Continuing on I made it to the candle section where I probably ended up smelling and taking a number of different candles. I even opted to trying out a wax melter. The burners look so cute and the one I got fits the design of our bedroom in California perfectly so I decided to get one to see. I probably spent about fifteen minutes in that aisle before I continued on. I was walking past the electronics section when I remembered I need a new car charger because the one I have now is breaking. At this Walmart they have all the Apple chargers locked up so I have to get someone who works here to open the case for me. It's a hassle but it's Walmart so I understand. The counter is in front of the next aisle so it didn't take long to get there. Luckily there is a guy at the counter with nobody in line. "Excuse me sir, do you mind opening the case I need a-" It was here that the guy turned around and my heart skipped a beat. It's been over a year since I last saw him and so you can only imagine my surprise to see he works at Walmart.

"Well well well look what the cat dragged in. Haven't seen you since you decided to break my heart, chew it up, spit it out, and take a shit on it." He spoke emotionlessly. As unnecessary as that was I deserved it.

"Sharky I-"

"Don't fucking call me that! I fucking hate that name and you especially have no right to call me that."

"That's fair. Anyway I need a charger out the case so if you don't mind." I shrugged pointing to where the chargers are. I'd continue this conversation but I genuinely don't care. Don't get me wrong I feel terrible about how things ended for us but it all worked out for me in the end.

"Damn that sounds like a personal problem." He shrugged folding his arms and leaning up against the counter making it clear he's not going to help me.

"You know all this time I've been feeling a little bad for how things ended between me and you but you know what?.. I'm glad Sasha stole me from you because I can see you for your true colors now. And you're a dick, you so don't deserve me."

"Awe well let us not forget who cheated on who. I was nothing but good to you and you took advantage of me."

"Well maybe you shouldn't have forgot to cherish and take care of me."

"Well sorry I was working so you had a roof over your head. Not everyone can be a billionaire popstar who makes shitty music." See I was going to be nice but given the events of the previous day I'm in a bitchy mood. Today is the day and he's trying me.

"You're just jealous Sharky. You're just mad a female stole your girl right from underneath you. But I'll admit this I did resist her at first. With every fiber of my being I tried to stay loyal but she has a way with her words. And then suddenly I'm in her bed and she's giving me the best sex I've had to date. She fucked you right out of my heart and I enjoyed every single second of it. Hell the last time I gave you head, where the hell do you think I learned to give head so good like that? I sure as hell wasn't practicing on you." I smirked because it feels so good to come clean like this. "Ahh but you know it's all water under the bridge I've moved on and so should you."

"Funny you say that because I bet you your precious little Sasha is fucking some other broad in every city she goes to while you sit home hoping she's not balls deep in someone else's daughter. I saw she had no problem tonguing down models on a yacht so what makes you think she ain't put her tongue somewhere else in one of them?" He smirked clearly very proud of himself. That's still a fresh wound and he just said that. It hurt but I can't let him win this.

"See that's where you're wrong because Sasha knows her boundaries. She knows better than to take another female with her to bed other than me. Nobody can fuck her the way she needs to be fucked and with her kinky ass, trust me ain't no bitch in her right mind would want to stay with her once they see the type of shit she's into."

"So then what's your excuse?"

"I'm into what she's into. Besides she's obsessed with me so even if I wanted to leave her I couldn't. Not like I want to tho because we have a whole empire together that's thriving. We're billionaires now Sharky if she fucks up I'll tear apart that company and her career faster than Sasha tore me from you. It's an equal relationship between the both of us without the other it'll all crumble." He simply gave me a fake disbelieving half smile before it disappeared.

"It's whatever you say but none of that means she won't cheat. At the end of the day bitches are gonna be bitches, and bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks. Plus homegirl has an endless supply of other bitches. I'm sorry but there's no way she's loyal to just you and you only."

"Well you know Finn unlike you, I know how to take care of my girl. She gave me two houses and I made both of them a home for her. I cook, I clean, I watch the empire, I tend to her needs, all the things she didn't know she needed until she found me. And she knows that she'll be looking for a long time for someone else who'll take care of her the way I do. I'm a keeper Sharky and she knows it everyone knows it hence why I know she isn't balls deep in another broad. Besides if she was I'll cut her tongue and hands off that way she won't get no play." I shrugged nonchalantly.

"Sure Becks whatever you say." He replied sarcastically.

"They're facts my friend you'll see. But if you don't mind I kinda need that charger."

"Ha well you should've thought about that before you decided to break my heart." He shrugged before turning back around and going back to doing whatever it was he was doing before. Ideally I'd sit and wait until he either gets me what I want or I could go find someone else to get it. However he must have forgotten who my fiancée is and I'm pretty damn sure if I make a big deal out of this he will regret not getting me my charger. That being said I let out a chuckle.

"You're gonna regret that Sharkboy." I chimed before walking away. He thinks he has the last laugh but boy is he in for a rude awakening. Walking some more I continued to look for an employee here who looks like a manager of some sort. The managers here usually wear earpieces so they aren't hard to point out. It's little before noon so they're virtually all over the store. It wasn't long before I found one and this one is a woman dressed in a business suit with a Walmart vest on so I know she must be a store manager of some sort. "Um excuse me ma'am, are you a manager here or something?"

"Is store manager good enough?" She responded. She's very pretty and has an accent of some sort. I can't place it but I bet she knows what it's like to be harassed and so when I tell her about the altercation I just had I'm sure she'll give me sympathy.

"You're just the person I need to talk to. I am very outraged by how I was just treated by one of your employees." When I said that she immediately looked like she was more interested in what I have to say.

"I'm so sorry. Who was it and what happened?"

"Your employee over in electronics the one with an accent like mine. All I wanted was a new charger for my phone and when I asked him to get it for me he started to say all these very sexist and racial slurs. I don't know if you know who I am but you might know my Fiancée Sasha Banks."

"I know of her."

"And so did he and he started to make homophobic slurs saying gays have no place here in his store. And then he called me a N-word lover and that people like me deserve to go to hell. And that was only some of the hurtful things he said to me I don't want to get into it any deeper. All I'm saying is I really don't want to get my fiancée involved in this but I am outraged and offended and I want him to be punished for this."

"Ma'am I'm sorry this happened-"

"And the worse part is I still don't have my charger. Actually you know what forget it I'll just call my fiancée and have her get our lawyer to handle this. There was no need for him to speak to me the way he did when I did nothing to him."

"Oh no no no! Before we do that would you like to go to the back and there you can file a complaint and we can sort it out from there. We have a zero tolerance policy here that our employees have to follow and from what you tell me he clearly violated it."

"I just don't like being shamed for loving who I want to. But ok." Ha, and this here Sharky is the last laugh. I was probably in the store for another half hour before they got me my charger and gave me a discount on my purchases and I got a twenty-five dollar gift card for the inconvenience. They said they'll look into it, which I know they will because of my last name. And I have a good feeling they'll believe my side of the story because they'll see that once upon a time Finn and I were dating and I left him for Sasha giving him fuel to be nasty towards me for no good reason other than him being bitter I left him. I don't care if they fire him or not I just hope he gets punished for this. Was it necessary? No. Was it very petty of me? Yes. But was all of it worth it on my part? Yes very much indeed with it.

The next morning

Waking up this morning was very uncomfortable. I think I slept on my neck weird so I have an annoying kink in it. And then to add on top of that I woke up feeling alone. Sasha is gone overseas, then Shiloh is out in the family room because when I went to move him last night he cried a lot and I didn't want to distress him so I let him be. I'm just not having a good time without Sasha here to help me out this drop. Normally I'd have Shi for when I want cuddles but I don't want to run the risk of putting him in my bed and I accidentally roll onto him and he can't really move so there's the risk of me hurting him more than he already is. Plus on top of that he's been out of the hospital for three days now and I've only been able to get him to eat twice and that's because I had to force feed him. I don't like the idea of having to do that so that's why I'm hoping today's vet visit goes well. Getting out the bed I used the bathroom before going out to my boy.

"Morning bubbas." I smiled softly coming up to him. He was sleeping so he opened his eyes to look at me. Sitting down in front of him I began to pet him. "You have a doctor appointment today bud. Gonna see if you're doing okay or not. Well clearly you aren't but I hope you are slightly better." He just licked my hand and let out a small whimper. "I'm sorry I let this happen to you. I didn't think she'd let you out on your own the way she did." I murmured looking him in his eyes. Everytime I do it brings me back to the day when we first met him. The way his eyes gleamed in the sunlight as we were driving and he seemed so happy. He never really gave us much trouble apart from eating our slippers and toilet paper he was just happy to have a family. Someone to love him and for him to have humans to love. It took me forever to convince Sasha to let me get a dog and Shiloh was one of the best things to come out of our relationship so I'm terrified of losing him. He's so innocent and young and he looks so miserable laying her basically borderline half lifeless. "Let's get you outside so you can tinkle then we'll eat and we gotta get dressed. By then it should be almost one and it's off to the doctors okay?" He raised his ears a little bit then they went back down. I opted to just drag his whole dog bed outside saving me from having to disturb his position. Also partly because I hate hearing him wimpier in pain. When we got outside he managed to pull himself out his bed and sit up on the porch. With a little help he was able to pee, but in doing so he peed all over himself again. It's no big deal this time because this is starting to be an everyday thing for us now hence why I'm still so upset with Sasha. I usually simply wash him down with a pitcher of water and dry him off then bring him back inside.

Sitting his bed back in the living room I went into the kitchen and began to make myself breakfast. I made sure to text Sasha back because since she is hours ahead of me I always wake up with messages from her. For breakfast I decided on a simple egg, potato, cheese, and green pepper bowl. Breakfast isn't as fun when I have nobody to cook for. Shiloh would usually sit beneath me and wait for me to drop something but he doesn't really move too much anymore. After eating I showered and then got dressed before loading Shi into his cage and headed to the vet.

…

"When we leave here Bubby we're going right to Petco to get you a new harness. This one doesn't match your wheelchair." I spoke letting him being I'm sitting in the chair next to him since he's lying on the table. When we were waiting to be called in I decided to order him a little doggy wheelchair for when his bones heal he can have an easier time getting around places. I decided on an blue one in hopes it'll make his eyes pop as if they don't already by themselves.

"Okay so I have some good news and I have some bad news." Spoke the vet as she came back into the room.

"Can I just have the good news for four hundred?" I lightly joked trying to lighten the mood because I don't want to hear any bad news.

"Well good news his wounds are healing nicely. And I believe they should be healed and steady by the end of the month at least." She spoke looking at her clipboard then sitting down in her chair and scooting closer to us. She then began to scratch Shiloh on his ear.

"And the bad news?" I asked meekly. She sighed and looked at me.

"Well after looking at his MRI the little guy is definitely paralyzed.." That didn't hurt too bad I figured he was and that's why his wheelchair should be here by tomorrow.

"Well we're already adapting to that."

"Well yeah that's why I started with that. Little buddy's is not looking too good on the inside. I don't know if maybe the doctor who originally fixed him up got sloppy or if it was poor treatment of his wounds but somehow one of his ribs isn't healing the correct direction it should." She then pulled out two X-rays of rib cages I assume. "This here is a normal healing fracture and here is Shiloh's." She then pointed to the picture where one of the rib bones is awkwardly sitting. "Yeah that bone right there is not only healing incorrectly but it's pressed right up against his lung, so any sudden movement can potentially cause it to pierce his lung creating another world of problems we don't want to visit."

"Damn Shi you really must be testing to see how much I love you because you are full of issues." I jokingly said but inside I just want to cry. I don't want to lose my best friend.

"Yeah he is but I'm sure he knows you love him. We all do here. He even decided to go and start to get small blood clots in his hind legs since they don't get too much movement anymore. And with Beagles they need to keep active in order to stay healthy. Little guy hasn't had much movement so his legs pretty much are gonna cause a lot more trouble than his funky healing rib."

"What are you saying exactly? If there's something we can do to fix it let's do it. Anything and everything it takes to make him better." I spoke because I'll do anything. We can afford whatever treatment he needs so he gets better. And I'm positive Sasha would agree with me.

"Well the rib can be fixed with a couple wires and screws no problem. But for his legs I'd honestly recommend amputation as a quick sure fire way to take care of the problem. However if you don't want to do that we can put him on antibiotics and vitamins to see if maybe that helps loosen them up but there's also a chance that it won't help and it leads to a possible heart failure. But besides all of that you said he still isn't eating so you'd most likely have to force it down his throat. Then I'll say it again, the fact that he isn't eating worries me because he isn't getting his daily nutrients and calories a dog his age should be getting which also factors into the blood clots and overall bad shape he's in." This all was a lot to take in. I don't even know where to start asking questions besides just one.

"Do you honestly think he can overcome all of this?" I asked grabbing his paw in my hand and rubbing it. Even if it's bad news about him he always helps me cope with it. The doctor looked at her notes and flipped through a few pages before answering.

"Honestly it's too soon to tell but from my years of experience animals who get injured then all these other problems show up that are worse than the original accident usually don't make it too long to tell the story." She spoke looking at me with a little bit of pity. "But again it's too soon to tell for sure. If he doesn't start to find his appetite soon we're gonna be in some serious trouble."

"Should I keep giving him his protein smoothies?"

"Has he been drinking them?"

"Somewhat but he usually goes for his water."

"Well then I don't see a reason to stop just trying giving him little bits of it throughout the day and see if he'll have some."

"Okay. But if he doesn't eat do I have to start force feeding him?" She didn't say anything but she did nod her head yes.

"I can get you some of the stuff they use here. It's just a powder that you add water to and give it to him. I'll write you up a prescription for his meds and everything then you guys should be good to go." She spoke scribbling something down on her clipboard.

"Okay sounds good." I murmured looking at Shiloh. The doctor then got up and left the room. Looking at my baby he's just laying here on the table virtually lifeless besides his breathing. I hope so bad that we make it through this okay but I don't have too good of a feeling. And the doctor said there's a good chance he won't make it. I'm sitting here hoping for the best but expecting the worst. I hate thinking like this but it's real life and it's best to not get my hopes too high that way my heart won't break as bad when the time comes. I shouldn't be thinking this way but I don't want to lose my little buddy. I can't handle losing him especially with Sasha gone on tour. I'm already dropping and losing Shi would.. I just don't know what'd I'd do. I just know I'd have to find my way to her. "Shi can you do me a favor?" He moved his ears and looked at me. "Can you just hold on till daddy gets home? Please I can't handle all this on my own. I know it seems like I can but.. I love you bubbas. We have so many adventures to go on so just hurry and get better so we can go okay?" Everything is going to be okay. This is just a small hiccup of life and we will be fine come next month. Me, Sasha, and Shiloh are all going to be lounging on a beach somewhere in Hawaii come one month from now. I'm just letting my drop depression get the best of me. Everything is going to be ok.

A few minutes later the doctor can back and gave me all the paperwork I needed and we were able to check out of his vet visit. I scheduled an appointment for two weeks and hopefully she'll have better news to tell me. Once we left the vet like I promised we went to the pet store and got him a cool new collar. It was cute because there was another beagle in the store and her name was Daisy and she came right up to him in the cart and licked him. I don't know if I was imagining it but when she licked him I swear I saw his tail twitch. Maybe it was my eyes tricking me but I used it as my motivation that everything is alright.

The next day

"I'm coming don't start it yet." Chimed Alicia rushing out the kitchen into the room. Alicia and her girlfriend share an apartment with one of Alicia's friends from college so it's a two bedroom apartment. The living room is rather small so they settled on just having a tv in their bedrooms making it more convenient. It worried me to being in a bed with a woman other than my Sasha, Charlotte, or Bayley but we're both in relationships so nothing crazy ever crossed my mind about it. "I hope you don't mind drinking wine out of a Medieval Times chalice. Unless you want the boring blue cup." She spoke holding out the cups for me to choose.

"The golden chalice is fit for the queen." I smiled taking the chalice.

"It's definitely red but ok." Giggled Alicia climbing in the bed next to me.

"I'm the queen it's whatever color I say it is." I demanded sipping my drink.

"Yes ma'am." She smirked winking at me before sipping her drink also. I took this time to hit play on the movie. The first movie we agreed upon is a The Green Lantern. I know very little about American comics so I heard green and was okay with it. Typical Irishwoman of me but I love any superhero in green. "Shall we order pizza?"

"And ruin our daily calorie intake?!" I asked very astonished because that's a crazy idea.

"I dunno it wa-"

"I'm kidding I already ordered it while you were in the bathroom." I smiled because what insane person would deny pizza?

"Ah okay cool. Where from?"

"My usual pizza joint. I'm surprised they deliver this far. Then again when your girlfriend is an international pop star you get special treatment. They deliver to me wherever I am if it's reasonable." I winked smirking because it's true. When we're in Florida Sasha and I always order from the same pizza place so they always give us some sort of special discount or something like that.

"Whoa okay little Mrs. Bigshot, didn't know you were an A-list celebrity." She teased sipping her wine.

"I'm not the celebrity Sasha is I'm just the supportive girlfriend."

"Damn where do I go to find a girlfriend like you? Mine doesn't even want to go out for date night anymore."

"You know I still don't understand why you won't break up with her. You have so much potential and what good is it spending it on someone who doesn't treat you right?" Yeah surprisingly Alicia is still with Christy.

"I know I know. It's just hard. I don't know if I'm ready to be single again honestly. And I'm usually so busy working that I dunno if I'll have time to balance dating into it."

"Well you can use whatever time you used to spend with Christy to go on dates. Get a Tinder and start there." She let out a chuckle before sipping her wine.

"Ha isn't Tinder just for hookups?"

"I wouldn't know I've never needed to make one. But even if it is it's a good place to start. I'm sure there are tons of people on there that I know will pay attention to you." I reasoned picking up her phone and handing it to her. "Make one."

"Noo Becks come on I don't wanna!" She whined not taking her phone.

"Why not? You said it yourself that you and Christy are virtually nothing so why hold on to it? Get a headstart get some random numbers texting you I bet you she'll pay attention then."

"I don't want a stranger anyway. I already have my eye on someone anyways and I doubt they're even on Tinder so it's pointless in getting the app."

"Open." I spoke showing her the password keypad to unlock her phone.

"I just think meeting people from a dating app is weird." I ignored her and opened up the App Store in her phone.

"So who's this person you have your eye on? What's her name? What's her sign? Is she tall? Is she a brunette? Does she have any kids?" I asked holding out her phone to put in her password again so I can download Tinder for her. She put it in without hesitation.

"Umm well she's an Aquarius. She's about five-six maybe five-seven. Beautiful ginger hair with adorable brown eyes to match. Don't know if she has any kids but she has a furry baby."

"Well I like her already she's an Aquarius like me so she's probably lovely. And pets are always a plus." I murmured as I'm setting up her profile. "You got any good selfies in here?"

"Should be. But if you go in my photos don't mind my nudes or any porn you may see just scroll past it okay." She giggled making me laugh to.

"Okay I'll try not to look at them. But tell me more about this girl because you still haven't told me a name."

"Well her name is honestly I can't remember which is weird because I always talk to her when I get the chance."

"So that's good at least do you have her number?" I asked sipping my wine and looking at her.

"Nah she's already in a relationship. But from our conversations I feel like her partner isn't treating her right. And she's one of those girls who have this natural glow about her and she has an awesome personality. She's so fucking beautiful and I don't know if she knows how beautiful she is but she's fucking perfect to me." She grinned looking me right in my eyes. "So beautiful." She murmured biting her lip a little before she looked over at the tv.

"Well you know if that's the case you should test the waters a little bit. Like ask questions get to know her see how long they've been together. Because that way you can know what lines to cross and what ones to steer clear of."

"Well what if she rejects me?"

"Then she's a fool you're an amazing woman and it's her loss not giving you a chance. Anyway what do you want to put in your bio?" I then showed her the phone so she could put something in.

*Ding dong*

"Oh pizza is here. I'll get it you stay put and write something about yourself." I then climbed over her, being the bed is in a corner, and got to my feet. I then went and got the door.

"Hey Amondo how are you today?" I smiled being I'm very familiar with the delivery guys at the shop.

"Hola senorita, I'm well today. Visiting a friend today I see?" He asked holding out the receipt for me to sign. So I took it and signed it. Since they always treat us so good I always give my delivery boys a big tip to show my gratitude.

"Yes sir. Figured it'd be nice to get out the house it gets lonely without Sasha there to annoy me."

"Ah sounds fair. Anyway I'll see you later then si?"

"Of course always. Here you go." Handing him the receipt he handed me the food.

"Thank you. Have a good day."

"I will you too. Buh-bye." And with that I closed the door. Going into the room Alicia is missing but I did hear her go in the bathroom so I'm not worried. However my wine is almost empty so a trip to the kitchen is a must. "Hey Licia?" I asked knocking on the door.

Yeah?"

"I'm gonna refill my cup did you want some more?" Her cup is half full but then again this isn't our first drink of the day. No after yoga we went to brunch and had mimosas then we decided to come back here. And she had a six pack of wine coolers so we finished those off three and three. So yes if I have a nice buzz going chances are so does she. I've never proper drank with her so I have no real way of telling if she's had enough to drink or not hence why I asked.

"Yeah that's fine." Okay cool going into the kitchen I sat our glasses on the table and went into the fridge to get the wine. It was on the top shelf so I had no trouble finding it. Then again the fridge was kinda empty so it wasn't hard. Today we're drinking a pink moscato and it's pretty good being it was a cheap bottle. It reminds me of my life before Sasha and before she threw me into the hands of luxury living. Anyway I topped off both of our cups before putting back the bottle and headed back into the room. She's still in the bathroom so I sat back in my spot in the bed. Ideally I'd wait to eat but I'm hungry now and the pizza smells good so I dug in. I love pizza so much and I got wings too so I can't wait to tear into them in a bit.

"Damn thanks for the invite." Spoke Alicia who appeared in the doorway in a light grey Calvin Klein sports bra with these ridiculously short grey shorts on. I recognize those kinds of shorts and they are definitely 'fuck me shorts'. I know because Sasha has a similar pair and every time she's worn them around me there was a ninety five percent chance we ended up fucking because she was wearing those shorts. I don't know what it is about them but I like it and I'd be lying if I said she doesn't look good in hers. I have no desire to act on my thoughts but if I didn't have Sasha I'd definitely have her begging me to make her cum. Hell if it weren't for Sasha I probably wouldn't have the appreciation for colored women that I have now. It's just something about that melanin that has me feigning. I just see a tall tasty glass of chocolate milk and despite drinking so many liquids today I am very very thirsty. Sasha's been gone for so long and I feel like I'm dying. "Did you at least get pepperoni?" I heard breaking me out of my thoughts only to notice she's standing right in front of me. Dear god give me the fucking strength right now. She has long probably very smooth legs that I know I can make buckle just from one simple touch. Letting my eyes travel further up she has a cute little outie belly button. She's not as ripped as Sasha is but with enough practice we can probably get her a nice six pack. However it does show that yoga has been doing her body wonders and I appreciate that. She just has a very unique body and I so badly want to devour it. My head and the submissive in me is crying for any kind of release I can get. Don't care how or from whom I just need a little pick me up to save me from my drop. But at the same time my heart is crying out for Sasha. I want Sasha I miss my fiancé and I won't see her for another three weeks. "Hmm I guess you are dropping a lot harder than I thought you were."

"Huh?" I asked shaking those thoughts from my head because I totally just spaced out and she knows it.

"Jesus Becky I can basically smell a submissive in need. And you my doll are in dying need of a fix aren't you?" She hit the nail right on the head. But this all makes sense now. As to why I was so drawn to her in the first place. Of course she's a dominant explains why she wasn't at all phased by Sasha being my girlfriend. Making friends with me was never about my girlfriend it was about what my girlfriend does with me.

"I don't know what you're talking about." She let out a chuckle then took a piece of pizza out the box.

"Oh cut the shit. I recognize a slave collar when I see one. I wasn't sure about you at first but the leash in the shower backed up my theory. I was just shocked because I never would've guessed it, international pop star singer Sasha Banks is a dominant and you're her submissive. It sounds even more crazy when I say that out loud but it's actually fucking true."

"I don't have to explain myself to you." I spoke because this is all none of her business.

"You don't have to I don't care about your relationship with her. I'm asking about you. I'm asking you if you're in the middle of a drop. Especially with that scandal she was involved in the other day. That must have really hurt huh?"

"Sasha knows her boundaries and I trust her. If she said she didn't sleep with any of them then she didn't sleep with any of them and that's that." I'm so tired of everyone trying to fill my head with doubt about my relationship with Sasha.

"Then you must really be something then huh? No. No I can physically see why she wifed you up and I'm so jealous she beat me to you. But I just don't get it what is she doing to get you to stay? Like no matter how clean I keep the house or how many batch's I run for her when Chris gets home I just can't get her to stay." She complained shrugging.

"I-I don't know I just really love my fiancé and I can't picture my life without her. I want nothing but to have her or else I don't want to live. I can't see myself getting married to anyone but her." I spoke simply because things like that come easy to me. Anything Sasha related comes easy to me. I guess that's what happens when love is involved you go to the ends of the earth to make that special person smile no matter what. I'd murder the Queen if it meant saving Sasha's life. I know I'd probably never get close enough to even try or they'll shoot me dead trying but I wouldn't care because that's how dedicated I am to my fiancé. When I love, I love and I love the hell out of her.. even when she fucks up.

"You said it yourself I'm a great catch I mean come on." She then reached forward and grabbed my hand placing it on her abdomen. "I go to yoga to keep in shape for her and she doesn't even care like don't I feel good?" As she was saying that she crawled closer to me on the bed. I hate to agree but she does feel good. She's the perfect mix between hard and soft. It is at this point I'm starting to wish I didn't sit back down on the bed. I decided to sit in the center of the bed but with my back up against the bed leaving me perfectly open for her to climb into my lap. "All this hard work just goes to waste all for an ungrateful person." She spoke this time grabbing my other hand and placing it on her chest this time. I can't exactly explain what or why, but suddenly I lost control of my hands and they began to roam her body. Ugh she's so soft and smooth and she's tiny almost like Sasha. The only difference here is Alicia is taller and has a longer torso than her. Sasha is definitely lighter in skin color so Alicia is more of a hazelnut color and the contrast between my pale white hands and her skin has me itching for more. I don't know why it's so hypnotizing to me but my mouth is watering just from watching my hands explore her body. "Hey?!" She snapped gripping my face and forcing me to look her in the eyes. Fuck her eyes are like this beautiful hazel green color and I almost immediately got lost in them. "I asked you a question and I know you heard me." Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! She knows I'm dropping and she's using it against me. The submissive in me is peaking itself out and when it starts I usually can't stop it. Swallowing hard I let out a nervous chuckle.

"W-What was the question?" I got out hoarsely. She grinned then kissed me on the side of my mouth. She then bit my earlobe and began to purr in my ear;

"I said don't I feel good to you?" That all sent shivers down my spine. I'm not prepared for this nor do I want this, yet I can't seem to push her away. So I nodded. "Use your big girl words Rebecca."

"Yes." She liked that answer and let out a satisfied giggle.

"Good I was hoping you'd say that. Now you see why I don't understand why she doesn't want me. I'm the total package and she just leaves me on the steps every day."

"Should break up with her then." I got out somehow.

"Nah what's the point. You're not single so what's the point in me being single. It might seem selfish but I don't share my play toys. I never have and won't start today. However I am feeling rather generous today." She then momentarily got off my lap and reached for our drinks. She then came back resuming her position on my lap and handed me my drink. "Thank you for the refill. Now drink up bitch I know you need it." Clinking our cups she started to drink her wine. I opted to just chug mine, my mouth is so dry from all this that's going on I can't even comprehend anything but that I need a drink. "Damn slow down I'm not gonna steal it. But I can't blame you all this chocolate got you thirsty huh?" She spoke winking at me.

"You know what I just remembered I gotta go check on Shi. It's been a couple hours since I've been home and he's probably getting wor-" I was interrupted by her crashing her lips into mine. I don't want to kiss back but she forced her tongue in my mouth and the submissive in me took control at that moment and gave in. Her kisses are very rough with a lot of biting so when she bit my tongue I flinched.

"Excuses excuses." She murmured into our kiss before going back to kissing me. I'm so fucking confused right now. My body is telling me yes but my heart is telling me no. I've been through this before and I have a very high standard when it comes to sex and I just don't think Alicia can meet them. I learnt my lesson the last time I had sex with Finn and ever since that day I told myself that I don't need to fuck anyone but Sasha because she's the only one who knows how to fuck me the way I need. I'm not saying Alicia couldn't handle me because for all I know she could fuck me better than Sasha but I'm in no mood to find out. I don't want to find out, I'm not allowed to find out... Even if her lips feel like silk and if her ass looks and feels amazing in these shorts. And the way her hands are soothingly massaging my sides making my whole body vibrate as if the alcohol wasn't doing it already.

"Hey wait no." I murmured but it didn't get her to stop kissing me. "No more okay." Somehow I managed to push her far away enough so I can get some space from her.

"Do you really?" She cooed playing with the ends of my hair.

"I have a fiancé and this doesn't feel right." I spoke looking anywhere but at her. She smirked then put her hand over my heart.

"You sure? Because I feel your heartbeat and it's going pretty fast meaning you feel the adrenaline too."

"Well you're on my lap kissing and feeling me up of course I'm gonna get a little excited who wouldn't."

"Oh so you're excited?"

"No can we watch the movie now.. please?" And as if right on cue my phone started to ring singing to me My Goggled Orange. Thank god it's like she always knows to call when I'm in trouble. Quickly grabbing my phone I answered. "Hi baby!"

"Hi mommas. You okay? I just had this weird feeling and something said to call you so I did. Is Shi okay?" See it's things like that that prove to me we're meant to be together.

"I'm okay I'm just hanging out with Alicia right now." It was here I realized she's still in my lap so I began to hit her leg signaling to get off me. She made sure to roll her eyes first before making it very obvious she was annoyed as she got off me. Once she got off me I got up and left the room. "But Shi is ok I gave him his new pain meds and it just puts him to sleep every time."

"Oh what are you guys up to?"

"We went to yoga, then to The planet where we had a few mimosas. And afterwards we ended up at her apartment and we're watching a movie. The Green Lantern I don't know if you've heard of it."

"You be careful over there I like her but I don't trust her. You probably can't tell but she has a crush on you and she might try to kidnap you and I'm not too keen on-"

"I know Sash but I'm alright okay."

"To be honest with you I have a weird feeling about this right now. You sound like something is off." I don't know how or why but she always knows when something isn't right and it scares me.

"I'm just tipsy is all I promise."

"Mmm. Well why don't you head home for the night. I'm sure it's starting to get late over there anyway. That and because I wanna make sex with you before I have to go to sleep. Today was so boring and I had all day to think about us and I miss you Becks. I miss you so much I don't even wanna finish this tour anymore. I just want to go be with you and Shi. I'm so fucking lonely babe it's not funny." She spoke in a saddened town. The way she said that doesn't sound like she's okay. It actually genuinely sounds like she's about to cry and that makes me want to almost cry.

"I miss you too Daddy I haven't had a proper sleep in ages."

"I'm sorry I'm so far and there's nothing I can do. You have no idea how bad I wish I could be there with you." I gotta go home. I'm in a drop and any kind of attention from my dom is what I need most right now. "My Goggled Orange I love you terribly please tell me you're leaving her apartment." If Daddy says it's time to go home than it's time to go home.

"I'm gonna get my stuff now." Going back into the bedroom Alicia is laying on the bed rubbing her stomach.

"Are we finishing the movie or what?" She asked showing me the remote.

"I have to take a rain check. Sasha says I have to get home before it gets to late and I get too drunk." I shrugged grabbing my purse and hot wings. Digging through my purse I found my car key.

"Tell her we're gonna have phone sex and that's why you're leaving." Spoke Sasha making me grin. She always finds it important to rub it in peoples faces that we're together.

"I'm not gonna tell her that." I spoke into the phone. I then turned my attention back to Alicia. "I promise we'll finish this movie another night. You can keep the pizza. It's my peace offering." Going over to her I learned down and kissed her forehead. "I'll text you. Buh-bye." And with that I headed out homeward bound.

"How's the situation with her and her girlfriend?" Asked Sasha as I started the car.

"The exact same as how it was when we met her. Crappy yet she continues to stay even when she's not happy."

"Becks?"

"Yes?"

"Are you happy being with me?"

"Of course why wouldn't I?"

"Even though I'm traveling so much right now?"

"You are working babe and I understand that. I can't get mad at you for going to work so you can keep a roof over our heads."

"Ok good I'm happy being with you too because you're so understanding and beautiful." No matter how many times she calls me beautiful it always makes me blush and smile. I'm so happy she called not because it saved me from a very weird predicament but because I love talking to her. Even if it's about the weather I at least get to talk to her. I needed this and add to that we're gonna sext when I get home is the pick me up I needed to help me with the funk I'm in.

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So can we agree and say that this chapter was fairly mediocre? I mean like it was pretty juicy too at the same time. Well it's good to know Sasha isn't a cheating whore so that's a plus. A negative for Becks because she doesn't know that and she can't be sure. Lol oh Eli and his fantasy not gonna lie I kinda shipped Eli/Sasha. They was cute together lol. Anywhore poor Shiloh seems he's just not getting any better we just gotta keep him in our prayers and keep our fingers crossed and hope he'll be okay. Oh and Finn oh shit guess Becky got the last laugh?.. for now. And then Alicia. What in the fucking fuck? This whole chapter was a cluster fuck. Next chapter will most likely be a past chapter which I've already started so hopefully it won't be too long before it sees the light of day. So fun fact believe it or not I baked a cake today from scratch and I'm pleased to announce it came out very well. All that's left to do is taste it and I pray that it's good because if it's not I'm gonna cry. It's a Budapest Coffe cake and I made it as a retry from when I failed miserably at making it in class last week. This time it came out much better so I'm happy about that. If it taste good I'm packing it up and taking it to thanksgiving dinner tomorrow. So I just tasted it and it's going with me to thanksgiving tomorrow. I may make another one because it didn't make too much but then again I might not I don't know. I'm probably not cuz I'm lazy. There's so much I want to talk about but I don't know where to start so I guess I won't talk much at all lol. But I will leave you with a stupid but smart question that actually got me yelled at for asking. So like you know how humans be doing stuff like walking talking and shit? So like what do fish do? Like besides swimming and eating what tf do they be doing? I was staring at fish in a tank one night and the fish were just I don't know fishing around I guess I'm not sure. They got no arms to do anything so what do they be doing? Solid question man. Also where do cows originate from? Like how come we don't ever see cows in the wild? Who was the creepy person to decide they wanted to drink the creamy white liquid that comes from the weird phallic shaped things hanging from underneath a cow? Who was the lucky person who got to name all the different herbs and spices? How did humans decide that touching our lips together would be a great way to express our appreciation for each other? What were the first people to French kiss thinking when they decided to put their tongues in each other's mouths? Valid thoughts that I be thinking sometimes. Kay I'm gonna go now I hope you still love me after making you wait so long. If not that's okay because I love you and that's what really matters. ~Joz #itfuckup