Just to be safe - This Chapter is Rated M for Mature! Adult Content!

Chapter 38

"Mom I ... just ...I don't want to fight about this." Karen said as they entered the house. Jon wanted to speak up but didn't want to make things worse between Karen and her mom. Karen went into her room and shut her door.

"You have got to be fucking kidding me. Jon I'm sorry ... "

"No Brown eyes ... you have nothing to be sorry for. I told you we will figure this out. Look I know your mom has had it rough ... but hell Karen your life hasn't been easy either. It took everything I had not to tell her off. I don't give a shit Karen... your out of here. Your getting out of this hell hole and screw anyone who gets in our way." Jon told her as he was pacing her room.

"Jon it's just not that easy for me. If it was just be dad I would say fuck it and just leave but my Mom ... I can't stop thinking about what will happen if I'm not here."

"Karen baby you can't worry about that. You're an adult and you need to live your own life. I hate seeing you like this." Jon told her as he pulled her close.

"Oh Jon ... I am putty in your hands. I can't say no to you and I don't want to." She said as she kissed him softly. "Why does this have to be so hard?" Karen said.

"It's hard because you're a loving and caring person. You care to much about other people and not enough about yourself." Jon told her as they sat on the bed.

"Jon I'm really not that great of a person ... what kind of person wishes their father would die just to make their life easier. I've had those thoughts about it before."

"Brown Eyes look at me I know that you don't mean that ..."

"What if I did? What does that say about me?"

"It just says that you are stressed."

"Karen you are far from a bad person. Can I be honest with you?" Jon said as he pulled her closer to him on the bed.

"Of course ... unless you are breaking up with me then be gentle." Karen said.

"No ... I told you I'm not going anywhere. But we've really gotten to know each other and I know that your family has been through hell and back. But none of that shit matters now that doesn't mean you don't deserve good things to happen to you. Karen ... you deserve the world and that is exactly what I want to give you. Starting with moving out of this shit hole you call a house."

"Jon ... I am so in love you so much you have no idea how many nights I laid awake almost crying myself to sleep. Praying that some day you would come into my life and here you are in my room ... in my bed. I have to ask myself all the time is this real because I am so scared to wake p from this dream."

"This is no dream." He told her as he kissed.

Karen couldn't help but smile and wrap her arms around his neck. Soon they were making out on her bed. This was a high school dream coming to a reality in her late 20's. But she didn't care she was in love with this man on her bed and she wanted to make him happy.

"Jon thank you for making me the happiest woman in the world."

"I'm glad I get to be the guy to do it." He told her.

That night Karen tossed and turned she couldn't sleep. She knew in her heart what the right thing to do was but he head kept telling her to stay. "I want to be with Jon ... I have to be with him. He is the answer to my prayers. He's the man who I fell in love with. I finally have a man in my life and a job that I love. Why can't people understand that. All my life I feel like I have given everything to everyone and not doing anything for myself. Since his stroke I've been so depressed my life completely stopped and I wanted to just end it ... this wasn't mean I was so angry and mad all the time. My mom and I never use to fight until he got sick and now that seems to be all we do. Fight ... why can't she just let me be happy. All I want to do is live my life don't I deserve to have a life of my own. They can't seem to do anything for themselves granted part of that is my fault because I let it happen. But I just didn't want to fight anymore. If living my life for me is selfish well then I am going to be selfish." Karen told herself as she laid awake just thinking about what to do.

The next morning Karen and Jon were up early and out of the house before everyone was up.

"Didn't want to fight with her Mom this morning?" Jon asked as they were heading down the road.

"Basically. I just ... "

"I know you couldn't sleep you tossed and turned all night."

"I'm sorry. I know you need to sleep."

"It's fine ... sleep is over rated anyway."

"I am sorry I just have a lot on my mind."

"Want to talk about it babe?" Jon said reaching over and softly grabbing her hand.

"Not really. I just know that I am making the hardest decision of my life."

"I know honey but you need to do this. You want to do this right?"

"Yes Jon I love you and I want to move in with you ... do you not want me to anymore? Did you change your mind?" Karen asked not knowing if she really wanted to know the answer.

"Of course I do. I know this is a big step and a commitment but we've talked about this and why we both need this. Karen ... I can't explain in words how I feel about you. But I do know that this feeling ... I never want it to go away. I want us to be together."

"Jon you are so damn sweet to me." Karen said as she kissed his cheek.

That morning Karen went to the doctor's office where he cleared her for all normal activity.

"Karen you are good to go your surgical incision is healing nicely."

"So?" Karen said with a grin.

"You are medically cleared to go back to all normal activity." Dr. Connors said.

"All?" Karen said.

"Yes. But if you do feel uncomfortable just take it easy. I mean you did have surgery but you are a model patient and healing well."

"Thank You Dr. Connors." Karen said.

"everything good?" Jon asked her as she came back into the waiting room.

"Yes everything is great ... I am good to go."

"That's great baby." He told her.

"Yeah now let's get the hell out of here." Karen smiled.

They stopped of to have a late breakfast.

"So ... I got an email back from the Abbey... you know that apartment complex I was talking about." Karen began to say.

"Yeah?" Jon said.

"They will have a 2 bed room available soon but they have three bedrooms now. I e-mailed her back and told her that I would meet with her earlier. I just hope that my mom goes for this."

"Karen babe she has to ... they shouldn't stay in that house. I don't want you in that house ... I know its your home but baby it's falling apart." Jon said as they were still eating.

"I know it is ... I mean we tried to fix it up but it just cost too much and we didn't qualify for any help."

"I know you did the best you could. But the good news is ... that we can get your parents into another place and you can move to the warm desert of Vegas." Jon said with a grin.

"How come you made that sound dirty? I liked it." Karen smiled.

When they got back to the house her brother was gone. Ron was in the living room watching TV her mom was making him lunch.

"Hi." Karen said.

"Hi." Dawn said. "How did everything go?"

"Great I am all good to go." Karen told her mom. "Can we talk now?"

Dawn just nodded.

"Look I know you're not happen about me moving out but this is just something I have to do for me. I told you that this would happen one day and that day has come. I know you hate it and I know your sacred but I am just a phone call and plane ride away alright?"

"I just ... I know we've talked about this but the reality of you leaving scares me."

"I know it does. But I am going to do this now that brings me to the next thing I want to talk to you about. I have been e-mailing with Kendra ... she's the manager at the Abbey apartments in Ionia."

"Alright?"

"Well I am meeting with her this afternoon. I really think that you and dad need to get of this house. It's time to sell ... I know we are basically selling the land but I think it will be better for both of you."

"I am just ..."

"I know you're scared about paying for it. I told you I am making more money now so I can pay for the rent."

"Karen I just ... you're still not going to be around and I just ..."

"I know Mom. You want me to be around and I will still come home often for visits. I mean I am going to be on the road a lot any way. But I just need you to understand why I have to do this. I am in love with Jon and we need to be together. I am an adult and I haven't really done anything for myself and I need that. I know this isn't fair to you but I am still meeting with the nurse and hopefully we will be able to work something out so you can get some of your life back."

"What life ... with out you around Karen what life will this be."

"You'll still have Brian and I am leaving my car her. I mean I can't take the only car you have."

"Yeah but ... you know I love your brother but he's just not you."

"I know. But I need to live my life."

"With Jon?" Dawn said as she finished fixing Ron's lunch.

"Yes my life with Jon."

"Karen you know that I am old-fashioned and it really wasn't the fact that you were moving out ... it was that you are moving in with him and you're not married."

"Mom I know ... but Joe and Heidi lived together for many many years before they got married. ... hell they even had a kid. So I don't see why this has to be an issue because I really don't think it is."

"I know but I just thought that when you did finally meet someone and move out you would live in the next town. Not move across the country."

"I know this will be a big adjustment for everyone but we will all get through this together. OK? You just have to trust me mom."

"Yeah I will ... but I still don't like it ... so I am going on the record saying that this is a bad idea." Dawn told her daughter.

"Noted."

That afternoon Karen and Jon met with Mark the private nurse. Karen was very open and honest about the situation. She felt that her father would be more comfortable with a male nurse. Then they drove out the Abbey and met with Kendra. She showed them the apartments and how this one was wheel chair assessable.

"They'll take it." Karen said.

They went back to Kendra's office and began to fill out the paper work. It was almost official now they just needed to put the house up for sale. that night Karen tried to explain things to her father he seemed to understand what she was saying.

Karen and her mom hashed it out over the next couple of days. Her mom still wasn't happy about her moving out but was excited about living in the apartment. Karen felt bad because for their days off she had Jon running around with her trying to get everything put together. She wanted to make it up to him.

A day later Saturday Night: They left the house show in New Jersey and were heading to Pennsylvania.

"Jon I want to thank you so much for being amazing the last few days."

"It was nothing."

"No I mean it. Thank you."

"You're welcome." Jon told her in a soft voice.

They finally made it to the hotel and Karen couldn't help it as she checked the hotel room before bouncing on the bed.

"I don't think that will ever get old." Jon said with a grin as he carried their bags in.

"Oh I bet it will. In 6 months you'll be like that is so annoying."

"I doubt it." He told her.

"I have to say you were super sweet with your fans tonight. They love you Ambrose."

"Yeah they're pretty cool too."

"Are you tired?" Karen asked him.

"Nope you?" He responded pulled Karen close to him.

"Nope." She smiled as she pressed her lips to his.

With in minutes they were in a heavy make out session. Jon's hand under her shirt. "You alright brown eyes?" Jon asked as his hands were on her chest and he began to massage her chest. He was kissing her neck softly.

"Fine." Karen said finally said in a soft voice as a moan came out of her mouth at the same time. "Don't .. Don't stop Jon. Please."

"Never Brown Eyes. I want you ... all of you." He said as his tongue caressed hers once again. They were making out while Jon helped Karen out of her shirt and she gladly helped Jon out of his. Their eyes locked on each other while Karen unbuttoned Jon's pants. Her hands slowly moved down as a smile came acrossed her face. He told her as he pulled her even closer their hips now touching "Let me rock your world." He said as he crashed his lips to hers.

The next morning Karen woke up in Jon's arms as she laid there staring at the most amazing passionate man she'd ever met she thought to herself.

"Thank you Lord for bringing us together. I know I don't deserve him but I am so blessed that we are together. Please help me make him the happiest man in the world he deserves that."

"Good Morning Brown Eyes."

"Morning." She said as she kissed him. "Jon?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you." She told him as moved closer to him their hips now touching she kissed him again this time more aggressively. Jon got a big grin on his face. Karen smiled too when she felt why he was smiling.

"I love you too." He told her.

"I'm glad you love me or this would be a little awkward." Karen laughed.

" A little awkward? There aint nothing little about this." Jon told her as has he thrust his hips to hers a bit.

"Really? I think you may have to prove it." Karen grinned.

"Damn right I'll prove it Darlin'." Jon said as he tossed the sheets over their head and kissed her again pulling her even closer to him. A moan of pure pleasure came out of Karen's mouth.

They were in a state of pure love and passion. Karen was the happiest she had ever been. Finally after years of heart ach and struggle her life was finally starting to come together. She had an amazing job and she was in the arms of the most amazing man in the world.

"You know how sometimes, your life is so perfect you re afraid for the next moment, because it couldn't possibly be quite as good? That's what it felt like." - Jodi Picoult, Handle with Care

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