My brother waking up worked as a waking up for me too. After the initial shock of being caught snogging my boyfriend -ah! That felt good to say!-, all I could do was hug Henry tight in my arms and let out tears of happiness- as well as muffled apologies for what I'd done to him the summer before.

James was the one who remembered to inform the rest of the family. In a second, I was no longer the only one crying, laughing and hugging the carrot top. It was only when Petunia threatened to expel us from the room that we finally left my brother so that she could run some tests. Also, that gave us time to calm down and take in the news.

But the fact was, the worst was yet to come. Henry probably remembered of the accident- he had to- but he had no idea of my parents' death; I know it'd come as a shock to him, especially because he hadn't been able to go to the funeral. If I had felt guilty simply for not being there and avoiding it, I knew my brother- strong as he was- would feel even worst.

But there was no walking around the subject, even because if we didn't tell him, he'd end up asking us. Petunia and I decided it'd be better if we told him. We were his siblings, after all. Who better to know what he'd feel?

We sat in two chairs around his bed as he started asking us a ton of questions of what had happened in the time he was off. Somehow, I had the impression he knew what had happened to our parents, because he avoided at all costs talking about the car accident.

However, after a while, it was impossible to ignore the facts, and he confirmed what I had thought with one simple, direct question. "They died, didn't they?", he asked us, and I could see the brimming tears in his eyes.

Petunia and I nodded as we each grabbed one of his hands. "It was my fault," he started saying, "I was the one supposed to be driving, but I drunk a lot of wine and-"

My older sister, once again, took the strong role, "It wasn't anyone's fault." She said softly.

I smiled as I pulled him into a hug, "Don't blame yourself. No one could have stopped that from happening. And if you had been driving, you'd be the one I couldn't be hugging now. And I'd die with you if that happened."

Henry, Petunia and I remained the rest of the night talking and, at some point, my grandparents, Justin and James came in. James tried to go by unnoticed, simply giving me reassuring smiles every time our gazes locked (which happened quite often, may I add). Oh, but he didn't know Henry. He wouldn't escape him so easily…

"So you're the git who's after my sister?" my older brother asked suddenly, as he turned to James. I was happy to see he had gone back to his old jealous ways.

"Am I still?" James asked back, looking at me, that dazzling smile never leaving his features.

"Is he?" my grandmother asked quite bemused. 'Great,' I thought, 'Now everyone's looking at me.'

"Do you want to be?" I asked finally, and was quite proud of my answer. 'There you go, you sexist-pigs-who-try-to-make-me-blush!', I thought.

"No," James answered, "Do you want me to be?"

He had to come up with something cleaver than my answer. And to make me blush again!!

"You know," Henry said, fortunately not giving me the time to answer. Not that I had doubts about what my answer would be. It was more the fact that my whole family was watching. "If I hadn't caught your tongue down my little sister's throat earlier-"and here I really blushed, and my grandparents gasped as Justin and Petunia laughed. What do you need friends for when you have such a supportive family?? "-I could like you." my brother finished.

I looked at James to find him looking back at me with a smirk, "I'll take that as your bless." He said and I had to grin. I knew I liked him for a reason.

'That and the fact that he is probably the better looking, most intelligent, sweet, nice guy you'll ever meet.' My annoying inner voice said.

There we go again… 'Why do I always have to fight with you? You're my mind, conscience or whatever, you should be on my side!'.

'Are you telling me you don't agree?'.

'I rest my case'.

(…)

Unfortunately, James and I had to get back to Hogwarts before midnight, like we had promised McGonagall. Before we departed, I gave everyone a tight hug and promised to be back for Christmas- which, thankfully, was coming closer.

After the goodbyes,- and a last humourless joke from Justin ("Go and be a good witch. Got it? Good? Witches are normally bad!")- James and I walked discretely out of the building where we walked until a place hidden from where we could apparate back.

Once at Hogsmeade, we walked back to Hogwarts- more like run, since we were almost late- made a quick visit to the Headmistress to tell her we had arrived- and that my brother had woken up, which made her even smile (who knew she could??)- and then walked to the kitchens to have a quick snack before we went back to our common room.

Now, being the nice, behaved Heads we are (cough) the most decent thing to do was to go to our dormitories and have a nice night of sleep.

But- and even if I am behaved- 'You are?' Stupid inner voice.

Like I was saying, even if I am behaved most of the times, James's a Marauder. And that means, he doesn't behave. So, instead of walking to our beds, we sat in the common room couch. More like laid.

And has I laid there in his arms, I at last took the time to think about what that meant. James and I were dating. As in an "item". As in James Potter and Lily Evans, boyfriend and girlfriend. Weird as it sounds, it felt good to me!

Turning my head to look at him, I had the need to make sure he was mine, only and completely mine. Stretching my head I touched his lips lightly with mine. As I was about to pull away, he pulled me more to him and deepened the kiss.

Now, being the hormonal teenagers we are and, mind if I had, laying in a empty common room lit by fire, which is kind of romantic, I didn't even protest when he rolled on the couch and I ended up underneath him.

Things were getting pretty heated as James started kissing my neck and I tried to undo his shirt. 'Slut.' My inner voice said.

'Can't worry about my conscience right now.' I told her as I finally started getting my way with James' shirt, taking it off him.

I felt his hand reaching inside my blouse, touching me and-

"BANG!"

We fell to the floor. Damn that small couch.

I looked at James, shirtless and he looked back at me, probably looking a mess. James sat up as he laughed. Afters some time, I was laughing as well, but I never got up from the floor. It actually felt quite good laying there on the rug.

"We really are a disaster together." James said as he pulled me up.

'No! I want the floor! That soft rug is calling me back!'

I laughed, "Totally," I answered him.

"It could be worst." He pointed out, smirking.

I rolled my eyes, "I don't know if you noticed, but we just fell off the couch."

He laughed again, "Yeah, but someone could have walked in when we fell!" he smiled.

Again, I rolled my eyes, and smirked. "I can really imagine Bessie trying to film us, Alice pretending she hadn't seen anything, Lindsay trying to scare us pretending to be a teacher and Erica whistling at us." I said.

Yes... I knew that would be exactly what they'd do if they caught us. At least when they still wanted us together. Now they'd most probably try to hex me to get away from him.

James must have felt my distress as he hugged me again, "Something's on your mind?" he asked, but I knew he knew exactly what I was thinking.

"Do you reckon they'll ever forgive me?" I asked in only a whisper.

James smiled, "They have nothing to forgive you for. You didn't do anything that wrong to make them mad at you."

"I did, James, I did." I told him, "I hurt you. Quite often too. I understand what they did."

"I don't," he answered me, and I could sense some angry tone in his voice. "They're my friends, alright. But they're yours too. And what they did was really stupid."

"No, they were right." I insisted. James just shook his head.

"Even they admitted they were wrong," he said, "Sirius sulked about what he said to you in Charms during the entire day. Also said he was happy you knew the answer."

I smiled sadly, "I didn't." I told him, "Severus told me the answer."

James' eyes widened, "Snivellus? Since when do you get along with him?"

"He's name is Severus. Or Snape. And I didn't get along with him, but he helped me when everyone turned their backs on me and I'm thankful to him for that."

James shrugged, but I knew he hadn't enjoyed the new.

We were in silence again, and I knew James was a little mad about me talking to Severus. I decided to break the silence, "Even if they regretted that, they're still mad about what I said to Erica."

"That, I can't say they're not," he said, "Now the girls also know about who Chris really is too, but he didn't mind it that much. But that doesn't erase the fact that what you did was wrong."

I sighed. When I get things right in one side, the other gets wrong all of sudden. "What should I do?" I asked him as I curled in his arms.

"Apologize," He said. "It may not work but it's a start."

I smiled serenely, "You're right," I said, "I am going to apologize."

He smiled, "Great," he said, "Now that that is done, can we go back to what we were doing?"

I laughed as I stood up, "Sorry Prongs, but I'm incredibly tired," I told him as he also stood up, "I'm going to bed."

"Already?" he asked, groaning and making me smirk.

"See you tomorrow."

With that, I kissed his cheek, winked and departed in the direction of my oh-so-comfortable bed.

(…)

Narrator's POV

"Bessie, can I have a word?" Lily asked her best friend next morning. The lazy old Lily had come back from the moment she had kissed James and, therefore, she had woken up late as always. Bessie had been the one to tell her it was time to get up, but then she left for breakfast. Something about talking to Remus.

Almost exploding to tell someone about her and James and her brother, Lily got ready the fastest she could and run to the Great Hall, where she approached Elizabeth Albright, who was sitting with the rest of the seventh years Gryffindor. Lily caught James eye and they smiled at each other. And that didn't go unnoticed.

"Sure." Bessie answered bemusedly, as she stood up and followed her out of the Great Hall.

"What was that about?" Sirius asked with a smirk of his own and they stared at James, who kept eating as if nothing had happened.

"What was what?" he asked calmly.

"You and Flo- Evans," Sirius answered, "She smiled at you. And you, my dear Prongs, smiled back."

"Maybe that's because, unlike you lot, I'm still talking to her." the Gryffindor's former seeker answered.

"Tell me Prongs," Chris started "Where were you last night?"

James looked up bemusedly and with an arched eyebrow, "Around, what does it matter?"

"You weren't in the map," Sirius said, "So, you weren't in the castle as well."

"He was gone?" Lindsay asked curiously.

The four guys nodded, "Only reasonable explanation."

"Lily was gone too last night," Alice said "I noticed because her cat was trying to destroy my shoe and I screamed at her to take him off. And she wasn't there."

Now, more than ever, all attentions were back on James. "So what, she was gone," he said, "Are you suggesting I was with her?"

"No one said that," Erica answered, "You suggested it yourself. But I truly hope you weren't. That would only prove you're dumber than you look."

"Hey!" James said, "I'm not even answering you."

All of sudden, a scream sounded outside the Great Hall's doors. A screamed all of them knew all to well…

"Lily…" Remus whispered as the eight of them got up and the five boys ran outside the doors, taking their wands off… only to find Lily tackled to the floor by a hysterically laughing Bessie.

"Get off me! C'mon, I can't breath!" the red head laughed.

"I can't believe you didn't take me with you! You're a bitch!" Bessie accused, but she was laughing all along.

"Uh… Bess…" Lily said at last, as she spotted the other five, "I think we have some company."

Bessie looked back but, upon seeing who it was, only laughed more and got up, starting to hug James. "Is she alright?" he mouthed to Lily and she tried not to laugh.

"I told her about Henry," She answered at last as Remus helped her up, "Guess she was happy about it."

"What about Henry?" Sirius asked on impulse. Everyone looked at him, but he shrugged it off, "I made a question." He repeated.

"He woke up last night." James answered, as Lily seemed to have frozen when Sirius spoke to her.

"And how would you know?" Frank asked, eyebrow raised.

James looked at Lily, waiting for approval as Bessie let go of him smiling and waiting to see if they would tell what had really happened the night before. Lily answered him with a shy smile.

"I went with her," James said at last, "To the hospital."

"So you really were with her last night!" Chris accused.

James groaned. He didn't like the tone of the conversation. "I was. And what's wrong with that?"

"After what she did you went with her just like that?" Chris asked again.

"You're exaggerating, Scales," James said calmly, "You're madder about what she said to Erica than about what she really did."

"You know what, I am," he said "And I'm not even lying about it."

"Look, I'm sorry for having said that. I don't know what came over me! I was just mad about what you lot were doing, but I regret every single word I said!" Lily stepped up, positioning herself in front of James. There, she had said it. At least to half of them.

"Sorry doesn't cut it for me, Lily," he told her, "Do you have an idea of what you proclaimed that night? Thank Merlin no one outside our friends listened, but what if they had? What do you think would happen?" Christopher asked, pointing his finger threateningly at her.

"Look, I know I shouldn't have said that. But you also know I wouldn't say it if I wasn't really mad. When I'm mad I don't think, and it came out before I thought about the secret I would be telling!"

"The secret is not the only fucking problem!" a voice said behind them. They turned to see the three Weasleys by the door, "What you suggested, after all the two of us have been through in all these years… I can't explain you how it hurt me." Erica told her.

Lily sighed "I know," she said "But I'm sorry I said it! I didn't mean any of it, you know it!"

Erica shook her head, "Even if I do know it, I don't think I can forget what you implied in those sentences. You were really a bitch, kicking where it most hurt."

"I didn't mean it…" Lily said, "I was wrong, I was sad, I was hurt as well... I wanted to speak to you about what happened with James that morning, explain why I ran and you all just turned your backs on me! You didn't even care to let me explain!" by now, tears were almost falling from her eyes, "And now you speak about what we went through. But you didn't care when you all just discarded me like I never mattered, did you?"

"Girls… calm down. Maybe we should go somewhere else." Bessie suggested, as a small crow started to appear around them.

"We were wrong when we did that, and we know it." Erica answered. She too was crying. "But it wasn't for real! It was just a little push to see if you did anything about James. Like the time we told you he had gotten a girlfriend in Brazil, when he hadn't! And it worked, it made you jealous!"

Suddenly, everyone was silent. Then, Lily spoke, but she had a dangerous tone. "You made that up?" she said "Do you know how much I cried about it? How mad I was that it even took me to fight with my brother and my best friend?"

"I'm sorry I did that," Erica answered, "Even because it was useless as ever. But we had to do something to get you moving!"

"And making me suffer was the way you found?" Lily asked back.

"I'm sorry! We never thought it would backfire!" Erica said, "We thought you would… I don't know, finally admit that you felt something for him!"

Before they noticed, someone had dragged them away from the crowd and into a classroom.

"Some friend." Lily accused.

"I guess I can say the same after what you said!" Erica answered.

"I was angry when I said that! Why won't you understand that!" Lily screamed back.

James, Chris, Frank, Remus, Sirius, Bessie, Lindsay just watched the conversation as it went. They knew the two of them needed to have a talk like that.

"Angry or not, you said it!" Erica answered.

"You pushed me to say it!"

"I said I was sorry about doing that!" Erica said.

"But you still did it!" Lily answered, "You made me feel bad about myself when I hadn't done anything wrong! I was just scared, and it's normal for people to be scared!"

"You're always scare when it comes to James," Erica said, her voice level finally going back to normal, "And we had to scare you with something else to see if you finally stopped not trusting what you two feel."

"You did more than scare me," Lily whispered, "You- all of you- made me feel like I was completely alone. You have no idea how that feels."

"Li-" Sirius started to say, but the green eyed girl was already too hurt to hear anything else.

"You know what, I'm going to class. I'm late." She said, and she stormed out of the room.

"I'm going after her." Remus said, but was stopped by James, who put his hand in front of him.

"You stay here," he said, "I'll go."

Remus nodded in agreement as James sprinted out of the common room.

(…)

He came to find Lily inside of one of the bathrooms when a girl who was trying to flirt with him had told him she was there crying her eyes out. Wrong move to tell a guy where his fancy is if you're trying to flirt with him, was the lesson the girl learned.

James entered quietly and finally found her in the last cubicle, her sobs echoing through the bathroom.

"Lils," He called, "it's me."

"Go away," she said, trying to muffle her sobs, "I'm okay. I just need to be alone."

Just sighed, "You know I won't leave this place until you come out, right?"

"I'm looking awful." She said at last. "I'm feeling awful." She added.

James was about to answer when the bathroom door opened at Lily stepped out, eyes puffy and nose red. James hugged her as she hid her face in his robes.

"They did it on purpose." she said.

"I know," James answered.

"Even about the girlfriend, they made her up! They gave me her description for heaven's sakes!" she said.

"Really?" James asked, "And how was she like? I have to know if I can trust my cousins to find me a girl."

Lily managed a small laugh, "She had brown hair and eyes, and she was hot."

"Brown hair?" James asked "How could they! They know I prefer the blondes!"

"James!" Lily said as she punched him, but she was smiling.

"Okay, alright, I admit it. I've always been a brunettes-lover." He said, making her laugh again.

They were in silence for a while, as Lily's sobs finally subsided. "James…" she said at last.

"Yeah?"

"Can… can we keep it a secret?" Lily asked, as she looked up at him, her eyes still incredibly red. "About us?"

James frowned. "Why?"

"Just... just until I'm ready to tell. Please."

He nodded. "Alright. If you want to."

She smiled, "Thanks." She said.

"Do you want to skip the first class?" he asked her.

"Merlin no," Lily said, "It's with Hermione."

James laughed, "Are you sure? I mean, your face is kind of… red."

Lily punched his shoulder again as she turned for the mirrors, "Thanks." She said sarcastically. With a few waves of her wand, her face was back to its normal self. "I learned this when I was looking upon a charms book about mending all kind of things." She explained to his confused face.

He laughed, "Only you." he said.

"C'mon. We're late."

(…)

Next days went by in a holy silence. Lily never spoke to the others again, nor did they speak to her. Her days were spent between Bessie, Remus and James. Of course the last was without anyone else knowing.

As Saturday approached, Lily found herself not having what to do. She had tried to convince the Headmistress to let her go home, but McGonagall had politely informed her that Christmas was in very little time and she'd have time to be with them during holidays. Since she didn't want anyone to know about her and James, he had no other choice but stay with the Marauders, or they'd think it was suspicious. And as for Bessie, she was with Remus and the girls, who were with the Marauders. Meaning, she was left on her own.

"Hey, Lils!"

Lily was walking through a corridor leading to the library after dinner when a person called her. She turned and found Marilia there. Smiling to the girl, she remembered she hadn't any motive not to like her anymore, as James was all hers.

"Hi!" She said, "All okay with you, Lia?" she asked.

The girl nodded, "Yeah, but kind of lonely. I guess you're the same?"

Lily nodded, "I guess. What happened to Lua?" she asked, referring to Marilia's best friend, the one James had flirted with once in a potions class.

"She's off with her boyfriend," Lia said "And Bessie?"

"She's in the common room with the others."

Lia nodded, "I'm sorry about what happened between you and them."

Lily shrugged, "So am I. But it happened."

"So, I've been meaning to ask you. I hope you don't get me wrong," Marilia started saying, "Do you like James or not?"

"What? Of course not!" Lily said automatically. 'I've only been dating him for four days.'

"Hi." A voice said behind them. Lily groaned as she recognized it: James. And, oh boy, he wasn't happy.

"Jamey!" Marilia said he walked to them. She immediately kissed both his cheeks and laced her arm around his torso. Lily felt herself burning inside as he just allowed her to do that; 'Breathe,' she thought, 'Breathe.'

"I prefer Jimmy, if you ask me." The read haired girl said with sarcasm.

James looked at her and smirked, as he put his arm around Marilia's shoulder. He was provoking her, and she knew it.

"Need anything?" Lily asked him.

"C'mon Lily, don't be so bad to him. Maybe he just wants company."

Lily gave a fake smile, "Maybe." She said.

Marilia whispered something to James, and he answered her in the same whispering tone. As they continued to talk like that, Lily watched, fuming. She was getting to a boiling point.

When the girl pressed her finger to her boyfriend's chest, she exploded.

"Marilia, can you keep a secret?" she asked suddenly, making Lia look at her.

"Sure." She answered confusedly.

"James has a girlfriend," She said "A very nice, sweet girl that he doesn't tell people about. I know because the girl told me."

Marilia's eyes widened as she looked at James, and he looked at Lily with an agape mouth, but an amused expression. "James! I'm sorry! I had no idea!" Marilia said, "I'm going to go now." she said and, with one last good look at James, she ran away.

And as she did, Lily started laughing. "Now that was easy.", she said as she stared at the guy in front of her.

James pulled her by the waist to him, "You can't just say those things. Now I'll have to go and tell her who the nice, sweet girl is."

Lily encircled his neck with her arms, "Really?" she asked, "I don't know if the girl will like that." she whispered as his lips approached hers.

"Then I'll tell her she doesn't exist. Lia was suggesting quite a nice idea for my afternoon."

Lily frowned at him "You can't just do that," she said, referring to the scene he and Marilia had done earlier "You know I don't like it."

"You said you didn't like me." he answered.

"One thing are words; another thing are actions." She said, "So don't do it."

James nodded, "Can I kiss you now or do you have anything else to say?"

Lily grinned, "Go ahead, fine gentleman."

(…)

"Where's James?" Frank asked he sat in the common room with his girlfriend next to him. Sirius, Lindsay, Christopher, Erica, Elizabeth and Remus were there as well.

"Wasn't he here just moments ago?" Sirius asked as he looked around the common room.

"He disappeared again." Lindsay said. "And to only Merlin knows where."

Erica sighed, "I have an idea of where he may be," She said, "But I'm sad he didn't tell us himself."

"Where?" Remus asked as Bessie, sitting next to him, tried to go unnoticed. After all, she didn't know where he was, but she knew with who he was.

"It's for him to tell," Erica answered, "Besides, I'm not sure. I just have a feeling."

"Your feelings are usually right so… spill." Chris said to his girlfriend.

"Tell me, how long are we dating?" she asked him.

"Almost three years?" he tried.

"Exactly. And you still didn't learn that I don't tell my feelings to anyone except-" here she stopped. Everyone knew she only talked about feelings and ideas she might have about secrets with Lily. She looked down, before sighing and finishing, "I don't tell my feelings."

"You know, I wished we had some way to know exactly where he is in the castle." Lindsay said, trying to drift the attention to what Erica had said.

"Yeah. So do I. That way we could find out exactly where he is." Sirius said.

After a few seconds, Remus slammed the book he was reading to Sirius' head. "Hey! What was that for?" Sirius asked, as he rubbed his head in the place the book had hit, "That hurts!"

"It was to see if I could get what's inside working," Remus answered, "The map, you doll!"

Sirius eyes widened and he brightened as he got up, sending Lindsay to the floor in the process, as she was sitting in his lap. "Of course!" he said, searching for something in his pocket.

"Sirius!" Lindsay shrieked from the floor, as everyone laughed silently. "You're a jerk!"

He looked down, "Sorry, baby." He said, pulling her up and then changing his attention back to a piece of parchment in his hand.

"You're not looking at it here, are you?" Frank asked, "And show the map's secret?"

"Right, right." Sirius said, as he went to an empty area of the common room. Everyone waited as he opened the map and searched for James. After a while, Sirius gasped.

"You won't believe it, but I think the map is ruined."

(…)

James and Lily were inside an interesting broom closet- much bigger than the last one Lily had been in- kissing heatedly. After the Marilia incident, James decided he had to make up for it. And, of course, who was Lily to refuse??

James shirtless and so was Lily. "You know," she whispered, "Snogging in a broom closet isn't as bad as I first thought."

James laughed as he kissed her again, turning and pressing her to the door. And that was when they felt it. The door opened as they fell backwards, James on top of her.

"Oh my good Merlin, it is true!" a scandalized voice said.

James was going to start saying an excuse but, when he looked up, he found Sirius smirking. "Hey!" James said, "Stop checking out my girlfriend!"

Lily quickly found her shirt and put her back on. Sirius laughed out loud as he watched his two friends getting redressed.

"So…" he asked at last, "What's going on with you two?"

James rolled his eyes, "How did you find us?" he asked.

Sirius took out the map and showed him the place where they were. "Thought the map was cracked when I saw you two. Had to come and see with my own eyes!

"Girlfriend, you said?" Sirius continued, "And all this time little Miss Head Girl playing hard to get… how long since you started going out?"

"Wednesday." Lily answered.

"Cool! Four days!" Sirius said as he grinned.

"So, you're fine with it?" James asked confused.

"Of course!" the animagus said, "Why wouldn't I? If you ever get married, I'm the best man. I was the one who first made the bet about Flower after all."

James grinned, but Lily didn't even smile, "Back to Flower, are we?" she asked.

Sirius sighed. "Look, I'm sorry, okay? I'm really sorry. But it turned out for the best! James and you are together, right?"

Lily sighed and managed a small smile, "Okay, Sirius. Whatever. I'm getting tired of being mad lately."

Sirius smiled as he pulled her into a hug. "Sirius! Stop trying to fell her up!" James said, as they all laughed.

"Anyway, were you the only one who saw the map?" Lily asked worriedly.

Sirius shook his head, "Nah. Frank, Chris and Remus saw it as well. But they didn't want to come and check. Said they believe the map was fine and you two were really… at it." he finished grinning.

"Shut up," Lily said, "Do you think they'll tell?"

"No, they said they wouldn't because James hadn't, so they suspected you two wanted to keep it secret. Which is true, right?"

Lily nodded. "Yeah."

Silence…

"Sirius, can you go away now?" James asked at last, "we were in the middle of something here."

"James!" Lily said, punching him playfully as Sirius laughed.

"Fine. Don't worry with my feelings. It'll be hard, but I'll survive!"

"Sod off."

(…)

That day for Sirius was a really important day.

Not only had he found out his best friend had finally gotten into the girl he loved pants- well, he wasn't sure he had, but, if he hadn't, he'd pretend he did- but also he, Sirius, was on good terms with said girl again. Who actually had really nice attributes.

'Girlfriend, Sirius. You have a girlfriend.' His conscience said.

He smiled at that. Yes, he, Sirius Black, had a girlfriend. An almost four months girlfriend. A three months a fifteen days girlfriend. Not that he was counting, of course.

It was amazing how things with Lindsay were so easy. His so called conscience didn't even need to bug him so much, for everything he did he thought about what she would think and say forehand.

It amazed him how one simple girl changed his entire life. And that night, he'd finally be able to prove to her that he loved her more than she could think off. Yes, loved. Incredible but was true.

And for that feeling, Sirius Black had kept himself for her. Yes, contrary to school belief- and even to his friend's belief- Sirius Black was a virgin. And his creepy grandmother was the one to fault. She was the one who told him about the diseases one could get if they made sex with girls when he was only six. So, since then he was stuck with the idea you'd get sick if you did sex. Even as he grew up, he never forgot that and, every time he was almost at it, he couldn't do it.

But with Lindsay… with her, it was different. He wouldn't be making sex, he'd be making love. And that made all the difference from him.

And that night… that was the night. He had all set up in the come and go room… he had thought in every detail… every flower of her favourite's, every chocolate she liked… everything.

Nothing could go wrong. Nothing would go wrong.

(…)

"Where are you going after all?" Erica asked her cousin later that night, before dinner. "You can't possibly be wearing that dress just to go to the Great Hall, right?"

Lindsay giggled, "Of course not!" she said.

"Then where are you going?" Alice asked as she too joined Erica while they stared at Lindsay.

"I can't tell. Maybe later, but not now."

Bessie sighed, "I bet you're meeting Sirius."

"That's obvious," Alice said, "Sirius would kill her if she wore that to go out with anyone who wasn't him."

They laughed. "Lily isn't back yet, is she?" Lindsay asked suddenly.

The conversation darkened immediately, "No," Alice said, "You know she only comes here when she knows we're not here or to sleep."

Lindsay nodded, "I miss her, you know? That useless things she said, the running away from the Great Hall in the morning when she saw an owl, the smiling for absolutely no reason…"

"Yeah, I get what you say," Alice said, "We were too hard on her, weren't we?"

"Completely," Lindsay answered, "Maybe if we talk to her and try to make it right?" she suggested.

"Yeah. I wanted to do that too. But I don't think she'll forgive us." Alice said.

"Me neither." Lindsay answered, sighing. "Anyway, how do I look?" she asked, turning to her friends.

"Beautiful.", "Sexy.", "Dazzling." the three said at the same time.

Lindsay grinned, "Great!"

"Anyway," Erica said, getting up, "I'm going to dinner. Are you coming?"

"I'm staying." Lindsay said as all the others nodded.

"See you later." Bessie said as they waved and left the room.

Lindsay turned to the mirror one last time, "Wish me luck." She said to herself, as she smiled anxiously and left the room.

(…)

"Stop staring."

"Can't help it, you look beautiful."

"And sexy, and dazzling."

"What?"

Lindsay laughed at Sirius' face. "Nothing. Forget it."

They were in the room of requirement, she had found out. Sirius had set everything for them, even the dinner- he had brought everything she loved. He could always surprise her one way or another.

They had finished dinner and were now talking. She was amazed how she always had something to talk to him about, something to say. They were never in silence- and, if they were, it was a comfortable silence.

"I can't believe it took me so much to admit I liked you," he said as he gazed into her blue eyes, "Thank Merlin you forced me to."

Lindsay laughed, "I did, didn't I?" she asked. "What could I do? I was hopelessly in love."

"You were?"

"I am."

"So am I." he said seriously, not taking her eyes off her. He could see her surprised expression. He had never said he loved her before. Sure, he had said he liked her, but never loved. It was Sirius Black for Merlin's sakes!

"Wait, wait. Can you say that again? I don't think I got it right." she asked with the hints of a smile on her face.

"I am in love with you." he said.

Lindsay grinned as she pulled him to her and started kissing him. 'It should be a sin to kiss like this.' she thought, as she felt his tongue entering her mouth.

Slowly, they started walking to the bed. She fell, him on top of her. And she knew exactly where they were going.

"Sirius… I'm… I'm not sure about this." She whispered. "I'm… I'm virgin."

He stopped sucking her neck to face her eyes, "So am I."

Lindsay pushed him away, "I'm not kidding!" she said, getting angry "I really am!"

Sirius smiled. "I wasn't kidding as well. I never had sexual relationships with anyone before."

Lindsay's jaw fell, "What about all those girls you bragged about?" she asked.

"It was all a lie. All I did to those girls was snog them. Nothing more."

To his surprise, she smiled. "You know, that makes me love you even more."

He smiled too at last, as they fell once again to the bed.

(…)

"So you knew all along?"

"Of course, Lily never hides anything from me!"

Remus sighed, but smiled right after. "Hallelujah then!" he said "Finally."

They were walking back to the common room after dinner when Remus decided to tell her about James and Lily. They were best friends after all. To his surprise, she already knew.

Bessie laughed, "You know, when she told him about the prophecy, and after he told her he knew, they kissed. And Henry woke up just as things started to get heated!"

Remus laughed, "Oh man, that must've been embarrassing."

"You don't know how much. Henry always was really protective of Lily. He always teased her, but never let anyone do the same." She said, "That prick." She called him, but not without a hint of affection.

Remus turned serious as he looked at her, "Do you still like him?" he asked.

She shrugged, "I'm not so sure anymore. I mean, I liked him a lot, really. And then he broke up with me; when I was starting to move on, he got in a coma. And I was so worried about him that I think I mistook my worry with my love for him. Right now, I think we were wrong from the beginning. He's more like an older brother for me, and maybe that was why it didn't work out. I think that was why he broke up with me first place."

Remus nodded in understanding, "I'm sorry about it."

Bessie smiled, "Don't be." She said "And you? You never speak about who you like. Who was the last girl you've been with?"

Remus shifted uncomfortably. Bessie's eyes widened. "No…" she said, "Don't tell me…?"

Remus nodded, making Bessie laugh. "The last girl you were with was me?" she asked to make sure.

"C'mon, stop teasing," he said "It's just that you were so good I couldn't see anyone living up for the expectations." He said sarcastically, making her laugh again.

"I knew I was good, but not that much." she said, "But seriously, Remus, why don't you date? There are tons of girls out there. Actually, you also have a fan club. Not as big as Sirius' or James', but you do have one!"

Remus shrugged, trying to find a reasonable explanation she would believe. "I'm waiting for the right girl." He said.

"Lily was once the right girl, wasn't she?" Bessie asked, starting to understand. "Do you still like her?"

Remus looked at her strangely, "Lily? No, I don't like her anymore. Yes, she was once the right girl, but now she's James' right girl."

Bessie nodded, "You know you were her first boyfriend? The first person she kissed?"

"I was?? Neat! I have something to tell her and James' kids!"

Bessie laughed, "Shut up. I have just decided something."

"What?" he asked as they arrived to the fat Lady portrait. He said the password "Passado."

"I'm getting you a girl!" she announced and she got in the common room.

"Bess, no! There's no need for it!"

"Yes, but I'm doing it anyway. Actually, I'll start making a list now! See you later Remus!"

Remus sighed as she disappeared up the stairs, "What happened to her?" Chris, who was sitting in the common room with Frank, asked.

"Said she's getting me a girl." Remus told them.

"Good. I was thinking about doing the same, but if she already has the case…" James said as he sat down next to them.

"You know about my furry little problem. I can't date." Remus answered.

"Your father has the same furry little problem and he's just fine with you mum." Chris said, "So stop being stubborn and enjoy life!"

Remus sighed, decided to change the subject. "And where the hell is Padfoot?"

They all looked around, clueless.

"Gone." James answered.

"And the map?" Remus asked.

"Gone with him." Frank said.

"Great." they all chorused, laughing afterwards.

(…)

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Author's note: yes, I did make the chapter longer because I spent so many time without posting. But it's the village parties (or whatever you call it in English) and my parents have a coffee shop, and my sister and I have to help. I'll try to get the next chapter up by Monday or something, but I can't promise anything. Also, it's bigger because it's my favourite chapter and I couldn't stop writing. If I didn't need to eat it'd be even longer. lol.

Thanks for the reviews from last chapter!

Hannah

ps: this chapter should have been out by friday, but i wasn't able to update because fanfic wouldn't let me.sorry.