Warning: This chapter is Highly Emotional

Part Two: You Lost Me

We had magic and this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

Haley awoke a few hours later, naked in the sheets, tangled up in Sam's fleshy warmth. Gazing upon her love as he lie inches from her face, a man she would move heaven and earth for if he asked, her heart splintered, the edges falling away. He had just made sweet passionate love to her in the most beautiful of ways while a secret lie hidden away in her heart. Haley had never held a secret against Sam, not like this, the guilt and weight from it was suffocating her.

Sucking in a deep breath of his distinct scent, Haley gently untangled from him. Grabbing Sam's discarded tee-shirt off the floor, Haley pulled it on, and wandered over to the table chair set. Taking a quiet seat on the plastic vinyl, warm tears slipped down her cheeks. Watching Sam peacefully sleep, for the first time ever Haley felt she didn't deserve him, and it broke her heart.

Sam woke minutes later, somehow sensing Haley's absence. Sitting up in bed he easily spotted her. Knees tucked under her chin, tears gleaming on her cheeks as her stifles made her whole body shake. Rapidly pulling on his boxers Sam went to her, but before he could reach her, Haley jumped away.

"Don't," Haley pleadingly warned him, shooting up from the chair. Backing from him slowly, as the concern in his eyes only broke her guilty heart worse, sent more regretful tears from her eyes.

"Hales, what's wrong?" Sam cautiously asked, standing still in the middle of room, because she wouldn't let him near her, and yet he couldn't step away, not when she was so clearly falling apart. He'd always be there for her. He just needed to know what was wrong.

Sam's eyebrow furrowed, "Are you worried because we just…" He started, but Haley cut him off, already knowing what he was trying to say.

"I love you, Sammy. More then I'll ever love anything. I need you to know that." Haley admitted on a weak breath out of the blue, as her chest rattled with the emotion, and a violent sob rattled up her constricting chest.

Confusion filled Sam's eyes, not understanding why her words were bringing her so much pain, but feeling the throbbing in his heart coming off her, he knew they were.

"I know, I love you too," Sam tried to reassure with cautious lips, as apprehension began to fill his heart. There was something she was holding back, something so bad it was practically killing her to hold it in, he could feel it like impending doom.

"Something happened while you were gone." Haley whispered through tear drenched lips, before she lost the courage, because she couldn't keep this from him. Part of her had wanted to, hoped she could keep him, but upon Sam's arrival, looking into his eyes, making love with him, Haley knew it wasn't possible to live a lie. She loved him too much to make a fool of him, and pretend like nothing happened.

Sam's eyebrow furrowed deeply, as anxiousness filled his sensitive whiskey eyes, and dread pummeled his gut. His lips wanted to move, but they couldn't find life. Paralyzed by fear of what she was going to say.

"Dean and I kissed." Haley's breath quietly admitted, as her lower lip trembled with the weight of her words. Her arms encircled herself for comfort and strength to follow through. Her breath shook hard as tears kept her face soaked, and her heart prepared for execution.

The disbelief hit Sam's puppy dog eyes first. "What?" The words fumbled from his lips with the initial shock, almost unsure he had heard her right. His heart stuck in suspended motion, praying it wasn't true, and wouldn't have to break into a million pieces.

"He was drunk, and it just happened. It was a mistake. It didn't mean anything." Haley rambled, as the tears stilled on her face. The hurt look in his eyes enough to momentarily freeze her. The look in Sam's eyes was a shot to her heart, she could feel it mortally wounded. While the confession was freeing, his reasonable response was her death sentence.

As the words sunk in, the anger instantly found a home within him in an attempt to protect his bleeding wounded heart.

"You what? What do you mean you kissed? What kind of kiss?" Sam's voice grew rough, as he interrogated. His heated injured eyes narrowing in on her. The anger holding the pain at bay.

Knowing she owed him the truth no matter how painful, Haley recounted the moment as she remembered it in her mind. "We were just playing around… I, I accidentally fell on him while he was on the bed, and he kissed me, we kissed each other… and then we didn't stop… not, right away." She revealed, the words leaving her desolate and empty inside. As she truly realized how a few lost minutes of her life would tarnish a sacred bond built over a lifetime.

And we tried, Oh, How we cried,

We lost ourselves, the love has died,

And though we tried you can't deny,

We're left as shell's, we lost the fight

"You made out with Dean on the bed? How could you do that?" Sam lost all composure as his voice rose in volume, what Haley was saying was deafening to his ears it was so painful. She had cheated on him. The girl who was his heart and soul, his diamond in the rough of his miserable life, had cheated on him, with his brother no less. Her revelation shot through him like a bullet, and left him bloody in his hands.

Seeing that look in his eyes, the look she knew meant it was taking every ounce of strength for him not to completely loose it, Haley shut up, but nodded her head in confirmation.

Shaking his head in disbelief, as the betraying images filled his tortured mind, Sam found wounding words slipping from his lips too. "You always did like him." Sam spoke low with spite as tears stung his wounded eyes from the feel of his heart breaking inside his chest. As he felt the thing that was most important to him… her, being ripped away. Finally Sam realized that tiny warning voice inside had been right about her and Dean all along.

"No," Haley shook her head vehemently from side to side, as she felt Sam slipping away from her even though deep inside she knew he was already gone. Stepping toward him, Haley tried to explain. "It's you I love. That's why I stopped. That's why I couldn't lie." Her breath grew frantic with the distance he was creating, and the way she wasn't sure she could bear it. Tears surged fast and burning to be in released in her eyes as Haley felt herself losing the only boy she had ever loved.

Evading her, Sam had to get away from Haley. Get away from everything she represented to him, and the way it was all up flames now that she had betrayed him in the worst way possible. The eruption inside him waiting to explode was too volatile and painful to do in front of her. Especially since she was the one to ignite the fuse that would ultimately unravel him.

"Get out of my way." Sam warned, the seriousness palpable on his breath, and in his devastated tear pooled eyes. As his heart had already begun to fracture so deeply he knew he'd crumble any moment.

Knowing he would leave, she didn't want him out wandering around in the night, barely clothed. Haley backed up to the door, and blocked it with her body.

"Sammy please, let's just talk about this." She pleaded, as her voice trembled with fear.

Unable to look at Haley another second without flames scorching his insides, without her killing his failing heart more then she already was, Sam threw his jacket on, and charged for the door hoping she'd move. When Haley didn't Sam found himself getting within inches of her face. Something he had never done before, but he had never felt like this before.

"It's. Sam! Now get out of my way!" Sam hollered at Haley as tears finally fell from his broken puppy dog eyes, his breathe hot on her face.

Haley trembled against the velocity of his words, the anger coming off him like a hurricane, but it was the sight of his torturous tears that killed her the most. She had never hurt Sam like this before, and it was more painful then she ever could have imagined. Standing her ground out of love for him, Haley shook her head from side to side.

"No, Sammy." She weak voice trembled out.

Her protest was more then he could take. The fuse to his end was already lit, Sam knew he had to get away from her before he took it out on her.

Gently but firmly gripping her by the arms, Sam pulled Haley away from the door, because even blinded by rage and crippling agony he couldn't touch her with anger. He couldn't hurt her with his hands, even though part of him wanted to hurt her as badly as she hurt him.

Their eyes met for one more second, as tears of regret slipped down Haley's face like a flood, and fire mixed with devastated tears dropped out of control from Sam's puppy dog eyes to match.

In a second Sam charged out the door destroyed, leaving Haley to crumble to the floor. Cradling herself, as her broken heart bathed her. Leaving her to dwell on the fact that she made her bed. Now she had to lie down in it.

I feel like our worlds been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

"You lost me" Christina Aguilera

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