Disclaimer: I do not own anything that doesn't have my name written next to it in pretty pink pen. I don't even own my horse Tig…that's how broke I am. I only claim ownership on Asher Hayden, Sarah Stevenson and anyone else that you do not recognise.

Summary: She went to the shut the door but paused, smiling slightly to herself despite the glare from the girl on her knees in front of the biker. "You do realise this is a twelve year olds birthday party?" It started at a twelve year olds birthday party in a Tacoma backyard ten years ago. Happy/OC

Sorry they've been so far between and kind of short! I know what I want to do, just trying to keep up the motivation so I'm sorry! Hope you enjoy this one and thank you all for the wonderful reviews x

Stylized Violence – choreographed violence used in film and television to portray the illusion of real violence.

Chapter Thirty-Seven – Wires

Running, down corridors through, automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
I see hope is here, in a plastic box
I've seen Christmas lights, reflect in your eyes
You got wires, going in
You got wires, coming out of your skin
There's dry blood, on your wrist
Your dry blood on my fingertip
-Athlete

Tacoma WA

16th December 2005

The automatic doors barely had time to open as Asher ran through them. Her heart was pounding furiously as she continued through the corridors, slowing down to a fast paced walk as she went past the nurses station before breaking into a run again.

"Hey! No running!" Someone yelled, but she didn't care, she just kept on going, not slowing down until she saw them. They turned their heads as they heard her approach and Asher felt her stomach plummet at the sight of them. Happy and Riley- both looking solemn as they stood there, Kozik sitting in a chair nearby and Lorca pacing the corridor, stopping to stare at her.

Automatically Ashers eyes went to Happy. His white t-shirt was stained with blood and she felt sick. Her head felt light headed and she knew she needed to sit down, but not before she knew what had happened.

"Is she…?" They were silent. It was Riley who broke the silence.

"She needed a blood transfusion." Asher felt herself sway slightly, but someone righted her, Kozik it seemed had gotten to his feet. Asher stared up at him. He was always the obvious protector of Sarah. She adored his silly jokes that she was too young to recognise as the same way he flirted.

"Hey, she's alright JB." Koz said, holding her shoulders and giving her a stern look. Asher nodded. "Her parents are in there, no-one can go in." Her eyes left Kozik and drifted to Happy standing off to the side, quiet as usual, blood on his hands, as usual. "I'll get you a drink." Kozik said but Asher barely heard him. All she knew was seconds later it was just her and the Tacoma Killer. Her watching him, him watching the ground.

"Hap…" What was she going to say?

What happened?

Are you okay?

I'm sorry.

"Save it." He growled out and her face softened, her breathing easing slightly. "Just...not now Asher." She didn't need to look around to know that there was no one coming, she knew Happy and she knew by the look on his face that this was killing him.

"Hap." Striding forward she reached him and before he could do anything she wrapped her arms around his waist and held him tight. She'd missed him so much. Every inch of him. He smelt like leather and aftershave as she buried her head in his chest and silently begged him to wrap his arms around her. But he didn't and after a few seconds of silence she pulled away and turned her back on him, going down the hall to find someone who could help her.

She was walking towards reception when she heard her name and she turned to see Blue leaning against the wall behind the coffee machine. She didn't move, just stood staring at the man that had practically raised her. Part of her was furious- how had he not seen this coming? Part of her was breaking as she took in the broken down man that had once led one of the fiercest charters of Sons.

"Asher." He said her name again, this time quietly, the pain evident in his voice. Asher didn't say anything. Just stared at him. "What have I done?" This seemed to break the silent spell Asher was in.

"It's not your fault." Asher said quietly, trying to fight every instinct that said it was his fault. Her life was full of failing fathers, but Blue wasn't one of them. If anything, he'd protected his daughter from all he could. Sometimes you couldn't save everyone, right?

"It is. I should have been there. Just like I should have been there to pick her up early that day." He said quietly, slumped against the wall. "She's my little girl and I failed her."

"Feeling sorry for yourself won't fix anything."

"Asher." She knew the warning tone anywhere. Looking over her shoulder at Happy who had materialised there, she inwardly winced before turning back to Blue.

"It's not your fault." Then taking a deep breath she kept walking, out into the fresh air. Finding a empty bench on the grass she took a seat and slumped heavily into it as she stared out into the hospital grounds. She was there for a good five minutes before a foam cup was held out in front of her and she looked up to see the tattooed biker standing over her.

The Tacoma killer reduced to getting coffee for the bitch that betrayed him.

"You want it or not?" Happy couldn't help the way it came out, or the slight shake to his hand as he held the cup out to the blonde. Asher took the cup and he nodded before sitting down beside her. "I found her you know." He said after a minute of silence.

"I know." He watched her lip tug slightly. "You seem to have a habit of doing that." He swallowed the lump and the words that threatened to tell her that it was because of her, yet again that he'd been there.

"Yeah…"

"You wanna talk about it?" She asked turning her blue eyes on him and he felt a slight ache in his chest. Those blue eyes knew everything about him.

"Nah." He saw her nod before she went back to staring at the coffee in her hand. "You?"

"Nah, I think we both get the gist of what this means." She said quietly and he nodded this time. Yeah they did. Of all the people in Sarahs life, they knew this had been coming. Blue and Liz had refused to getting her counselling. They'd sheltered her for as long as they could and she'd hidden her secret too long. Of course she was going to have intimacy issues. They of all people understood that.

Happy and Asher sat in silence then until Riley came out to stand in front of them, shifting awkwardly from foot to foot as he looked between the two of them.

"She's awake. She wants to see you both." He cleared his throat and headed back to the door and Happy watched him go, seeing Courtney waiting for him at the door.

"Aight." Happy stood up and looked down at Asher beside him. "You comin'." She shook her head slowly and looked up at him.

"Not yet."

Asher was still sitting there when Kozik walked out and sat down beside her. She didn't need to look up to know it was him, his halo of blonde spiky hair was evident in her peripheral . So was the bandaged hand. He didn't sit as close as Happy had. The hostility was radiating off him though.

"Hap won't go in there, he's waitin' for you." Asher didn't say anything in reply so he took it as his cue to talk. "I've been thinkin'…"

"Don't take up new hobbies Koz."

"Ah, and there's the jailbait I know." He chuckled despite the circumstances and Asher smiled slightly. "And there's that pretty little smile of yours."

"You're a charmer you know that?"

"Well aware darling." She watched him rub his fingers over the bandage on his hand. "I ain't as stupid as people think I am." Asher turned her head to look at him, cocking an eyebrow with interest. "Blue and Liz ain't gunna listen to me, doll, but you…" He sighed and Asher watched the heavy slump of his shoulders, "are like a daughter to them."

"What're you getting at Koz?"

"I know you got the transfer to Seattle." Asher swallowed the lump in her throat. She'd wanted to tell Happy first. Spanner was the only one that she'd told. Him and his big mouth…

"Before you start thinkin' of ways to kill Spanner, it wasn't 'im." He clearly knew it was coming. "Collie runs a check on you occasionally…for you know who." Ashers eyebrow went higher, but she didn't reply. "Point is JB, Sarah needs out, outta this fuckin' town." He ran the bandaged hand over his forehead and sighed again. "You're the only one that can do that, girl."

"You want me to take Sarah to Seattle with me?"

"Yeah." Asher bit her lip and looked down at her hands which had torn up the Styrofoam cup Happy had given her nearly an hour ago. Kozik stood up and turned to walk away but stopped and turned to look at Asher one last time. "They're gunna give up on her, Ash. You and I both wouldn't be here if everyone had given up on us." Asher watched him go before standing up herself.

Kozik had a point. And she knew he was right. She'd been thinking about it since she'd been given the transfer to Seattle.

Taking a deep breath she stood up and walked towards the hospital again.

The scene in front of her was not what she was expecting when she walked in. For the last two years she'd spent most of her time in the cancer ward at the Sacramento Base Hospital, and hadn't been exposed to many suicides since her early days. It made her forget the pain that ripped through your chest when you saw someone so young lying there, wrists wrapped in bandages and know that that person had reached a point so low that they didn't want to live anymore.

She'd had her low moments, and there'd been times when she'd spent a whole night staring a bottle of whiskey and considering taking the easy way out, but every time she saw Sarah and Happy in that room all those years ago and she reasoned that even if she didn't have much to do with Happy and Sarah these days, she still mattered to them. And they mattered to her.

And now here in front of her was little Sarah Stevenson, who wasn't so little anymore. The girl that she thought of as a little sister swathed in bandages, dark circles under her eyes and pale. She almost turned around and walked back out before anyone saw her but felt a hand on the small of her back and she glanced up to see Happy standing over her. His eyebrow jerked and she nodded. He was going to do this with her.

"Hey. " Asher choked and Lizzie and Blues heads swivelled around to look at her.

"Asher." Lizzie gasped and stood up to come and hug Asher, wrapping her arms around her tightly. Asher never took her eyes off Sarah though as Liz pulled away and turned to look at her daughter, her hand still on Ashers arm. "Look honey."

Sarahs pale eyes watched Asher who looked up at Happy briefly before walking towards the bed. Blue stood up and patted Ashers shoulder before walking over to his wife.

"We'll be outside." He said quietly and Asher took his vacated seat beside the teenager while Happy stood in the doorway.

"We'll be okay." Asher said softly to the man that she'd been missing for months on end. "Promise."

"I'll be out here." He turned to leave but Sarahs croaky voice made them both look over at her.

"Thanks Happy." He nodded again and left, leaving the two girls sitting there alone in the room.