Chapter 35 How Future Plans Can Change Suddenly

Randy

I'm still standing in our backyard in shock, trying to keep in the tears, but it's not working. As I hear rustling in the bushes, I try to wipe away the tears before I turn around.

Lisa looks at me like a deer caught in headlights.

'Uhm, hi.. What are you guys doing out here?' She asks me and feigns innocence, while her face displays guilt.

'We were just talking. What about you?' Jeremy asks her accusingly.

'Yeah, just talking...' The tension can be felt all the way through the backyard.

'Huh, funny. I didn't know you could still talk with someone's tongue down your throat.' I don't mean for it to come out this way, but it hurts so damn much... Lisa doesn't reply, just stands there, looking guilty.

'Randy, I...' I brush her hand off my shoulder and take a step back.

'Just don't.. You were kissing someone.. why? Why, Lisa?' I know I'm starting to make noise now, but it's hard to keep quiet about.

'Randy, please.. let's go inside and talk, ok?' I try to keep my anger and pain at bay and nod. She heads inside and I follow her. People are staring, but I hardly notice them. They must feel the tension between us. I see my parents giving me a look, but I just shake my head.

We head to my bedroom in the basement and I close the door, to drown out all the music and laughter coming from upstairs. When I turn around, she is sitting on my bed and motions for me to sit next to her. I sigh heavily, before sitting down.

The silence is agonizing. No one speaks, makes a sound. Until I hear quiet sobbing. I look at her and see tears falling from her eyes. I turn my face away from her.

'I am so sorry, Randy.... I didn't mean for this to happen..' She almost whispers through her sobbing.

'Why... Who.. What happened? I thought we were in love?' Now my own tears can no longer be stopped and they start to stream down.

'We were.. I mean, we are.. I just.. I don't know..'

'I can't believe this.. I knew it.. I knew something was going on, but I hoped this wasn't it.. How long?'

'About a month...' She replies in a painful whisper. I draw in a breath.

'A month? Wow.. That's a long time.. So you've been cheating on me for a month? Why?'

'I don't know why.. I didn't mean for it to happen, we just met and we clicked and then it just happened...' I put my head in my hands.

'Do you love him?'

'I... I think I do..' I nod.

'So you don't love me anymore then? This is it?'

'No.. I.. I love you too.. Oh god.. This is so hard..'

'Are you telling me you love both of us? Because that's not possible.. You can only be with one person..'

'I know.. And I want to make the right choice, but it's so difficult..'

'After all this time that we've been together and everything we've been through, you have a hard time choosing? Wow, that's just amazing..'

'Look, I never meant to fall in love with someone else, but it happened, alright? It just happened...' She's standing now, crying her eyes out. I stand up as well.

'You don't "just" fall in love with someone else, Lisa. We even discussed our future together, we talked about a future with the two of us.. What happened to that, huh? And then you just walk into a bar or whatever and you "just" fall in love? How did that happen? What, you fell and landed in his pants, is that it?'

'That is not fair...'

'You think I'm being unfair? I'm the one who's wrong here? You're the one who thinks it difficult to choose between the guy you were ready to spend the right of your life with and someone you met a month ago. Well, you know what? How about I choose for you? Would that make it easier?'

'No, Randy, please..'

'No, Lisa. I don't want to be with someone who can't stop thinking about another person and can't decide who she loves more. If you really cared, this choice wouldn't be so hard. So, I'll just make it easier for the both of us. Go find your "boyfriend". Let him know he won. Let me know how things work out between you, ok? Goodbye Lisa.. '

I walk out of my bedroom and up the stairs, hardly even feeling anything, except for the pain of my heart being ripped out slowly, piece by piece. I don't notice the tears rolling down or our party guests looking at me in shock. I hardly notice my mom guiding me towards the couch and my dad bringing me a glass of water, while they close down the party and send everyone home.

The moment I wake up just enough to notice my surroundings, is when I hear Lisa's voice as she is standing inside the living room, still sobbing.

'Uhm, I'm just going to go home and check my bags one more time, for our flight tomorrow.'

'Lisa, sweetie..'

'I'm fine, Jill. Don't worry about me. Thank you for the party, guys. I'm just going to head home and go to sleep. Bye..' She says sadly as she walks out.

Again, more silence in the room, until mom speaks up.

'Randy? Sweetie? Are you ok?' I try to hold it in, but the tears start once again as I open my mouth to speak.

'We broke up..'

'Oh, honey.. I'm so sorry.. What happened?'

'It doesn't matter.. She just fell in love with someone else, that's all...'

'Oh, baby, come here...' She takes me in her arms and I cry on her shoulder. I might not want to show too much affection towards my parents normally, but right now I really don't care. It makes me feel better.

I just can't believe we're really over. I had my entire future planned out and she was part of it. Tomorrow that future is starting, starting with New York, but everything is messed up. I wonder how long it takes for a broken heart to mend....

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A/N Hi there! Sorry for the length and sadness of this chapter, this is just how it turned out to be in my mind. Only the epilogue is still to come, so look out for that hopefully this week!

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