An.sitting in her armchair stroking a stuffed toy chicken and looking evil Yeeees my faithful readers, now when you provided me with over forty reviews on one single chapter I feel I must reward you (and thank you) ;). I disclaim ownership and claim lack of talent in spelling. And sorry that it took so long time.. I had to rewrite a big part…I just couldn't get it the way I wanted it.

Timeturner twist

Chap 35

Their heads parted. The kiss had been... well her knees where weak.

Her mouth was still slightly open and her hands still grasped his bathrobe.

They stood close only looking at one and other.

He lifted his hand and cupped her chin, stroking her gently with his thumb.

"You still don't love me." He told her. It wasn't an accusation, just a statement.

"I like you"

He only continued his gentle caress. She closed her eyes feeling his touch. So tender for her professor. Her professor.

He lowered his hand there was something in his eyes... a sadness.

"we shouldn't be doing this"

Her eyes flew open staring in to his. At her socked look he turned and headed for the wardrobe.

"And why not prey?" she snapped at him folding her arms.

"Turn around." He said calmly.

"I'm not leaving!"

"I'm getting dressed, turn around Miss Granger."

"oh." She turned red in the face. "And why shouldn't we be doing this?!" she asked again.

"Because it's still not right." He said.

"WHY NOT?"

"I'm your teacher. How could we handle this when we return to our time? You may turn."

"I just don't get you!" she said exasperated and turned around.

Since it was late he stood in his sleeping gear, black silky pants and a black silky shirt which he was currently buttoning.

"..First you say you love me, and then you don't want me! And when I say I want you, you still don't want me! Let me fill you in on a little secret…MOST PEOPLE WANT THE PERSON THEY LOVE!"

"I just don't want us to get in to a situation we can't handle!" He hissed, apparently starting to lose his temper.

"You're just running away aren't you?"

"Stop this Miss Granger" he warned in a menacing voice. But there was no stopping her.

"..You don't want me now because I want you. You're scared of the consequences.. Coward."

His eyes flared. He strode over to her, grabbed her hair and yanked her head back.

"Don't call me a Coward! I HEARD YOU, YOU KNOW!" he screamed and realized his grip on her.

She was taken aback. "Wha..what do you mean?"

He turned his back to her and quoted her "I believe your exact words were I can't love him."

"but !.. but I didn't…" oh my god! She hadn't even thought of the consequences of him hearing.

"You shouldn't scream that kind of thing if you don't want people to hear" ether he was snooping in her brain, but she would probably notice if he did so most likly he read her like an open book. His voice was the voice of a defeated man.

"Leave miss Granger."

"But I..I "

"Just leave."

And so she did. With tear filled eyes she ran from his room and up to her own. Thankfully Parkinson was sleeping…alone. So Hermione could just snuggle down in her sheaths and cry her heart out over the worlds most complicated man.

They'd shared a kiss. That should have counted for something! But no..

How could he be so irritating? So mean? Why would he give up everything for her except his heart? People would die just because he was to mush of a coward to let her get to know him. Didn't she know him? Maybe not know him.. but she had known him for seven years.

She opened her bloodshot eyes and stared at the sealing. Gathering all the things she knew about him.

He was clearly independent, a non social creature lurking around in his dungeon. He was intelligent, but also smart. Which is to say he knew things but also knew how to use them. He was brave, facing the dark lord as a spy knowing about the consequences. He was a loyal person, even killing Dumbledore at his request. He was a romantic… going to any means to secure the happiness of the one he loves.

"that's me" she whispered feeling tears well up again.

They weren't so different the two of them. He could have been a lion for all his deeds had it not been for his fear. He was scared, not able to handle others emotions and pushing people away so they couldn't hurt him. And if he couldn't push them away, he would scare them. It was clear that he didn't trust people. Preferring his solitude to the fear of getting hurt. He had probably built up a wall around himself, not letting anyone in. a wall that he probably thought prevented him from getting hurt, not knowing that such walls slowly crushes its owner all by it self.

She smiled at the thought of her professor; he would have gotten truly pissed of if he had heard her thoughts.

Her professor, that was how she had thought of him when she stood in his arms. She'd told him that she liked him. She did.

Now when she though him thru, she realized how mush she had thought of him with out thinking about it. All her observations… all her shivers and similar. She truly did like him. And she cared about him…and he only pushed her away.

She still bore a sad smile when she drifted of to sleep. She had probably loved that basted of a man for months…

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The next day Hermione once again rose with the dreaded feeling she woke with most days here in the future. She was going to have see Snape.

She dressed and walked down to their normal disguise meeting. She was the fist there… as usual… she stood absentmindedly and straightened her hair. Parkinson arrived shortly after Hermione, with her hair already in curls. She yawned and nodded at Hermione.

"I still can't believe we have to be here.." she said to Hermione. "We are already masked."

Hermione nodded and put on her glasses. "Yeah it's just torture"

"Although we always get to see Snape looking dashing.. Bet you like that Granger.." Parkinson said nudging her. She only sighed.

The Gryffindor boys where the next to arrive. Hermione took a good look at her friends knowing this was one of the few times they looked like themselves.

The Slytherins filed out soon after. Malfoy greeted Harry with a kiss on the cheek and Pansy rushed over to Goyle and smootched him. Ron and Neville nodded at Crabbe who nodded back.

They stood for two minutes before Snape emerged; he had clearly taken his potion. He didn't even give Hermione a glance. He waived his wand and at the boys one by one then turned around with out a word and left.

"Well that was point less yet again" Pansy whispered to Hermione whilst clinging to Goyle.

At least its over she thought and they all went own to breakfast.

Draco kissed Harry good bye and seated himself at the Slytherin table, next to Lily.

She looked like a fate worse than death. Or at least exhausted.

"I take it that things are worse?" Draco said conversationally.

"Well yeah." Lily answered. "His right arm is leaving now."

"Catching the train?" Draco asked

"And do you know what's worse?" she asked her not-yet father and ignoring his train comment.

"Worse then your boyfriend disappearing in front of your eyes? Enlighten me." He said and bit in to a bread piece.

"When he is gone, it's going to be me next." She said grumpily.

"What?! YOU?! HOW?!" Draco nearly shouted, but was thankfully muffled by the bread.

"Uck dad…I mean... Drake. Not very lady like."

"I'm a homosexual not a lady." He said after swallowing his food.

"what ever.." she said, still very grumpy.

"Now tell me why you will be next" Draco hissed at her.

Lily leaned in and began to whisper. "Well actually I won't technically be next. Alice Longbottom will."

"Why?" Draco was intrigued

"You see last night I went to the library to see if anything else had changed except for you know Alexander disappearing.. And I saw that history had changed."

"Go on"

"Now because of Aunt and Uncle Snape's.. you know.. they wont work together and there for there will be more death eaters at the last battle. And YOU are one of them."

"noting wrong with that."

"Yes there is!" she said hitting him

"Apparently it is." He said nursing his arm

"but don't worry, you see the error of your ways and change said when papa is in danger."

"Genuine hero me.."

"Shut up and pay attention!" she hissed "Well.. after you saved Harry he is nearly shot down by the killing curse but Ginny Lo..Weasley saves him by taking the hit her self."

"The Weasleyett dies?"

"Right in front of papa. There for Alice will disappear."

"Logical. But why you?"

"Wasn't it common knowledge she liked Papa?" Draco nodded and Lily continued her whispered story "Yeah. Well I read in another book that Harry Potter never got married or had a relationship since her death, in that way paying back his debt to Ginny. So because she sacrificed her life for him, papa thought he loved her, broke it of with you. You married Pansy Parkinson instead and I was never born."

"No." Draco said horror struck "it can't go like that…"

"Yeah.. well" Lily said shrugging and continued to poke at her breakfast.

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When the first class ended. Transfiguration with a new teacher named Comings. Minerva had stopped working at Hogwarts after Dumbledore came back. She now ran the Hogwarts-Ministry dealings. So she was seen in the corridors now and then.

But as said, After the first class ended Draco went up to Snape and slapped him. It was a girly slap but never the less a slap.

Snape's eyes flared and he was about to kill or at least relive Malfoy of his limbs when Draco spoke.

"I didn't give damn of what you did or didn't do with Granger before. But now it's personal. So if you and that little mud.. Muggleborn don't kiss and make-up I'll force feed love potions down your throat!"

Snape glanced around the corridor then he grabbed Draco by the collar and slammed him up against the wall.

"And what makes you think I'm the problem?" he asked silkily.

Draco glared at his godfather and wrenched Snape's hands of his collar.

"She's a Gryffindor." He said calmly straightening out his clothes "She always wants to do what's right."

Snape crossed his arms "And in what way is my personal life personal to you?"

"If you and Granger don't get hitched Ginny Weasley's death is going to steal my man and I'll marry Pansy."

A smirk grossed the young potions masters face "Really..? How unfortunate.."

"mm.. get it on with a Gryffindor and honour is going to come along for the ride... And in my case ruin everything."

Snape still only grinned at him.

"What are you two still doing here? Defence against the dark arts is staring in about ten minutes!"

"AH Granger.. just the girl I wanted to see." Draco exclaimed clapping his hands together.

Snape shot him warning look and Granger just looked puzzled

"Me?"

"Yes! Why don't you and Severus here make up..or out for that matter."

"What?" she asked

"Because Draco.." Snape sneered "Miss Granger here doesn't love me and never will."

"That's not true!" she exclaimed. It was Draco's turn to smirk when Snape's head did a whiplash to look at her. Oh the drama.

"What do you mean it's not true?!" Severus asked clearly shocked and surprised.

"I..I.."

"I'm leaving" Draco said. This was going well. And now he wouldn't need to brew a love potion.

When Malfoy had left, Severus looked at the furiously blushing girl.

"You can't have changed you're mind from last night." He told her

"Just because I said I couldn't love you doesn't mean I never will."

"That makes little to no sense."

"yeah…well.. You won't let me near you.."

"Don't start with that again." he said exasperated

"I won't" she promised "it's just that I want to be near you."

He looked at her

"I like you.. I care for you" she continued, not looking at him and blushing furiously again.

He didn't say anything he just stood there waiting for her to continue.

She looked at her feet and whispered "it's like I love… I think I might have done so for a very long time.. it's just like I'm waiting for something."

"WAITING FOR SOMETHING?!" he cried. "How can you be waiting for something?!" he raised his arms exasperated then he started counting on his fingers "I've told you I loved you, I've kissed you, I've sacrificed the world for you! What else is there?!"

She lifted her big brown shimmering eyes to his black bewildered ones.

"If you don't know by now.. You're not as smart as I thought you where" She said to him and began walking to their next class.

"I asked YOU didn't I?!" he yelled after her. She didn't even turn around.

"Women.." he muttered and walked after her.

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An. I'm going away for two weeks.. so have fun with this