The song Jealous by Labrinth helped me type this update in record time.

Jared's POV

Everything had gone to pot. All I heard these days was arguing. Arguing about how to help Paul.

Sam was being his usual stubborn self. He didn't want anyone who didn't know about our little secret to get involved. Plus he knew that anything short of getting Zara back to La push wouldn't work.

Obviously Paul's mom felt like there had to be something that she could do to help Paul.

I had no idea what to do.

Me, Embry and Jacob were all quietly listening from the stairs as Sam and Paul's mom had it out his kitchen again.

"No disrespect Sam but you don't make the decisions for my son! I'm his mom."

Sam sighed. "Jane. I know that imprinting is hard to understand unless you've been -"

Jane cut in, angrily. "Don't patronize me. You don't know everything!"

Sam sounded surprisingly calm. "I know better than most. Look I know Zara's parents and William want to help but they can't. "

Jane just let out a frustrated sound. "Well I at least they've tried to! And god help you if you try and stop me from trying!"

Suddenly Jane was storming towards the door. Immediately Embry nudged me. It took a second for me to clock that I had to move. I ran up the stairs then and Embry and Jacob followed. We reached the spare room before Jane reached the hallway. She was ranting away under her breath as she slammed the front door shut.

I sighed as I turned to face the guys.

Embry ran his fingers through his hair. "This is so messed up."

Jacob just nodded.

It wasn't long before we all heard Emily come back into the house from the back yard. She had escaped when Jane had come in because she didn't want to have to choose sides and neither did the three us...this is why we were hiding.

Jacob was nodding. "Totally its –."

"Jared."

My heart stopped for a second. A surge of heat rushed through me. It was Kim. I heard her taking unsure steps up the stairs.

Straight away I left the room.

Kim saw me through the wooden banister. Her entire face lit up. "There you are."

I didn't wait. I hugged Kim before she hit the landing.

She just laughed. "Jared. What's up?"

I knew she knew.

Ever since Paul and Zara's messy fall out, I was just being reminded of how lucky I was. I never wanted to go back to that hellish time when, me and Kim had gone through our separation. Then again it had only lasted 4 days after the reveal. I was lucky imprinting hadn't screwed me up too much. The same couldn't be said for Paul. His experiencing was turning out to be the worst, in a different way to Sam's but just as bad.

Kim must have felt the tension in my body because she hugged me that bit tighter.

Eventually she pulled back and she gave me a kiss. "I love you."

I sighed. "I love you too."

Kim's face slowly fell though. "I just saw Paul's mom…"

I just nodded. "It's not good."

()()()()

Paul's POV

I heard whispering through the cloud of pain. I knew they were talking about me. I didn't care though. Nothing could help me now. I just pulled up my covers even more until they were over my shoulders. For the first time since becoming a werewolf I felt cold. I was so cold that I couldn't stop shivering. I kept my head stuck deep in my pillow as I lay in bed. Sunshine was pouring into my room and there was nothing but blue skies outside but the weather didn't cheer me up.

My eyes felt so heavy and sore. I was tired. I was just so tired. It didn't matter how many hours I slept, I still felt sleepy. The feeling just wouldn't go away. It was like I was in this weird bubble. I felt like a zombie. All the life was being sucked out of me. I had no energy to do anything.

Suddenly my stomach groaned so loud. I felt a burn then. There was nothing in my stomach so I was sure that my stomach acid was burning me since there was no food to.

I don't care.

The whispering had reached my door now. It stopped when there was a knock at my door.

I didn't have enough energy to say "Piss off."

Instead I just pulled up my sweats that were slipping off my hips. I knew I was wasting away.

I kept staring at the same spot I had been for hours as the door opened.

"Paul."

I was so out of it that I wasn't even surprised to hear that Arjun was in my room.

Arjun didn't wait. He just moved around and I soon I saw him pulling up a chair next to me.

He looked like, his perfect, smart self. Arjun just sat down. "Your mother tells me that you're not looking after yourself," he said.

At least he cut through the crap which even in my state I could be appreciate.

I didn't say anything. I couldn't. My mouth was bone dry and my lips were all cracked.

Arjun just studied me. "She says you haven't been eating or drinking or evening getting out of bed." He wasn't looking at me like my mom did, she looked at me like I was on deaths door. Maybe because Arjun was a doctor. He was probably use to hiding how felt..

I just stared back at Arjun. I couldn't tell what was going on in his head.

"You should really do something you enjoy," Arjun continued as if he didn't notice that I wasn't saying anything, "Maybe watch some sports. Your mom tells me that you watch ESPN religiously."

Sports phhh whatever. Nothing matters anymore.

I blinked. "I don't enjoy… anything anymore," I just about mumbled to myself.

Arjun sat up a little straighter then. "Okay well you have clinical depression," he stated out of the blue.

I mentally rolled my eyes. Tell me something I don't know.

"I could prescribe you something," Arjun suggested, "If you want…" When I didn't reply and just stared, Arjun moved until he was sitting on the edge of the seat. "but I know that the only thing that will help you out of this, is by talking to Zara," he added.

For the first time in a long time I felt myself break through the haze and tiredness. My eyes widened a little.

"I know I'm being unprofessional but oh well," Arjun said as he settled back in his chair. "You see I've actually experienced what you're going through right now. For me it all happened when Alia and I were in our second year at university."

I shifted up a little in bed as I listened.

"Alia wasn't feeling well that summer and it persisted into our academic year. She lost all this weight because she couldn't eat and It went on for months. Alia practically became anorexic, "Arjun continued, "She was hospitalized because she was that sick. No doctor could tell what was wrong with did so many tests… "

I could see a pain in Arjun's eyes as if he was reliving it all over again.

"I barely managed to concentrate on anything. I couldn't eat or sleep or focus on anything that was important to me," Arjun said before pausing, "I looked like well I looked like you do now."

You probably looked like hell then…

Arjun shifted a little in his chair. "And Paul I freaked out," He was suddenly confessing, "I avoided seeing Alia for weeks at the hospital. I told her that I was busy studying. I mean can you imagine that? She needed me but I wasn't there for her."

I was just frowning now. I was shocked. I had no clue why the hell he was telling me all this?

"I can admit now that I was scared," Arjun went on, "I mean we were young and what she was going through was so serious plus being in med school I thought she had all sorts. I thought she could have cancer. I thought I was going to lose her."

I didn't realise until now that I was sitting up. I was leaning forward.

"I eventually pulled it together and i visited Alia every day and on the weekends i stayed all night. I also took it upon myself to research all her symptoms," Arjun continued, "I found out that she had Crohn's disease. I told her doctors that I had a hunch and sure enough she was diagnosed with Crohn's. It was only when Alia started her medication and got better, did I get better."

I don't think my chest wound is ever going to get better. I'll probably pop off before it goes away.

Arjun just took a breath and gestured. "Basically what I'm trying to say is sometimes we are selfish and other times we think we're doing the right thing but we're not. You'll get a chance to make things right just like I had. We all make mistakes Paul. No one's perfect. We're all human after all."

The whole time Arjun had been speaking I just watched him. For the first time since I'd met him I felt like he knew how I was feeling. I'd never managed to relate to him until now.

"Yeah well you're not human," the dark voice in my head said. "You're a werewolf. You're a freak."

Depression wouldn't let me go that easily. I was quickly sinking again back into the haze. I tried to fight it but I slumped back down into bed. I suddenly felt really tired again.

I needed to sleep. I wanted to sleep. It was the best part of my day.

Maybe I won't wake up. I can only hope.

()()()()

Zara's POV

I wanted to sleep. I wanted to sleep forever but I couldn't. I tossed around in bed. My entire body ached. The sky was dark and grey and I could hear the rain battering down outside. It was as constant as my crying fits. I would never ever feel happy again.

God I felt tired. I felt so so tired. My eyes were all swollen and probably puffy. They were so sore. I'd never cried this much in my life.

My stomach felt like it was disappearing into my body like it was being sucked inside. I saw the half eaten toast on my table then. It midnight and I still hadn't managed to finish it from breakfast.

I was in pain too. Why was I in so much pain? The pain killers didn't even help.

I heard my sister whispering in the other room. "Mum I don't know what the hell to do? She's got worse."

Ahh the video calling again sessions.

My sister sounded so frantic. "I've tired everything mum!"

I sighed so heavily. Why am I even here?

I knew my sister was useless in difficult situations. She'd never been the strong one. She was so sensitive and constantly emotional. I was the one who always had to be there for her. Our entire life consisted of me trying not to make her upset or trying to console her when she was. She was 28 but she was more like a child in my eyes. At least she is a good person though which is more than can be said for me.

My head felt like a lead balloon. It was throbbing so hard. My emotions were all over the place. I couldn't decided if i was just hurt or angry. They were merging into one.

I mean Vampires. Shapeshifters. The legends. Everything I thought was a fantasy wasn't. The people i'd called my friends in La push were part of some other world that wasn't even meant to exist!

My heart was beating so fast. A grabbed my chest as I started to realise that I was causing myself to start hyperventilating again.

I couldn't speak to anyone about what I'd seen, no matter how much I wanted to. They'd ship me off to a psychiatric hospital or drug me up. I couldn't talk to anyone.

Well there was someone I could have but no not anymore. I had to burn that bridge as well. He'd never forgive me. I'd slapped him! I'd hit him more than once. I'd never hit anyone in my life before. I'd said the shittiest things.

"Zara you're an idiot," a dark voice said in my head, "You're an awful person. You're a bitch."

I rolled over again in my bed. I felt so hot. I had to push off my duvet. I'd never felt like this, I was heating up from the inside out.

He never came to see me. He's always been the one to make the first move, to sorting things out if we had issues.

He hates me. The ache suddenly was so strong in my stomach, I wrapped my arms around my body. Urghh.

I felt the hot tears straight away.