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Chapter 38: It's Time

EPOV

"Just be nice and say hi to her, Edward, please?" Alice pleaded, folding her hands together.

I was eating an apple at the lunch table and looked at her like she had a disease.

"What do I get out of it?" I narrowed my eyes, speaking and chewing at the same time.

"Ugh. You are disgusting. Could you not speak to me with your mouth full?" Alice said, disgusted. "Oh, she's coming! Please just say hi, that's all you have to do. Bella! Over here!" Alice spoke so quickly, waving her hand to her friend.

Oh great. Not again. I wasn't looking forward to this. She'll flirt, giggling like an idiot at everything I say, try to make googly eyes, puffing out their chest. And this is only high school. I'm terrified what women would do out in the big world.

Now that it was happening right now, I was regretting Alice urging me to be nice to some girl she just met in her last class. She owed me BIG fucking time. Maybe I'll make her wash my car for a month, every weekend. And vacuum it. Yeah, that sounds good.

"Bella? This is my brother, Edward. Edward, this is Bella Swan. She's the chief's daughter," Alice introduced us while I finished chewing the last bit of my apple.

"Uh, thanks, Alice," an uncertain voice rang.

I turned to look at this Bella girl and put on my fakest, friendliest smile.

"Hi," Bella said, feeling uncomfortable, not exactly meeting my eyes. She tried to hide behind a curtain of nut brown hair. Behind her blanket of hair, she blushed. I didn't even say hello yet, or even shook her hand, and she blushed!

"Hi Bella. Nice to meet you," my smile wasn't fake anymore. And I found that blush fucking adorable.

"Nice to meet you too, Edward," Bella spoke. She swung her backpack off her shoulder and plopped it onto the ground. Right on top of my foot.

"Ah! Ow!" I couldn't help but let it slip from my mouth.

"Oh shit! I'm so sorry! Are you okay? Of course, the first time I meet someone here, I damage them," Bella chuckled nervously, lifting her backpack off my foot, flailing her hands about. She seemed to be upset with herself more than she was concerned about me.

"It's fine. It's throbbing but it's fine," I said, grimacing with pain.

Bella bit her lip and I couldn't help but stare.

"Are you alright, Edward?" Alice asked.

"Yeah. I'm fine. I'll live," I told them both. Bella, still uncertain, sat down, carefully placing her backpack the opposite side of her. Her lip was still inbetween her teeth.

They kept up conversation and I listened, noting that her parents were divorced, that her father had had custody of her until she turned 18. Everything was back to normal, except the times Bella would eye me once in awhile to check and see if I was ok.

"Must be a big change to you, coming from Arizona," I mentioned, trying to add my own thoughts into their conversation.

"I know. From hot, dry sun, to wet greenery all the damn time. I swear I hate this place," Alice mentioned.

"How did you end up here anyway?" Bella asked us curiously. She braved looking me in the eyes, but only for a few seconds.

"Our dad, Dr. Cullen, is the doctor at the hospital," I said, taking a swig of my bottle of water.

Bella chuckled. The reaction and expression on her face baffled me.

"What's so funny?" Alice asked curiously.

"Wow, uh, I guess we're going to be inseparable," Bella said. Her words seemed to be teasing, a jokg. "Your dad and I will become good acquaintances."

"Why do you say that?" Alice asked, popping a grape into her mouth.

"I'm known to be…clumsy. I probably still have a file from the summers I visited Charlie during the summer. I'm sure I'll be in and out of that hospital throughout my whole life, so get used to it, guys. You won't be able to get rid of me so easily," Bella gave a crooked smile.

"Hey. Helloooo," Bella waved her hand in front of my face. "Where'd you go just now?" Bella woke me up from old memories. I was laying on the bed with my arm tucked underneath my head. I don't know when I went into that state of reminiscing, but I had. I was remembering the first time I met Bella.

"Do you remember when we first met? You dropped your bag on my foot," I smiled, remember old times.

"Oh God," Bella placed her hand on her face, covering her blush I could still clearly see.

"Don't worry, love, you're not clumsy like that anymore," I said, kissing her temple.

"Thank goodness, or you'd have broken feet all the time," Bella said. "Ya know, I was so terrified of you back then."

I raised my eyebrows at her. Why would she be terrified of me?

"Really? Why?" I asked.

"Everytime I saw you, I freakin blushed. You know how humiliating that is to me? And, well, not many of the male species spoke to me a lot in high school. So imagine what it was like for Edward Cullen, the hottest guy in school, speaking to me," Bella said, putting her arms around my neck, giving me a smirk.

"Now all the guys want to talk to you," I told Bella, pecking her lips.

"I just want you to talk to me. Fuck everyone else," she said.

"I rather do that too," I smiled my crooked smile at her and Bella chuckled.

Her face became suddenly somber.

"I'll miss you," she said, her voice softening.

"I know, as I will also, my love," I rubbed her back as I held her close.

This moment of intimacy was precious. The scent of her hair, the feel of her skin against the side of my lips, her warmth, just Bella. I missed this already. An emotion started to bubble within me and I could feel my insides crushing against my heart, weighing against it to feel heavy. It never hit me before, but right now, this moment, this perfect moment was beginning to kill me. I took a deep breath to quell my depressed thoughts and it sounded shaky when I exhaled.

"Edward?" Bella asked concerningly.

"I love you, Bella. I love you so much. You know that, right?" I told her, my voice a little higher than usual. She just nodded, I didn't have to pull away to know the emotion she felt was the same as mine.

I sounded like such a bitch, but I love this woman with all of my fucking heart. I never knew that love like this existed. Now I understood all those stupid chick flicks and the Romeo and Juliet bullshit we read in high school. I love Shakespeare, but now I understood fully the love he was trying to explain. I wonder if he experienced anything like this to write a brilliant story about these young lovers.

Bella crushed her soft body into mine, pulling me fiercely tighter to her. "Yes," Bella nodded her head quickly, "God, I love you too, Edward. I'd die for you."

I tightly squeezed my eyes closed from her words. This woman was my fucking everything. My life.

Just one more time before I go. Just one more time.

Bella and I were still naked and we lied in bed, early hours of the morning. We would have to get up soon and get me ready to leave. Our embrace loosened and she moved to look up at me. She had been resting on the crook of my shoulder and her body was so warm against my own. I kissed her, all my emotion pouring into the passion of that kiss. I wouldn't be able to kiss her like this for awhile.

My hand moved slowly down her body, cupping her rear. I massaged and squeezed gently. Such a perfectness. This is my woman. My God. I'm such a lucky man.

Bella sighed when we parted from our liplock and that simple sound hardened me quickly.

"My love," I said, hugging her fully with my arms and rolling to be above her.

"My love," Bella repeated my words.

"You have no idea how that makes me feel when you say that," I confessed.

My heart was beating erratically in my chest. I wondered if Bella felt it. She cupped my face and brought me back down to her lips again. It was soft at first, then deepend with every second. Our bodies caressed against each other from every move our mouths made. This was heaven. And we haven't even really started yet.

I haven't made love to her some time. This whole week it's been a lot of fucking. It's been all fantastic, but I wanted to let her feel how much I loved her. How much she made me feel. We didn't have much time, but it was going to be beautiful. I was going to make it beautiful.

Bella instinctively welcomed me, my groin to rest against hers. I could feel the heat and the dampness of the friction our movements made. Her hands lowered to caress my buttocks, then rest finally on my hips. I started motioning my hips into her, eliciting a breathy moan from both of us. Bella closed her eyes and parted her lips. I watched as she was pleasured by my body.

I kept moving against her, feeling myself slip just in barely into her. Though, I wanted more, I wanted to taste her, feel her against my lips. Fill me up with her wine. Slowly, I kissed down her chin, licking her collarbone, also nipping at it with my teeth. Her hands habitually went to my head, combing my hair, urging me to go lower.

"Oh Lord, Edward," her breathy whispered words escaped her lips. I looked up at her with a smile.

"Yes, love?" I said.

"Sorry, don't mind me. I'm just, oh! Mmm," she said when I took her nipple into my mouth.

She exhaled slowly, tugging at my hair. I swirled my tongue over the peaked bud, then took the whole thing into my mouth. Suckling until she moaned louder. I ground myself instinctively into her leg, loving the way she was sounding.

Soon, I was heading lower down her body, kissing at the point of where her legs bent. Her breathing was choppy and she watched me as I pushed her legs up higher so I could taste her. She bit her lip and I couldn't wait any longer. I dove, pushing my tongue deep onto her hardened bud. She bit her lip harder and pushed her head hard against the pillow she laid upon.

"Mmmm," I said as I drank her in.

My tongue made random patterns onto her, occasionally dipping my tongue inside her center. I love the way she tasted. I felt drunk with lust and felt like I needed more. Soon, I could feel her body tense and have one of her orgasms.

"Edward," she whispered my name.

"Bella," I called up to her as I slipped a finger into her. I moved slowly, her hips gyrating onto my hand more animatingly. I flipped my hand over, hitting her sensitive G-spot. Bella stilled, her moans becoming longer and louder. Her hands squeezed the sheets as she came hard against my hand, quivering, after I pushed the pad of my fingers onto her walls at the right spot just a few times.

I moved up, never moving my hand from her center, rubbing lightly against her sensitive nerve. She kissed me, pulling my neck to close the distance between our faces. Her face was flush pink with satisfaction and that pride again rose from inside me.

"Lie down," she softly requested.

I kissed her softly once more before complying.

***

BPOV

I wondered if Edward had felt what I felt inside. Dread. I wanted to break down and I was close to it when Edward held me closely just minutes ago. Then all my doubts left as soon as I heard his voice break from emotions that he was battling inside him.

"Edward?" I asked, my eyebrows furrowing, looking up at him.

"I love you, Bella. I love you so much. You know that, right?" his voice was cracking.

"Yes," I answered quickly, agreeing with him. I needed to tell him again and I would do it for the rest of my life how much I unconditionally loved this man. "God, I love you too, Edward. I'd die for you."

I was telling the truth. I would die for him. I never understood it until now. I used to think people were insane to say something incredibly stupid as that. Now, I was in their shoes.

His face, his gorgeous, perfect face. It looked strained and not-so-Edward as he squeezed his eyes tight. Then he kissed me, this kiss full of yearning passion that I once felt before, after he had proposed to me. I uncontrollably let a sigh leave my lips. In an instant, he changed from sad to loving, kneading my cheeks. I could feel him hardening against my abdomen.

Men.

He was above me quickly, gazing into my eyes.

Now after minutes of worshipping my body, I wanted to return the favor. I haven't felt intimate like this with him for awhile. We've been fucking like rabbits and this time it was different. He was taking his time, teasing, loving, patiently showing me that this time was different.

"Lie down," I asked him gently.

Edward kissed my lips with a softness that made me swoon, then had placed himself beside me. I felt so alive after my first orgasm. I had shook silently, feeling awed at how much Edward could always make my body sing.

Placing myself on top of him, I straddled him, my back facing him. I took my time kissing his thighs, caressing his erection in my hand, running my lips on his skin just before his cock jutted out. He ran his hands up and down my thighs while I properly loved him. I gasped when I felt his mouth lock onto my lips at my center. He lapped slowly, tasting my juices from my earlier orgasm.

"Mmm," I let out while I bit my lip.

I rested my cheek against his cock while he pleasured me again. It wasn't fair. I wanted to pleasure him too. Soon, I was upon his cock, slipping my mouth slowly over his swollen head. This paused his ministrations on me and he moaned breathily.

"Let me love you, Edward," I said to him.

He didn't respond but instead, squeezed my thighs with his slender fingers. That was proof enough for me that he was delighting whatever he was feeling. It was wonderful to have him in my mouth. The skin smooth. I liked the way it glided against my tongue and I suckled, emanating another breathy moan from him. My insides ached for Edward to be inside me, but I needed to be patient and luxuriate in our foreplay.

My nipples massaged against his abdomen as I leaned closer to his body to get more of his hardness into my mouth. I felt electric sparks spread from my nipples, igniting a heated surge to my core. I moaned along with the movements my body made against him and soon the room was full of our humming echoes.

Drugged heavily is how I felt. Nothing seemed to be clear as the fuzz of our excitedness took full force on us both. I know I was really aroused knowing he was rock hard and the sounds he drew out from deep inside him. I was fucking loving it that I made him vulnerable.

It was time.

Releasing his hardness from my mouth, I turned myself to face him the right way and kissed him deeply. He suckled my upper lip into his mouth, I had done the same with his bottom lip. Our tongues collided softly with each other once in a while and our bodies were hot. Edward ran his hands all over my body, just touching, caressing. I cupped his face while I kissed him and took the time to lower myself onto him. We didn't part as our bodies joined, with a help of Edward's hand. Simultaneously we hummed into each other's lips and moved to reach what we both wanted.

Pure bliss.

Edward moved slowly underneath me while I gyrated my hips onto him. Our bodies would only part a few inches from each other. His cock hits the spot that has me panting and I part from my lips to groan loudly. I still myself to let the explosion inside me control my senses, leaving my nerves sensitive to every touch that Edward makes. He continues to move in a steady but moderate pace, watching my face. I could only feel heat and more electric sparks whiz quickly through my body, making my heart pace at a fast rate.

"I love you. I love you," he repeats to me until I am coming down from my high.

I cup his face and kiss him after I feel a pull to do it. Soon, his speed quickens and I match him for every thrust he sends upwards. I make noisy "uh's" as he plunges deeper and faster into me. I squeeze his shoulders as we move in synch and Edward starts to make longer groans. Our body slaps as he makes his last thrusts into me, silent for just a second, then letting one last loud groan as he cums.

He breathes heavily and I place butterfly kisses all over his face. We hold each other for a long moment before we detach and head for the shower in silence.

"I'm sorry. That was irresponsible of me," Edward says, grabbing a robe to put on before we head out the bedroom door.

"You weren't the only one that wasn't thinking, Edward. Don't worry," I assure him.

"What if…" Edward started.

"What if nothing. We'll pass by the Walgreens and buy some ECP's. That won't happen again," I said.

Edward didn't say a word, only nodded his head. I don't know if he was agreeing or if he was deep in thought. It didn't matter. It was my choice at the moment and I wasn't ready yet to start a family. Though, I know I would later on with Edward. Just not now.

"This is a first," Edward spoke.

"A first for what?" I was curious to what he meant.

"That I actually thought of having a baby with you," he finished.

I blushed and couldn't speak for a moment. When I didn't speak immediately after, Edward looked at me, stopping at the hallway. He squeezed my hand and searched my eyes.

"You thought about it?" he asked me, his voice was soft and his crooked grin was gorgeous.

I blushed harder, avoiding his eyes by looking at our linked hands.

"Yeah. I have," I admitted. "I'm just not ready right now. I want to live life with you first before we create one," I finally looked into his eyes, sincere of my words.

He smiled widely and picked me up slightly off the ground, kissing me deeply.

"I can wait, but it'll be fun practicing," he looked like a little boy smiling like he did. "Ok. More responsibility, from both of us. No problem."

With that, he put me down, kissed my temple and led me to the bathroom.

In the shower, we made love once again, using a condom, even as strange as it sounds while in the shower. Though, we did both promise not to be irresponsible anymore. Afterwards, we held each other under the flowing water of the showerhead. Edward, again, repeated "I love you's" to me.

The depressed aura was surrounding us again as we walked back to my bedroom to get ready. Edward's things were already packed and ready to go. He pulled them out towards the front door and stood them side by side. Alice was already up and about, making java in the kitchen.

"Morning guys. Java?" Alice asked us both.

"Since when did you start calling it java?" Edward asked.

"Since you got here," Alice gave Edward a teasing smile.

He chuckled and hugged the petite sprite in front of him.

"Will miss you, butthead," Alice said sadly.

"You too, dorkface," Edward jested back.

"Come on. Drink your coffee guys. It's time," Alice said.

It was so final. It's time. I almost felt sick to my stomach, but I fought it, sipping my coffee slowly. Hopefully the coffee would stay put.

It's time.

Dammit Alice. Don't remind me.

"C'mere Alice, Bella," Edward said.

We walked to him, standing in the middle of the kitchen where we started when he first arrived. We hugged in a circle, our heads resting against his shoulders.

"My girls. I'm gonna miss you guys," Edward said..

"I'll miss you too, Edward," Alice said.

"Me too," I finished.

De-ja-vu. It was almost exactly like the first day he was here.

It's time.

It was time. And I hated it.