Love the Way You Lie

by BearerSoraKey

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, well that's all right because i like the way it hurts..." continuation of the kh series. Mature for a reason Akuroku, Zemyx, Soiku Xemxas XemAku Rape alcohol sex adult themes

35. Chapter 35:Ready Go

And another :D I'm being nice today

I do not own kingdom hearts!

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The blonde only shifted once more to reach back and pull Axel's arm around him with a huff, than spent the next hour staring at the wall and tossing and turning, trying to find a decent position to fall asleep in… not working. Shit… Even Aiko got sick of his struggling and dropped down on the floor to sleep in her own bed. Another hour passed, and he was still laying awake, getting more aggravated as he stared at the ceiling. Why can't I sleep! It's been going on for three to four days now! Maybe longer he lost count! He wanted to sleep, he was exhausted, but it wouldn't come, so another look at his watch to check how early in the morning it had gotten before he was rolling over again and fighting with the duvet, it was the blasted arm brace, too uncomfortable.

It was so warm a cozy... Then suddenly but by bit the warmth was vanishing. Wait! Where did the duvet go? Cracking opening watery eye he realized the bed was moving about. Well more like his boyfriend. Though he was almost too tired to care... But this moving around had woken him up. Was he okay? "Rooox?" He called out croakily and closing his eyes again.

A harsh sigh and the blonde cast the blanket back over his boyfriend and off of himself, thinking the cold would help. "Sorry… go back to sleep." Well at least someone could! This was the reason he was becoming irritable lately, so easily frustrated because he hadn't been getting enough sleep. An low and behold two minutes of being uncovered he was back under the blanket and trying a new position, unable to find any comfort in the soft bed with straps digging into his neck, and weight pulling down his arm, elbow in agony every time he would move to attempt to go on that side. Horrible. He was never a rough sleeper before, but now when he couldn't actually move he couldn't help but to.

Ohh... Moving his hand back around Roxas' waist as the duvet hit his shoulders. "No you can't sleep can you? I'll wait until you drop off." He smiled but thoughts invaded his mind. 'He wasn't like this before... What's troubling him?'
"Hey is there anything bothering you?" Murmuring softly, he was still self-conscious on what his limits were now and if he's hurting his boyfriend without realizing.

"…You don't need to do that…" Who knew how long it would be until he did fall asleep… Right as he was about to adjust himself again an arm pinned him down across the waist. So now completely unable to move he huffed but leaned against his love, glaring daggers at the wall he was facing. "No… I don't think anything's wrong… I haven't been able to sleep lately…" Maybe it was because he was so used to being able to cuddle up and feel his love breathing? He couldn't be lured to sleep that way now… he didn't wake up being secured… why did he have to land on his left arm…? "It just sucks…" Grumbling as he tried another method, smothering his face in the pillow.

Seeing that Roxas was trapped he let go of him so he could shift around himself to the blonde's opposite side. Then that's when he put his arm around him.
"Come here." He asked quietly and drawing the body closer to his chest. He missed this... His lovers body fitting nicely against his own.
Slowly he ran his fingers through his baby hair and cooed. "How's that?"

The blonde stared as their positions were changed, though not fighting it as he was beckoned closer and flushed as their bodies pressed together, taking a moment to adjust his arm before nuzzling his face into his love's neck carefully. "Better..." It had been forever since they cuddled, even though it was hurting his arm he could care less right now, though it was lost yet again as fingers touched the back of his scalp, wincing. "Please be careful... it still hurts there." Oh yeah... Axel never saw the damage that slamming him into a wall did...

Frowning as Roxas hissed. "What? Are you okay, what happened?" Panic rising in his throat.
Wait... Did he hurt Roxas? Was this his fault again?
There went the sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach again...

Great... he didn't want to do this and definitely not at one in the morning... Though he sighed and shut his eyes tightly into the pale skin of his lover's neck. "R-remember when you pushed me into the wall...? I hit my head... They said something about a concussion and last night I hit it again... Don't worry, it doesn't hurt unless I touch it..." He couldn't see all the damage to it, but he knew it was badly bruised under all of his hair…

Listening to Roxas his stomach fell even more... So it was his fault. He wanted to see yet at the same time he didn't want to move as he was just starting to relax. "I'm sorry hon..." Sighing as he nuzzled into his neck and removing his hand from the sweet smelling locks.
"I'm really am." He hated himself for what happened and kept telling himself he could have prevented it.

Damn it he didn't mean to upset him... The blonde had to tilt his head up to allow the red-head enough room, somehow shifting the arm he was laying on so wrap around his lover's head and pet at his locks gently. "Don't worry... it was an accident... I know you didn't mean it..." But even though he said that he wasn't certain he could take another beating like the last one... The last one was too much on him... Though now he was content, running his fingers up and down his boyfriend's neck. Though... somehow it worked in reverse. He was against the warmth, no matter how dark their conversation he felt loved again... so was rather quick to drop off to sleep.

Sighing and was about to fight back but gave up when he saw Roxas had finally dropped off. Smiling weakly he muttered against his forehead. "I love you Roxas. You mean a lot to me..." Of course he wouldn't say the last part to him, he'd be to embarrassed.
Soon after this was said he kissed his head briefly and fell back to sleep, subconsciously bringing Roxas' body closer to his own in a tender hug.

Was warm... He didn't want to get up but the sunlight was absolutely blinding outside the window. Grumbling something incoherent the blonde tried to hide his face further into Axel's neck. The best night's sleep he had in ages and was waking up early due to the sun? Not happening! Nuh uh! A small huff given as he tried to shut his eyes tighter against the blinding rays. Evil... evil sun. But hiding from it didn't help much. The blonde sighed heavily into Axel's neck as he heard the kitten starting to meow for her breakfast, but really didn't want to get up so took to trying his hardest to ignore her and cling to Axel, but the battle was futile and a few seconds of getting himself untangled from his lover's arms and he was up and grabbing the probably rancid leftovers to throw out while starting towards the kitchen with Aiko darting ahead of him.

Sunlight crept further into bedroom and shined down onto the redhead's closed eyelids. Flinching as the harsh light stung his eyes and instantly reached out for his boyfriend but his arm met with a pillow. "Rox?" His sleepy eyes trying to open up.

Ah, so now he knew how lonely it was to wake up without having someone there. A small hint of satisfaction crossed his face as he wandered back into the bedroom with a now fed Aiko under his arm and purring. "Morning sleepy." The blonde smiled, crawling back into the bed and pushing himself on the side of the bed where they could cuddle, placing Aiko carefully beside them and she was quick to curl up in a satisfied ball.

Sighing as Roxas came back and pulled the warm body closer. Though watching he cat form into a small ball of fluff. "Roxas... Where did you go?" He purred into his back lovingly.

Nuzzling into his boyfriend neck carefully the blonde shrugged at his question, pushing a few strands of the long hair out of his face. "Aiko was meowing, went to go feed her and clean up the dishes from last night." Purring quietly into his neck as he went back to relaxing again.

Ahh... "That's okay then." Smiling as he cuddled his blonde.
Axel mumbled into Roxas' neck before kissing it lightly. "So what time do you want to head out babe?"

Roxas didn't reply except to embrace his love as best he could and kiss his forehead as his head disappeared against his neck, sighing as he relaxed though blinked at the question. "…Not for a while… I was hoping on fitting in more sleep than taking a shower first…" He was still tired…

Laughing quietly into Roxas' small cute ear and replying. "Okay I'll just close the curtains then." Kissing his cheek he lazily go out of bed, it was so tempting to drag the duvet with him but he didn't want to kill the cat.
Trudging over to the window and pulling the curtains together until a light orange color filled the room.
"Better?" He asked when he return to the bed and hugging his lover around the middle.

Grumbling as he let his arm fall from around Axel and stared at the spot he used to take up until he returned, nodding at his question as he shifted closer and nuzzled into his neck, rather adamant about having that spot this time as he gave a small huff and shut his eyes to go back to sleep. "Thanks... sorry i kept you up last night." Grumbling the last part, knowing chances for sleep were starting to fade.

"Don't be silly." He started as he led back down onto the soft warm pillows. "I wouldn't mind if you kept me up forever just to get you asleep." Smiling as Roxas returned to his usual spot, that felt so much better with the head of fluff under his neck.
"Love you hon." Whispering as he slid his arm over Roxas' side and pulling him into a warm hug...

Roxas flushed at his red-head's statement, but at the same time gave a small smile to show he was grateful for the statement. "Thanks then... It helped a lot." Muttering almost silently as his eyes closed yet again and he relaxed, though annoyance sparked as it was energy not the desire to sleep that came... Damn it! Though he was still going to try and sleep... And right as he was about to give up his love pulled him close and he was surrounded by warm arms. No more getting up. He was letting out a small sigh as he nuzzled into his neck. "Love you more."

Axel stuck his bottom lip out though he didn't want to fight out the 'Who loves who more' game. He rather Roxas slept a little bit, trying his best to send his lover into a slumber by gently stroking his back with the palm of his warm hand.

And it worked, about three or four minutes later the blonde had given into the drowsy movements of his lover's hand and fell back asleep to the rolling heat, breathing heavily and not even noticing the stupid sling had started rubbing against his neck again, the plaster had fallen off a while ago and that section of his neck was pretty beat up... his entirety was just beat up... from the broken arm to the sexual bites on his neck he was anything but maybe a ghost of how strong he used to be.

Softly his lips twitched into a small smile but it was short lived. His paled in comparison to Roxas. He was starring carefully at the small bruises and love bites from weeks ago, and the added injuries that he had made. But then... That's when he wanted to be sick... No wonder every time he touched Roxas' head he'd flinch...
The bottom half of his head was blue and black.

He wasn't asleep fifteen minutes before he started noticing the little things. Where was the warm hand? Why wasn't the embrace as tight? But then came the twinge of pain from fingers combing through his hair to see the bruises. Why did Axel want to see them? "Wazzit fo...?" He wasn't even fully conscious as he tried asking what the red-head was doing, sounding like a child considering he broke out in a yawn a second later.

Instantly freezing as he heard Roxas' drowsy voice, but he took that as an advantage and wrapped his arm back around Roxas' torso. "It's okay love, go back to sleep." Purring softly into his ear and stroked his back again.

"...Why you wake..?" Becoming a little more lucid but not by much, blinking up at his love silent though feeling his back being stroked again made his eyes shut against his neck, almost purring with the action. Go back to sleep? Sounded so good right now... and there he went, just straight dropped back off to sleep... he really must've not have been sleeping okay lately.

"Shh it's okay hon." Cooing as he continued his stroking motion to help Roxas fall asleep. Well at least it was working now.

He wanted to laugh at Roxas, he found it so cute how easily he woke up and went back to sleep. So cute in fact he pulled him closer and kissed his forehead. "Love you." And finally that's when he fell back to sleep.

In the other room beyond the living room a little bluenette was having the same problem and it was even worse with the dried cum covering his chest.. Ew. And even better now his behind was starting to ache a bit
Shifting the covers over his head to block out the sunlight, and nuzzling to a clean part of Demyx's chest. At the same time using it as a make shift pillow.

Demyx muttered something in his sleep as Zexion nuzzled into his chest that sounded suspiciously of his name but it was quiet, and like all the times before the position was awkward, his arm underneath the younger, who was practically laying fully on top of him. Didn't mind in the least though... What he did mind was the blanket being shoved in his face. A grumble later and he was rubbing his face with the back of his hand, looking down at the covered mass that was his lover. Yeah... lazy day.

Growling his boyfriend's name soon as his own was said.
He thought he might as well check just incase he was away. What the bluenette did next was he had started to poke his side gently.
"Hey... You awake?" Asking softly just incase he was asleep.

"... Define awake?" Demyx gave a weak smile after twitching as he was poked in the side, shuddering from the cold fingers and reaching inside the blanket to take it in his own gently, rolling his fingers over his knuckles gently. "Morning... I guess." Stopping mid phrase to yawn loudly.

Yawning quietly into the chest and stayed still for a moment. "Oh." Looking upwards and removed his head from out under the blanket to smiling sleepily. Zexion replied quietly with his morning voice. "Morning sleepy." It was more or less quiet that usual with a hint of drossiness.

Drawing both arms around the small bluenette Demyx smiled down at him and held in a yawn but lost that fight. "Hey...how you feeling?" Surely if he was so sore the last time he'd be even worse today? Didn't know how he could live with himself...

Blinking up and smiling up as Demyx yawned, just watching and hearing him yawn made him start again!
"Just a bit tired." Nuzzling into his chest.
"Back to sleep than..." The musician grumbled, moving around so that he was holding Zexion close to hic chest with his face buried into the schemer's neck with a huff. Very lazy day he just didn't feel like moving! All his muscles ached and knew it was worse from the younger male...

Nodding without saying anything, as much as he liked the idea he didn't want to me sticky.
"No... I want to go wash I feel... Dirty." Whispering out the last word into his boyfriends neck.
"... Good idea." Demyx yawned and moved away just enough so he could rub at his eyes and sigh, "... My fault I guess, no more coffee before bed I think we learned our lesson." Laughing quietly at it, though the stick cum sticking to both their chests and most probably in between his lover's legs was a little much to comprehend at ten in the morning...
Nodding as he slowly sat up, wincing as pain shot though his spine.
"Yeah no more coffee before bedtime for you." He smiled as he remembered how hyper Demyx actually was... More that he usually was!
"Bath time?" Asking quietly.
"Ugh.. fine." Demyx yawned as he slowly pulled himself upwards onto his elbows and blinked at the light blaring inside the room from beside the bed, trying to get his eyes to adjust to it instead of the calming darkness of sleep. That's when he noticed his love wince and instantly guilt engulfed him, sitting up fully and putting a hand on Zexion's back gently. "Are you okay? I didn't hurt you did I…?"

Shaking his head and putting a hand onto Demyx's leg. "I'm fine it's only my lower back." And maybe a little more. "Hey don't give me that look, I enjoyed myself." Blushing a little while mumbling the last part. The musician was still frowning worriedly at his boyfriend, especially after he admitted what was wrong. "...You sure? Want me to go get you something for it?" Ugh he hurt him again! Even though Zexion told him not to he was blaming himself as guilt slapped across his face while his fingers slowly traced his spine. "Sorry..."

Leaning back so he could cup both sides of Demyx's face. "Hey don't feel sorry. I already told you I enjoyed it." Shivering at the last part as he felt fingers traces his spine. It felt like laced pleasure and pain sliding down his back, almost like ice. Hang on did Demyx…? Face flushing the bluenette looked towards the bed before asking quietly. "Did you enjoy yourself?"

"I still hurt you..." The musician whined as best he could with his mouth being constricted, trying not to laugh at how weird it felt. Sniffing as his lover let go of him Demyx did manage to smile as he shivered and leaned forward to kiss his cheek gently. Though even he blushed at his question, coughing quietly and nodding his head. "Maybe a bit too much..." Well it was the truth...

Shaking his head he smiled. "Dem I liked it okay. Sure now my back and other places may feel rough, but that won't stop me from doing it again." His blush still remained even after he finished his sentence.
"Would you be happy if I made you do something about it?" Sighing at the end.

Wait doing it again? That made Demyx's face flush slightly, looking away from his boyfriend. Yeah no round three he didn't have the energy for any of that. His ears however picked up at the last phrase, sliding his arms around his love's shoulders. "Yeah? Love to help, anything."

Blushing slightly before finally talking. "I want to wash... And I'm scared to walk and I was wondering if you could... Carry me?" Hiding his face at the last moment by staring at the duvet.
Demyx half gaped half stared at Zexion's question, shaking it off and smiling at him carefully, "Yeah hon, no problem..." Actually moving to stand up stiffly and moved to his love's side of the bed, very carefully moving one arm under his knees and the other behind his back and lifting him slowly and gently, trying not to jostle him. "Okay?"
About to protest as he saw Demyx's expression. "Ah! No Dem it's fine I'll walk you don't have to!" He started as he wriggle in his arms but then became afraid of falling, so he stopped moving about and wrapped his arms around his boyfriend's neck.

"No, no! It's fine, you weigh like nothing Zexy!" Demyx laughed as he adjusted the small bluenette in his arms carefully, shifting him around until he felt the arms around his neck and smiled brightly down at him, starting to walk towards the bathroom as best he could without hurting the small one in his arms.
Sighing as they made into the bathroom and signaling to be let down by tapping his shoulders.
"I'll be okay from here." He be okay with walking a few feet.
"... Alright." Demyx muttered with a small pout as he pecked Zexion's forehead and shifted around so he could let the younger male to the floor as gently as he could, keeping his arm around his back to make sure he didn't fall over.
Smiling just as he was about to be put down but making a face as his feet touched the ground. Zexion wasn't ready for the aching pain to shoot through his back again. "No more coffee Dem." Scowling and playfully swatting his arm.
Demyx of course frowned at the look of pain, looking like he was about to pick the schemer back up before he could complain though fought the desire as he leaned to turn the water on, hot as usual to help his boyfriend. "Ow! Jeeze... yes sir no more coffee." Pouting as he rubbed his swatted arm, of course it didn't hurt! He loved to tease.

Zexion frowned that hit shouldn't of hurt, he barely touched him!
That's when he realized he was being teased, growling slightly but it didn't even sound aggressive at all more like a failed attempt at trying to sound scary.
"Good." He pouted and turned around to gather two towels. One for him and another for Demyx.

That growl was strictly adorable! Though Demyx busied himself by slowly unwrapping his hand as he waited for the water to fill up, trying not to show any pain as his wrist was left without something supporting it in maybe two or three weeks, but it didn't hurt as much as he thought it was going to. testing the water after a moment he smiled up at Zexion from his seated position and motioned towards the tub.

Zexion watched thoughtfully as his lover unwrapped his bandages, he was curious to ask whether or not it still hurt..
Watching seam rise from the water and cling onto the windows, yet it wasn't enough so they'd start to roll down beads of condensation.
With caution he stepped into the tub and deeming it safe and plunging the rest of his body into it. Sighing as the heat instantly massaged his aching lower back. Turning slightly so he was facing Demyx and putting his hands onto the edge and his chin on top of them.
"Hey Dem? Does it still hurt? You know, your hand?" Asking as he pointed with his index finger.

The blonde hesitated a moment, watching his love get situated in the bath before standing and motioning for him to make room and stepping in behind him, wincing at the temperature though did feel good on his back as he sat sown and relaxed in it. Knew what he was getting Zexion for his birthday... nail clippers. It took a second to realize he had spoken and was left blinking at the question before realizing what it meant and chewed on his lip. "…What answer would keep me out of trouble?" Muttering as his sort of reply before shrugging and sighing, rubbing the smaller male's shoulder gently. "It's going better, don't worry okay? But yeah, it hurts a little."

Making room for Demyx by drawing his knees up. Biting his lover lip and looking behind him letting his fingers ghost over his lovers hand so carefully it was almost a feathery touch. "You shouldn't have picked me up..." He shouldn't have done that; the older male was still healing!

"Nah... Don't worry silly!" Demyx gave a smile as his good arm went around his front and to his side, leaning over so his chin was on the other shoulder as he kissed the collarbone carefully. "You're hurt, I'm not going to let you walk if it hurts you. I wanted to carry you, and besides, I like holding you." Blushing a little at the last statement, but letting the arm that was around Zexion tighten ever so slightly as a sort of hug.

Blushing as a he felt lips connect with his collarbone, then an icy shiver followed down his spine.
And his face turned bright red at Demyx little speech. "Dem!" Then playfully swatting his shoulder. "No, I'm fine seriously. No more picking me up!" Trying his best to sound a little more authoritative. He didn't want his boyfriend hurting his hand even more just by carrying him, it might get worse or something.
'Ugh I feel so dirty.' But at the same time he just wanted to stay cuddled into his bare chest.

"Aw I'm being nice and you hit me! Zexxyyyy..." The musician complained again, leaning more so on the schemer as his healing hand ignored the pain and lifted up the bar of soap, lathering it up before smoothing the bubbles over his boyfriend's chest to help clean him up. "Fine, fine, no more picking you up... Even though you weigh nothing." Grumbling the last part quietly.

Blushing even possible more as he felt smooth velvety bubbles spread across his skin. Well that did feel much better. His head snapped up briefly after hearing 'that' nickname but didn't act on it; he was okay with it unless they were around people. Turning around slowly and taking the bar of soap from Demyx's hand and wordlessly started to cleanse his boyfriends toned chest, though it had been a few they had slept together now he still could get over how toned and soft his lover's chest was. He just loved how he could feel each pack under the tips of his fingers.

Wow he got away with it that time? Good, he wasn't going to be castrated anytime soon... Though he was left blinking in confusion as Zexion slipped away from him, about to open his mouth and question whether or not he had done something wrong when the soap was stolen from his fingers and he was getting rubbed down, shivering at the small fingers on his chest and staring half lidded at the working bluenette, his arms going around the slender waist carefully and pulling him closer just so he could lean forward and peck his forehead.

Looking confused as he was moved but looking down and blushing as he was kissed. "You're such a sap you know?" Joking obviously then splashing water onto Demyx's tone stomach to get to rid of the soapy bubbles.
Watching carefully as the last few droplets of water cascaded down the smooth chest and back into the tub.

Demyx tried not to laugh at Zexion's statement though a smile pulled at his features. "But you love it." He smiled though bit his lip as he was splashed and frowned, moving his hand into the water and splashing it only the smooth, pale chest before him, watching the white bubbles going down his stomach. Like a waterfall against perfect crystal...

Shivering as the warm water hit his stomach, it wasn't nearly as toned at his other's.
Sticking his tongue out and began. "Demyx, your element may be water. But mine... Well lets say I have a secret one up my sleeve..." Grinning slightly and picking up the discard soap then rubbing his hands into it. Deeming it soapy enough he placed it behind him again, dipping a little bit of water into his hands before cupping one hand and making an 'Okay' sign. Finally blowing gently a bubble formed and floated towards Demyx's nose and popping soon as it touched it.

"...Okay now I'm scared." Demyx muttered, wide eyed as Zexion mentioned using his power against him. That was one thing he was actually timid about the small male about: His power to see fears, to morph wills and form illusions that pierce the heart directly. However he was left dumbfounded by his little display, jumping and blinking rapidly as the bubble popped against his nose but was left smiling down at the tiny bluenette. "At the risk of death, that was honestly one of the cutest things you've done."

Pouting slightly though in the end he shrugged, he did ask for it after all.
"Shut it water boy." Grinning at his boyfriend's new nickname then splashing him once more, the water washing away the soap from his hands. Yeah he had found him a nickname and funny enough he quite liked it.

"Water boy?" Demyx pouted quickly at the nickname and being splashed only added insult to injury. That didn't stop him from splashing the small bluenette back and sticking his tongue out childishly at him. "Of all the creative nicknames, Water boy?" Honestly it was really hard not to laugh!

Shrugging his shoulders and flicking the water back at Demyx. "It's all I could think of without insulting you." Grinning slightly moving his fingers forward to lightly pinching Demyx's tongue between his fingers. "How old are you again, Demyx?"

Of course the musician was left mute, he didn't have his tongue! Though he sorta pouted over at the schemer as he was asked his age, thought about it, than held up four fingers rather proudly than pulled his tongue away and made a face. "Tastes like soap." Ew... "But no, I'm nineteen in January." Yeah... he wasn't as old as most people believed.

Moving his hand back into the water then smiled, so Demyx was younger than he thought. "You'd find this hard to believe but I'm older than you would of thought."
Cupping his hands he scooped up the water and smiled innocently before dumping onto the Melodious Nocturne's head.

"...Wait huh? How old are you?" He so thought the schemer was Roxas' age! And just to be mean he was actually thinking he was the minor's... minor. Well no that didn't make much sense now did it...? "Hey!" Was his complaint as water was dumped on his head, frowning and shaking it out of his eyes, finding with distaste that Zexion actually managed to get the hair in his eyes. Damn... Well revenge was easy, simply grabbed a section of water in his hand, roughly the size of a bowling ball, and dropped it easily on his boyfriend's head to get him drenched.

"Just eighteen." Stating simply with a shrug but by now he was use to it, he knew maybe small and have a slight baby face but deep down inside he was eighteen.
Keeping a neutral face and started. "I though you would have wanted your hair washed."
But instantly regretting as he saw a bowling sized ball of water above his head. Clenching his eyes shut it crashed down on top of him.
Though some water filled with mouth and he was left spluttering.

"... Okay not as bad as I thought." Demyx gave a small laugh as he rubbed his head, "Thought you were Rox's age..." Which was only really a year difference so he wasn't far off at all considering he was a little over a year, close to two years, older than the kid. Though he just started laughing at Zexion's reaction to having a waterfall thrown on his head and smiled brightly at him as he sputtered about. "Sorry hon. Thought you wanted your hair washed." Sarcastic, though moved his fingers to brush aside the blue.

Shaking his head. "God no, I'm not that young. I'm nineteen in May."
Blushing as the as his soaking wet hair was moved to the side, and a few droplets of water ran down his hair and face.
"Actually..." He forgot what he was about to say and instead stared up into Demyx's teal eyes. Had they always been that bright?
Shaking out of his trance with a heavy blush, though moving his hand to grab the shampoo, uncapping it he rubbed a small amount of the liquid into Demyx's hair whilst fixating his vision onto his boyfriend. He didn't say anything as he massaged the sweet smelling shampoo into his hair, though his blush did remain.

So he was older then him! Knew it, but he kept a mental checkmark on the month. "When in may?" Yeah, he wanted to know, of course he would! Like there was any chance Demyx was going to let his boyfriend's birthday pass without doing something for it! He did however blink down at him as he took the bottle and started to wash his hair, had to bend down a little to allow the younger male to do so, giving a smile and using the tips of his fingers to brush the blush on his cheeks gently, knocking aside water droplets in the process. "Whatcha thinkin about?" Well it was as close as he could to mentioning the cute blush without actually being killed.

Hesitating for a moment as he continued to massage to bubble into Demyx's hair. "The fourth. What about you?"
Breaking his line of vision and letting his soapy hands rinse off as he dropped them back into the water.
Mumbling something quiet low, it must of embarrassed him because he blushed.

May fourth... he had to remember that... hang on five four, yeah that was easier. "Huh? Mine? Eighth." Relaxing underneath the thin fingers as they worked on his scalp, waiting until they were out of the way before picking up another ball from the water, holding his breath and dropping it on his own head, only to shake it out after a second and make a face, he hated having to redo his hair... Though attention was peeked as Zexion muttered something quietly, moving closer to his face till their noses were almost brushing. "What was that hon?"

Squeaking as he realized he was now nose to nose with Demyx. Blushing like crazy he muttered. "You have nice eyes." Then ducking his head into his other's shoulder.
"Don't make me say it again!" Begging into his neck. He wasn't usually the one to open up so willingly but he was slowly able to do this with Demyx, and slowly Roxas...

Now he wasn't expecting that! The musician blushed at the compliment and tried to smile down at the schemer until he buried his face into his neck, shaking his head carefully as he lifted the shampoo bottle and squirted some in his hands. "Nah, yours are so much nicer." muttering as he started to massage the suds into his love's hair gently.

Letting his head lift from Demyx's shoulder as he sensed fingers massage his head, he blushed. "Thank you..." Taking the compliment as he wasn't use to ever hearing this. Actually the only person that ever did say anything nice about him was his mother... He never got to see his father much because he was busy working At the office.
"But I do like them, they're different."

The musician smiled at his lover and continued to weave the suds through his hair with his good hand and used his other to get a shoulder length piece out of his own face and flip it back. Hated his hair sometimes... He did blush at the bluenette and smile at him at another compliment, "And I can say the same for yours." Getting the sweet shampoo evenly distributed and taking a more controlled ball of water and rinsing out his hair a little more gently than he did to wet it.

Reaching up so he could touch the limp mullet, it looked so odd clinging to his hair like that but it felt so smooth to touch. Reaching next to him to pick up the conditioner and put a small amount to Demyx's already soft hair. Blushing as the water cascaded right down his front and back, heating him up even more.
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Why was he so stupid? Roxas should've realized that Axel loved to cuddle, and they were already close together, so he should've seen this coming.. why didn't he? "Ax! Axel get off!" He found himself close to tears, pinned underneath his boyfriend's heavy form and struggling to get free.

"Ax get off!" A muffled voice under him laughed. They were back at the beach and Axel had his lover trapped under him.
It took a moment to realize that his dream was actually reality. Snapping out of his dreamlike daze and rolling off his flattened boyfriend. "Oh shit Rox I'm so sorry!" He started as he wrapped his arms around his girly waist.

Roxas remained still after he was free from the weight, clutching his arm tightly against his body while a couple tears fought their way loose and rolled down his face. That really... really hurt... "I-It's alright... accident..." Well he was awake now! Damn! Some wake up call! He was in so much pain right now it was as if the bone was rebroken all over again!

He hurt him again... That's all what he seemed to be good for these days. "I'm sorry love..." Whispering softy into his ear. Yeah what a nice wake up call... Note the sarcasm. Yawning before kissing the side Roxas' face, but mainly the few teardrops that trickled down the side of his face. Leaning over to get two paracetamol and handing it over to him.
"Here, this will help." Gently telling him and wrapping an arm around his waist.

It took several deep breaths to calm down and one or two more to stop crying and look up to notice the pills were there to begin with. Taking a moment before he shifted the arm he was laying on enough to push himself up and gingerly took the two pill packets, taking a second to try and open it on his own but sighing in defeat. "Can you help?" Shakily handing down the two packets again that were handed to him, he'd need to get a water for it anyway...

Nodding as he took them back and opened them, popping the two pills into Roxas' hand he smiled sadly. Reaching over again and picking up Roxas' empty cup. "I'll get you some water hon." Kissing his forehead quickly, he still felt bad for crippling him.
Returning quickly and sitting on the edge of the bed. "Here you go... Do you need help?" Asking slowly at the end.

Roxas blinked as his boyfriend got up, about to argue to him doing it when he didn't have to but gave in with a small sigh, pushing the duvet off of him while clutching the two tablets, staring at the bed. Why was he always causing trouble? Why couldn't he take that fall without hurting himself? Why was he so weak? Blinking up as his love returned and gave a shy smile, shaking his head as he popped the pills into his mouth and took the water gingerly. "Thank you though." Muttering after he had taken the pills and set the glass aside, rubbing his forehead.

Shaking his head and smiling. "Hey, it's fine; you don't need to say thank you, silly." He didn't need to put himself down so much, he hadn't done anything wrong. It was his own fault he had rolled on top of his poor boyfriend... Heck he just loved to have a cuddle... It seemed so long ago since they had one of those moments, and he was afraid he'd wreck it... or already had.

"But I want to." Roxas muttered under his breath as he sighed and fell back to the bed, his head landing right where he wanted it, right under Axel's chin again and with a sigh he was rubbing his eyes and staring at the pale skin beside him, a way of showing he wanted to be held right now to erase the pain. "Well good morning I guess… Or… Afternoon…" Blinking at his watch and staring in slight shock. Shit, it was almost noon!

Shaking his head and leaning into Roxas as he wrapped his arms around him, thus bringing him toward his own chest.
"So Roxas?" Growling low into his ear. "What's the time?" He wasn't sure of the time anymore, in fact he had no clue hour many hours he had slept.

Oh thank god... the pain was slowly starting to die down and Roxas let his shoulder relax, especially since arms were put around him and he was tugged into that warm embrace. "Time? Oh, quarter till noon." Why was he growling though? Not that he minded, though the vibration coming from the chest he was pressed against kinda felt strange.

Sighing with relief and rubbing his back. "Hm, time to get ready I think." This time purring cat-like, kissing his cheek he then pulled away.
"Do you want to head off in an hour or something? I'm going to cut the hair after my shower." Laughing nervously as he ran his almost waist length hair.

The blonde shrugged as Axel spoke, covering his mouth as a yawn tried to escape and blinked at him with blurred eyes, trying to smile up at him though was still blurry and now lagging from drugs in his system. He was very sensitive it seemed... and two was a little much for his body. "I was gonna take a shower... But yeah an hour or so is fine..." Oh um... if they both needed showers than would he suggest together...? Could he do that right now without freaking out?

Nodding and stretching his arms with a loud pop, pulling a relaxed face and sighed with content.
"Sure hon, you wanna go first?" Smiling and pointing to the bathroom with a lazy wave.
He'd wait, it'll give him a chance to choose something to wear for the day.

Ah wait... maybe he was being too much of a coward? They used to always bathe together until he became afraid of everything... A moment of nervous chewing on his lip before he huffed and pushed himself up using Axel's thigh as leverage. "Let's save water." Face actually a little red, nervous, scared, but why should he be?

As much as he wanted to... Axel sighed as he denied Roxas. They could barely get through sex let alone washing together. "Roxas..." He began with a heavy sigh and running his finger tips through his hair. "I'm going to have to say no to that. It's just not the right time and you're... Still recovering." He let his eyes sink down to the bed in shame.

... Axel just refused him? He was reaching out in an attempt to make things semi normal and become braver and he was refused? The blonde's shoulders dropped slightly as he sighed and pulled himself out of the bed. "...Okay." Recovering? He made this sound like an illness that would go away... but it was part of the 'recovering' he couldn't do without help... Then again after the failed sex the other day he probably had all hope given up on him. He said nothing more on the subject, thinking Axel would even want him to and simply grabbed a clean outfit and vanished into the bathroom without another word, shutting the door behind him silently and biting his lip. He was willing to try...

His startling green eyes looked up finally. "Roxas! Wait I didn't mean it like that!" Rushing to the door and sitting outside it. "I'm just worried about you that's all... I just want to give you more time to... To heal."
Biting his bottom lip in thought. Why did Roxas always go the extreme measures?

He didn't get two steps inside the bathroom to set his clothes down before Axel spoke through the door, blinking and going back over to open it and look down at the red-head. "... But I'm fine Axel. It's just a bath, we always used to... I just thought... never mind." Shrugging it off quickly and going towards an excuse instead of his other reason. "I kinda needed help anyway with my arm but never mind, I can do it." So Axel wasn't the only one who could use guilt.

Standing up and stepping into bathroom and only to step closer to Roxas.
"Well... I guess if you need help. I could give you a hand then." He smiled lightly and waved his hand out.
"I was only worried okay..." Moving again to put a hand onto the sling.
Well he was worried, he didn't want Roxas suffering on his own...

Wait what? He hadn't expected it to work not the turn around to be that fast, or even work at all! But whatever, he still smiled up at his boyfriend as he came closer and reached up to press a small kiss on his jaw line. "Don't be worried. You don't have to if you don't want to." he whispered into his neck as he dropped back down to his actual height instead of on his toes. He wanted everything the way it was supposed to be, he didn't want to be afraid...

Smiling as he felt lips connect with his cheek and leaning to kiss his forehead. Roxas had seemed so confused a moment ago... 'I wonder what's going on'.
"Hey it's fine. Don't worry about it."
Rubbing his back slowly he looked into Roxas' icy cyans.
"Okay well I'll get the water running then." Letting go of Roxas so he was able to go and run the bath.

Roxas gave a small smile and backed away from his love as he went to start the tub, shifting himself to shut the door then a little more hesitatingly moved further into the bathroom. He was nervous... why? Why was he scared? This wasn't anything new... He and Axel had done this time and time before, it had never bothered him before to see the red-head naked or vice versa... Why now? Because he was taken advantage of? Big deal, they had foreplay and almost sex after that... maybe because he wasn't in control anymore...? "Thanks hon..." Muttering as he concentrated instead on taking out the knot to his sling, hard when you couldn't see it and it was behind your head.

Did he just smile? It seemed so long since he saw him smile... Apart from last night of course and that came from his hidden emotions, it wasn't fake he knew it.
Backing away from the tub to allow it to run a bit and going back to Roxas, though this time standing behind him. "Here, let me help."
Letting his fingers run across the tightly tied knot before moving his hands across the blonde's arms, he tried to maneuver his arm gently as possible of out the cotton sling.
"Sorry if this hurts." He muttered. He didn't want to cause his boyfriend more harm... Though that's all what he seemed to give him lately... His eyed widened as he noticed the plaster that he put on Roxas' neck had disappeared... His neck... His sweet slender neck... It looked so raw and the back of his head was a blue-ish color now.
Whimpering and forced himself to not nuzzle into the damaged neck.
He did catch a glimpse of his own bruised face, it was no where near hurt as Roxas'. His more of a nasty healing yellow with a hint of green and purple around the eye area.

"Oh um... okay..." Letting his fingers fall from the impossible knot as salvation was promised. Though not in the way he had hoped but either way he still bit his lip harshly to keep from crying out as his arm was dragged from it's holder, shuddering at the sudden slack and holding his arm up instead with his free hand. This wasn't even half the torment yet! "It's alright, didn't hurt as much as last time." Mainly because this time he had painkillers in his system... Though... why hadn't Axel moved yet? "...Hon you okay?" glancing over his shoulder at the red-head before turning around, every time he saw that bruise his stomach dropped along with the reminder 'you did that', though he caught his lover whimper this time, his eyes dropping in shame as he raised his good hand gently to his neck. "I'm okay..."

Turning around to face him and let his hand drop onto his good shoulder. "If you say so hon." Kissing his forehead and went to turn off the running water, swirling the water about so it reached the right temperature. "It's ready." Whipping his head back around to see Roxas and smiling ever so slightly, he really did want to make things right again but he wanted to take baby steps.

Even without meaning to the blonde flushed upon being kissed on the forehead, still a little nervous over the entire situation, though he managed a smile his way and started the long tedious process of telling himself to suck it up and ignore his thoughts. Shouldn't be too hard... Watching him work in silence, leaning against the sink as he did and returning the smile. "Cool um.. does... does it hurt?" Motioning with a finger on the side of his face that his boyfriend's bruise was on, the question bugging him even though this was probably not the correct timing.

Shrugging and sliding down so his back was pressed against the tub. "Nah it's fine now. " It was only a little white lie. "It was stinging yesterday though." And there we go a small white lie. Axel didn't want his boyfriend worrying about him especially because it was his own fault and he deserved that smack.
"You going to get in the bath?" Pointing behind him with his thumb.

So it didn't hurt...? There was a small amount of relief as he sighed and gave the smallest of smiles. "I'm glad..." He was so afraid that it was still hurting him! Well at least he was healing... Though he blinked in confusion as the bath was brought up, blinking before blushing and muttering something under his breath about not being able to get his shirt off, though it was almost impossible to hear and just started doing it himself. Took a moment, though he managed to slip out of it with minimum pain to his arm. Here came the hard part, jeans were a two handed operation... Though here came the good news, Axel forcing him to eat every day (but one) this week had started to slowly made his ribcage less obvious...

Axel tried to look away as Roxas took off his shirt but ended up looking anyway. Smiling wildly and his eyes filled with something unknown. He had gained some weight and it was obvious because his ribs were not protruding as much.
Though then he saw Roxas' problem... He was going to struggle getting out of those jeans.. Well that's going to be awkward.

And that moment he had decided to look up at his boyfriend was embarrassing, the blonde noticing him smiling as he was stripping? Yeah, it took record timing for his face to flush and eyes to dart back down as he managed to sort of undo his belt. "What? Aren't you getting in?" He teased only after managing to get free of the belt and start working on the clasp, not hard... next came the zipper... here came the hard part, both trying to work himself up to and actually sliding off his jeans.

Axel flushed as Roxas started to freely strip in front of him. And if he didn't stop being a tease he'd have a very big problems quite soon.
"Urm... Well I thought... Well you'd want to be on your own." Trying to move his gaze from Roxas but still couldn't help watch him struggle with the jeans.
"Do you need any help with them?" Realizing what he said Axel slapped his hand to his mouth. Ops.

"... I thought we were doing it together...?" yeah, he could be completely blonde, though he did understand where Axel's mind was leading him after a moment and blushed a very dark shade of red, stopping in his changing to 'hold his arm' aka, try to cover himself up more. "I um..." Blush grew deeper. "I could use help yeah..." He had to get used to Axel touching him after all.

Oh. Together?... Axel's cheeks reddened. "Well I thought.. You weren't going to like that idea." He was in a complete fluster.
Shrugging but getting up slowly and his hands were shaking as they fell onto Roxas' hips and started to push them down carefully without scaring Roxas.
"Is that okay?" He asked slowly when he had pushed them to the side.

"I'm fine with it..." Roxas muttered under his breath, though found he actually was as his love came forward, staring at the spot he knew the scar on his chest to be to distract himself instead of paying attention to being stripped down to nothing, though a flash did go off in his mind that his hands were shaking and that didn't help the blush on his face. pervert... "I'm fine... told you." He muttered as he asked if it was alright, really it truly was... he wasn't afraid. Simply stepped out of them and made a bee-line to hide in the tub instead of keeping himself exposed to his lover.

Looking away as Roxas stepped out of his boxers and dived into the bath.
"Okay, if your sure." He muttered under his breath then sitting with his back against the bathtub.
"Is the water fine?" He asked and looking over his shoulder briefly. He still was worried about Roxas.

Leaning over the side of the tub with his bad arm propped against it and good arm leaning out of it to poke the head of red hair gently. "The water's fine, now come on stinky." Offering him a smile as he looked over, though there was still a light blush on his face, still embarrassed but calmed down, the water was blocking whatever insecurities he had before.

Blushing slightly. Was Roxas sure this time? He wasn't go to start crying again and telling him to leave?
Though sighing as he stood up and started to strip his clothing off, placing everything to the side. Whilst he was doing that he removed the clothes he left over night in the sink to rinse the last bits of water off, and hanging them on the back on the sink.
Not wasting anymore time he slowly started to descend into the bathtub, hissing as he warm water soothed his aching chest... He had long taken off the bandages and what was left now was a healing scar. He hadn't realized until now, looking up he saw that his and Roxas' scars were almost identical.

Roxas' gaze had moved to the water, only shifting forward to allow the red-head plenty of room behind him and only looked up from his knees when he head the movement of water and his love hiss behind him, concern flashing through his mind as he looked back at him, the blush still on his cheeks though it might have been from the comforting warmth of the water. "Are you alright?" Concerned, though he couldn't really turn around, had to stay on this side else he wouldn't have a prop for his elbow.

Relaxing his legs and letting them lie next Roxas', and his back was pressing against his front. "Huh, what? I'm fine hon." Smiling back at him before slowly his wet hand went up Roxas' back and gently massaging it.
"What about you?" Frowning slightly as he eyes caught hold of the raw neck again. 'My fault...'

The blonde's shoulders slowly started to relax as he was rubbed, not even caring as he became trapped by the stronger legs. Couldn't see them on purpose and was now focusing his eyes on the wall of the tub, disguising it as glaring at his arm. "Me? Oh um... I hurt a little... but better I think..." Using his good hand to reach for the bar of soap, might as well keep himself busy.

Continuing massage his back gently though he stopped as he eyes caught hold of the plasters on Roxas' wrist. He felt even more guilty for that too..
"I'm sorry. That's my fault hon." Sighing slowly into his ear.
Reaching forward he ghosted his fingers across the covered cuts.

The blonde was busy seeing if he could get the soap to lather up with only using one hand, about to start on Axel's legs when he spoke and there was a moment of pain which made the bar fall from his hand and into the water, looking quickly to the hand touching his wrist than up to Axel and sighed, leaning backwards enough to reach up and kiss the bottom of his jaw. "It's okay, stop blaming yourself." Smiling at him, for real this time to show he really wasn't holding anything against him.

All he heard next was a pop of the soap falling into the water and lips on his jaw line. Whimpering he bit his lip sighing and letting his head slink into his neck. "I know... You keep telling me. But I can't help feeling that way."
His hand then connected with something slippery and hard, at first he was confused then realized it was the bar of soap. Taking out of the water and lathering it onto Roxas' back.

Roxas huffed at his boyfriend though gave in with a low mutter, impossible to hear really, even though Axel was against his neck, he did however move his good hand to pet at the long spikes gently. "And I don't blame you for anything, you should know that." purring quietly though blushed as the large hand brushed his leg to get the soap, crossing his legs and sighing as his back was rubbed at and relaxing further though blinking as he looked down into the water and poked his lover's knee carefully. "Your bruise is gone." Shocked he remembered that from so long ago...

Surprised that Roxas actually remembered about his knee. "So it has." Smiling slightly. "We heal much better without hearts." Though it was ironic how their own emotions couldn't be healed. Could a heartbreak when it's stopped beating? Well it was proven within the past few weeks that it was possible.
His hands dropped the soap the cup some water and splashing Roxas' back to rid of the soapy suds.

"...Which is really weird... I mean you'd expect us to heal slower cause the blood isn't moving but..." He shrugged his shoulders, too much thinking after just waking up. Roxas let out a small shiver as he was splashed, moving his arm back into the water to grab the soap and start lathering his boyfriend's legs with it carefully, trying not to get too sexual with it.

Silently agreeing with Roxas and just as he was about to take the soap again, it vanished out of his sights and appeared into Roxas' hands. Watching carefully as he lathered the soap onto his legs, gulping as each time the hands went near his thighs.
Though it was relaxing him... Yet at the same time it was making him feel hot.
Quickly stopping the hand from going further he frowned. "I think that high enough Roxas."

Blinking as his wrist was grabbed, dropping the soap from surprise and looking back at Axel as he spoke and instantly blushing and looking away. "S-sorry..." He hadn't meant for it to be like that... Oh well, he tried to help... Well the least he could do was rinse it off right? So taking a handful of water he dumped it on his lover's knee.

He blushed! And was getting all in a fluster, he was so adorable when he got like that.
"It's okay." Saying this and picking up the bar of soap. Slowly moving the soap across his hands so they were all soapy, next he hesitated before finally running his hands across his boyfriends' chest.
Studying his abdomen carefully and mapping it out with his mind, he was so thankful that he wasn't as skinny as he use to be.

Roxas didn't say anything at first, well not until hands were guiding over his skin, blushing instantly darker and looking up at his boyfriend to see what he was doing, though after a second relaxed, realizing he was trying to help and sighed, leaning backwards until his head was on his shoulder, ignoring the pain. "Hey look it's that grey hair." Muttering with his eyes widening, reaching up to that one single, short strand of graying hair. Great... if Axel was stressed that much...

At first he thought it must have been a sick kind of joke but then... It felt like ice being dumped on his entire form, he didn't care about his soapy hand as he reached out and to stare at the hair. Paling at the realization that Roxas was right, he did have a grey hair.
"Urm..." He was totally lost for words now mainly because he was worried what Roxas would think.

He couldn't help it, the blonde just started laughing, first a tiny chuckle than into a major case of the giggles, smiling up at him broadly. "I knew you were a pedophile." Teasing with a grin plastered to his face and leaned up to kiss his jaw, the same time he was doing this there was an ungodly amount of guilt weighing down his 'heart'. He was stressing Axel too much...

He still couldn't believe it, he had a grey hair and he was still young.
Pulling at the hair gently, but not enough to pull it out... He didn't need anymore grey hairs to pop out of no where.
"Roxas!" He started panicking as his boyfriend laughed at him. "It's not funny! I'm turning into an old man!" Well there was no denying it; Axel was indeed stressed out a lot from working and looking after his ill boyfriend.

"Hon, it's just stress! Calm down, really. It's fine, you're not turning into an old man." Roxas managed to stop his laughing, it really wasn't the situation that was funny it was his reaction to the subject, taking a breath in slowly and releasing it thusly he calmed down, even the smile vanishing as he tried to turn to see him more but it was hard with his arm needing to be supported. "Really, if you just calm down and stop stressing over everything it'll go away, you're too young for grey anyway. Just a chemical imbalance." Yes! He knew how to speak smart. "Besides it's barely noticeable hon. So don't worry, you won't be grandpa anytime soon."

Still whimpering at the grey hair though letting go of it, reaching over and nestled his head into the crock of Roxas' neck. Sighing heavily. "If you say so hon..." Him as an old man? That's something he was glad that would happen to him. Too bad that there hair didn't stay the same, but thankfully in this day and age people could color their hair.
"If it starts to get worse I'll dye it... I don't want a full head of grey."

The blonde couldn't help but sigh as the head nuzzled into his neck, reaching back to pet the top of his spiky head gently. "Look it up yourself, it will only get worse if you don't start taking care of yourself hon..." Roxas muttered, carefully twisting so he could briefly rest his lips on the section of Axel's head he could reach. "... We're not having the hair argument again hon." This time a joke with a small laugh in voice.

Smiling slightly and kissing his head as much as he could. "Okay hon, whatever you say." Smiling slowly. Though no matter what Roxas said he was still worrying about going grey.
"But just imagine if I went grey as Xemnas was." Shivering before he laughed.
He was starting to mentally remind that he had to wash his hair... What about Roxas? Leaning forward and sniffed at the yellow locks.
Cupping some water and backing away from the head before he dropped it down on his boyfriend.

As grey as Xemnas...? The blonde lifted his head to stare at the ceiling at the thought, than couldn't help it at all, he just started sputtering and cracking up upon envisioning a silver haired Axel walking around hunchback with a cane and waving kids off the lawn. Oh god he couldn't breathe it was too funny! He did stop laughing as water hit his head, shaking it out and looking back at the cause to the water dripping in his eyes with a huff, "Be careful okay...?" Muttering quietly, knowing that he needed his hair washed... but it was getting past those bruises...

Fluttering his eyelashes at Roxas, it was his own form of revenge of getting back at him for laughing.
"I thought you hair could of done with a wash." Trying to look innocent as possible though he most likely ended up looking very girl-like.

The blonde blushed lightly at Axel fluttering about like a girl, had to look away from him to keep from getting too red in the face. "Well yeah I know... J-Just ah never mind." Sighing as he shrugged and leaned back against his boyfriend, only then noticing he had actually gained weight and frowned, poking at his stomach. "... I need to start exercising..." Where'd all his muscle go? He worked so hard for that!

Shrugging as he moved his hands around Roxas' belly. "I'll go with you.. I think I should start training again too." Hey it was his own plan of getting Roxas to eat healthier too. It would be good for all of them.
"Actually... How about we go for a nice long run along the beach?" It was an idea but first they had to look at the job's notice board. "But I'll get you a job first."

"...Today? I don't think I can run with my arm." Muttering under his breath and fidgeting in place as the hands touched him, trying to keep from laughing. Always had been very ticklish... "I'll fall on it or something. Demyx said I don't have to keep it on much longer though." Adding that bit in brightly with a smile, so hopeful that he'd be able to take off the thing that may have been hurting him more than the actual break... Hang on wasn't he going to wash his hair?

Seeing that little smile form, he knew instantly he found another sensitive spot. Continuing to brush his fingers over that area and breathing to his ear. "You're ticklish." Moving his hands away finally and smiling. "Why don't you turn around? I need to wash my hair." It was big enough for a little more room and hopefully when Roxas moved up, room for him to dunk his head into the space.

Roxas jerked as the hand continued to play with his ribs and made little whining noises as he sort of struggled to escape. Though a second and he was laughing sort of but thank god Axel stopped, breathing a sigh of relief until he spoke, than his face lit up and he looked back slowly. "Cause um... my arm... Need mine washed too..." Damn the odds outweighed up, so cradling his arm to his chest as best he could he turned around in the tub so he was facing his lover, eyes focused on his upraised knees instead while trying to keep his cast from getting wet.

Smiling as Roxas finally faced him, and as he was granted the room he got onto his hands and knees before dunking his head into the water.
Emerging back with a head full of wet ruby hair though excluding the grey one.
Spluttering and flicking his hair behind his back, ugh he didn't want to do that again.

Roxas couldn't help it, he jumped with a surprised squeak as Axel's head went closer to his legs, blushing darkly though made a face as he was sprayed with water and used his good arm to wipe it out of his eyes. "… Lovely." He gave a short laugh and a timid smile, passing the shampoo over to his love, he'd have to wait it seemed, somehow managing to get his arm propped up on the inch margin on the other side of the tub.

"Huh? Oh thanks." Grinning as finally the hair lay flat against his back, it seemed much longer now it was wet. Taking the shampoo from Roxas with a quick thank you, then dumping a small amount into his hair.
Rubbing it into his thick locks hurriedly so it all bunched together and stayed on top of his head.
Washing his hands quickly before motioning to Roxas. "What about you?" Pointing to his boyfriends hair.

Watching his boyfriend until it seemed too awkward, dropping his gaze as he let his head fall hollowly to the wall of the shower with a small sigh, trying not to wince at the pain though it was difficult to hide it. "Hrm? Oh um… I need to but don't know if I can…" Motioning that Axel had used two hands… and he had one and he couldn't get the other one wet… And not only that but he'd be in tears if Axel tried to scrub his head…

Nodding slowly in understanding before dunking his head once again. Coughing and spluttering he shook his head. "Ugh I can't be bothered to condition it. I'm gonna get out before I turn into a prune." Shifting and wriggling so he could get up whilst putting the towel he left in near reach, around his waist.
"What about you hon?" Asking slowly to the male.

Roxas blinked at the red head as he said he was getting out though his eyes shot down before he could see the tool used to rape him, shifting uncomfortably. "I um… need to wash my hair… c-can you help? Even if it hurts?" Trying to work up trust, knowing it would hurt but it had to be done, he'd rather have Axel do it…

Nodding silently with a unknown smile, it was almost as if he was nervous. "I'll go get a cup or something." He left the room and coming back a few seconds later with a clean pink mug. Kneeling on the floor and hovering over the bath he filled the mug and put it to onside. Stretching out a hand and putting it around Roxas' back. "Okay lean back onto my arm.." Asking Roxas quietly. In theory this way shouldn't hurt him, Lea's own mother had washed his hair this way once when he was too sick to even leave the bed.

Lean against his arm? This wasn't a joke Axel wasn't going to turn around and drop him was he? The blonde's eyes flashed something similar to concern but bit at his lip and slowly and gently leaned against the arm. Making sure he was covered anyway, just because he was Axel's mercy didn't mean he wanted everything at his disposal. "… Really? Pink?" Choosing to tease about the mug with a small smile.

Supporting the male against his arm carefully so he would drop him. Smirking back. "Yeah pink." Raising the now full mug and slowly poured it on his head, trying his best to avoid his crystal blues as possible. "Is that okay?" Axel asked nervously, he worried he was going to drop him or do something wrong. At the moment his boyfriend was in such a fragile state...

Roxas said nothing for several moments after having the now lukewarm water dumped on his head, shivering from it once and nodding finally. "It's fine." Using his good hand to try and brush his dripping bangs from his eyes and trying to keep from shaking his head to do it like he usually did. Now came the scary part, actually getting his hair 'washed'.

Smiling slightly as his boyfriend wiped his eyes rather cute like. Having to stop himself laughing incase it insulted the blonde.
Putting the mug to the side and having to do a balancing act with the shampoo, but finding a quicker way by pour a small amount onto his hair. "I won't touch the back don't worry." He told him quietly as he massaged the shampoo into his hair.

His eyes were shut at this point, both to keep himself from getting soap an his eyes and a method of calming himself down. "I'm not worried." Muttering under his breath at Axel's final statement, a small huff escaping as hands started working on his scalp. It didn't hurt like he thought it was going to, and he slowly relaxed, trusting him.

Well that was a relief then. "That's okay." He sighed mainly to himself. Okay here came the next part, at least he had already shut his eyes. "Keep them shut a little longer hon." Telling him quickly and refilling the mug so he could pour the water again. Next part... "Roxas? Do you want it conditioned as well?"

He listened to the order, though couldn't help but push his bangs out of the way and wipe the water from his eyes again, shaking his head at the offer. "No… Already freezing my ass of in here." Joking with a timid smile, not moving to stand up yet though, really didn't want to embarrass himself further. Being hidden and curled up in the tub he could do, but standing up? Not an option towel was needed first.

Smiling slowly and nodding. Giving Roxas plenty of warning before he let go of the blonde so he was able to turn around to get a clean towel. Holding it open for him and smiling. "Ready baby?"
Shrugging quickly as he eyes scanned the towel. "Sorry I couldn't find the pink ones." Looking up and smirking.

Leaning up so he was sitting up straight so he wouldn't topple over as the arm left him, taking another moment to shake out his hair as best he could and turn so he could use his arm to get out of the tub though didn't move until the towel was offered, reaching for it hesitatingly and huffing as he spoke, pouting up at him. "What's with you and pink?" Grumbling while forcing himself to stand up and work the towel as best he could around his waist, actually had to move the broken arm to get it secured which hurt like hell…

Laughing slightly. "Well pink would suit you, if you gave it a chance!" Turning around briefly to give Roxas his privacy, once he took the towel Axel frowned to look back at Roxas who had the towel wrapped around his waist. "Hey hon? Where did you put the scissors?" He still didn't know what Roxas used to slice of his wrists and some part of him didn't want to find out…

"No it wouldn't I'd look like a chick!" Roxas grumbled, moving to undo the tub and let the water drain, Carefully stepping out of the bath before looking up with almost guilt in his eyes as he mentioned the scissors, had to think about that one. He washed them then where…? "… Drawer under the sink, figured it'd be best." …Did he clean all the blood off? Hoped to high hell he did…

Smiling as he pecked his forehead. "Fine, but you'd be my chick." Laughing at the end as he turned around again to fetch the scissors from under the sink.
Lucky enough they were cleaned completely and there was nothing left over from Roxas' little 'accident.' Inspecting them over before slotting them into his fingers. "Well... Here goes nothing." He sighed to Roxas and almost wanting to shut his eyes as he made the first vital cut.

Roxas huffed as Axel called him his chick, moving to grab his clean clothes and start putting them on slowly and painfully, somehow getting his boxers on without showing anything and then proceeded to cover his head and shoulders with the towel. "You know what? I'm gonna get a gender swap just to make you happy. Cause you obviously don't like the fact I'm a boy." Managing to get into his jeans, but not do the button, when Axel started on his hair, eyes widening and looking away as if terrified. "Don't butcher it too much hon."

Looking around so suddenly he chopped off my lay a little shorter than he intended. "Really? You'd do that for me?" It was obvious by his tone he was joking. "Too bad I like cock to much." Turning his head back to realized his mistake. 'Shit.' But he carried on a little more careful this time, starting from the top and working his way down.

Roxas' eyes narrowed in a glare at Axel's enthusiasm over him getting a gender change, joking or not. Actually hurt a little… Though he blushed heavily at the next statement, looking away as he struggled into the button up long sleeved oxford. Seemed the easiest thing at first but now he was regretting it with the cast being bigger than the sleeve. "Oh so you've tried both?" Teasing playfully, though at the same a little curious. "Besides, you'd be able to have kids." Cringing at the thought. Wanted children one day, but coming from him? No.

Still chopping away carefully, though he was concentrating so much that it was almost to his shoulders.
"Hey babes, I was joking!" Laughing as him and putting the scissors to one side. Kids?... He'd love them someday, but not now. They were still just trying to find their place in this world. "Kids sounds nice... But not now. Plus I don't think I could picture you with a pregnant belly." Laughing hard at the image of his small petite boyfriend with a round tummy. Turning back to the mirror to finally actually look at himself properly, he paled. He hadn't meant to go that short! His thick red locks were now chopped just below his shoulders.

Roxas paled at that mental image, shivering and shaking his head while fixing the sling around his neck. "Never mind I never mentioned that it's never ever happening. Sorry hon we're adopting if anything." Damn he had been sarcastic to began with and look what a mess he made! He finally did look up at his boyfriend after calming down, eyes widening. "Um.. too short hon…"

Running his fingers through his once longer hair and sighing. "It'll grow." Hopefully anyway.. Taking the remaining pieces of his hair and started towards their room and kitchen and only to return to Roxas. "Umm.. Is it that short then?" Asking quietly as he looked back in the mirror.

He just stared at his boyfriend's hair, sighing as he stepped forward and brushed his fingers through it. "… Yeah, it's too short." Well it was long for normal standards but for Axel? It was too short, his hair was about that long right now! Yeah… new rule Axel wasn't allowed to put scissors near his hair.

"I guess I got pretty carried away." Smiling a little bit and bunching his hair together. Well at least it wasn't as if he couldn't tie it up.
He panicked a little bit, if his was short... What would Roxas look like once his was cut?
"Roxas?" He started.

Wait what was wrong? Raising an eyebrow as Axel seemed to panic about something and tilted his head to the side. Regretted the decision, it only made his sling rub against his neck more. "What's wrong?" Asked while trying to get it away from his neck, what was the thing doing trying to decapitate him?

Leaning forward to take both sides of Roxas' face. "Please don't cut too much off." He sighed. "I mean... I don't know how long it'll take for it to grow back out." Laughing at his last part. "Ugh! I'm a walking freak now. I'm going grey and I have short hair." Okay maybe that was a little bit drastic but he kind of felt like that right now.

Roxas' shoulders fell at Axel's statement, he had been hoping for something… useful? "Aww I was going to buzz it… and it takes ages to grow I was looking forward to not having to take care of my hair…" joking of course, he couldn't even think of himself having hair that short ew… Though as Axel made his 'freak' joke he had to bite his lip to keep from laughing. "Nooo you're not a freak hon, look it's not that bad and you cant even see the hair anymore!"

Buzz cut! His eyes widened and reached for his locks. "No! Don't go too short!" Panicking again and running his elongated fingers through the silky locks.
"Just have it how you had it back with the Org. Please?"
Yeah Roxas was right again, he did that pesky grey hair a bit of a chop. He didn't want to pull it though.. Incase more popped up!

The blonde huffed as Axel acted so protective over his hair, rolling his eyes as he just had to touch it and mess it up. "Fine. I'll grow it out and never ever cut it." Grumbling sarcastically, hell no he wouldn't he hated his hair this length, let alone any longer! Ugh he couldn't even see that, he'd look too much like Namine…

Shaking his head frantically. "No! You'd look like a girl!" Leaning forward so their hair was touching. Nuzzling into the fluffy feather down hair. "Hey... Are you teasing me?" Realizing after awhile that Roxas would never cut his hair THAT short. And point two, he would of thought that his boyfriend would take the piss out of him for looking like a girl.

He couldn't help it anymore! The blonde burst out laughing as Axel finally asked if he was teasing, nodding with his face buried in his red-head's shoulder seeing it was in range. "I love you, but you can be so slow sometimes." Really, like he would ever do any of that!

Sighing with relief and burying his head into Roxas' hair. "Shit Rox's don't do that to me you almost gave me a... Heart attack!" Though he was sarcastic at the end but it was all light-hearted.
Breaking away and smiling then passing the scissors into his boyfriends hands. "Don't cause too much damage, okay?" He didn't need a bald Roxas..

Roxas huffed at Axel's joke, giving a small glare. "Not funny." He grumbled under his breath, wondering really what part of having a heart defect prior was hilarious to the red-head. Maybe the lashing around or the being in pain? Blinking though with wide eyes as the scissors were passed over, having them in his hand less than a second before shivering, remembering the feeling of the cold steel slicing through his skin. "I um… not now you need two hands for that." Muttering quietly as he moved to set it back in the drawer.

Scratching the back of his head and muttered. "Sorry hon." Okay maybe his teasing and joking went a little too far this time.
Just only noticing after he had passed the scissors over to Roxas he had seen that shiver. Was it because he had given him something sharp? He wasn't sure but he did feel a little fearful... He saw something in his boyfriends eyes and he didn't want to see it again. "Okay hon." They'd need washing anyway. "Alright, dressing time then!" Trying his best to forget that look by putting on a cheerful atmosphere.
Turning on his heel and bounding into their room and scavenging for his clothes. "Hey Roxas, I was thinking right. You had friends in Twilight Town?"

Jeeze did Axel just have a mood swing? Blinking at his suddenly cheerful boyfriend as he headed into their bedroom, shrugging himself as he picked up their dirty clothes and set them on the counter before he followed more slowly, laying back on their bed as Axel spoke and blinking over at the randomness of it, feeling his emotion's fall along with his expression. "… Yeah I did… they were fake though, like the rest of the world." Could he even make friends with them again? Were they even real?

Shaking his and he chose his clothes for the day, blue jeans and a black shirt. "Actually Roxas they were data. And data always has memory pumped into them. Because they were copies of the original they would still left something over and that would of gone back too them." Yes Axel actually said something logical and smart for once. Turning around briefly so he could put on his underwear and jeans. Ripping away the towel quickly and folding it to the side.

Roxas just stared… and stared… and stared well up into the point Axel went to strip than he looked at the ceiling. "… Did you just say something smart? Doesn't matter anyway… don't know how to talk to them." He had never really tried to make friends before… Axel came to him first….
Fully dressed now he started to strip the bed, well they couldn't sleep in dirty sheets forever. "Sure you do! You've done it before. You can talk to me, Demyx and Zexion all the time. You're special to us."
Stating to him as he put the sheet onto the floor and rushing to the cupboard where he saw contained fresh bed sheets. Anything to get rid of the smell of their previous joining... It was starting to feel and smell uncomfortable.

"…I don't know. I've never met the real ones." Sighing quietly in response, unable to keep his mind from thinking about them. Hayner, Pence, Olette… they were all just a lie. His eyes dropped however as he was complimented, face reddening just enough to be noticeable as he shook his head. "I'm not… Nothing special at all." Muttering quietly and keeping his eyes on the floor, kinda hard when your boyfriend had a grip on your face so the lowest he got was Axel's chest. He was boring… no talent, no specialty, no hobbies… he was nothing.

Letting go of his face to ruffle his hair. "Think what you want then but I'll always think other wise." Deciding it was about time to move this a little bit before things got ugly, so he wrapped an arm around waist. "Come on hon, cheer up! We're going back home!" He turned his attention to the middle of the room where a dark portal appeared.

Roxas didn't really cheer up as Axel ordered him, at least not until the magical four words. We're going home! His face softened, looking towards the corridor as it appeared. Home? Going home? "… alright…" Muttering under his breath as he stopped putting himself down for Axel… out loud anyway.

"Ready?" The elder asked , smiling slightly as he wrapped an arm around Roxas' shoulders before slowly leading him through the dark portal.
It was the bright light that hit his eyes first, wincing as the sun tried to invade his eyes and having to cover his green eyes quickly.
Stepping onto the limestone flooring and instantly knowing where they were. "Hey hon we're here." He'd take Roxas here every day just to see him smile.

He almost didn't want to go, he wanted to calm down first, didn't want to hold any negative energy on his home world however held his tongue. It obviously didn't matter what he thought. Even still the darkness was colder and sharper than usual, and the sun blinded him for making the mistake of staring straight ahead. Covering his eyes quickly with his working hand though nodded silently at his boyfriend's phrase. "I know." Sighing as he looked around, making himself relax and clear his mind from any of the depressing thoughts running through his head, but the smile still didn't return.

Sighing as he recognized that tone in Roxas' voice. "Hon. Are you okay?" Turning on his heel to face Roxas as the portal disappeared. What was wrong with him now? What had he done to upset Roxas this time. "I haven't upset you have I?" Being honest as his eyes softened. He hated to see his lover like this.. His lonely eyes and un-smiling face. It didn't suit him.

And great this again. Not here, not at home. He wanted this to be a safe haven of no negative energy, so shook his head at Axel's question, trying to keep from sighing and instead put on a very forced smile. "It's nothing. Mind is overworking itself it seems, I'm okay." More forced smiles, his hands moving to claim Axel's carefully. He didn't want to fight here… Hold it off till they got back to the apartment…

Moving forward to kiss Roxas forehead and nodding. He knew his lover was hiding something but he'd wait until they got back to the apartment to ask him... He didn't want to ruin the date. "Sure. Okay so where do you want to go first?" Interlocking their fingers together and smiling, though his eyes showing hurt at Roxas' own smile... It was forced.

His eyes flickered down at the sweet act, relief upon not being asked any more questions. Act normal just act normal. Roxas started to slowly relax as he kept reminding himself why they were here, making more of an effort to smile for real. "The bulletin first off, there's usually a listing there." Was that even here or was that fake too? It took a moment of hesitating before he managed to grip Axel's fingers and make himself start moving forward, trying to keep from looking at his love. Couldn't make the smile look real enough.

"Sure. So which way do you want to go?" He wasn't sure which way it was. Sure he knew the area but not as well as Roxas did. Looking downwards as he felt his hand clench around his, smiling gently at him and running his fingers over his knuckles. Something was bothering and he was sure it was too do with their previous discussion about this world.

"This way." Muttered quietly under his breath as he started away from the alley close to the tower and back towards the main town, every step only made the area his heart was supposed to be ache more. He remembered running down this way after school with the other three, playing around in the sandlot, starting trouble, being normal… all of it was fake. Maybe it was a bad idea to try and stay here, he felt more homesick than ever, even as the alley widened into a street and the noise of regular life could be heard from the street performer and the elementary school kids cheering him on he couldn't get himself to focus long enough on the job listings stapled or taped to the cork wood of the board. Only made it worse when he made himself read the names of the hiring shops and he remembered for the most of them who worked there…

Moving through the busy streets and watching curiously as a young boy maybe around twelve or something, hit a ball into the air with a bat. He soon understood that goal was too keep it up in the air long as possible. It seemed to be popular with the crowds as they were cheering him on. It seemed like such a happy world to be living in, this is most defiantly what Roxas needed.
Finally after tearing his eyes away from the boy and back onto following Roxas to the bulletin board. Closing reading the wooden board that was full of odd jobs ranging from waiting, cleaning and walking dogs!
"Hey you like books don't you?" He spoke as he unpinned a small card from the display and reading the print. 'He'd be good at that wouldn't he?'

"…What?" He hadn't been focusing, his eyes were on a random section of the board as if pretending he was paying attention though his mind was elsewhere. Last time he had been standing here was for one of Hayner's bright ideas that involved having to work… they never did go to the beach and being there last night he wished more so that they had. "Books…? I-Yeah kinda." Trying to look over his boyfriend's arm at the words on the card, bookstore? It'd be easy enough…

Nodding and passing the information over, Roxas knew the place better than him. "Just say to pick up a form... You want to go for that one?" Asking slowly. "Or is there any other place you want to have a good look at first?" Looking back to the board. It made him start to think about his own future. He didn't want to be cleaning tables all his life. Scanning the notice board he picked up two small cards and pocketing them.. He'd ring them up later.

Roxas looked over the card as it met his hand, looking up after reading the address and thinking hard. Where was that again…? Downtown… where-by the candy shop right? "This one is fine… I hope..." Looking over the other postings and starting to relax with something to distract him from thinking darkly and instead thinking rationally. He did however try not to gag or make a joke at one of the job fliers… 'dancers needed' for a nightclub… maybe before he would've made a joke about it but those days were gone.

Even Axel noticed the paper flier and a feint smile formed.
'Good thing I picked up the right card.' Taking Roxas' hand into his own. "Okay hon. You going to lead the way?"
It wasn't like he knew the area that well, he wasn't that good at finding places. That was Demyx's job.
Though at the moment he was very concerned for his boyfriends emotional wellbeing.

"Yeah… Course." Roxas muttered as he forced on a smile, less noticeably forced and more leaning onto actually happy before starting down the ramp, taking a second to look over the performer for a familiarity… nope had no idea who he was so just continued walking under the gate and into the 'down town' area, which was just as sleepy looking as the rest of the world. Sure, a few more houses and apartment buildings, a trolley that ran through it and more people roaming around the streets, but it was otherwise calm and dreamy, the blonde wasting almost no time looking around for memories sake and turned instantly, looking at the card again for the address he didn't need. "Where would we live if we moved here…?" Asking randomly after a moment, not bothering to correct himself for the 'if' statement… he still didn't believe it.

Soon Roxas was leading him off to places he hadn't been to in this world. He felt so lost, it was a good thing his boyfriend knew where he was going. "Well... I wouldn't know. You know this place better than me." After he said that he went back to thinking about Roxas, would he be happier in school? Surely if they went back and looked in the data world they'd get some kind of record of his blonde boyfriend in there? It was worth the shot. "Roxas? You know what I was saying earlier? Well that got me thinking. The data world... Surely it would have some kind of record of you living there?" At the moment where Roxas was heading... It didn't look good and Axel didn't want to see him reach that finishing line.…

Oh yeah… more guilt hit him hard in the stomach, maybe he was being too selfish? Axel asked if he wanted to move here to begin with but maybe it would simply cause troubles… Maybe Axel wasn't so comfortable here as he was… and maybe it was too much to ask to move… After all his love was already situated in the other world… "Oh…" Was his only response to that topic, avoiding eye contact and staring at the ground instead. He was horrible to Axel… always seemed to being doing something wrong even if he never said anything about it. Though as his love spoke again the blonde slowly looked up though only briefly, shrugging at his question. "I don't know… It might it might not. Why?" Now curious though hidden… he was starting just to want to go back to the apartment and hide under the blankets until these thoughts passed.

"Because." He started. "If we can get hold of records... Would you like to see if you can join school again?" From what he knew of, Roxas seemed happier when he was at school or with his friends. "I'm only just trying to help." He shrugged his shoulders, he just didn't want to see Roxas sad or depressed. It always broke him seeing him like that, just like now...

He couldn't help it, the blonde literally froze in place. This was the second time schooling was brought up, why? Don't get your hopes up to might, it's a maybe, it probably wont happen. That running through his mind instead of the speck of hope and he was able to move again, keeping up with his boyfriend and offering a shrug. "It'd be nice but who's to say the program even exists anymore?" Maybe he was being too negative? He couldn't help it, that's the way his mind was working right now… "I know you are… I appreciate it really… sorry. Not feeling well I guess…" Thinking that Axel's statement was directed to the whole of the date instead of the one phrase. It was his fault it wasn't running as smoothly as the other one.

Roxas was right... Who even knows that the program even existed anymore? Running his hand through his hair, he was running out of ideas of how he could dig his boyfriend out of the hole he had found himself in. "I dunno hon..." He knew he shouldn't be giving him this... False hope.
"I'm sorry though... I just want the best for you." This isn't the date he had hoped for the date they had yesterday was so much better... He just hoped and prayed it wouldn't end up like the other night.
Oh well at least he had a number he could call and he was taking Roxas to apply for a job... Wait did he even want to work?

He needed to stop this… hearing the sigh from his boyfriend made him realize this, the blonde's head hanging as he forced back all the emotions, trying to focus on the positive. IF the program existed, he could go back to school no problem, have a life easy. WHEN they moved he could show Axel all the apartments with the best view… He had to force those thoughts to scream out in his mind as he made his broken arm's hand hold the card and his alright one took his lover's. "I know, and really… I'm the one who should be sorry, being negative for no reason. I'm grateful. Really."

Was he? Was he really grateful? Of course he was... At least he hoped so.
"I know you are hon." He smiled at him as their fingers interlocked and his fingers brushing against Roxas' knuckles lovingly. "I wouldn't be moving out here if I knew you wasn't." Taking a breather and smiling again. "It'll be fresh start for us. New jobs new world. A whole new life."

Well better than the lecture he had been expecting, the blonde showing for maybe the first time that day a semi real smile that only took the slightest bit of forcing behind it. Though the uncertainty found a way back… "You sure you want to move here? I mean… We don't have to if you don't want to." Slowing down once he realized that the shop was right next to them, though still looking at his lover for an answer.

Unlucky for Axel he didn't see the smile as he kept his face down for a brief moment until they came to a sudden halt. Was he sure? He wasn't sure himself but he wanted to do this for Roxas. His face showing traces of uncertainty as he continued to think, it was most likely Roxas' negativity had rubbed onto to him unknowingly. Hiding his expression and putting on a smile. "Of course I'm sure! I wouldn't of mentioned it if I wasn't.." Axel wanted to move, true. But at the same time his past and history belonged in Radiant Garden. His whole life had been their! Though he did his best to conceal these thoughts from his not so positive boyfriend.

He stopped… why? Roxas stopped himself, turning to look back at his lover, his face questioning as he stepped closer. Trying to find the lie on his face and there it was, in his eyes just the hint of uncertainty… So he really didn't want to… "Ax, stop thinking about me I'm asking what you want to do." Cause even if Axel didn't want to move there was still corridors to see this place as they had been doing… He was just wanting to see Axel happy after the asshole he had been today…

Shaking his head and trying to keep a smile on his face. "But Roxas I thought you really wanted to move?" Taking a short moment so he could correct himself. "That is if you still want to? I'm telling you I wouldn't of asked you if I was sure of moving!" He stopped because he didn't think arguing inside the shop was a good plan of action of getting Roxas a job. "I want to. It'll be good for us. I'll even look for another job when I'm out here." He'd ring that number tonight when his boyfriend wasn't around... He didn't want him knowing he was applying for such a club, but the way was so much better than was he was getting at his current work place. It'll help him and his small boyfriend an awful lot.
"Though I doubt we'd be able to get something yet with my wages." Sighing heavily against the bookshop's wall.

Was Axel fighting with him? The blonde stared as the argumentative words started rolling out of his boyfriend's mouth, keeping calm and shaking his head. "I do want to, but I want you to be happy, that's all." His voice just above a whisper, his fingers pulling carefully at the sling that seemed to just be burning his neck more and more with the days moving. He gave a small nod at his boyfriend's sigh, not liking how it was giving him a negative image of his favorite world. "… I know… We can do it though." He didn't want to go inside yet, not until his boyfriend realized he wasn't trying to fight but just wanting to help…

"I know hon." He breathed as he leaned forward to suddenly bring Roxas into his arms. "I want you to be happy too." He sighed into his small boyfriends ear and petting his back. He really did want Roxas to be happy, he was too far down that a normal person should be. Though who wouldn't be? Especially what he had done to him...

He wasn't ready for the strong arms to pull him close, stumbling with a squeak as he practically fell and landed in his lover's arms. Okay sudden act of kindness appreciated… no argument forming all good… Even appreciated how no one seemed to care at the act, no one even looked as if it was normal. "I am… sorry guess I'm out of it today. It's not your fault." Didn't they have medication for this…? Maybe he should look into some…

Laughing slightly at Roxas' statement. "Hey it's fine we all have these days." Telling him and shifting away from him, but they were still close to each other.
"Come on, lets get you a job." He smiled and kissing his forehead for luck. "Do you want me to come in with you?" He asked. Axel was obviously unsure weather or not Roxas would be okay alone.

Roxas shut his eyes as he was kissed, able to take a little comfort from the warm gesture though did finally smile with a small laugh at his second question, shaking his head. "I'm a big boy I can do it." Really he would've liked it, but he didn't need Axel to hold his hand through the entire process, after all he needed to learn to be able to talk if he was going to work there. So pulling himself away from his boyfriend with a smile he slowly made himself pull open the door and go in alone.

Moving his hands away and smiling before telling Roxas. "You can do it!" And everyone was hoping she'd lose with.
Watching him carefully as he watched his boyfriend head inside the building. Raising his hands up and giving him a thumbs up sign for luck. He just hoped Roxas would get something.
Inside the well lit colorful room sat a pretty woman with longish brown hair at the counter and a few other people in uniform trotted around the store, mainly replenishing books. Whilst she sat at the counter over looking things, it seemed as if she ran things throughout the building.

At first he thought he was imagining things, though the moment he finally got to the front desk and looked over the woman he felt his blood run cold, trying to keep from turning around and running in fear. She was older, but it was her… Olette. "E-excuse me?" It was so hard staying calm, knowing that someone you used to call a friend was sitting across from you. Stop. She doesn't know who you are. That thought ended it and the shock dropped. Here to get a job, she doesn't know who you are, that's a stranger, not your friend. Though he remembered things about her.. she always did have a nose in a book no surprise she ended up here. There were plenty of workers though… "I saw your flier, are you still hiring…?" Much more controlled, seemed putting him down kept him from freaking out.

Looking up from the desk Olette smiled kindly at the blabbing teenaged boy. Though initially shocked she didn't know why but she felt like she knew him from somewhere. "Hey there. I'm Olette, can I help?" The shop in question was her parent's place which she came and helped out in from time to time. They trained her up well until she was able to help run the place, but of course she still worked for them and had to go by their set regulations.
Tilting her head slightly as she wracked her mind it almost hurt her head as the young woman tried to think of the name... 'ROXAS!' It seemed like a memory. But not her own. "Roxas?" Asking hesitantly and leaning forward.

Trying to ignore the fact she hadn't been paying attention to hear his request he gave a slightly timid smile before repeating it. "I was wondering if you were hiring?" Though that wasn't half the shock. The moment she said his name his emotions dropped, eyes widened, staring at her face. No way… how could she know him? How! Was everything a lie? Was that life really real after all? The hope was overwhelming though his depression was worse so cut everything down into a simple answer. "Yeah? How do you know my name?" He wouldn't give hers, it was too weird. Took all of his willpower not to start rambling off questions, how were the other two? Where were they now?

Leaning backward in shock, so that was his name? But how did she know it? She knew she didn't know him... But why did she feel as if she did? "I'm sorry, I just feel like I should know you from somewhere." She smiled slightly. Oh wait! Didn't he come for the job? "OH! Yeah sure!" Fumbling around in a draw to the side of her a pulling out a form. "We haven't had that many people applying." Informing Roxas as she put the form to the table top.

Like she should know him? That made his shoulders drop just a hair, resisting the urge to blurt out that they were once the best of friends and she should know him like he knew her… Wasn't he the one to hold her the first time a boy dumped her? She was like a sister to him.. and this was torture. "Odd, dunno where. Maybe class together or something?" Well they did go to school together… fake school. He returned the smile, hollow, though looked over the application quickly as he took it carefully in his hand. "Thanks, give it to you tomorrow than? When will you be open?" He didn't want to leave Axel waiting outside for much longer who knows what the impatient red-head would do.

Looking over the blonde and nodding. "Yeah maybe..." She couldn't put her finger on it and it pissed her off to no end. "Did you go to Twilight High too?" Asking excitedly and leaning forward again.
"Oh, yeah sure we're open from nine till five, if you want I can get an interview set up for tomorrow at 11? You seem a like a nice guy."

"I did for a year, didn't talk much though." Roxas offered the semi lie with a smile, yeah he went to twilight high… no he wasn't quiet… always was causing problems with Hayner and Pence… Though as she asked for the interview time he kept the smile going, nodding quickly, "Yeah, that'd be great thank you. See you at eleven than?" A nice guy…? Damn it Axel was going to turn around and rub this in his face wasn't he? Especially how he acted about it earlier… there came the guilt. Shouldn't have made such a big deal out of nothing.

Leaning back into her seat a smiling. "Ahh maybe that's why." Though she highly doubted it. "Well then Roxas. I'll see you tomorrow at eleven." Waving at him.
'Well he seemed... Familiar. ' Thinking to herself and putting her book back onto her lap. 'I guess this means a little trip to see the boys later. Maybe they'll know this Roxas.' Pondering to herself and as she was about to start reading the book again, her parents called her over to help. Sighing and bookmarking her page she went to go help them with the new shipments.

"Right, see you." Axel had to work tomorrow anything so it gave him something to do… Seeing as he couldn't really wave a smile was his farewell as he 'friend' behind and left the store to meet up with his boyfriend, glancing over the application as he did and almost running into the red-head. "You ready…?" Looking up at him, well he was in a better mood at least… A very good chance he would be with his friends again…

Smiling even as Roxas knocked into his chest. "Hey there how did it go Roxas?" He couldn't help but wrap his arms around his boyfriends waist, he saw that faint and it lightened up his mood so much more.
"I'm guessing well?"

"Very, I got an interview tomorrow." Roxas muttered into his lover's chest, seeing as that's where his face landed when he was pulled into the embrace, though he managed to look up before having to breathe became a priority. "And someone I know," but doesn't know me, "works there." The thought interrupted the statement though it didn't show however he was smiling. "And she remembered my name." There was hope... he may be able to lead a life here...

"That great! I'm so happy for you Roxas!" He grinned and hugging him again but decided that breathing wasn't an option and released his boyfriend.
Axel asked his boyfriend when he took his form from his free hand and held onto it for him, not to soon after he replaced the empty hand with his own.
"So who was this person then?"
Roxas squeaked as air was forced from his body and coughed a few times as the strong arms finally relaxed, drawing in as much oxygen as he could. "You're gonna shatter my ribs if you keep doing that hon." Joking, and man it felt great to be doing so after how the day seemed to be going so far! At his question though the blonde shrugged, taking Axel's hand in his own and swinging it slightly, almost giddy. Too much good hitting him at once. "Hrm? Oh, Olette she was one of my friends while in the program... Somehow she knows me name."

Swinging their hands back and forth so much at one point he actually twirled his boyfriend! "See!" He held onto him and his hands. Now it was his turn to be giddy. "Who was right? Who said that you'd be recognized?" Axel smiled. Roxas looked so much happier. Looks as if there date was looking up now.

The blonde blushed harshly as he was spun around, well that was enough of the swinging! Axel forget they were in public? He sighed heavily and sarcastically as his boyfriend started playing the 'who was right' game, shoulders falling and pretending to pout. "You were rightttt..." Dragging out the word 'right' for a couple moments longer than necessary and than snapping out of it, looking up towards his boyfriend's face. "So which ones did you pick up? Want to run by there now?"

Smiling wildly and going back to holding Roxas' hand. "I'm glad you found one of your old friends." He didn't know how he knew, he just did but he guessed they'd easily get together again. Though when Roxas asked him the confusing question he just looked blank at him. "Run? Why are we running?"

Roxas stared for several seconds almost as blankly as Axel was staring at him. "... I didn't really mean to run... I meant like... go look at the places you wanted to apply." Really he thought that term was used everywhere... Anyway his boyfriend should know that right now he couldn't really run...

Shaking his head. "Oh urm... It says I have to ring up." His voice trying to cover up his nervousness. Axel couldn't have Roxas knowing about this job, but he had a pretty good idea how to make his boyfriend not ask anymore questions on the matter. "It's a bar job. But it doesn't say where. I just thought I'd go for it." It was a only a small white lie… Right?
"So?" He started to quickly change the subject. "Where do you want to go next? Wait. Is their any clothing stores near by? Most of ours have been shredded." Pointing it out as he stopped in mid sentence. Though it was true. Recently with their near misses with death and each time their clothes had also had a price to pay.

Roxas was understanding at first, until Axel said the forbidden word, about to turn and start walking until he heard it, staring back at him with wide eyes but they narrowed dangerously within seconds. "A bar?" Appalled by the very idea, there went his good mood quite literally, all traces of happiness gone from his face, replaced by something close to betrayal. "You're applying for a bar..." After the fight just the other night... why was he so forgetful that he hated the very mention of alcohol? And if Axel decided to take a few drinks before he came home it was just disgusting to think about. Axel would really go through all that again? Put their relationship on the line again like that? Even with the subject change he just sighed, looking away quickly and shrugging his shoulders. "Don't know." Yeah, there went the happy. A bar...?

Shit. Axel paled and rushed forward to grasp Roxas' hand. "I'm sorry babe! It's just it pays better than the waiting job. And if I work night shifts we'll be able to get out and move here sooner! Isn't that what you want hon?" He couldn't believe Roxas was mad at him... Raising a hand to stroke his boyfriends' soft cheek. "That's what you want isn't it?"

"Well yeah I want to move but a bar Axel!" He was fine with him wanting to get a new job, very much so fine with the idea of both of them working late in order to move, but anywhere would be better than coming home to the possibility of Axel being intoxicated and smelling the vile on his breath. Fingers misted his cheek, but the blonde pulled his face just enough to look away, refusing to keep eye contact as his arms went around himself, shivering slightly. "You know what? I don't care, do what you want." His input obviously didn't matter on this subject...

And off he went again in his funny moods. Diving into his back pocket to get out the phone number and started ripping it to small pieces, letting them go he allowed the wind to carry them off onto an unknown journey. "Happy now?" He spat then raising his hand as if he were about to call forth a dark portal. He just could stand his boyfriends hormonal mood swings anymore.
And now Axel was about to open a corridor right in the middle of a busy street? No, he didn't care about that anymore; his blue eyes were glaring at the ground as he gave in with a groan shook his head. "You're impossible! I said do what you want!" Sighing loudly and turning on his heel, "Go home I'll be there later." Grumbling as he just started walking off, needing to blow off steam and the 'sunset' was starting even though it was just after two, so blowing off steam more than likely meant he was going to sit on the clock tower until he calmed down.

Ugh he was the impossible one. Yet he couldn't leave his boyfriend alone... Though he could always come back for him. Seriously! What was wrong with working in a bar?
Growling as he opened the portal and storm through it. He didn't even stick around to hear the last of Roxas' sentence.

He could hear the startled shouts and voices as the familiar hiss of the portal open and shut, though he was too pissed off to care, it was only after actually getting to and climbing to the top of the clock tower and looking over the city did he realize what he just did. Sitting heavily on the wall next to the door as he stared listlessly over the beautiful town, finding little merit in it without Axel there. Why? Why couldn't they go one day one god damn day without fighting? Why was alcohol brought into the equation over and over, he TOLD Axel that he was abused by an alcoholic guardian! Why did these things keep happening? He had enough of this, he couldn't take much more... maybe it was time to think of seeing how compatible they really were... and if they should just call it off...

Falling instantly onto his bed he finally realized what he had done. He hurt his boyfriend again. Roxas probably hated him now; after all he promised his boyfriend there would be no more fighting. Balling his hands into fist and grabbing at his short hair as tears threatened to spill. He just had to mention the bar... No. He shouldn't even picked it up in the first place! He knew all about his boyfriend's abusive mother… Though he wouldn't have thought that would of effect him... Then again he wasn't allowed to drink anymore... There went his outlet...

His tears wouldn't form correctly, he could feel them building up but they all refused to spill. Not here, this was the safe haven. Somewhere else... Where Axel would never look for him... he had to be free from him... no matter how much his emotions cried out to return home and apologize he couldn't. He couldn't take anymore of this mental abuse, no more screaming, no more fighting, lashing, screaming, beatings, he couldn't do it anymore. Yet he couldn't make himself move, he stood, than practically fell against the railing of the tower where he and Axel had sat for the period of years, all their fondest memories. And all he could do was cry over them. All lost...

He didn't stop sobbing, all their good memories just kept flashing. He had a feeling that they weren't going to have anymore. Why was it when they had hearts they didn't fight? Axel didn't understand and in his rage of tears he started to scratch at his hands and soon his arms. Yet the pain... It wasn't good enough. He deserved worse for all the harm he let befall his boyfriend. Ripping off his shirt and throwing it too the side. Sliding against the bathroom door which opened, looking up with his surprised tear stain eyes he saw a shiny glint. What? Wiping his tears with the back of his hands as he got to his feet. 'Scissors...'
What happened next didn't even make Axel blink. Picking up the scissors and opening them wide. He just wanted to be able to feel again, and what better place to do it? Right over where his heart should be.
Bring it to his chest and sliding it down a little bit, gasping in fascination as the blood trickled down his torso. It was the next to most painful thing he had felt in a while. This time aiming for his ribcage and letting the cool metal slide across his skin which seemed to tingle with each cut he made. He was watching in awe he lost himself in a trance like state as he continued to cut all along his shoulders and arms. It just felt so great to feel again.