I never knew that I could feel so stressed about anything. It was hard to focus on any one aspect at a time. My thoughts swirled in my head. I finally prioritized them. I knew I needed to stay calm, think this through and find a way to keep my family safe.
If I had to go with the Volturi to keep everyone else alive, then so be it. I'd decided I'd do that if it really came down to it. I knew it'd be a last resort. I had six weeks to try and think of another solution. That's when my focus was broken by something Alice had said.
"Are you sure you want to keep that path in your future as a possibility?" She asked me.
"That doesn't seem like a good idea. I'd definitely reconsider and try to think of any other way to get out of that one. Once they find out what you can do, there may be no way out for you." Edward added, knowing what was going in both our thoughts.
"I know, but it may be the only option they leave us with. I can't risk anything happening to any of you guys. I don't care who objects to it. I love you all too much to let any of you get hurt." I explained.
Everyone wanted to know what was going on. I, along with Alice's help, filled them in on what was going on. I told them what my last resort plan was in case I thought of something else and it failed to work. Or if I failed to think of anything else between now and the time they came for us.
"It's all too risky. I don't like that idea." Carlisle said with a frown.
"It may be the only thing to keep you all safe from their clutches though Carlisle. As much as I don't want to leave you guys, I may have to just so you can be safe." I said.
Carlisle continued to frown. I knew how much it'd hurt him to have to go with a plan like this. It'd kill me to be apart from him, but from what I've heard I'd really rather him not have to go back to that. I knew they'd pressure him into changing his diet. There'd probably be many disagreements.
This is when my thoughts suddenly turned towards Amun and Kebi. I remembered their conversation from the woods. I didn't want to believe that Kebi could be right about Amun. I knew it was possible for him to be the only one to pass along a message to the Volturi. No one would suspect him here. I just didn't want to believe that he could, or even would, be so cruel to his longtime friend.
I must've lingered long enough on the subject for Edward to piece together the same thing I had. He frowned and thought to himself. I knew he knew that this was definitely a possibility. He apparently didn't want to think the worst of one of Carlisle's oldest friends, but knew just as well as I did what Amun could've really been planning.