I walked to our lunch table with my tray of food.
I was hopeing to get to talk to Cartman alone before
Stan comes, to explain why I wasent there yesterday But
Stan was sitting there.
Cartman was glaring at him annoied.
While Stan was looking off to the side.

Damn it.

I guess I'll have to talk to him later.
I sat down next to Stan and Stan smiled at me.
Cartman frowned.
Now I know he's pissed at me for sure.
That explains why He was starring out the window
In our whole secould class.

I dont blame him.
I would probably get mad at someone
who says their comming over and they dont.
Stan looked around "Hey, Wheres Kenny?"
Who cares.
I shrugged.
Cartman looked down at his food.
I was relieved to See Stan is finnaly eating again.
Cartman didnt speak at all the whole lunch piriod.
He was deffinently angry.
I have to talk to him.
The bell rang, for lunch to be over and Cartman quickly got up, dumped his tray and walked
out of the cafiteria.
Me and Stan dumped our lunches.
Usually me and Stan hang out by one of our lockers after lunch till next piriod
but I have to find Cartman.
"Listen, I have to get something real quick, so be right back." I tell Stan
"What do you have to get?"
"Uh.. I left my binder in my history class."
"I'll come with you."
"No, Its Ok, I dont want you to be late for your next class."
Stan raised his eyebrow, then shrugged. "Kay."
and I walked off.

I walked to Cartman's locker, Yup. He's there.
He caught me walking up to him and rolled his eyes.
Ugh. here it goes.
Please dont bitch at me, I thought to myself.
I walk up to him "Hey" I smile.
Cartman said nothing.
"Sorry I wasent there yesterday- -"
"You were with Stan?" He interupted me.
I looked down at my shoes, "Sort of."
Cartman crossed his arms. "Uh huh."
"But listen, Its only beacuse Kenny wrote a note on Stan's door that told him
I was cheating on him."
Cartman froze,
"Kenny wrote the note?"
"Yeah he wrote a note on stan's door yesterday,"
He gances around nervously
Whats his promblem?
" Oh, hah, Good." Cartman shrugs
"good?"
"Yeah. The asshole finnaly knows.
so why are you still with him?" he sneered.

I felt burning pain in my chest.
Why am I still with him?

"I dont know.. I told him it wasent true"

Cartman slammed his locker shut.
So loud some people in the hallways turned to look at what it was.
"WHY?!" He yelled,
My heart pounced, I stepped back alittle.
"I.. I dont know."
"ughh.."Cartman put his two fingers to his forhead and closed his eyes looking
downward.

A few secounds later,
"You should have told him" Cartman said with his eyes remained shut.
"I know."
Cartman started walking away, I followed him.
"So what, Your with him now?"
"NO!" I spat back.
"Well obviously you dont want to give him up."
Cartman fastened his pace.
"I will, I will, Just.. Just stop walking!" I stod infront of him.
Cartman glared to the side.

I cant let this happen again.
I cant be without him,
Last time It was hell without him.
I love him..
I really, Really do.

I toke his shoulders and headed out of the public eye.
I dragged him around the corner, and into the men's locker room.
Noone goes in here at lunch.
"I love YOU." I whisper
Cartman glanced around, Probably worried someone would come in.
"Not stan." I say.
Cartman is hard to read.

Damn it!
I wish I knew what he was thinking!

I leaned in and kissed him on the lips,
At first he resisted then he kissed me back.
I pulled away,
"Noone can kiss like you do" I whisper

Cartman grins alittle, Then he
Grabs onto My arms, Holds them up agenst the wall and Kisses me again,
Pinning me to the wall.

If theres one thing I'm sure of,
Cartman is deffinently a hotter love maker then Stan.

Stan.. I start feeling bad at the thought of him.
I'm doing it again. I thought to myself.

Cartman looked at me, "Whats wrong?" He asked.
"Oh, nothing" I said and focussed more on kissing cartman
Then thinking of Stan.. Stan.
That sad look on Stan's face yesterday when He first believed I cheated.
Thats what he really thinks of me, I thought.
And he should.

Detention Sucked ass.
All you did was sit in a chair for about an hour.
Bored of of your fucking mind.
I rolled a pencil down towards me, then blew it back up.
The pencil came back down and I blew it back up.

Its nice to know Cartman's outside the room waiting for my detention
to be over.
He's got to be bored too.

I looked around, about six other kids were in here too.
I reconized four of them.
Craig is in here.
Wounder what he did.
David Benson is in here too.
A kid who wore all black with a mohawk and spikes braclets
and belts was in here, and some other kids.
Mostly the "Bad kids" of the school.

Mrs. Saunders was sitting infront of the room reading some book.
God, I'm so fucking bored.
I laid my head down on the desk,
"Kyle no sleeping!" I heard Mrs. Saunders call to me.
I lifted my head back up.
Ugh this is sooo boring.

20 minneutes later it FINNALY ended!
When I got up from my desk I felt light headed and My foot was asleep.
I rushed out of that room, and smiled at Cartman, walking up to him.
He was sitting in the hallway outside the room.

He got up from the floor, and swung his backpack on his back.
"Jesus fucking christ, toke you forever!" He grumbled.
I smiled, I just realized something else good about Cartman.
He has a mean streak.
Stan on the other hand.. He's too nice.
Sure I'm a straight A student who usualy stays out of trouble
but hey, Opposites attract.
It oddly turns me on.

"Your house?" Cartman asked.
"Fuck no, my mom's there"
"Oh yeah. dont want to be around that bitch."
"Damn it Cartman! My mom's not a bitch!"
Cartman laughs.
"WHAT?!" I scream at him.
"And you say I get mad easily" he says.
asshole.
but now that I think about it, He's right.
I always laugh at him when He gets mad quickly.
"My house then." Cartman declarred.

"So really, Where does your mom always go?"
I ask him sitting on his bed.
"Why?"
"Just woundering. She's always gone."
Cartman looks down, "Its nothing
you need to worry about" he says
"I know, But I want to know"
"Curiousity killed the cat"
"So what your going to kill me if you tell me?"
Cartman grinned "Maybe"
I blushed.. for what reason, I dont know.

"But serriously," I said.
"She's a dancer."
"A dancer? I never knew she could dance."
"She can"
"Where does he dance at?"
Cartman looked down, and moved his toe around his floor.
"A Bar" he mumbled.

Shes a pole dancer?

"Oh.." I answer quietly.
I wish I could take the question back.
"I'm sorry"
"For what?" he asked.
"I dont know.. asking?"
He sighed, "No big deal. forget it" He said.
And uncomfortable silence flew over us.

"Want something to eat?" Cartman asked.

After we ate, We watched Tv in Cartman's Mom's room.
And ended up.. yes, Makeing out again.
I dont know what it is about him that makes him so irrisistable.
Having a strong guy of top of you, taking full advantage, and kissing you softly
and hard.. It just gets me.

A knock came on the door
"Go away!" Cartman yelled
And started kissing me again,
KNOCK, KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!

"I said go away!"
Cartman yelled again,
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!

I sighed. "Just get the fucking door."
Cartman mumbled something under his breath irritated and Went downstairs.
I remained in his bed.

I wrapped myself in his blankets, enjoying the warmth.
This is where he sleeps, I smiled.
This is where I slept, our first time.
I smiled feeling a tingily feeling in my stomach just thinking about it.

"What are you doing here?" I heard Cartman downstairs,
I got up and peeked through the stairway,
STAN IS HERE!!
WHAT THE HELL!
I quickly run to Cartman's bathroom, knocking stuff down looking through cabnits
looking for a brush.

Come on, come on, find a brush, find a brush!
If Stan see's my hair like this.. He'll know somethings up.
I cant just put my hat back on, My hair will stick out.
Come on, come on! find a brush, Find a.. YES!

I got a brush and start ripping through my hair.
Come on, Brush through it!
"- - Not here" I heard Cartman say downstairs,
I quietly peek down the stairway,
"Well his mom said he was here."
"Well he's not."
Stan crossed his arms and raised his eyebrow,
"Why is your hair messed up like that?"
Cartman flinched,
Then said, "I just got out of bed."
"at 6:30?"
"Yeah."
Stan's face darkened
"I bet Kyle is here." He said.
"Dude, he's not." Cartman spat back.
"Let me look." Stan gestured to come inside
Cartman frowned, "No asshole, you cant just come and walce around
my house."
Stan sighed, "If you got nothing to hide then why does it matter?"
"It matters beacuse I dont want you walking around my house"
"Just let me in" Stan tries to get through,
Cartman holds his hand out.
"Dude, let me through, I just wanna check."
Cartman rolled his eyes and let him through.

IS HE CRAZY?! STAN"S GOING TO FIND ME!
I start looking around, silently running,
Oh no, oh no, oh no!
I cant find anywhere! I have to hide!
No, no, no, no!
I cant hide there, there, there or there,
I heard footsteps comming up the stairs,
WHERE THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO GO?!
ahhhh!!!!

I dive under Cartman's bed, two secounds later, Stan walks in,
I can tell by his shoes. Cartman's following Carefully behind him.
I gulp and hold my breath.
Please dont find me.. please dont find me..
"Done yet?" I heard Cartman's voice above me.
Stan didnt answer.
I saw his footprints walk to the other side of the bed, with Cartman
following behind him, Then Stan walked closer to me.
I starred at his feet.
Please..please dont look down. please.

I heard Stan sigh.
"Fine." He said and I watched his feet leave the room.
"I told you, Asshole" I heard Cartman following him.
I heard their footsteps walking down the steps.
I breathed and dropped my head to the floor relived.
I hear Cartman's door Slam and I get out from under the bed.

I heard Cartman comming up the stairs.
"Where were you?"
I point under the bed.
Cartman grinned, and stepped closer to me,
I always knew you were a sneaky jew"
I smiled and he kissed me.
He slowly leaned over kissing me, until we fell back onto his bed,
and he got his hands inside my shirt, rubbing my back getting me closer to him.
I put my fingers through his hair, and placed my hands on his neck..

Even though it feels, unbelievable.
I mean with Cartman,
Him being my one and only crush when I first found out
I was gay.. It doesnt feel right.

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