I wake up with a start, it's dark outside. It takes me a few seconds to get what's going on. I'm in my bedroom. I sit up and check the clock on the nightstand, it's 3:45! It's so early. I turn my head and find James sleeping on his stomach and his lips are slightly parted. He's here. I'm here. I'm safe. I lay back down and look at his peaceful face. He's so cute in his sleep. I want to wake him and ask for some comfort. I usually sleep better after we make love.

Let the poor man sleep Anna!

I get out of the bed before I get tempted. Putting on his shirt, I make my way to my study. I fire up my laptop and check my emails. There's a card next to my computer. Oh, it's the lawyer's card. I decide to send him an email and tell him that I need to see him with my lawyer present and that I will sign the papers. It seems like I'm going to need to bother James's lawyer once more. I have nothing else to do so I do the routine, click on YouTube and search "Jamie Dornan". I plug in my ear buds and start watching his interviews. He's so funny and charming and dazzling and I love him so much. I laugh so hard that my tears start to run down my face.

It's almost 6 in the morning when I decide to go back to bed. I'm so tired and I've got two hours to sleep before getting up for work. Watching James helped like all the previous times it did. I don't want to leave his side for the rest of my life. I remember of my trip to Arizona this weekend. Tomorrow I'll ask him if he wants to come with me. I sit on the bed and lie down. He stirs and reaches his hand to take me in his arms. He kisses my hair and mumbles something like "I love you" in his sleep. I kiss his arm and say

" I love you too. So much that it frightens me."

I feel warm but I know it's not from James. I can't feel him. I open my eyes and see the warmth is from the sun. Something's not right about its place, It's near the mid sky. I gasp and sit so suddenly that it gives me a head rush. I close my eyes to stop the spinning. Shit! I check the clock and see it's 10:15! Shit! I overslept. Leaping out the bed, I dash into the bathroom. After six minutes I'm showered and washed my teeth. I come out and see James is coming to get me. He's all brilliant smile and tousled hair and sexy dimples on his cheeks, and I am... well, I am a mess. He gets that I'm dazzled by him and can't move.

" hey baby, I knew you couldn't sleep well last night so I asked Maggie to cancel your appointments for today. You need some rest. You're so agitated and jumpy these days and you were tossing and turning all night."

He walks to me, clasps my head with his hands and his lips are on mine. I close my eyes and cherish the feel of his soft sweet lips on mine. Laying his forehead on mine, he moves his right hand and touches my ear. I close my eyes relishing his touch. He puts a kiss on the tip of my nose and says...

" You know one of my friends have a nice chic spa in town, best thing for relax. They have facials and massage and manicure and pedicure... You name it. They have it all. I am going to take you there today. I'm no shrink but you need to relax a bit. And maybe you can talk to me about what's eating you and makes you feisty these days."

My eyes spring open. He noticed? Am I that clear? He gives me a warm smile and says

" baby I can read you like a book. You don't need to speak the words for me to know something's been bothering you these last few days. I didn't want to grill you, so I never asked. But that doesn't mean I didn't understand. Get dressed. I made you breakfast. We'll go after we eat."

He puts a chaste kiss on my lips and wanders off to the kitchen.

We're here. We've been massaged and I've been manicured and pedicured. James is receiving foot massage. I put my head back and watch him. It's funny watching him. He's so ticklish and withdraws his foot. I think the almond eyed girl wants to bite his head off. This feels good. He catches my eye and smiles at me affectionately. I mouth at him " I love you" he taps at his heart, telling me I'm in there and I feel the happiest girl in the world. It's one of the few places that we came together as a couple. We are in a private room, so hopefully we can avoid so much attention. Although the girls are ogling over James. He answers their questions kindly and dodges the ones he doesn't want to answer, artfully. Well it's his job, he has to know these things. At the end the girls take a picture with him. They ask me to join them but I refuse, I'm not ready for the wave of hate to come at my way. I want to go to their reception, in order to pay, but James clasps my shoulder and whispers in my ear

" It's taken care of. I know you better than that."

I shake my head and say

" You don't have to do this, you know!"

He smiles his lopsided smile and says

" I do have to and I want to! So stop bickering, because I'm taking you shopping."

And I have to laugh, because this feels so normal. We go out of the salon, hand in hand. I can't wipe the foolish grin that is on my face.

" You know I've never done this!"

I say, putting my right hand in my coat's pocket. James grazes my knuckles with his thumb and says

" you mean massage and stuff?"

I shake my head and say

"I've done that a lot. I meant going out with my boyfriend, feeling relaxed, walking hand in hand. I mean I had boyfriends before but that was just some text messages and scheduled dates. Not going out for shopping or to a park or I don't know. I haven't been intimate with anyone. The most intimate thing was a peck on the lips or a hug after not seeing each other for two weeks or so. I didn't feel it with any of them. I'm turning thirty next year and I haven't been to a mall with a boy. Well a boy that is my boyfriend. I used to go shopping with Jason back in college. And last year in Arizona I went out with Jim, but we weren't alone and he wasn't my lover. So they don't count. I love doing this with you. I know the paparazzi probably took a lot of pictures of us now but I can't care less. I want to be with you every where."

I look up at his dancing eyes. He smiles at me and drapes his right arm around my waist, keeping me closer to him as we walk to the boutique.

" I'm worried about Andy."

We're lying on the carpet by the fireplace, mostly because I couldn't help jumping him when we got home. My head is on his chest and his fingers are moving through my hair.

" How come?"

I trace my name with my finger nails on his chest and say

" I recently realized that his mother had schizophrenia and his brother is bipolar. I'm worried that he has some problems too. He doesn't answer my calls."

He puts a kiss on my head and says

" Don't worry! He'll come around. I never knew about his family. He doesn't talk about them much."

I suddenly remember my trip. I bring my head up and say

" Speaking of family, my mom's wedding is in a couple of weeks. I have to go to Arizona this weekend to make the arrangements. She asked me to officiate their wedding."

I fill with a warm feeling, I love that my mom is happy. And now that's the question I wanted to ask him.

" I reserved two tickets last week. I wanted to ask you to go with me."

I don't know why I feel so nervous. He puts a lock of my hair behind my ear and says

" Of course I'll go with you. Were you nervous to ask me?"

I nod shyly. He laughs, crashing me against his chest and says

" God! I adore you Anna!"

And the grin on my face can't get bigger than this. I am the happiest with this man.