A few weeks later, Jude was sitting in her studio playing another song she had wanted to record, when Tommy came inside. Her mind had been clouded lately now that her memory had returned to her. She was becoming an insomniac, due to the fact that she was plagued by nightmares of her attacker coming after her. Tommy began to notice the bags under her eyes and the wall she was putting in front of everyone. Nate was starting to act a lot like Jude also, pulling away from people and strangely enough, Jude too.

Nate was recording a song in the booth when Sadie stopped by to talk to him. He hadn't been around much and Sadie was becoming impatient. Sadie knocked on the window and Tommy told him he had a visitor. He looked up, sighed, put down his head phones and walked out of the booth and into another empty studio to talk to her.

"Sup?" Nate asked, playing the oblivious card.

"What's going on with you Nate? You've been cancelling dates and dodging me every second you can," Sadie said not even bothering with trying to break the ice.

"I don't have time for this, I got a song to record,"

"See, this is what I mean Nate. Why are you doing this?" Sadie asked, sincerity in her voice as she tugged on the back of Nate's shirt.

Nate turned around with a pained expression on his face.

"You should know exactly why, I can't do this right now Sadie. I need to be alone for a while. I'm sorry, but I can't be with you right now," Nate said as he turned around, his head lowered and he walked into the booth not looking back.

Sadie slowly walked out of the studio, her tears beginning to brim at the edges of her eyes. She left the studio and drove away, her heart too broken to care where she ended up. Jude kept playing the soft tune on her guitar when Jay entered her studio, everyone left Jude alone when they saw she was still trying to come up with something.

"Jude, what's up?" Jay asked.

"Ah, nothing really. I'm just, I don't know, really just, blocked," Jude said brushing her fingers through her hair.

"Maybe you need a break or something, I mean ever since the...you know, you haven't taken a break at all," Jay said sitting in another swivel chair.

"I don't know, I just. Ever since I remembered it all, I just. Never mind Jay, forget I said anything. I'm just going to keep trying to write something," Jude said, her eyes gave away that she had things on her mind, but Jay knew when she couldn't talk anymore, so he just waved and left. Jude kept thinking about all that's happened, and those images of her attacker holding her down to where she couldn't breathe, it all haunted her thoughts and her dreams. Tommy came inside the studio with a grande caramel machiatto and handed it to her. Jude smiled warmly at Tommy and he smiled back.

"Come up with anything?" Tommy asked sitting in the swivel chair that Jay was sitting in.

"Nah, nothing. I've just been so off lately. Maybe Jay is right ya know? Maybe I do need a break, or a change or something," Jude said sipping her machiatto.

"Well, I could always ask Georgia if you can take another vacation. You haven't had the easiest time since after your birthday," Tommy said, his head tilted a little towards Jude.

"Yeah, you guys are right," Jude said looking down at her guitar and then placing it in its case.

"How about I go talk to Georgia, and then you can call Sadie and you two can plan it all?" Tommy said getting up from his seat, but he soon stopped when he felt Jude's hand holding his.

"Tommy, I kind of- kind of want you there this time," Jude said looking up into his piercing blue eyes, her vulnerability showing through.

Tommy nodded and kissed her on her forehead and went to talk to Georgia. He and Jude hadn't had the best relationship since her memories had returned. She wouldn't let him get too close to her, and she wouldn't do more than just a small peck on the lips or cheek. Tommy had been doing his best to keep his feelings strictly platonic for her, he was trying to be understanding for her. Tommy knocked on Georgia's door and awaited her response.

"Come in please," Georgia said going through some papers when she looked up to see Tommy.

"Hey G, I wanted to talk to you about something," Tommy said sitting in one of the chairs in front of her desk.

"Alright Tom, go ahead and start,"

"I wanted to know, if Jude and I could, possibly, take some time off."

"For what Tommy?"

"Well you see G, she's been stressed lately. With all that's happened, she wants a break, she really needs it,"

"And you need this break also for...what?"

"Jude wants me to join her on her vacation," Tommy said looking down, Georgia was like the mother he never had, and so he was hoping she would take it in a mature way.

"Alright Tom, I'm giving you both one week. Don't do anything to hurt her, and I want her back here in a better state than she is now," Georgia said in her motherly tone that Tommy just smiled at as he waved, nodded and walked out of her office.

Sadie was sitting at her desk in her room, she was trying to keep her emotions under control. She knew why Nate had pulled away, she knew it wasn't her fault at all really. It was just the way he was, and he needed some time and space. But Sadie couldn't just cater to him. She couldn't wait for his love. She knows Nate loves her, but the only way their relationship was going to work was if Nate would be honest with her and tell her what was on his mind. And Nate had warned her in the beginning, that if he pulls away, she couldn't let him. And it hit her, this was something Sadie needed to fight for. This was the one time Nate needed someone there despite him saying he needed to be alone. Sadie grabbed her car keys and was out of the door faster than she could have drove.

Nate was sitting on a bench outside of G Major, smoking a cigarrette. The sight had disgusted Sadie. She never liked it when he had smoked, and so he knew whenever she was around he shouldn't, and because of that he had quit. Sadie got out of her car and sat on the hood of it right in front of him.

"Smoking again?" Sadie asked, her head tilted towards the cigarette in his hand.

"I don't have anything stopping me anymore,"

"That's BS, you know it is,"

"I told you Sadie that I need time and space, I can't be with anyone,"

"Why? Because of your past?"

Nate looked up at her, he threw the cigarette down and stood up to be eye level with her. "You don't know half of my past,"

"Which gives me all the more reason not to be afraid of it,"

"I don't want to hurt you Sade, I haven't cared about someone so much in all my life and I don't want to be the one to hurt you."

"Then don't, all I'm asking is for you to be honest with me. To talk to me, just, be there. Because I'm here, always, whenever you need me-"

"Sadie, it's not that-"

"You once told me when we started going out that when you push away, is when I need to pull you back. I'm pulling," Sadie looked into his eyes, with every sentence she pushed him with just the tip of her finger, each small push sending him several signals and signs that Sadie wasn't going anywhere.

"You're right," was all he said when he pulled Sadie to him and giving her a soft kiss. "You're absolutely right,".

Tommy and Jude had gone back to the Harrison house and packed Jude's things for a week's worth vacation. Victoria had warmed up a little towards Tommy, she noticed the way he acted around Jude and treated her only like he would a queen. Stuart didn't like the idea of Jude going on a vacation with Jude, but he didn't have a right to control his daughter's decisions anymore.

"And where are you two going?" Victoria asked.

"Just to a beach house in Montreal. Our cell phones work there so if there's an emergency or anything you can call me, Mom," Jude answered with a weary smile. Victoria noticed her daughter's exhaustion and desperation.

"Alright, you two have fun. Not too much fun though," Victoria said with a small laugh as the two smiled back and waved as they entered Tommy's viper.

"So? What can we do at this beach house?" Jude asked.

"Hmm, well we could swim, they have horse back riding, and there are always other things," Tommy said with slight sarcasm.

"Ha, that's real funny. When we get there, I just want a nap first. Then we can do some stuff," Jude said as she settled into her seat and started her nap.

Tommy just nodded with a grin and continued to drive. Jude sat completely comfortable in the seat, it had been about an hour since they had started driving, and Jude was starting to dream.

:dream:

Jude was sitting in her recording studio writing a song. She was quietly strumming and humming along to her guitar, when she felt a hand hold her mouth and then the other grabbed her arms. Jude tried to bite his hand, but the hand had too hard of a grip that if she moved she was afraid he'd crush it. She screamed against his hand, but then she felt two hard punched against her back and she fell to the ground.

:outside of dream:

Jude was shaking and whimpering, Tommy pulled over to the side of the road. He saw her tears drip down her face and then it was silence. Tommy noticed that she wasn't breathing for a short amount of time and then he started to panic.

"Jude? Jude? Jude you gotta wake up girl. Please, Jude wake up," Tommy said as he shook Jude. Jude's eyes shot open and she began to breathe really hard.

"Oh my god, Tommy, what happened?" Jude said as she looked up at Tommy who had worry plastered all over his face.

"It was just a nightmare, girl. Just a nightmare," Tommy said as he pulled Jude close to him and hugged her as she just started to cry in his arms.

"Tommy, I keep having that dream. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move, I couldn't do anything," Jude cried as Tommy just held her tighter.

"Jude, what can I do? Jude, you weren't breathing. Not only in your dream but now, just now you weren't. I think….I think you need to see someone about this," Tommy said as he looked away from Jude.

Jude raised her head and stared at him. He was in discomfort, he didn't want to make it seem like something was wrong with her. But something was off, she was on edge all the time, and practically paranoid. Jude knew this thing was bugging her, but she didn't want to burden anyone with it, and she didn't want to go and talk to someone about it. Jude pulled away from Tommy and sat back in the passenger seat. She looked out into the bright blue sky and looked up into the sun. She felt the rays of the sun caress her face as she just kept thinking. For that instant, she didn't want to think about anything.

"Tommy, I don't want to do this anymore. This constantly being afraid all the time," Jude said as she returned from her trance.

"Ok, then we can find someone who can-"

"No Tommy. The only person, who makes me feel safe, is you. I need you Tom. I need you to listen to me, to be here for me, to hold me Tom," Jude said as she rested her head on his shoulder. Tommy smelled her hair and planted a small kiss on the top of her head. He nodded and started to drive again to the beach house.