37. Reaching A Breaking Point

It didn't take a genius to know that everyone was against his plan to get Clarke back. His sister, Lincoln, Jasper, Monty and the other kids told him that it was a bad idea to go back and tried to desperately to convince him otherwise. However his mind was a set and wasn't going to get swayed by anyone, and if it meant that he was on his own in getting back his princess then so be it.

"Bellamy, please reconsider this," Octavia begged him, following after him and waving her hands in a dramatic manner to convey the seriousness in what he was planning on doing. "It was dangerous for them being there, and they barely managed to escape with their lives in tact. How in the world are you supposed to get in there, get Clarke and get out both alive?"

Bellamy didn't even try to defend against her argument, only stared at Lincoln who looked more or less reluctant to share the information about how he managed to get in and out of the mountain with Clarke the first time.

"Please, Lincoln," Bellamy asked with sadness. "I know I have no reason to ask you this, but I need to know how I'm save her. After everything she has been through I don't want her to think that she is abandoned and alone in this world because she is important to me. She is also important to you as well, she told me you two were like siblings, so then you can understand why I'm begging you for your help getting her back. And if that is not enough then think about if it was Octavia inside that mountain, wouldn't you be doing exactly what I was doing right now in order to save her?"

Lincoln's eyes became more warm and sincere as he continued hearing his plea and when the question about if he wouldn't do the same for Octavia he was more than convinced to tell him what he could to save Clarke.

"All right, I will tell you," Lincoln said finally. He signaled him to follow him into the wood in order for them to speak quietly because they both knew that if Octavia heard about this she would definitely not sit back and allow them to go and save Clarke on their own. Octavia was more than capable to take care of herself; even he knew that even though he would never admit it out loud, but he had already lost his princess to the mountain he wasn't about losing his sister and only family left as well.

They had ordered Octavia and Miller to stay with the kids and prepare for supper, feeding the former captured kids before they would go back to the camp. And as expected Octavia scoffed and tried to follow after them, but the two men only glared warningly at her in the way that told her if she tried to go against their order and follow after them to listen in then who knew what they would decide to do in order to keep her safe and away from the mountain.

When he and Lincoln stepped into the forest they walked a while in silence as either of them had no idea what they should be talking about. Normally they could have talked about Octavia and Clarke, but considering the situation at hand with both girls it was more than a good idea not to do it. At least until this whole mess was cleared up they weren't in the mood to talk about their love interests other than what they were going to be dealing with. Once they were far enough into the forest and with a great distance that Octavia wouldn't try to eavesdrop even though she relented and said she wouldn't, but he knew how she could be regarding the orders and rules. Then again it might just be a Blake thing, seeing as he too was not exactly into following rules and other authorities than his and Clarke's.

"I should not have to tell you what you are planning on doing is very dangerous," Lincoln began saying. His arms were folded against his chest, while his gaze was solely focused on him. His whole demeanor told him how serious he was about this manner and obviously not to be taken lightly. "The thing is that how to get into the mountain is easy, but how to get out…well that is a lot more trickier."

"But you managed to get both yourself and Clarke out the first time," Bellamy argued. Lincoln's eyes became darker and hollow like he was remembering the events from the last time and from the looks of it he wasn't victorious or pleased over how things turned out.

"Yes, we did." Lincoln said darkly. "However it came with a price, something that hung on Clarke's shoulders for a long time and I'm not sure she is still over it. She must have told you how we broke out and that we had to kill those people just for the sake of our freedom. Death and guilt will be hanging on your shoulders after you get out of that mountain, do you understand that?"

Bellamy only nodded, but understanding the possible consequences once they were out of the mountain. However he was still willing do enter the mountain and do everything he could to get them both out of the mountain. After all he has already death hanging on his conscience, but if Clarke was willing do forgive him for his horrible actions then there was still hope that they could get through this as well, especially since they have already been through much together and managed to move pass it.

"All right there is several ways to get in," Lincoln began explaining. "However knowing the Mountain Men they will most likely take her to the deepest and darkest place in the entire mountain, the place where they held prisoners and traitors before they are given their punishment, so the plan is to get you as close to that location as possible. And the way to do that is to deliver you to them as a prisoner."

Bellamy blinked his eyes, trying to comprehend what exactly his sister's boyfriend was suggesting to him, before he said with stunned expression, "You're telling me that my way into that mountain is to give myself up as a prisoner. Are you crazy?"

Lincoln shrugged his shoulders and his body language stated that he wasn't joking about this plan.

"It is the easiest and quickest way to get to her and retrieve her," Lincoln defended. "And I'm sure you are not planning on staying inside for long in order to have a look around."

Bellay frowned by the possibility to look around the mountain. He didn't need to look around that place to know that it was a dangerous place and not a tourist sight. However he guessed it was Lincoln's odd way of making a joke, although not a good one, and more importantly not the best timing to do so either.

"Okay, so you deliver me as a prisoner," Bellamy ran his hands through his hair and closed his eyes for a moment before he continued. "Then what am I going to do?"

Lincoln continued explaining the plan and the inner works of the mountain, and once again reminded him how dangerous it was and that it was important to be cautious with his actions once he was inside. And as he listened the more his determination and stubbornness kicked in because he was definitely getting Clarke back, and not even the Mountain Men were going to stop him from doing so.

It was just like she remembered it. Her prison cell was barely lit room, where there were no windows or natural light had access. The walls were made of mountain rock, impenetrable to escape from within. Not to mention that because of the conditions, the room was naturally cold and damp, which caused Clarke to shiver and wrapped her arms around her body in attempt to keep herself warm. The guards had followed Cage's order to a 't' and thrown her in her cell before they left her there alone. Normally that was fine by her, since she really didn't think she had something to say to them that would her situation even the slightest, but again the darkness was still a fear she had not completely conquered and still wary to face her old enemy despite having to be able to do so earlier. However being inside the cell once again reminded her of another thing she was afraid about by being there and that was hearing the voices again.

It is your fault; you placed your people in danger.

"No," Clarke murmured, covering her ears to shut out the voices, but her resistance was futile. She curled her body closer to her and her gaze was focused on the floor before she closed her eyes in order to remove the reality in front of her.

You bring death everywhere you go. Your father, Wells, Charlotte. They all died because of you.

"No, that's not true." She wasn't sure whom she was trying to convince, but it didn't matter since the words cut her like a knife. Even if she tried to reason and deny that she wasn't the reason to why people around her died, she knew that it was true. "I…I never wanted them to die."

Doesn't matter if you didn't, because of you these people are dead and people will continue to die because of you.

Her head raised in a quick moment, thinking over what exactly the voice was trying to convey to her. People would continue to die because of her, did that mean that Bellamy, Octavia and Lincoln would as well? The thought was killing her from the inside; it hurt even more than thinking that she would never see Bellamy or the other delinquents ever again. A world without them was frightening possibility and she certainly didn't want to be the reason behind it. She wasn't worth it. After all people abandoned her, leaving her alone in her own misery and fight for her life. However she was getting tired of fighting for survival that led to taking someone else's life because of it. Some may say that she was weak for her ideals not to kill unnecessary, but who was she to decide who lives and who dies? They all were just humans desperately trying to survive. But again the only ones who fought for her was her people, and though she didn't think she was worth it or deserved it, she didn't want them to get killed because of her. Not even Bellamy.

You are going to be his downfall, and because of you he will grow to hate you. Hate you for making him take lives in order to come and rescue you, hate you for your unwillingness to trust and share your secrets. He will hate you.

Her heart was almost shattering from hearing those horrible things. She clenched fabric of her dress that was closest to her heart like it was truly in immense pain. Tears was starting to grow in her eyes, but remained unshed due to her being unwilling to allow them to fall. She begged, "Please stop." Her voice was broken and pathetic, but her pride was no longer an issue. She has tried to be strong for so long, only realizing that she was most powerful with Bellamy and the others, but the voices brought back the memories and the guilt she had tried to hide and bury for so long. No matter what people believed, you can never be always strong. There is always a limit and this was her breaking point.

Then out of nowhere the door to her cell opened, the voices disappeared back to oblivion, and a woman and two guards entered. The woman had a brown skin with dark hair and brown eyes, and was dressed in lab coat. Although Clarke had never interacted with the woman directly she knew who it was and what she was capable of doing.

"Dr. Tsing," Clarke said quietly. She was exhausted from earlier and had no strength to fight against her.

"I hope you know…you are incredibly special to us," Dr. Tsing said with a monotone voice. Her words were of no reassurance to Clarke, especially when she understood the meaning behind her words. "I'm looking forward to experiment on you, Clarke."

Without anything else to say the guards grabbed both of her arms and began dragging her out of the cell. Trying to find the strength to struggle out of their grasp, she found herself unable to and her mind was literally shouting and begging to be left alone and that she didn't want to be in pain anymore, but she couldn't bring herself to say them out loud. Her only other thought remained on her dark-haired curly rebel as she whispered sadly and longingly to herself without anyone hearing her, "Bellamy."

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Thanks a lot for the response I have been receiving, I hope you like this chapter. Okay, before you all begin to comment on how broken and weak Clarke appeared in this chapter, let me tell you that no one is invincible. Everyone has their weak moments and limits to how much they can take, and considering everything Clarke has on her shoulders even she had a breaking point. And I wanted to convey that into the story, hopefully I did a good job.

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