Moon Scars

A/N: Please understand that I am well aware that shock treatment does not really cure memory loss. I also know that people don't wake up and become fully functional after being declared brain dead. These aspects of the story were not added with ignorance or a lack of research. This story is fiction, and I felt it was necessary for the medical section to be fantasized in order for the plot to go where I intended on taking it. Thanks for your time.

Ch 37 – Three Words

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Every minute that passed felt like an hour, and every hour felt like a day.

"I just checked on him, they said it'll be another fifteen minutes at least." Carlisle said.

"What is taking so long? I thought this was going to be a simple in and out procedure." Esme asked him frustrated.

"The brain is a very complex organ. They're basically using a computer to electrically charge different parts of his brain in hopes that the shock will promote healing. They are going slowly and taking their time so they can make sure that they only shock the parts of the brain which are damaged." Carlisle explained.

I started absently rocking back and forth in my chair, and I couldn't stop shaking. I told myself that I could handle whatever state of mind he was in when he woke up, as long as he did wake up.

"Bella honey, he's going to be Ok." Esme said in a soothing tone.

"But what if they are making him brain dead as we speak, and I'm just sitting out here letting them do it?" I started crying again.

"Shh, Honey you can't think like that. Edward needs you to stay positive." She tried to calm me.

"I just can't lose him again." I said through my crying hysterics.

"I know honey, I know." She whispered to me as she hugged me securely. Esme was truly an amazing person. She was so much more motherly and caring to me than my own mother. If there was ever a woman who was born to be a mom, it's Esme, and yet she had no biological children of her own.

They said fifteen minutes, but after another hour passed, Kate finally came out to talk to us. I hadn't been that afraid since losing Edward all those years ago, and the expression on Kate's face just added to it.

"Well, I have to admit, this has been my most difficult case yet. There was much more brain damage then I was able to see on the CAT scan, so that's why it was taking so long. In fact, I'm surprised he was able to function so highly for so long with the amount of damage that I found. And I'm both sorry and relieved to tell you that this procedure was actually necessary."

"What do you mean by that?" Carlisle asked.

"His brain wasn't just misfiring, it was actually deteriorating and if left untreated, it would have shut down completely." Kate explained.

"So how is he?" I asked anxiously.

"Well he's still unconscious right now so they've moved him into recovery. Everything looks good so far but we'll have to wait until he wakes up to know for sure."

"But he has healthy brain activity?" Carlisle asked concerned.

"Yes, the monitors are reading a lot of activity; in fact I wouldn't be surprised if he was regaining memories as we speak." Kate said with a reassuring smile. "He should be awake soon. I'm only allowed to let family in to the recovery room to see him." She said while looking at me. "I'm sorry, but unless you're married it's against the rules of the hospital. Esme and Carlisle, you are his legal parents so you can come in."

"Kate, I'm sorry but Bella needs to be able to go in there as well. Edward would want her to; in fact she's probably the only person he would want to see." Carlisle told her.

"I completely understand, I'll go talk to the chief of staff and see what we can do." Kate said with a smile.

Kate came back ten minutes later. "Ok, you have permission to go to the recovery room, all three of you. It's a good thing the chief of staff is an old friend of yours Carlisle." She said with a wink, and then led the way to where Edward was.

The closer I got to the room, the more fear overflowed into my gut. The last time I saw Edward unconscious in a hospital bed, he looked more like death and I didn't see him again until I ran into him as 'Tony'. I really didn't know how I would be able to handle seeing him like that again, I just needed to find a way to hold it together and stay strong, because that's what Edward needed.

We walked into the room, and I was actually surprised at how good he looked. There were no tubes, no obnoxious buzzing noises, and no hideous beeping. There were however, white stickers on either side of his temple, which seemed to be measuring brain waves. But besides that, he just looked like he was healthy and sleeping peacefully.

I sat on one side of him, and Esme sat on the other while Carlisle let his doctor side come out, and he started looking over all of Edward's charts and readings.

"These look very very promising." Carlisle said in a pleased tone.

"When is he going to wake up?" Esme asked him.

"Soon, it could be anytime actually."

I just sat there and held his hand, unable to speak. I knew that if I said anything at that moment, then all of my fear and stress would come pouring out in complete hysterics.

Then his fingers twitched.

Followed by a light squeezing of my hand.

"Edward?" I asked desperately. "Edward, can you hear me?"

"Edward, try and open your eyes son." Carlisle told him.

A slight moan escaped his lips, before he said my name no louder than a breath.

"Edward, I'm here. Open your eyes baby." I said to him quietly.

"Huhgh?" He said in a half moan, half 'huh'.

Slowly his lids lifted and his eyes wheeled looking for me, or just trying to remember where he was.

"How are you feeling, son?" Carlisle asked him, but Edward just looked even more confused.

"I'll go get Kate." Esme said and hurried out of the room.

Edward moved his head to the side and locked his eyes to mine. "Bella?"

"Yeah, I'm right here baby." I told him softly as the tears fell down my cheeks. He was alive, and Ok, and he knew my name, that's all that really mattered in that moment.

"Where are we?" He asked with a groggy voice.

"It's perfectly normal for him to be confused in the beginning." Kate said as she walked in the room.

"Edward, how are you feeling, are you in any pain?" Kate asked him.

"Yeah, my head is killing me." He said while raising the hand that Esme was holding up to his temple. "What's this?" He asked as he felt the sensors there.

"They just measure brain activity." Kate told him.

"Oh…so I had that shocky thing done? Did it work?"

"Tony?" I asked reservedly. I had no idea how I knew, but I just did.

"Yeah." He said.

"Kate can I speak to you outside please?" Carlisle asked her.

"Of course."

"Well, I'll give you two some privacy." Esme said with a nervous smile before leaving the room also.

"So besides the headache, how do you feel?" I asked him cautiously.

"Uh, fine…I think. A little tired."

"Yeah. The doctor said that you would be for a few days."

"So how long is it supposed to take until I can remember being Edward?" He asked me.

"She said it was usually immediate." I said feeling concerned and relieved at the same time. "I'm sorry about all this; I can imagine how you must be feeling right now. I know you weren't sure if you wanted to have this done, so I'm sorry."

"No, I decided to go through with it, so it's cool. But I still don't remember anything more than before."

"Ok, so let's take a look." Kate came back into the room with Carlisle, and looked over the print out of his brain waves. "Everything looks really good….maybe it'll just take some more time for the memories to come back to you."

Edward spent the night in the hospital so they could monitor him, and Esme, Carlisle and I went to a hotel. I would have slept in that chair next to him, but I wasn't allowed to stay because we weren't married. The three of us went back to the hospital first thing in the morning, and we all hoped for some kind of progress, but there wasn't any.

"Well, I'd like you to come back in six months and perhaps we can do a repeat procedure if necessary." Kate said before signing his release papers.

Over the next couple of weeks, we lived on edge wondering if Tony would get any new memories, or if Edward would comeback like before, but he never did.

"Do you miss him?" Tony asked me one night after we put Carlie to bed.

"Who?" I asked.

"Edward. I know you were happy when his life was all I could remember, but now I can't remember him at all."

"I don't really know how to answer that." I told him honestly.

"Bella, I wish I could be him for you, I wish I could remember. So I talked to Kate on the phone yesterday, and she said I could make another appointment for a second procedure."

I took a deep breath before answering him. "I don't want you to do that, it's just too dangerous. But it seems as though you don't have to worry about your mind jumping anymore. At least the procedure stabilized you and stopped the deterioration of your brain…So it was a success right?" I said trying to sound positive, but then I had to get up and go to another room. I just didn't want Tony to see me break down because he was here permanently and not Edward.

Life seemed to settle in a routine after that. Tony sold his condo and moved in with us officially, and Carlie couldn't have been happier. Vanessa took her share of Anthony's estate and she and Jacob bought a house of their own. It was on the next street over and directly behind ours, so we knocked down the fence that separated our backyards and it was like we were still living together. Carlie loved running between the two houses, and she claimed the whole combined backyard as her own.

Jake and Vanessa still ate dinner over practically every night, because neither of them could cook, but I was happy to have them.

Jake and Tony still had a similar relationship as before, they still argued over teams, but now it was football instead of baseball.

"Seahawks are way better than the stupid Giants." Jake would tell him.

"Whatever, you are completely delusional." Tony would say back to him. "Doesn't the Seahawk's lack of talent and unwillingness to pay for a decent coach offend you as a fan?" Tony said mockingly.

"You are the one who'd be offended if you could remember actually being Edward."

"I am Edward; it says so on my license. Do you want me to show you?" Tony said while pulling his wallet out. Even though he still went by Tony, his legal name was Edward Anthony Mason Cullen.

Later that night, after Jake and Vanessa went home; Tony had something he wanted to discuss with me.

"So, I was thinking."

"Uh Oh." I teased him and he smirked at me.

"Maybe I should go by 'Edward' instead of 'Tony'." He said taking me by surprise.

"And why would you do that?" I asked him confused.

"Well because that is my real name, and this whole thing about going by my middle name is just kind of stupid."

"All of your colleagues and people in the music world know you as Tony or Anthony." I reminded him.

"Yeah, well maybe 'Tony Williams' can be my stage name." He said with a wink.

"But you always hated when people called you Edward before."

"Well it's just something I'll have to get used to, that's all."

"I don't know. I mean of course it's your decision, but I may be a little strange to call you Edward." I told him.

"Why?"

"Because you're so different now than you were when you went by that name before."

"Tell me how different I am, and maybe I can work on becoming more like I was before."

"Tony, why do you want this all of a sudden?" I asked him knowing it wasn't something he would actually want himself.

"What? I just think that it makes sense."

I looked at him not believing his answer, so he sighed and gave it to me straight.

"I love you more than anything, and I just want you to be happy. You've been different since the procedure, distant, and I just want to give you what I know you need…him. If I could make all my memories now disappear to bring you back his, I would in a heartbeat."

"Tony, I love you. And yes, I miss Edward, but that doesn't mean I want you to disappear either. I just wish the procedure worked and you could remember both lives."

"I can have it done again." He said with a grin knowing I'd say no.

"I think one brain frying is enough for a lifetime." I joked.

"Hey let's go out tonight, just something simple, dinner and a movie."

"Wow that is simple." I said almost impressed. Dinner and a movie wasn't usually Tony's style, it was more something Edward would pick to do.

"Well I figured, why not." He said with a smile.

We got half way through dinner when suddenly I felt very sick; I went to the bathroom and threw up violently.

"Are you Ok?" He asked me concerned when I came back to the table.

"Yeah, I must have just eaten something that didn't agree with me, that's all. I actually feel better already." I didn't touch the rest of my meal, and I just sat there in a daze as I tried to remember the last time I had my period.

"Bella, what's wrong?"

"So much has been going on lately and I've been so distracted, that I completely neglected the fact that I haven't had a period in probably a couple months." I said slowly.

Tony just sat there quietly for a few minutes trying to let it sink in what I was telling him. "So you think you're pregnant?" He asked finally.

I shrugged. "It's not like we've been using any protection or anything." I said only just realizing the fact.

"Uh, yeah I guess. I didn't even think to ask if you were on any form of birth control." He said calmly.

"Well I was on the pill before, but you were dead and I wasn't about to have sex with anyone else, so I stopped taking them." I explained. "I'm sorry, I never even thought about it until now."

He looked at me for a few more long moments, before pulling out his wallet and throwing a hundred dollar bill on the table. He grabbed my hand, and practically dragged me out the door.

"Uh, what about the change?" I asked even though we were already outside. He opened the door of the car for me and I got in quickly.

"Where are we going?" I asked as he sped away.

"I just want to know." He said, and then he pulled into a nearby drugstore.

"Ok." I started to get out of the car, when he stopped me.

"I'll get it, love." He said taking me by surprise. It wasn't the fact that he was getting me a pregnancy test that surprised me; it was the fact that he called me 'love'. I never heard Tony use that word for me, but it was something that Edward called me often.

He was back in less than five minutes with a brown bag in hand. We went home and I took out the strange white stick to read the directions. I never took a pregnancy test before; I found out I was pregnant with Carlie after fainting and waking up in a hospital.

"It says I should wait until morning." I told Tony.

"Well there's two right? So take one now, and the other in the morning." He said anxiously.

I laughed once to myself from the impatience to his voice, also an Edward trait; Tony was usually calm and collected.

I took the test and placed on the counter to wait the three minutes that the directions said it needed, but before I could even leave the bathroom, the stick already was turning pick with a plus sign.

"It's positive." I told him emotionlessly.

Maybe he could hear the lack of enthusiasm in my voice, or maybe he was feeling just as numb as I was, but he just stared at me blankly.

I couldn't make myself feel right about it, there was no excitement or even nervousness. I just really didn't feel anything. I used to lay awake at night and think about the children Edward and I would have had together if he never died, but I just couldn't wrap my head around it in that moment. Perhaps it was because so much had happened and I was just still overwhelmed by it all, or it might have been because I had Edward back briefly, but he was gone again and maybe I didn't want to have another baby without him.

"You're not happy?" Tony asked after a while of my awkward internal contemplating. He knew me way too well.

"It's just a lot to think about."

"Bella, I love you; and I want nothing more than to marry you, in fact I would have asked you already but I was hoping that I'd get some memories back first, because I really wanted it to be perfect for you. But I can't invent memories that just aren't there anymore, and I love you based on my own experience, not on something I can't remember in the past, so getting my memory back isn't as important to me. I only really want them because you want me to have them."

I turned my head away from him, but he gently guided my head back with his hand, until I was looking right at him again.

"I don't know how to bring Edward back to you, but I swear, I will keep trying every day of my life. I love you and there is nothing…nothing I wouldn't do for you. I understand if you don't want to marry me, and I won't take it personally if you say no, but I'm just going to keep asking. Bella, will you marry me?"

I looked deep into his eyes and thought back to every moment that I shared with him, just him as Tony and leaving Edward completely out of it. I loved him from the beginning, and even though it was magical that he was alive and standing in front of me, my relationship with him was always much more real than my relationship with Edward ever was. Edward was like a dream, and our love was so much stronger than should have existed amongst mere mortals. It was a love that couldn't be contained, and would exist until the end of time.

But had Edward never existed, I probably would have been married to Jacob by now, and had I somehow managed to avoid making that mistake, I know I would have found Tony and we would have been together and blissfully happy. Edward was gone, maybe he never existed in the first place, but either way, I loved Tony and I needed to give him my whole heart, even if my soul would always be Edward's.

"Yes, I'll marry you." I smiled sincerely with all the love in this world, and forced myself to let go and feel nothing but happiness.

He must have felt my love for him, because his face relaxed and became truly happy. He grabbed on to me and kissed me passionately. He said he wanted to ask me sooner, and I guess he wasn't kidding because he pulled a ring box out of his dresser drawer, then held it out for me and opened it.

It had to be the biggest ring I had ever seen in person. It was a round four carat flawless diamond in the center with other diamonds surrounding it. It was absolutely over the top, and absolutely Tony. He was a fancy kind of guy, and the ring matched his taste to the tee. Of course I could probably buy an island with what he paid for it, but I loved it because I loved him.

I told him we should just go to Vegas for a shotgun wedding, but he pushed me against a corner by calling Alice. She promised me she'd have a full wedding planned and ready in three months, but after going to the doctor, I found out I was already eleven weeks along, which would almost make me six months at the time of the wedding. Alice just rolled her eyes and said she'd find me a dress with an empire waist that would allow for a baby bump. Tony mentioned that we could go to city hall and have the big wedding after the baby was born, but that was just too similar to my wedding with Edward, and I'd never be able to handle that.

Tony was so excited about the baby, that he went to my appointments and bought a bunch of books to read about what to expect. He was always rubbing my stomach and kissing it, and he and Carlie would read it stories at night. It was actually very sweet.

I was out shopping for baby stuff with Rose and Vanessa, when I came across a familiar face, which made my heart leap out of my chest.

"Bella, hi, it's funny running in to you here."

"Heidi, uh, what are you doing in Washington?" I asked her as I eyed her enormous belly.

"Oh, strange enough, I just moved here. What are you doing here, are you shopping for a friend or something?" She asked because I wasn't really showing much yet.

"Nope, I'm here for me." I said forcing the words out and almost choking on them.

"I didn't realize that you were even seeing anyone….Oh, you and Tony are…?" She asked uncomfortably.

I felt sick, she had tried to call Tony a few months before, and he never called her back. She must have been calling to tell him about her pregnancy and didn't have a chance to, and she moved to the area to be closer to him. I was so stupid, I should have made Edward answer the phone that day, or maybe I should have answered it myself.

"Hey, sweetheart, who's your friend?" A man asked Heidi.

"Uh, Demetri, this is Bella, Bella, this is my husband Demetri." I looked at her stunned.

"Oh my god, when did you get married?" I asked her as a wave of relief washed over me.

"Uh, a few months ago. I know I look huge, but I'm only five months along. Demetri's father Marcus actually owns the company with Tony, that's how we met. We've been friends for a while but after Tony and I broke up, I ran into Demetri on my way out of town, and we just saw each other in a new light." She smiled and turned to him. "I must have gotten pregnant right away."

"Are you sure that it's not Tony's?" I asked, and then covered my mouth completely embarrassed and horrified that I said that. What the hell was wrong with me? "I mean…I…I'm such an idiot, I can't believe I actually said that."

"Um honey, can I have a minute with Bella please?" She asked her husband.

"Sure." He said, and walked off.

"Bella, Tony and I haven't been intimate in almost a year, and even then, we never had sex without a condom. We've been growing apart for a while and the only reason why I called him recently, is because I know how he appreciates honesty and I didn't want him to hear about me and Demetri from anyone but me. I'll always care about Tony, he's a great guy, but he was just never the right guy for me…because he always belonged to you, even if he didn't know it. I'm really happy, and I know he is too. It was good seeing you again Bella, I hope to run into you again someday." She said with a smile and walked towards Demetri.

"Oh my god Bella, please say that woman isn't having my brother's baby too?" Vanessa asked me as she hurried to my side. Her and Rose had been on the opposite side of the store looking at cribs, and must have seen me talking to her.

"Nope, someone else put that bun in her oven." I said with a smile.

"Oh thank god. I don't think I could stand having her as the mother of one of my nieces or nephews." She said with a non-joking tone.

"Oh she's really not that bad. I think I actually like her." I told her. "Where's Rose, are you guys ready to go?"

"Yeah, she's just over there planning how she wants her future baby's room to be." Vanessa said with annoyance.

"What about you, when are you going to pop out a couple of muscular tanned babies?" I asked her with a smirk.

"I think I'm going to wait until I'm thirty." She said seriously.

"Oh, cool."

Time was going by quickly and before I knew it, we were traveling to Forks for our wedding. Alice decided that the wedding would be perfect to take place actually in the Cullen house. I hated the idea because I had never brought Tony there before and I thought it would make us both uncomfortable. I just couldn't imagine Tony in that house, or even in that town, but Alice was strangely insistent and Tony said he didn't care where we got married, as long as it was legal and binding.

My stomach was definitely showing, but I loved being pregnant, and from the moment that I decided to give Tony my entire heart, I couldn't have been more excited for our new coming addition.

"Hey Bella." Alice said three days before the wedding as I was getting a finial fitting for my dress.

"Yeah?" I said refusing to look in the mirror.

"I was thinking, maybe you should take Tony around town, show him where everything is and what-not."

"Uh, yeah, maybe." I said.

"No, not maybe, I think you should go right now." Alice said in a strange way.

"Alice, what's going on, what aren't you telling me?" I asked knowing Alice was hiding something.

"Ok fine. I had another dream about Edward again." She said quickly.

"What? When, what did he say?" I asked just as quick.

"Well the first dream was right after Tony called me and said that I should plan the wedding. Edward said in the dream that the wedding should be at the house. Bella, I even argued with him about it, but he said it was important. Then I dreamed about him last night too, he said that I needed to get you to take Tony around town, he said that you had to take him to your special place."

Alice didn't have to tell me twice, I've come to believe her dreams and trust them completely. So I went out to the garage where Jake was trying to explain to Tony how to fix car engines. Jake had stored his old rabbit in a far corner of the Cullen garage, and now he was trying to get it running again so he could drive it to his new house.

"Damn, you suck. You used to know more about this stuff than I did." Jake said frustrated.

"Sorry if I'm not mechanically competent." Tony said annoyed.

"Dude, I need your help. Are you seriously going to make me go ask Rose for help?" Jake whined.

"Sorry man. I just have no idea."

"Hey, do you want to go for a little sightseeing?" I asked Tony.

"Yeah, definitely." He said and followed me to the car.

I drove him by the high school, and the movie theater complex, and we even stopped by the police station and said hi to my dad. Charlie was trying to get to know Tony better, but it was difficult because Charlie just didn't have much to say and he was uncomfortable with the whole situation. After leaving there, I reluctantly drove to the last place on my list of 'must sees'.

"Where are we now?" He asked as I turned off the car right in front of where the dirt path started.

"This used to be our favorite place to meet. It's a little bit of a hike though." I said while eyeing his polo shirt and slacks.

"Hey, I'm not the one pregnant; if you can do it, I'm sure I'll be fine." He said with his crooked smile.

We walked slowly, it had been years since the last time I was there, and had Alice not told me that Edward wanted me to go there, I'd probably never go back and I'd definitely never bring Tony. I had no idea what I was hoping to accomplish by taking him there, perhaps a sense of peace or maybe closure, but it didn't matter, I trusted Alice.

"Wow, this is amazing." Tony said as he walked into the meadow.

"Yeah this was our special place. This is where we fell in love." I told him while looking around the magical meadow where I used to be sure that miracles were made.

He was quiet while he looked around, then suddenly he ran to the opposite side of the meadow and reached for something in a hole of a tree. I was completely surprised when he pulled out a leather bound notebook.

I looked at him questionably, but he didn't look back at me, instead he opened the book and started looking through it.

"I used to dream about this." He said quietly without lifting his eyes to meet mine. "Every night. It used to haunt me because I'd always wake up before I could look inside this book."

"What is it?" I asked him.

"You." He said while finally looking at me. He walked back over at me and handed me the book. I opened it and saw not only sketches, but also photographs, and pages and pages of poetry, all entitled 'Bella'.

I couldn't stop from crying while I studied each page.

"I think I was a little obsessed with you." He said with a light laugh.

"Yeah, I think it was mutual." I said while wiping my tears with my sleeve.

"Nah, I was way further gone than you could possibly imagine." He said stunning me into complete silence. I looked up at him, and he was looking into the distance but seeming to see nothing, as if he was lost in thought, or perhaps a memory.

"I used to come here and sketch for hours, but it wasn't because I wanted to, it was a simple need, as important as drinking water, or breathing. I knew I'd go crazy if I didn't get the images out of my head."

"Edward?" I asked him, but he didn't respond in any way, he just continued.

"I used to sneak in your room at night, long before you started leaving your window open for me." He smiled at the memory. "And when you would go to work at that Newton store, I used to sit outside in the parking lot and just wait to make sure you made it to your car at night safely." He looked at me briefly. "You should have really gotten a restraining order or something; I was a complete stalker. I actually feel really bad for Charlie, if some punk ass idiot ever comes snooping around Carlie like that, I would have to kill him for sure."

I smiled at him. "No you wouldn't."

He laughed once. "Just wait."

"Edward, how long are you going to be here this time, it's been months?" I asked, afraid to close the distance in between us because he could disappear on me just as quick. "I'm pregnant, we're getting married. I didn't think you were going to ever come back."

"I'm not back…and I'm not going anywhere either." He said confusing me. "This meadow isn't magic Bella, the magic comes from you. I never sketched a day in my life before you, or wrote poetry, or hell even wrote music. I played the guitar and piano, but the songs I tried to write were shit. I sure as hell couldn't sketch when I couldn't picture your face anymore. And all of the songs I composed in New York were all about longing and pain, because that's all I felt without you and had no idea why."

Ok, now he was sounding like Tony again, I was just so confused. "I don't understand."

"I've felt so lost, all of my life, even after being with you because I was scared shitless of the way I felt. But I don't feel like that right now, and I know I never will again."

"What are you saying?" I asked him desperately.

"I'm saying that I love you, but because you loved me in return, I was saved. You saved me when I was seventeen, you saved me when I was lost in my grandfather's maze of lies, and you saved me by not turning away even with how big of an ass I was, or how much I pushed you away over and over again. And you're still here, still saving me by loving me no matter what."

Then he said the three words that I've been waiting to hear him say, since I first ran into Tony. "I remember everything."

I had to remind myself to breath after that and if I wasn't pregnant, I would have allowed myself to collapse from the dizziness of the moment.

"Everything?" I asked in only a whisper.

"Everything from my wonderful childhood," he said sarcastically, "to the day when my life really began here with you. I used to live for this time here, this time when I was truly happy for the first time in my life. I remember hating every freaking guy that would look your way, and I hated Jacob the most." He said with a smirk. "I screwed with you so much that I can't understand for the life of me how you could possibly still love me. I remember that fucking party where I got stoned out of my mind and hurt you in that disgusting way…" I shook my head at him, so he skipped that part.

"I remember my time in the loony bin, and after when I was with Vanessa and my mother at Anthony's vineyard. And I remember coming home and getting the most amazing gift I could ever imagine. You and my baby. And I remember the day everything came crashing down. That stupid fucking bastard James, and what he did to you. I've never been more afraid in all my life, than watching you bleed uncontrollably."

"As you were bleeding uncontrollably." I interrupted him.

"I didn't feel it, I must have been numb or in shock or something. But when Carlisle showed up, I knew he'd save you, so I guess I stopped fighting it. I just got dizzy and blacked out. Everything was confusing when I woke up. I had no idea where I was, or how I got there. But even after I accepted the life that Anthony made up for me, it always felt wrong. Bella I'm so sorry that I wasn't here for you, and I'm so sorry about the way I acted when I found out the truth."

I shook my head at him again, and I stepped forward to put my finger on his lips.

"None of that matters anymore; all that matters is that you're really home now, forever." I told him feeling so many emotions that it was hard to decipher between them.

"I thought we agreed no forevers." He said with a smirk.

"For always then." I said, and then bit my bottom lip.

"Don't do that." He gently pulled my lip out from my teeth with his thumb. "Chances are that you'll slip and bite right through your beautiful lip." He spoke so softly that it was just a murmur.

"Am I really that clumsy that I'd fall when I was just standing still?" I asked almost as quietly. He stared at me so intensely deep, and his magnetic pull on my body and soul was so overpowering that I actually got dizzy and stumbled a bit, but he caught me in his arms.

He laughed softly "Yes." He answered my question.

I looked at him as he held me up, and the fire burning between us was so unbearably hot that I knew the only relief would come from attaching myself to him in every way possible. It was a matter of life and death, and we would both disappear into nothingness if we waited any longer to be connected physically. There were no more decisions to be made, no more pain or heartache to be felt, there was absolutely nothing in the world at that moment, besides the two of us.

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