Hey guys, so this one is coming to an end soon- i know its weird this is my longest story yet and i doesn't seem the right time to end it does it?
Anyway, review and i have nothing else to say but- go read 'Different From What People Say' please :D
Ally's Pov
I hold on to Austin for dear life. Why do i keep having these dream's, i need help. I know i need help. I dont want help. I refuse it. I know im not getting any better- im getting skinnier for goodness sakes! But would you like it if someone was on your back, constantly asking if your ok- i mean, Austin and everyone do that now, i dont need an additional. Seriously.
I pretty sure I can do it on my own.
Surly?
Hopefully?
I look over Austins shoulder as his hand rubs up and down my back comfortingly, but i look at Kaitlyn, she smiles sadly to me. Maybe she can help me? I hope she can.
I hope.
Sometimes, I feel as if the whole world just hates me, and i need to give up, but then, i think about Austin, Trish, Dez, my family- well who i have left- and the rest of the girls and guys. I totally am forgetting my dad- what has he done for me but make my life a living hell? Literally.
Nothing.
Even if he apologies, im not giving in. He has had too many chances and he's not worth my tears anymore, i used to love him, not he's just a waste of space. Seriously. Depending on how my life looks so far, everything is bad- terrible even. However, my life does have its up's, like Austin, Trish, Dez, Cassidy, Kira, Trent and Dallas.
Now, im not normally a depressive person, but once someone comes into your life you want them to stay- but sometimes you dont want them to stay forever, for their sake aswell as your's. So maybe after this situation, i can save everyone the piece and just...fade.
Gone.
Forever.
"Als, are you ok?" A scared Austin asks and i nod. He smiles sadly and kisses me- long and passionately, and frankly, i dont even care whos watching- i needed that. I need him to live.
His the reason i wake up every morning,his the reason i live, his the reason my heart beat's. So lost in love. Lost in love, with him.
Austin.
I hug him again and i see everyone has gone- left the room.
"Im scared if i leave you again you'll fall asleep and have a nightmare" He says intertwining out finger's together.
Like a jigsaw puzzle, they fit. Tight, together.
I squeeze his hand reassuringly to tell him ill be ok, then i hear a door close. Its kaitlyn, actually i want to see her- know her story. I push Austin up off the bed. But, funnily he pulls me up with him into a sweet kiss. I pull away and smile, only to push him again.
"Eager are we?" He says laughing causing me to laugh- making a noise. He looks at me shocked- and so am I. I haven't done anything in front of them yet let a loan laugh.
I look at Kaitlyn who looks at us like we are some move. Ew, that's the last thing i want- to be in a cliche film. Yuck much? Mushy love this, sweetie pie that, give me a break! That love only happens in fairy tails- and trust me that is one thing that's called my life isn't.
Finally Austin leaves and i sit on my bed legs crossed and Kaitlyn sits opposite me.
"So Ally, I have been like you..before, i know how you feel, your emotions, the dreams.." She says looking down and i lean over and squeeze her hand, telling her its ok.
"So, im going to tell you,all about it" She says and i nod.
Austins Pov
I hope she's ok. All my life- well since i have met her- i have wanted to get to know her, enjoy her life with her, settle down with her. All for it to come down to this. I know that some life needs drama, but seriously, cant Ally have a break? I mean first her dad, then Ben, then the incident, then her magic spell, then her mum and sister! I mean- she may look tough and say she is, but honestly, she can only hold so much.
She holds up a fuss how she's 'ok' but we both know she isn't. Everyone does. We are so concerned. She has been eating, but i think she has been throwing it back up, purely because she's disgusted by her life or dream's. Gosh, i wonder what she dreams about. I know one of them, she has them constantly apparently. Its either me turning or me dying or being hurt in some way.
Now i should be pleased that she cares that much, but its worrying. Worrying she's crying, waking up getting thinner having hardly any sleep every night because of me. And i just want it to stop! Not just for my sake, for my girlfriends as well.
Im sitting in the front room, not really caring about anything or anyone around me- but Ally. Bu, as promised im going to let Kaitlyn do her work, for obvious reasons.
"Hey" A voice says beside me.
Its Dez.
"Hey" I say leaning back into my chair.
"So, what's been happening?" He asks me and i just shrug
"The usual, our fucked up lives" I say and he laughs.
"Oh the joys of our life drama, we should become a reality Tv show" He says and this makes me laugh.
"We will be called 'When Things Take A Wrong Turn' because that happens a lot lately" I say causing him to laugh more.
"And why are we laughing so happily?" Another voice cuts us off.
I look and see its everyone but Cassidy and Trish.
"Oh you know, joking around pretending our lives are normal" Dez says and i smile. Now i feel normal, having a proper conversation.
"Anyway, we should go out tomorrow, we haven't in such a long time, maybe the beach?" Kira suggests and i shrug.
"Cant, me and Ally have a meeting to record my newest hit, the one Ally wrote before she went, you know" I say leaning forward.
"Oh, ok. Then, lets go there, I don't care where we go as long as i get out, i feel like im a hostage!" She says.
"You can go, im not being funny but yes your helping with Ally, but you have your own car, you can drive! If you feel like such a hostage get out! Go somewhere!" I snap. I rally didn't mean to.
My face suddenly goes soft.
"Kira im so sorry, i didn't mean to Im just annoyed and upset and pissed off, honestly I di-"
"Its ok, i snap at people and don't mean it, sometimes you just need to let it all out on someone, your just lucky it was me and not the other girls" She says causing everyone to laugh.
"Thanks,Kir" I say and hug her- as a friend obviously.
"So guys, im going to go to my room, its like 8:30 im tired and have to go to a meeting, meet you all down here at what say 10ish?" I say and they all nod. Its not that im really tired im inspired more like.
I have a feeling for a song- a song about Ally. And this is going to be perfect and i will sing it, in front of her tomorrow whilst im recording.
I begin to write on a sheet of paper, all my idea's.
Finally i finish and end the song with one last chorus.
Ally's Pov
"And, thats why i know how you feel" She finishes. I seriously have tears in my eyes.
Why would her own father do that to her?! Try to sexually abuse her because apparently it was her fault her mum died so he couldn't have fun! Sick man! Im glad my dad isn't like that-hopefully isn't anyway. I feel so bad for her.
I hug her- I hug her tight. I don't want to let go, i want to talk, tell her its ok, but i can't. My breath getss stuck, my heart races and i feel like im going to pass out.
I need to talk, and im going to make sure i do, one point this year. It may be next month, it may be this week, i odn't know- whenever i feel confident.
Anyway, as we hug i think. Im going to the studio with Austin so he can record the new song i wrote- its a nice upbeat song, so its deffinately his style. I hope. He has never dis-liked my songs so im pretty confident.
Thankgod.
Finally Kaitlyn breaks the hug and the silence.
"So, im going out of town for a week, i leave tonight, but you'll be ok, you have everyone, you have Austin" She says standing up and i silently cry and hug her again. I feel like shes my sister.
"Bye Ally, and just remember, their dreams, very bad dream's but just breath and it will go away, conqueror you fear!" She says smiling hugging me once more and leaves.
I then get into bed for a early night- im shattered.
However i can't sleep- so i think. Think about the past, the present and the future.
I hope my futures nice, i have a feeling it is. A funny guy feeling- but again, i can only hope.
Hope for the best.
It was a windy night, cold a crispy. Someone was walking out, along the porch. Their shoes made a clicking noise from trying to be quiet. Obviously not working.
They looked left and right to see if anyone was there, watching and no one was. They sighed gratefully and walked out along the beach. The cold water washing upon their feet on the shore- it was cold but chilling.
Relaxing if you must.
They finally came to an end and looked back at the house. Its not that they wanted to do it to her first, its the fact they felt as if they didn't have choice, like they have no experience. When they don't anyway.
The person let the wind rake their skin before getting their Iphone 5s out and dialing a number.
It was time.
This was it.
Pressure and this week coming onto this one moment.
The phone answered.
"Hello?"
The person froze before taking a deep breath.
"Kaitlyn..."
"Ally?"