A/N: I'm back..and just a little over a week! It's a miracle..truly it is, my schedule this week was insane but somehow I got this chapter written. I hope you enjoy it. Thanks to my sweet Monica for reading this over and over for me. I needed a sounding board and she was so lovely to help me.

As Always I own nothing the great SM does.

Bella POV

Devastation. That's what I felt after I realized that Edward had no memory of the past few months. He didn't remember our wedding, our baby, our love.

He still thought of me as that annoying new girl that had come to live on his ranch. Did he still hate me like he did back then?

I know that my Edward didn't really hate me; he just fought his feelings for me but this Edward…I wasn't sure what he thought.

After going for Carlisle, I had run outside to our spot by the creek. The colors of dawn looked so magical, and I wished it were.

This place was special, it was where we had spent so many happy nights, so many memories, it was painful and yet comforting. I knew why this place was so important to us so my mind took comfort in that. I would find a way to bring my Edward back to us. I had to.

Esme came out eventually, her face so forlorn. I knew exactly how she felt.

"How is he?" I asked, my fear of the unknown making the words barely audible.

"His head hurts him badly. Carlisle gave him something for that. He was hungry which was a good sign. He's asleep now."

"Oh Esme, I want to go to him so badly. I need to be near him but he doesn't want me there." She wrapped me in her arms and let me cry out all of my heartache.

"Shh Bella. All will be well; we have to pray it's all going to work out. Don't upset yourself sweetie, think of the baby."

"Wh…What if he never remembers I'm his wife or our baby? What would I do?" I slumped down onto the rock.

"We have to hope Bella, that's all we can do right now and don't you worry about the baby, it is well loved and always will be. Edward loves you and your baby. He will remember, a love like that is impossible to forget."

We sat by the creek for a long time, no words passing between us. We were both lost in our thoughts. My mind just replayed his rejection over and over. He wanted me to leave him. I felt like my heart was ripped from my chest as I left the room.

Someone approached us; I could hear the footsteps behind me. I was afraid to turn around, to see or hear something that would shatter me yet again.

"Ladies, why don't you come inside? You both need to eat and Bella you should try and rest." Carlisle's voice didn't soothe me like it usually did. He sounded so sad which only made my chest hurt more.

"Come on Bella, let's go in. If Edward's still asleep you can check on him." Esme used the one thing she knew that would make me move. I needed to see my husband, even if it was while he slept.

Carlisle and Esme went to the kitchen to see about something to eat while I snuck upstairs. I felt like a thief in the night, prowling around, not wanting to get caught.

I didn't want to make any noise, afraid to wake Edward because if he knew I was in the room he would send me away again.

Pushing the door of our room open I crept in, tip-toeing to the side of the bed.

My beautiful man was so peaceful looking. He looked the same, just as my Edward did every night when he slept. I don't know how many times I'd lain awake at night and watched him sleep. It was still so surreal to me… being married to him, getting to lie in his arms every night, touching his body, feeling his love in ever touch he gave me.

But this was so different, it was still surreal but it wasn't the happy dream come true anymore, it was a nightmare.

My hands balled into fists at my side, I wanted to touch him so badly. To feel that connection between us. I was afraid to reach for him because if I did I wouldn't be able to stop, I would need his warmth, his arms engulfing me, his reassurances, telling me it would all be okay.

He shifted under the covers and I held my breath. Would he wake up and find me?

But he didn't open his eyes; he relaxed into the mattress and continued to sleep. I knew it was time for me to leave. I would be back, that was undeniable. I had to be close to him, even if it was just like this, a voyeur, looking at my husband while he was unaware. The temptation to touch him was too much; I needed to leave before I gave in.

Leaning over him a placed a soft kiss in his hair and quickly backed away. Tears filled my eyes, I turned and left the room, stumbled down the stairs and into the kitchen.

"Bella, don't cry. Eddie will be back to his old self in no time." Emmett crooned as he took my hands in his.

Wiping my tears away I looked up at Emmett, nodding my head in agreement.

"I need to stop this, I have to be strong and I will do whatever it takes to get my husband back." I declared boldly.

"That's our girl. Now sit down here and let brother Emmett make you a plate of food." He chuckled.

Sitting down at the table with Carlisle and Esme I waited until Emmett put the plate down and sat with us. I had questions that I hoped Carlisle could answer.

I ate a few bites, knowing that they were all watching me; they were concerned for my well being, as well as the baby.

"Carlisle, what can you tell us about memory loss? Is there anything we can do to help him remember?" I asked with all the hope I could muster.

"Well unfortunately we don't know much. The brain is so complicated and doctors have pondered its workings for many years. It's hard to say what causes the memory loss. It usually occurs after a major trauma but there is nothing that can "cure" it per se. Over the years I have read different arguments on the best way to proceed. Some doctors believe it is best to just tell the patient about the things they don't remember and others feel it causes the patient too much stress to tell them those things. They feel that it will only confuse and upset the patient and that will delay the real healing."

"Well what do you think Uncle Carlisle?" Emmett asked.

"I don't know Emmett, I can see both points of view but because this is Edward I'm conflicted. I want him to know about his past but I'm afraid to hinder any recovery he may have if we do that."

Quietly I listened to the three of them as they gave their opinions on what to do. I finished my food and thought about what would be the best thing for Edward. As much as it hurt me I knew what to do.

"I don't think we should tell him anything." I muttered. Three heads looked up at me with wide surprised eyes.

"Not telling Edward…well it's the hardest decision I've ever made, but I won't do anything to slow down his recovery. I say we leave things as they are, let him think that things are the way they were. He knows about Alice and Jasper though and that's fine. But when it comes to me and the baby, I think we should wait. Give him time to come to it on his own."

Emmett stood up and began pacing. "I don't know Bella. What if he doesn't remember? What happens when you start to show?"

"That's not for a few months Em. Bella is right. I think we should let nature take its course, no matter how hard it is. If in time things don't get better than we can talk about this again." Esme took my hand and squeezed it reassuringly.

"I know it will be hard for you Bella, but it's the right way to go. We will all be here for you but you must promise not to strain yourself to much." She looked into my eyes, imploring me to listen.

"Don't worry, nothing is going to happen to me or this baby. I will do everything I can to keep us both healthy. I promise."

"Alright, if that's how it has to be I will do whatever you need to B, you know that." Em sat back down and took my other hand. I wanted to weep; this family was just so loving and supportive. It made me miss my own parents even more, especially at times like these.

"Well I need you to talk to James and the others. I don't think I could handle that right now. I will move back into my old room and we will have to get my things out of the room before Edward notices them. Maybe if he is feeling better tomorrow we can get him up for a bit."

"Sounds good Bella. Now I know you have a lot to do but make an old man happy and go take a nap for an hour, huh?" Carlisle smiled but the sadness still haunted his expression.

"Alright, can you please tell Demetri and Jane what's going on and let them know I will be out to help them after I wake."

"Sure honey, go rest." Esme led me to my room and kissed me on the forehead before she walked away.

I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes tightly. Please let him remember.

Edward POV

The ache in my head had woken me up. It felt like a stampede was moving through my skull. Opening my eyes I noticed the light coming through the window and it hurt to look at it. I placed my arm over my eyes trying to block out the sunlight. My whole body hurt.

I wanted to get up and check on things but I had no energy. I wasn't sure how long I had slept after Uncle Carlisle had given me that nasty medicine. Ugh it was awful but it did help. I would have to ask him for some more if this headache didn't pass soon.

The only problem with the medicine was that it made me sleepy. When I slept I dreamt. I dreamt of Isabella. It was hellishly wonderful. I had been dreaming of Bella since she arrived here but last night they were different. I'm sure it was just the medicine but the dreams seemed so real and vivid.

Bella. God she was glorious. In my dreams and in person, she was the most stunning woman I had ever seen. In my dream she looked so peaceful, so serene. She looked at me with those big dark eyes, they were so clear and bright and full of love.

In my dream we walked along the creek, hand in hand chatting happily, about what I don't remember. It didn't matter, because it all felt so honest, so right. We walked for a long time and when we stopped we were by the waterfall. I loved that place and I'm sure that Bella had never seen it but in my dream she looked perfect sitting on a blanket in my favorite spot. I didn't want to wake up and lose that moment. But even more spectacular was the kiss we shared. I could almost feel her warm wet lips on my skin. Why did it have to end! Damn if I could just go back there.

A knock on my door ended my musings and soon Emmett was standing in the doorway with another tray of food.

"Hey little bro, glad your awake. How ya feeling?"

"Like shit really. My head hurts but I guess that's to be expected since I fell on it." I joked.

"Yeah well it's good your heads so damn hard. Did you want something to eat?"

"That sounds good." He placed the tray over my lap and stepped back.

"Why don't you sit with me, tell me about Alice and Jasper. I still can't believe they got married. I'm pissed I don't remember it."

Emmett sat down looking nervous. Was something not right with Alice?

"What is it Em, you can tell me?"

"Nothing. I just hate seeing you busted up is all." He cleared his throat and continued. I ate as he talked, the porridge tasted so good.

"Alice and Jasper got married bout 6 weeks ago. You see, Jasper was offered a job by the Sheriff. He is looking to retire and he wanted Jasper to take over for him. So right now Jasper is his deputy and learning the ropes. He had to move into town of course so he bought a house for him and Alice and then he proposed. She said yes and they got married soon after."

"Wow. I can't believe it. I'm happy for them both. I know they've always had feelings for each other I just didn't know they had declared themselves."

"Well a lot has changed little bro. Ever since James and Bella have come things have been different. It's been real nice."

"How so?" I wondered what he meant by that.

"Hard to explain, just is, I guess."

"So James and Bella have been here how long now?" This feeling of not knowing anything was starting to bother me.

"A couple of months. James is a hard worker. He and Angela Weber have been courting. They will probably get married soon. Demetri and Jane had their baby. A boy. He's a cute lil' bugger. Bella helped deliver him since Carlisle wasn't here on time. She was amazing." His eyes had a far off look in them, like he was recalling the night. He gushed about Bella so. Was he sweet on her? Did his love of Rosalie end? I didn't like that thought of Em and Bella one bit.

I didn't want to ask him about Bella. What if he told me he loved her? I couldn't hear that. I love my brother so much but if he and Bella were together….no, I couldn't think about it. I mean I had no claim on Bella, she hadn't been here long but she definitely made an impression on me. I remembered the fire in her eyes and the way she lit up a room when she came in. I know I wanted her back then, I was just to chicken shit about it but now…I just hoped I hadn't lost my chance.

Fuck, I hated this. I scrubbed my hand over my face.

"Em, do you think you could ask Uncle Carlisle to make me some more of that medicine, my head is pounding."

Patting me on the knee he stood up. "Sure Edward, close your eyes and rest. I'll go get him." I shut my eyes, taking a deep breath, willing myself to relax. These rampant thoughts running around my head just made the ache worse.

I didn't like not knowing what was going on around me. Months have passed and I had no recollection of it. What else had I missed? Had I done anything stupid, upset anyone? I knew I had been good at that in the past and I hoped I didn't hurt anyone that I cared about.

Carlisle came in with a cup of tea and told me to drink it all. It really was disgusting but I would swallow dirty dishwater if it would make this pain go away.

"I'm sure you'll sleep for awhile but when you wake up we will try and get you up and moving around. We don't want you to get too stiff. Maybe a bath will make you feel better?"

"That sounds good to me. I would like to get out of this bed, even if it is just for a bath." I laughed lightly. I hoped that if I could joke about this nightmare it wouldn't be so frustrating.

"Rest, son. Someone will check on you later."

Soon I felt my eyelids drooping and then I fell into a blissful sleep. I admit that I liked falling asleep and seeing Bella there. In this dream she was up in the tree outside the main house. Seeing her there scared the shit out of me and I ran to get her. She slipped and started to fall but I caught her in my arms. She felt so good there. Dream Bella thanked me, a sweet smile on her lips. I wanted to kiss those lips, so I did. Heaven. That's what it was. Kissing Bella, even if it was in my dreams, was pure bliss…

The sound of boots on the floor woke me up. Damn I was not ready to wake yet, I was happy in dreamland. My lids fluttered open and I could see James standing by the bed.

"Hey E, sorry. I didn't mean to wake ya. I was just coming to check on you for my…I mean for Esme. She wanted to see if you were up yet." He spoke hesitantly.

"It's alright. I really want to get up out of this bed anyway."

"Oh yeah, well let me go tell her and they will come up and help you, ok?"

"Alright. Thanks." Soon the brigade began. Aunt Esme came up with some stew. I was starving so I polished off the meal in minutes. Esme scolded me about eating to fast and getting sick. Then Emmett and Carlisle came in and set up the tub, filling it with water and helping me up out of the bed.

It felt so good to stand up even though my muscles were protesting. Behind the screen they set up I used the chamber pot then gingerly got into the tub. Ahhh it felt so good.

"Hey E, do you want me to wash your back?" Em snickered and Carlisle snorted. I was glad they stayed close by, even though I lacked some privacy. I was weak and knew they worried I would fall on my ass.

"No thanks bro. I think I can handle it." I smiled at his usual silliness. I'm glad that much hasn't changed.

I felt much better after the bath but the small endeavor made me tired. I went back to bed and slept through the night. I woke and the routine went the same, the only difference was I sat up in the chair in my room for a while, read for a bit and wondered where Bella was.

There was no sign of Bella the past two days and I wanted to ask about her but I felt weird about it. I didn't want my family asking any questions.

Sometimes I would wake and it was if I could smell her scent in the room. Knowing that wasn't possible I banished that thought. All this sleep was playing havoc with my senses.

I still wasn't sure if Emmett had feelings for her or if she had someone else in her life. That wasn't something I wanted to think about. I had to get her off my mind.

Alice had come to visit and it was good to hear how happy she and Jasper were. In typical Alice fashion she talked non-stop for thirty minutes, but it was more of a nervous chatter than her usual self. I noticed that my family had been walking on eggshells around me and I wasn't sure why. Well I had an idea but I couldn't be sure.

I must have done something in the recent months that had them worrying. Maybe they were scared I would remember what it was. My stomach was in knots worrying about the possibilities.

Dinner had passed and Emmett had just left with my empty tray. I got up from my chair, and stood by the window looking out at the pink tinged sky. Tomorrow I was determined to get out of this room and venture outside. I needed the fresh air and a change of scenery….

A week had now passed since I woke up after my fall. I still was weak but my strength was slowly returning. After begging to be let out of my bedroom, Uncle Carlisle said I could come downstairs and move around some. It wasn't much freedom but I greedily took it. Each day I did more. I would sit on the porch, walk to the paddock, sit by the creek. The fresh air and sunshine felt great and it invigorated me.

The headaches finally stopped yesterday and for that I was thankful. First I was happy to be recovering and secondly I was glad I didn't have to drink that god-awful tea anymore.

The family was very attentive to my needs but they still were acting strangely around me, especially if Bella was in the room. That puzzled me. I could see the glances that passed between them; it was like they were waiting for something. They would look at Bella each time she entered the room, their faces contorting with pain. Their behavior was baffling. What could be going on? I had enough and finally asked Emmett about it yesterday.

"Emmett, can I ask you something?"

"Sure what's on your mind?"

"Is there something you all aren't telling me? I get this weird feeling sometimes like you are all hiding something from me. Did I…did I do something you don't want me to remember?" I asked quietly, afraid of his answer. Did I hurt Bella? Is that why they looked at her like that?

"No Edward. It's just…well there are things we want you to remember but we feel its best we don't push you. Uncle Carlisle thinks it's best if we wait to see if you remember on your own. We're trying not to confuse you, not shelter you from bad news."

"Oh." I wasn't sure how to respond to that. I could understand I guess. If they told me things, I wouldn't know if it was a real memory or something they told me. Kinda like what happened with the news about Alice and Jasper.

I was relieved that I had done nothing to upset my family or Bella. They seemed very protective of her.

I enjoyed seeing Bella around the house, it was as if the worry and stress would melt away when she was in the room.

She didn't talk much to me, which I guess I could understand since I was not very nice to her the last time I remembered talking to her. I didn't want her to think poorly of me so I was pleasant, muttering a hello when she was in the room with me. Sometimes I would catch her watching me; her eyes often looked sad and if she noticed me looking at her she would turn away quickly. Maybe she felt sorry for me.

I didn't want her to feel sorry for me. I wanted her to look at me like she did each night when I closed my eyes and she would visit me in my dreams. My nightly dreams were becoming more vivid and more, well more amazing to be honest. Usually my dreams were filled of Bella and I doing simple things, walking, talking, kissing but last night's dream was very different.

Bella had walked into my bedroom, her hair hanging loosely around her shoulders. She was wearing her nightgown, the material thin enough that I could see her legs when she stood in the light. She walked over to me and stood at the foot of the bed. Slowly she crawled over me, her sweet body sliding up mine until we were face to face. She placed a chaste kiss on my lips, sat up on my thighs and slowly pulled the sheer gown over her head. Bella sat naked on top of me and as my hands reached out to touch her smooth creamy skin, I woke up. I was so frustrated, why did I have to wake so soon? Of all the times for my sleep to end, it had to be at that moment.

After that incredibly arousing dream I reluctantly got out of bed, dressed and went downstairs for breakfast. The cookhouse was full of the men; they ate and laughed with each other just like every other day. This was familiar to me, this I knew.

Bella came in struggling with a large platter of biscuits and a pitcher of gravy. It looked as if she was going to drop the pitcher so I moved over to her and grabbed it from her hand.

"Here, let me help you with that. It looks like too much for you to carry." I smiled brightly at her hoping to see her smile at me in return.

"Th-Thank you Edward. I thought I could handle it all but obviously not." A small smile graced her lovely face.

I longed to reach out and touch her, which would be so wrong but for some reason it didn't feel wrong. It felt right, like I needed her touch. Shit, I had to stop thinking like this. This beautiful woman drew me in and I felt helpless. I needed to get away from her before I did something stupid.

"Well I'm glad I could help, um excuse me." I muttered as I hastily excited the room. I went to my study and sat down behind my desk. I put my head down and blew out a deep breath. I had to calm down. The dreams of Bella were messing with my head and I had to get a grip.

Getting control of myself I stood up prepared to do something productive today. I felt the need to burn off some of this frustration. The room was warm and the sunlight looked so inviting. Going to the window I closed my eyes for a second and let the warmth glide over my skin. It felt good and soothed my nerves. I opened my eyes and looked out over the ranch. I really did love it here.

In my peripheral vision, I saw something move. Glancing over I spotted her. Bella. She was standing near the porch, her hair was coming loose from her braid, and a few tendrils blew around her face. She was so beautiful. My chest ached while my eyes feasted on her.

She walked toward the tree in the yard, the same one as in my dream. She looked up into the branches, the scene so familiar to me as it had played out in my thoughts from the recent nights.

Placing her hand on the tree, her shoulders began to shake. Her hand swept up and brushed her cheek. She was crying. This wondrous woman was sad and I wanted to go and comfort her. I began to push away from the window; I needed to go to her. Before I could move, she turned quickly, her whole body turning toward the house, it was if she sensed I was there watching. She looked into my window, her eyes met mine and the air in my lungs disappeared. Bella. Something in her eyes made me gasp, it was a mixture of pain, love, desperation, need. Suddenly I felt lightheaded. My lids fluttered closed while the barrage of images began rushing through my mind's eye.

The kitten. The barn. Newton. James bleeding. The waterfall. My Ring.

I stumbled back as the memories washed over me.

The Double Wedding. My Wife. Our Wedding Night. Bella's hand caressing her stomach. Our baby.

My eyes flew open. Isabella Cullen, my wife, my whole world. I remembered.

My knees started to give out and the room began to spin. Gripping the windowpane, I took a deep breath, pushing the darkness away. I remembered.

Looking out the window, I could still see her standing there watching me closely. Our eyes met and my whole world shifted into place.

Her eyes lit up, it was as if she knew. Bella's eyes filled with tears again and she took off running toward the house. I flew to the door and flung it open.

She was standing there, her chest heaving, tears streaming down her soft pink cheeks.

"Edward?" she whispered.

Stepping out into the hall I wrapped her in my arms.

"Oh Bella, I remember. I remember it all."

End Note: AWWWWW see I didn't drag it out too long. Im not much of an Angst h00r so I kept it quick and somewhat painless. I hope you enjoy it. Thank you for all your lovely reviews and kind words. I am glad you all put up with me :)