Stephanie Hwang
He leaned against me, our foreheads pressed together till he kept pushing me back with his forehead and made me have no choice but to fall back and lay down on the canoe from all the force he was exerting.
His hands were planted on either side of my head and he was so obnoxiously close to me that I couldn't help but laugh at him, but he was so serious. "Are you? Do you have my baby?" He said with a small whisper, his lips tugging upwards to a cute gentle smile.
I shook my head, much to his disappointment because he sighed and buried his face into my neck. "I want to though, giving you a family is something I want to do." I managed to say close to his ear, my fingers ran up and down the back of his head.
"Can I have our family now? Can this be my early birthday gift or Christmas gift?" He mumbled on my shoulder.
I laughed, patting his back. "Taeyeon."
"I'm just asking, I want to get a head start on things y'know." He chuckled and lifted his head up. "Let's have a little baby when you're ready, I can wait." His eyes were playful, but they seemed content.
He kissed my cheek before sitting up and sliding back to the end of the canoe, rowing us back to shore.
As soon as we docked he reached his hand out and I circled around the canoe and quickly taking his hand, clasping mine with his as we quickly walked back up to the cabin.
I was tired, and so was he. The only thing I wanted to do was just go to bed. I took off my clothes in front of the fireplace and dressed into something more comfortable and watched as Taeyeon pulled a small mattress out of the closet and set it in the living room in front of the fireplace.
He put on the bed sheets and blankets, throwing a pillow or two on it but I didn't find them necessary. I could sleep on the floor beside him and he'd still make himself a human bed for me.
I snuggled into the blankets and onto the bed, watching the dim fire in front of me flicker every once in a while and crackle. My hold on my stuffed monkey went tighter, catching a whiff of Taeyeon's scent I wanted to sleep.
I heard doors being locked, windows being shut and the cricket floor being noisy with every big step Taeyeon took but my eyes were threatening to close, and they did for a short while but when the bed dipped behind me and I felt a pair of warm hands wrap around my waist I sighed.
"Tired, baby?" He chuckled slightly. I couldn't tell if he said that out of loving affection, or if he said that because he wanted a baby. It didn't matter, I blindly patted his arm and buried my face into a pillow.
I hummed and I felt his front press against my back, feeling safer in an instant. He fixed the sheets for us and his fingers combed through my hair gently in comfort.
"Sleep well, okay?" He mumbled, kissing my cheek before he wrestled with the sheets for a bit and then settling down.
"I love you, my little one."
I love you too.
"Baby, wake up it's time to get up." Taeyeon shoves me gently.
I whined and turned my back against him, rolling to the end of the bed taking the covers with me too.
"Fany-ah, we're going to do a lot of things today, so get up please?" He shoved me further with his foot, I grunted and whined some more before patting the bed for a pillow and throwing it at him blindly.
I think I heard him growl but he grabbed me by the waist and flipped our position, making me lay on top of him. I shrieked and fought back, you could hear the rustling of sheets, and screaming in the room.
"Hello, piglet." He chuckled, and I could barely open my eyes, but when I did and saw a pair of lips coming my way I pinched them with my fingers, shoving him away from me and rolling off him.
I smothered my face in the pillow and pulled the covers up. "Get the fuck away from me." I hissed, whipping my hand on his arm giving it a loud smack.
"Adorable, now lets go we have places to be and people to terrorize." He yanks me up but I start to act like a rag doll letting him tug me everywhere.
I yelled a loud 'no' and fall back down on the bed."I'm going to murder every single seagull that likes to wake me up at the ungodly hour by squawking their asses off." I hissed, and he had a hand trailing down my back about to squeeze my ass but I whipped m arm again on his chest, hearing the loud thump and his little 'ow.'
"What did the seagulls do to you? You sadistic fuck." I ignored his jab and I honestly can't fight him. He hauled me onto his back and carried me to the direction of the bathroom. "Wow, you've gotten heavier, I told you to lay of those chicken nuggets."
"Excuse me? Say it again." I muttered, pushing myself up on his shoulder but he placed me on the counter and turned on the dinky little lamp in the bathroom. I squinted at him and looped my arms around his neck, leaning the side of my face on his shoulder. "Taetae . . I'm tired."
"But not tired enough to go exploring, come on please?"
"You're so fucking annoying in the morning! I hate how you're a morning person. Why do you wake up at a certain time and sleep at a certain time? I hate you!" Despite that, I tightened my arms around his neck and snuggled closer, he was pretty much right up the bathroom counter and I even wrapped my legs around his waist. He wasn't going anywhere and I wasn't either.
He sighed, and started to comb my hair and I closed my eyes. He turned the tap on and I heard clinks of cups and what not. He placed his slightly wet hands on both of my cheeks ad pulled me off his shoulder, sticking his tongue out at me while I struggled to adjust to the light of the bathroom.
He had a damp towel and placed it over my face and left it there, cackling to himself and he thought he was really funny till I kicked him in the groin. "Al-ow. Alright, alright. Sheesh." He washed my face and even brushed my teeth, I sat on the counter then feeling refreshed with my legs swinging.
He came back into the small bathroom with a set of clothes and I rose a brow, looking at his smug smile. "Since I'm pampering you and I'm practically a slave to you, I might as well dress you up too, no?"
"Hmm. Should I grant you this privilege?"
He nodded furiously. "Yes, I've been a good boy all year long."
"Have you?"
"A very good boy." He quipped, giving himself a pair of thumbs up.
"Hmm." I tapped my chin with a finger and he stood there seething, getting impatient by the second.
"Please Fany?" He whispered, jutting his lips out and I shrugged.
He took it as a yes this bear. Slowly, he unbuttoned my blouse and pulled it off me, looking straight up to my eyes and gulped when he realized I wasn't wearing undergarments.
"Uh. You have pretty eyes Fany." He muttered, still keeping his eyes comically at me. "You always told me to keep my eyes up here, so I am. See, I'm a good boy."
I choked out laughing as he slipped on a tee for me. He lobbed a sweater on top for me and even a cardigan. I didn't know where he got the good fashion sense from today, but it was pretty good.
He ruffled up my hair and was about to pick me back up but I ran in between his leg and squeezed through his grabby hands, running around the cabin finding a place to hide.
"Fany!" He yelled, I heard his loud stomps and I grabbed the bed sheets wanting to either hide underneath it or create some sort of rope to trip him with. Either way, the place was too small and he stared at me huffing and puffing. "Get, your ass. Back here."
"Yeah, no. I want to stay home." I reasoned.
"Too late." He vaulted over the couch and made a full on sprint form e and I screamed, running around in circles around the dining table and when he leaped over the table I went underneath the same table, crawling between the dining chairs.
I got back up and I found him om the floor tangled and stuck between chairs and I thought I could make a break for the door but I forgot. His biceps were the size of my legs. He had a throw of a thousand gorillas, he had a kick of 700 horses.
He launched a pillow at the back of my head pretty hard and making me stumble. I turned around to see him smiling sweetly, innocently and I couldn't get up as I laughed as his predator like state. "Get away form me, sit. Stay. turn around, play dead, bear stop moving! I didn't train you like this-" He started to crawl towards me and I backed up all the way into a cabinet, my back hitting it and one of the drawers fell out. "Oof." I mumbled, rubbing the back of my head.
He stopped and blinked. "You okay?"
I nodded and picked the small wooden drawer back up, scrambling to place all the contents back into it's container but a dingy, yellow stained piece of cardboard with thin neat writing didn't let me go further.
In the left hand corner his name was written across it.
I picked it up, my fingers touching the bent corners while the loose drawer slipped on my lap. I touched the back of the beat up wood, feeling the sticky residue and noticing it on the card too.
"Was this taped on the back Taetae?" I showed him the card. He shrugged.
"Dunno." He scooted closer to me and sat beside me, his legs sticking out and leg hair poking mine.
I ran my hand through the pile of letters and small knick knacks om the floor but none of them were of importance. I flipped the card one more time, opting to sit on Taeyeon's lap. I felt his chin rest on top of my head as I read it out slowly.
Taeyeon,
My little bear, I know this drawer meant a lot to the both of us, and if you do happen to destroy it with your small fists and stumble upon this, I want you to know that I'll only be gone for awhile.
Don't be upset when I'm gone, and don't be angry at your father. You have every right to, but I don't want you two to drift apart. He needs you, so take care of your old man? Can you keep this promise for me?
Be good for me, I want to see your smile because you rarely do. I'm sorry I had to leave so early my bear, but there's nothing that I can do about it. I love you! ^-^
P.S. Go to the apple tree and dig up the spot you used to pull clumps of grass from, I bet you the tree's trunk is bald now.
Love,
Mom
He sighed, his hands loosely laying against my legs and I turned around to face him. Poor guy, he had tears pooing in his eyes and I wiped them away despite his head being hung so low.
"Are you okay?"
He shook his head. His hand went up to touch the corner of the drawer, stroking the side and peeling the chipped paint off. "I built this with mom before she passed away, she said I needed a drawer but she couldn't afford one so she built it for me." He took a deep breath before continuing.
"This cabin . . was ours. It was our home, this used to be my home for a good couple of years." Taeyeon's voice started to become even more shaky. I hugged him, knowing maybe that's probably the best way to comfort him.
"Taetae, she calls you little bear too, and told you to be good like how I always tell you." A pure coincidence?
"That's why every time you say that I can't help but feel so sad and all like . . weird because mom always said that to me and I don't know how to feel when it comes from you. I don't want to disappoint you and when I do i feel like I'm disappointing her too."
"Is that a bad thing?" I asked quietly, sitting back up to ruffle his hair just because.
"No! No no of course not, it's just makes me think about her. It's not bad! Trust me."
I laughed and nodded. "Okay, okay."
He sighed, his genuine smile wearing off. "If I had just walked into her room . . " He mumbled, burying his face into my shoulder. "If I just . . fucking if I had just stayed by her side when she was passing away in her room then she would've told me about this."
"You didn't?"
He shook his head. "I watched my mother become crowded by literally everyone on the face of earth. I was outside sitting on the chair because I was too afraid to go in. She called me to come in the room so she could say one last thing to me but I shook my head and sat there looking at my mother through the window as she took her last breath."
He swallowed hard and shut his eyes. "She just wanted to smile one more to me and touch me . . I felt so bad." He continued, I patted his leg and kissed his cheek.
"You were a tiny boy, it's not your fault."
"But at that age of like 8 or something I should've known better. I did know but I was so scared, I didn't know what death was. I didn't know someone could pass away."
The mood was too somber for our little trip here today, so I pulled him up. "We can make it up to her now, let's go find the apple tree Taetae."
"R-Right now?"He sniffled just a bit and I threw a tissue at him, like he used to do to me when he wanted to lighten the mood up.
"Yeah, why not?"
He broke out into a small tiny sad small but I saw it and it was good enough for me. He turned around and I hopped onto his back, feeling his smooth skin under my fingertips. The small cabin was warm throughout the entire space and every crevice.
He squatted down and wore his shoes before slipping on mine, his hands never left his back as he kept supporting me in my little piggy back ride. I love how he didn't question the decision of going out to find the place his mom asked him to go so long ago, we just went and did what we liked.
He had a hand n the doorknob, and stopped. "I learned my lesson already Fany, I'm not going to run away when it gets too hard. I already did that once and I have so many damn regrets. That'll be the last, okay? I promise." He said it while staring fiercely at the doorknob, he gulped and started to fidget when I said nothing.
I patted his head and stuck my pinky finger out, waiting for him to curl it with mine. He reached up and I heard that sigh he breathed out. With his little chubby big finger he hooked it with my small slender one, promising.
He opened the door and blew out the candle by the hall table, shutting it securely and stepping out onto the open. A little chilly for the morning as I instinctively snuggled closer to Taeyeon's shoulder. "She would've loved you. For someone who can be so caring to me like my mom had been to myself, she'd adore you. Miyoungie."
I smiled, lips tugging up against his warm skin. You always needed a little loving, my bear.
In the sea of multiple twins of maple trees, I spotted the one crooked apple tree dotted with red fruit. I patted Taeyeon's back and he turned his head around and nodded.
I held the letter gently in my hand because I didn't want to crumple up such a sentimental letter that Taeyeon should've known about years ago. Maybe it could've gave him closure, made him feel a bit better.
When I started to slid off his back I realized his arm were no longer supporting me, so I let myself get off. my feet touching the floor. My hold on his bicep never seized as he walked around the big tree trunk in a circle. I pulled him to a halt and he almost tripped, glaring at me when our eyes met.
"I found it you dumbo." I pointed at the seriously bald patch of dirt. It was missing . . a health patch of green grass. I figured after all these years he stripped it clean so bad that it never grew back.
He started laughing before plunking the shovel into the ground, shoving it deep into the earth but it didn't even take 1 stroke for us to hear the big clunk. He knelt down and started to dig on the surface.
I wasn't looking because a leaf had fallen on top of my head, and when I looked up instinctively and a stupid apple fell right on my nose and rebounded on top of Tae's head.
"Ow." "Owie." We both said in somewhat of a unison. I kicked the apple away and watched it roll down the hill while I cupped my throbbing nose. What the hell.
"Fany . . " He mumbled, I was still frowning but I knelt down hearing my voice before locking my eyes on the beat up wooden box. I thought it would've taken us an hour to dig, what if it wasn't there anymore? But it was.
He pulled on the metal padlock and couldn't seem to get it off, so he used the shovel as leverage to pry it off but it didn't work. I pushed him aside and he fell on his ass, grumbling as I took a large stone that could fit in my palm and started bashing he lock with it like a barbarian. Talk about the caveman era.
"Fany! No! Be careful! You're going to hurt yourself or hurt the box, and there's no way you're going to get that open if I can't! You hit like a flower-"
"Ta-da!" I held the broken lock in my fingers and his jaw dropped.
"I'm never questioning you ever again." He muttered, taking the lock and throwing it far into the patch of overgrown shrubs.
He squatted back down beside me and held the box, he opened it gently but before he did he pushed me and I fell flat on my ass. "Payback, and I want to see this myself before I show you. It could be something embarrassing."
I got back up and started walking around him in circles excited. "Baby photos?!"
"Honestly, it's a very motherly thing to do. I think it might be."
"I want to see! I want to see! Taetae!" I jumped around him and he sighed.
"Okay! Wait! Stay a foot away from me and close your pretty eyes woman, I have to inspect this first. For all we know it could be a giant stink bomb." He hid the wooden chest into his arms and swatted my hands away, making me sit far away.
"Your mom wouldn't do that."
"You can never be too sure Fany! Gosh!" He turned around and opened it before turning back to me with wide eyes. "Holy shit."
"What?! What!"
He couldn't say anything and I ran to him, but he closed the box and let me tackle his back. "Taetae!" I whined.
"Holy shit Fany."
"Is it baby photos?!"
He didn't say anything but seemed more freaked out by the second.
"Fany, I don't want to show you yet? If that's okay with you? I'm not comfortable, at least not now but I'll for sure show you later." He scratched the back of his head and smiled st me apologetically.
"Oh, okay." Obviously curiosity was killing me but he never asked such thing of me before so I didn't question it.
He held the box close to him and jumped up to pick the fruit off a tree, willing it on his shirt before laying down flat in the middle of the field.
I ran to him, sitting on him and he held the fruit up. "A pretty fruit, for a pretty lady." I was about to grab it but he put it in his mouth and took a bite out of it. He started munching on it obnoxiously and honestly, chivalry is dead. "I'm the pretty lady." He said through his eating.
"What a gentleman." I rolled my eyes and he shrugged not having a single care.
My eyes averted to the wooden box beside him that he cradled, but nonetheless he still had his other hand on my back.
"Wanna see a magic trick Fany?"
"Magic trick?"
He whistled a weird tune, it sounded like a fire alarm. Strangely, but he sat up and I held onto his shoulder, looking where he was looking.
The shrubs near us started to shake and then a fluffy tail popped out and i grabbed Taeyeon's hand. "Taeyeon. . If this is some sort of joke I'm going to-"
"Ricky!" He yelled, throwing the apple core at him.
The raccoon slowly crept out, and picked the apple core up, nibbling on it and I frowned. "Uh, ew? He's a little chubby."
"Don't say that about Ricky Raccoon! He's insecure!" I pinched Taeyeon's nose and made him sit up.
He had this smug smile on his face and I got off him not knowing what he wanted to do, I've experienced it way too much to know what that smile meant.
"Ricky Raccoon! Attack!" He roared out in a battle cry and I heard him run towards me, a quick look behind me and I saw the Raccoon sprint towards me too and I screamed, running back to the cabin.
"What are you, a Raccoon whisperer? When did you learn to take a fucking pet Raccoon?!" I yelled out of breath.
"It's a magic trick, I summon him whenever I Please." He hollered back and I knew he was catching up.
When I got to the cabin I slammed the door shut and I heard him thump against the door, the cabin shook and I thought it would fall over and break into a million pieces by the force of my fat bear.
"Ricky Raccoon, your duties are over for the day. Good work soldier!" He talks in that typical sergeant voice and I cracked opened the door to see him smile.
"Hi, pizza delivery for, Ms Hwang?" He tilts his head and says in a sing song voice.
"I didn't order pizza, and you don't even have pizza."
"Well, Fany. Are you craving pizza? Because I'll give you a pizz-a this dick." He cackles and snorts, clapping and patting himself on the back for that.
"You deserve to sleep outside for that dirty awful joke of yours." I closed the door and settled in the sofa, watching as he waited outside and tapped on all the windows.
It was funny since I had full vision of every window and door he popped up to every single one of them.
"Fany! I'm sorry! I know this is cheesy. . . but you're saucy!"
I choked. Oh my god he's bad. "Hmm, I should create a tinder profile." I said loudly, to no one.
"Hey! What?! No! Fany!"
I opened a window in the back and started walking in the bathroom. It wasn't long till he figured out which window was opened and made a grand entrance.
"There's no reception here so don't you even care think about setting up a tinder profile! You're mine Fany!" He shouted in the hall, his voice echoing.
I scoffed and turned the tap on, squeezing in an absurd amount of bubbles before taking off my clothes and slipping in.
He came to a screeching halt when he saw me neck deep in bubbles and stood there gawking.
"Oh."
I sat in the bathtub with bubbles up to my chin, a bit restless than relaxed. I splashed water at him and he did a little dance.
I had that feeling of wanting to be close to Tae. I didn't want to be far from him, not anymore. I have a longing for him and it's making me slightly anxious.
He left and came in with a wine bottle in hand and 2 glasses, smiling sweetly as he sat on the edge and placing it on the space beside me.
"Happy?"
I shook my head.
"What's wrong?"
"Can I tell you honestly?"
He blinked and nodded.
"I missed you." I whispered.
He took his glasses off and placed them on the counter. His back was turned to me and I watched as he started to strip.
He went in the water and slid behind me, his warm front pressing against my back and I sighed as I relaxed in his hold.
"Close enough?"
"I feel safe." I said honestly, holding his arm around my tummy. In the most intimate moments, I'd lend all of me to him for awhile.
I trusted him, vulnerable or not I still trusted him.
He hummed and wrapped his arm around my waist, the water moving at the motion.
I watched as he stretched his leg, poking his toes up and out of the sea of bubbles. "Look at my feetsies. They look like they're coated with whipped cream." He joked, wiggling his toes.
I giggled and scratched his chin, leaning against his neck.
I stopped laughing when I realized, it's been forever since he held me like this. "Taeyeon, what if they never let you see me again?"
"Then I'd find a way to let myself see you."
"If I never let you see me again?"
"Then I'd find a way to make you let me."
I rubbed his arm with my thumb, all that shitty feelings starting to rush back in despite trying to suppress it for two days.
"I almost ran away forever from you Taeyeon."
"I know, I could feel myself losing you." He rested his chin on my shoulder, kissing me there but I scootched slightly away from him in the small tub.
I know he must've been slightly hurt from the way I moved away from him, but it wasn't meant to be like that. I turned around and cupped his cheek, running my finger along his jawline. "I-I'm so sorry I made you feel that way." I whispered. His grip on my waist tightened and the sound of the water waved back and forth in the tub.
He shook his head and pulled me closer, our wet skins touching till we were centimetres apart. Our lips touched when he opened his mouth to say something, but he shook his head once more forgetting the words before kissing me.
Whatever I was starting to feel that was going to upset me went away. I only knew him right now because he was here with me at this moment.
I loved this about him. How he whisks me away in an instant, my worries could be pushed and shoved all the way in a corner and in the room I'd only feel him, touch him and see him. He made his presence so big that it always beaten down the crappy thoughts as he filled it with him.
"Don't . . Fany, don't think about it." He whispered, lips still lingering on mine. I nodded slightly and he cupped both of my cheeks, his soft pair dancing with mine.
Underneath all the bubbles, my hand was clasped with his. Submerged completely underwater, I held his tightly, never letting go as he showed me love.
Wrapped in a silk night robe and holding a cup of tea in my hands, I watched as he ran around the place cleaning it up and getting it ready for us to sleep.
He shoved the bed all the way across the living room, making the mattress lien up with the long window sill. He plopped down all the bed sheets and pillows, kicking things aside as he stood in the middle of it bouncing on it slightly.
"Come on little nugget, lets go find a penis looking thing in the solar system in Taeyeon's ghetto star gazing station."
I walked quietly to him and laid down, he draped a thin blanket over us and rested with his hands behind his head. I checked once more, patting his curled bicep before resting my head lightly on it, my leg tangling with his.
"Mm, you smell good Fany."
I hummed, tracing shapes along his bare torso, feeling the contours of his abs.
"Look, do you see it? To the right. You see that? It's a fucking penis looking thing. Can you believe, in the millions of stars up in the sky, mother nature formed a dick looking thing?"
"No one notices that but you Taetae. It's weird, stop."
"Okay but-"
"Look." I pointed to the left of him a bit, patting his stomach in urgent. "It's the Great Bear constellation. That's you."
"It looks like a fucking deformed toothpick, that looks nothing like a bear and I refuse to look at it."
"Sigh."
He chuckled and gave me a cheeky kiss on the cheek, cuddling close to my neck obnoxiously. "I like you, you smell nice."
"I like you too."
"How much is like Fany, because do you remember when we went to Las Vegas and I made you sit on the roof of the car as I professed my love for you."
"Hm, enlighten me Taetae." I scratched his chin and he snorted, rolling on top of me.
"You asked me how many stars are up there. I told you more than one. You looked like you were going to kill me for the answer, but anyways I went on and told you that that it was endless; there were an endless amount of stars just like my love for you."
I pinched his nose tightly, scrunching up my face from his sappiness. Now that I think about it, he was pretty romantic.
"That's still disgusting till this day."
"You never said it back, and I even told you I loved you."
"Okay but didn't you think it was too fast?"
"That's what Hyung said . . " He trailed off and in that moment he had a hint of sadness but he shook it off and smiled shyly. "But I told myself that if I ant you, I was going to get you. Even if that means professing my large amounts of love to you early in the relationship. You're here now . . so I think I won in the end." He said with a shit eating grin and I covered is face with m hand, pushing him away.
He fell back on the bed and sighed happily.
"I love you Taetae." I said i the warm air, knowing that he'll hear it.
"You do?" He asked all surprised.
I slapped his chest. "You're questioning that now?"
"No, just making sure. I didn't run through hell just to get you Fany. I'm going to ask you every day, to remind myself that yes, you love me and I don't need to worry about losing you because you're mine. Claimed, marked. Taeyeon's." He said proudly and even thumped his chest.
I shook my head and curled up next to him, running my hand along his chest.
You're mine too.
He kept turning his head every once in awhile to check up on me, but there was nothing to check. I wasn't looking at the stars, I wasn't looking at the weird gnome carving staring across from us. I kept my eyes at him, admiring his handsome self.
I noticed that beat up wooden box nestled on a small stool beside the mattress. I have a feeling he'll carry it with him everywhere he'll go. Whatever it was inside, it meant a lot to him. I wondered what it was, but I wasn't going to pry. Space, I'll give him space.
My head slightly hurt. Energy from me was drained, and something about taking a shower and then laying in bed with the one you love made it so incredibly easy to fall asleep.
I closed my eyes and I felt him rub my temples slowly, massaging them in a circular way to the point where I just couldn't figure out why that almost made me cry.
"Taetae?" I mumbled, feeling him pat my cheek.
"Go to sleep, you have a headache. I'll take care of you. Your satisfaction is my guarantee or your money back."
He knew, of course he knew. My lips quivered and I opened my yes to meet his gentle ones. I couldn't hold it anymore.
I turned around suddenly and kissed him, he was startled and I felt his hand pushing me slightly but I didn't let up. My lips were pressed against his and then he followed, our lips moving together.
"Taeyeon . . . I'm so sure you're the one." I mumbled, still kissing him in such eagerness. I don't know what came over me but.
"W-What?" He pulled back breathless, scratching the side of his head in confusion.
"Don't leave me, don't ever leave me. Stay with me, as close as you possibly can." I said with tears in my eyes as I wiped them them away with the back of my hand.
"Hey . ." His face started to show worry, and he gently pried my hands off my face. "Don't cry . . what's wrong?"
I smiled through my emotional moment. I was so happy, I found what I was looking for. Through him, he gave me love.
A simple gesture just . . set it off and I felt so light.
"I-I want to be with you . . for as long as I can Taetae. You're the one. I'm so sure of it, I feel so anxious. I think I know how you feel now when you waited for me to say that I loved you."
He slipped something in my hand and I glanced down, my head eating against his shoulder as I choked out more tears.
"Day 89, babycakes." He said with a chuckle, arms cradling me as he got into a more comfortable spot in bed. I placed the blue paper wrapped coin on top of the wooden chest his mother told him to find.
He soothed me, patting my back just letting me cry it out. "There there you big baby, I know I'm great but you don't have to spill an entire ocean on my back."
I smiled, lips curled up against that now wet skin. "Stupid." I muttered.
A funny bear, a lovable bear. Sign me up, I want it all.